i hate you diet culture i hate you body competitions i hate you extreme workout culture i hate you body shaming i hate you unhealthy expectations for how bodies should look i hate you culture that promotes starving i hate you unrealistic body images i h
what if u have struggled with depression and suicidal ideation ur whole life and have tried to kill urself multiple times but mcr said “ur not in this alone” and “u must fix ur heart”
People on twt saying Edge/Adam “downgraded” is so frustrating. Look at the amazing talent in this company, the literal legends they sign, the matches they have, the storytelling in every feud, and tell me it’s a downgrade. Does AEW do as good as WWE in sales and ratings? No, but they put so much into every single show. Y’all so quick to jump on the hating AEW train, but never give the product a chance.
Anyway I’m happy for Adam and I hope he has the best fucking time in AEW.
Trans healthcare in this country is a fucking joke.
You know. I had a meeting with a doctor to start GHAT back in October 18th.
It’s been about a month since then and I still haven’t started because
1.) my insurance company didn’t approve the first prescription
2.) After they didn’t approve of it, my doctor had to change it to the one that my insurance company did cover. (She did that no problem.)
3.) Once she did that, my insurance company gave the okay, and you’d think that would be enough but, no wait! There’s more.
Turns out the pharmacy has to preorder the medication, and when they tried to, it was on back order until January :D
And when I called to ask what the fuck was going on (because, mind you, their phone lines are shit and you can’t understand a god damn thing people are saying on the phone) they told me that the medication WASNT APPROVED. EVEN THOUGH SOMEONE ELSE SAID IT WAS AND IT WAS ON BACK ORDER?
I’m so confused.
The woman on the phone who left me the message said I had the option of going to a difference pharmacy to see if they have my medication in stock, and while I don’t fault her for the suggestion, the reason why I use them as my pharmacy is because I am agoraphobic.
If it were as simple as leaving my town to find a better pharmacy, i would do it in a heartbeat. But alas, that’s not how my brain works.
I just want to get my hormones man. God damn. Fuck people who made testosterone a schedule III drug. And fuck people who made it difficult for Medicaid users to get medication in the first place.
This country really hates the low-income disabled queer community and it fucking shows.
My keyboard has broken down on me despite only being with me for a few months.... this is what happens when you're not so sure of the keyboard you've bought.
Prompts and fics will be put on a hold until I have the money to properly replace my keyboard with a durable yet decent one that can last for years.
First day of vacation and I’m called on Teams and on my personal # because of tech issues happening onsite.
I know I don’t have to answer but I also don’t want to return to a chaotic mess next week. This is why I believe everyone should have general knowledge in navigating both Windows and MacOS
These Itoshi brothers are going to be my end one day.
Every time I'm like, "Yay, I made a sensible theory. I'll stick to it now," these two always whack me out of nowhere. It's like they love to go, "🗣️📢 HELL NAH❗HE-HE-HELL NAH❗"
Anyway, so I was re-reading Rin's part in the LN, and I realised something:
So, after Sae left for Spain, there was a visible decline in the performance of both Rin and their Soccer Youth Club. Rin says it's because he could see the goal path and stuffs, BUT his teammates couldn't and the only person who could match his vision was, of course, Sae.
That's why Rin had to change his playstyle to match that of the Team's. He began passing instead of waiting for a pass and all. Things starts to get better, and the whole team starts to get their glory days back.
There was a line in the LN which goes something like, "The teammates thought they were playing good, but they were actually just playing in strings of Rin's. Rin was controlling everything."
He then goes, "This is tough and Nii-chan was doing this all along? Nii-chan was holding back. That's why he chose to go to Spain, so he can play the way he wants."
See.
THIS
is exactly where my brain started to churn.
So, Sae was in that soccer club since way long, and he was legit considered as the pillar of it or something. However, all these years, he was, in fact, holding back himself and when he got to go to Spain, he thought like, "Yes! Finally! I can show the world what I got," but sadly, he found out he just wasn't it.
Maybe it could be because he played UNLIKE his real self for so long that he forgot himself.
OR
He just wasn't that good as he thought he was. He found out that he was the Frog in the well.
HOWEVER.
He still had Rin back home, and he trusted him because he knew about his younger brother's true potential or impulses.
So time passed and the day of the U-15 Championship Finals came.
Reminder: Sae was scouted by Real Madrid/Re Al when he won in the U-15 Championship alongside Rin. That's why it was really important for Rin to win that Final match too.
What I said above was a fact Sae, probably, knew too. That's why he came a whole day AHEAD of his schedule to watch the younger Itoshi play with his own eyes (Rin had pointed out that Sae was supposed to come a day after).
But, surprisingly, what Sae saw was what he feared— he saw Rin play the way he himself used to. He was probably like, "I sacrificed everything for you and you became exactly what I sacrificed myself for you to NOT be."
Reminder: Rin gets into his real flow state/becomes berserk during the LAST three minutes of the whole game.
Which gives us two possibilities:
Firstly, Sae just gets up and leave without seeing Rin's berserk mode. After which he comes back to confront him once the match is over.
Secondly, Sae stayed the whole match and saw Rin's berserk mode and was somewhat relieved to know that the younger Itoshi hadn't completely lost his true self. After which the confrontation proceeds.
I don't want to say much about their reunion in this post, but I do want to add another perspective to why Sae challenged Rin for a 1V1:
Sae, probably, had thought that, "I couldn't beat the world and if you can't even beat me, then you are nothing in this world."
That's it, I guess.
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I really wish for a Itoshi brothers spin-off because it's hinted that they had a big shared room, so I really want to see how everything is like after Sae returns from Spain.
i need to fucking kill myself everything about my life is so miserable and frustrating and i don’t even want to be living it it’s my fucking family that won’t let me die
I’m a big fan of Sammy and I always have been since I first saw him wearing a panda head and thought “yep that’s the one.” And like .. good on him for finding someone to be in a relationship with and be happy with. But it honestly makes me sad that he and Tay being petty basically ruined everything he had built up for himself in his career. He used to get a big fucking pop and now everyone is annoyed with him (including myself)
Like .. it just feels really high school to me. Be together, date, do your thing, but could Sammy and Tay go back to being their own people?
Origami jumping spiders. I made them for Halloween to decorate my door at work. The plan being to hang them from strings.
Don't know if I want to anymore though since someone stole the one I have had on my door for 3-4 months. If they had asked I would have gladly given one of the other ones I made, but that was my first and it was on slightly more expensive paper. I still have some but it will turn out better than before if I remake it.