#reposted from a fb cringe group

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NAME: Laura

PRONOUNS: she/they

PREFERENCE  OF  COMMUNICATION: okay literally what shelley said. i don’t actually hate tumblr ims and find them easier in a lot of ways. i’m not opposed to discord by any means and will gladly communicate there, but i also get overwhelmed by messages/notifications and then ignore and get anxious about time passing gddsigid. 

NAME  OF  MUSE(S): i’m also gonna copy shelley here too i think. i have too many muses to list so i’ll put most active / ones i want to write more: layla keating, bellamy blake, ryan edwards, christian ozera, logan king, nima rahimi, eden wing, june iparis, jake jagielski, alex karev

EXPERIENCE / HOW LONG: i don’t even know. 2012? 2013? something like that. only ever done on tumblr. i’ve had this blog since 2015

BEST  EXPERIENCE: before i joined indie, i was a part of a group rp where i picked up my oc ryan and i’ve been writing him ever since. but idk it was one of those groups where there was a group of really close people that shared all our info bc we were teens and didn’t think of it oishgd. you know how chatzy is. idk i was 15-16 at the time and i, overall, felt safe even if i look back on it and cringe bc of some of the stuff that i did as u do when you look back and see you were a child child. anyway i still have some of these people on fb and it was through one of those people that i met my bestie @terrifyingstories so overall my raison d’etre. outside of that, tiffany and i have spent the last 7 years building our post va group where we built this entire verse that is dedicated to a bunch of our muses and is ever growing and developing and it’s just Everything. my fave thing about rp is having that too. and having a multi in general. let’s just throw a bunch of our muses into their own friendships. 

RP  PET  PEEVES: idk probably like. seeing people complain about not getting interactions ://// in general negativity but this just always makes me feel super guilty / guilt tripped. vagueing also stresses me out, including vagueing about vagueing. 

MUSE  PREFERENCES  FOR  ANGST / FLUFF / SMUT: i don’t write smut and will never write smut. i’ve been leaning into fluff lately bc i think we all need more joy, but i’m at my core an angst person. but ! like a lot of people say, i need there to be a reason. there needs to be conversations about the angst and healing from it. because at the end of the day that is my vibe : healing. i want every hurt comfort thread. i want us to have our muses healing and talking about their deep hurt. it fills me with so much muse and joy and umph. 

PLOTS  OR  MEMES: okay i’ve always said memes, and i do maintain that. i also think that like plotting in general just SOUNDS really intense and stressful so thinking about plotting stresses me out and overwhelms me and i go poof. getting asked questions about directions etc stresses me out like i just wanna see where we go u know diosgd. with that said, i do love plotting dynamics!!! that’s one of my fave things. i do find that like. knowing about characters makes everything so much easier. it’s hard for me to write a meme if i don’t have an idea of how these characters will interact / WHO the character is. i’ve never been closed off to chars / fandoms i don’t know but until i know someone, i’ll probably stick to ones i do until i know info about the ones that i don’t. i just need some info!! then i can build dynamics and go from there. 

LONG  OR  SHORT  REPLIES: i’m a long writer. i am. everyone should know this when tiff and i get going we have 20+ paragraphs. i can’t do dialogue only unless i am REALLY comfortable with the muse : see, christian ozera and ryan edwards as the only ones i could. but even then it doesn’t really...give me anything? so i don’t really like it. i’m def a nitty gritty multi-para person that then gets stressed out by it so. i’m trying to get better at 1-2 paragraphs. i’m a work in progress. 

BEST  TIME  TO  WRITE: this fluctuates all the time i don’t even know. let’s just say i haven’t written the past few days despite having muse bc it was 4-6 in the morning and i was trying to sleep. but late at night is usually my vibe so that makes total sense. i would like to try and write throughout the day but it’s just not realistic. idk!!  

ARE  YOU  LIKE  YOUR  MUSE(S): hm. i do have a very specific type but idk? there’s definitely aspects of me in most of my muses, but i’m also trying to branch out into muses that are nothing like me to really test the boundaries of my writing capabilities. i would say like. i do flock to the super smart muses, and that’s one of my defining traits. i also like muses that have deep insecurities about their worth ( especially outside of what they can do for people / their intelligence ) so *peace sign emoji* i’m also very sarcastic and witty, though i need something to spark it which makes writing wit difficult but i do tend to pick up sarcastic characters too. so i would say yeah i def share qualities with my muses. 

tagged by: @divienity loml​

tagging: i don’t know who hasn’t done this / been tagged yet so u if u are reading it. 

#i also frequently dream myself into the chosen one / magical powers position #so u know predictable #me telling tiffany about my dreams #tiffany: when u gonna write a book you're never allowed to say you aren't creative i knew something wild was coming #welcome to the inner workings of my mind.

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this is so funny im about to explode

#reposted from a fb cringe group #mine #real or not i knw some ppl unironically shared #bioshock #current events

[canimal]

There is a real person behind every single story you read.

Maybe the world has gotten colder and more impersonal or the pandemic has made everyone suspicious of everyone and see other people as enemies. Or it could be the On-Demand, Netflix-binging consumption that’s made even kind people turn selfish in their demands for more content. But Fandom isn’t as much fun as it used to be.

I’m old enough to remember when this was a place to feel safe to share your creations with other fans who were just as excited to read them. It was a community, a place you could feel like you belonged when the real world got hard. For many of us, it was an escape.

I miss those days. Am I the only one who feels like it’s all changed?

2018 was the HARDEST year of my entire life. Sorry, 2020 and 2021, y’all have NOTHING on 2018, at least in my personal experience. Every single day was a struggle to put one foot in front of the other. I can’t tell you how many times I HAD to write just to give me something to keep my mind occupied. Fandom was my escape. Even after I got caught up in some ridiculous nastiness more than once when the petty drama that always seems to follow a group of any people existing in the same space couldn’t avoid me, I had a place I could find joy and safety and a sense of belonging.

It’s not something I like to talk about (or even remember) but my year of shit bled into the early half of 2019 too. At my absolute lowest point of my entire life, literally and not hyperbolically, on the edge of a full emotional nervous breakdown, I was lost and struggling for something to hold on to to keep my head above water. Perhaps I put too much hope and faith in Fandom that should have been directed elsewhere more capable of handling it.

One hateful comment I wasn’t expecting pushed me over the edge. It was embarrassing. Now I can look back cringing with red cheeks and think, “Wow, that was an overreaction, dumbass”, but at the time I just wanted to run far away. An ordinary day when I wasn’t so fragile, I could’ve just rolled my eyes and moved on. But I wanted OUT. I wanted to run away from Fandom, forget it ever existed, and live far, far away from it.

I deleted all of my stories. Almost immediately I knew I made a mistake, but my stubborn nature made me dig in my heels and say “Fuck it. I want to leave. I want to move on with my life.” That was the only way it seemed possible at the time.

I didn’t expect the bombardment of messages I received after that over the next 24 hours. Almost entirely from people I’d never heard from before or spoken to, they were requests for me to send them PDFs of my stories or demands that I repost them because they were in the middle of reading them. A few audacious souls even asked if they could “adopt” my WIPs and finish them for me the way they wanted to finish them. Some messages were from kind readers expressing concerns about me and my well-being, but the overwhelmingly majority of them were from strangers demanding more, more, MORE!

It made me feel reduced to nothing but a machine whose sole purpose was to churn out more content for ungrateful, spoiled, selfish brats to consume more stories for which they would never even offer a simple “thank you” in return. All of the late nights I stayed up forgoing the sleep I loved (and needed) to finish another chapter were for nothing. The hours and hours I could’ve spent with my family and friends instead of in front of my computer were for nothing. It was all for nothing.

Maybe a day passed before I recovered all of the stories because I couldn’t imagine going through another minute of my FFN inbox, my Tumblr Asks, and my FB Messenger blowing up with messages from strangers demanding my stories. It was too much. All I wanted was to be left alone. Clearly that wasn’t the way to go about it.

Then when I recovered the stories, MORE messages came through except they were decidedly less friendly than “Yo, The Minister’s Secret is gone. Send me a pdf. I was in the middle of it.” These messages were full of vitriol about what a disgusting human being I was. One Ask I remember responding to (still cringing when I think about it - both the content of the ask and my response) accused me of doing it all for attention and I should be ashamed of myself. (I didn’t respond kindly which I’m still a little embarrassed by, but I still stand by most of what I said… barring most of the expletives.) Most of the Asks were deleted without comment, but wow, I still occasionally get a doozy!

I lost a lot of readers after that. Even more potential readers, I’m sure. It’s something I regret. It makes me sad sometimes to think about someone I know who won’t even talk to me now because of that particular incident. I know there are others who didn’t appreciate my horribly embarrassing moment of weakness. I wish I could take that whole incident back, but sadly, there’s no “Undo” button in life.

My reputation, which in some corners of the fandom already wasn’t very good, suffered a lot. I get it. I really do. Of course I understand actions have consequences. There were plenty of other less drastic and harmful decisions I could’ve made in that moment. I wasn’t thinking clearly and wish I could’ve just stepped away from my keyboard for a few days.

I’ve never wanted to talk about this because I’m still embarrassed even 2 1/2 years later. A lot of changes have gone on in my life since then that have made me a more emotionally stable, happy human being that I wish I could’ve been back then.

My whole point on writing this rambling post is because I want to remind everyone that even if the Fandom has changed, the people haven’t. There’s a human being behind every story, every fanart, every fan blog, every review - a human being with their own struggles and weaknesses and crises. We can’t afford to forget that.

You literally don’t know if your one word of encouragement is what is helping a person who is struggling take the next step forward or if your callous rudeness or indifference is the last straw for another.

The world is mean and nasty, but that doesn’t mean we have to be too. Fandom is an escape.

#be kind always #ramblings #I didn’t want to talk about this but maybe I should #be kind to creators #fandom is supposed to be fun #we are all in this together

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TBH, it makes me cringe a little bit inside every single time someone tells me their glutes aren't firing. #Repost @themovementmaestro ・・・ DM #395: Unless your leg has been amputated or your spinal cord has been severed...your glutes ARE firing. They might be underperforming, but I assure you, they are firing. --- I'm all about the importance of word choice, and making certain not to create thought viruses. When we tell our clients/patients that something isn't firing, they literally think that there is zero contraction going on at that tissue and that outside of 🦄 dust or perhaps jumpstarting it with a car, ain't nothing going to get it "firing" again. --- Just because you can't feel something contracting doesn't mean it's not firing. 🤔 What we should be telling these folks is that those tissues are underperforming as it relates to that movement pattern. This means that something else has to pick up the slack, and is typically what leads to hypertrophy of those other areas despite our efforts to grow the 🍑 or our calves, or in some cases, the onset of pain. --- So, what to do about it? Pick the most dysfunctional movement pattern that involves that "muscle" that isn't "firing", figure out what "muscles" are working instead, change the position so the nervous system feels safe, use some RockTape if needed to help with tactile neurosensory cuing, and have that person MOVE in a way that targets the underperforming group and decreases the likelihood of compensation by the over-performing group. --- From there it's all about appropriate progressions, repetition, and TIME! If you don't "feel" your glutes when you squat, the answer isn't to do more squats. Assess, don't guess, then regress to progress. --- Daily Maestroisms dropping every night at 7pm-ish PST. Get yours. Like it? Repost it. Don't understand it? Hit me up and get #Maestrofied. —————————————————————— Be sure to follow The Movement Maestro on FB, Instagram, Twitter, and YouTube for all things #movement and #mobility related. Come move with the Maestro. http://ift.tt/2rYgfj0

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