i literally just proved to myself that i finally understand non-dualism. back when i didn’t understand it well i would always be aware of abt my “hard circumstances” (quotations bc they’re not real) and panic/have intrusive thoughts when stuff “happened”, and think “when is it gonna materialize” and stuff like that.
but just a few minutes ago i found out abt a new “circumstance” that would have made me panic and doubt everything if it had happened even yesterday
just before i found out abt this new “circumstance” i read @msperfect777 ‘s “understanding non-dualism” series which helped me a lot with truly grasping what i rly am
anyways when i found out abt the thing just now, i didn’t panic at all. i didn’t react to the “3d”. i didn’t rly even think any thoughts. rather, i just KNEW that it wasn’t real. i knew that consciousness (aka me) is the only thing that exists so the “3d” doesn’t even matter, bc i only care abt imagination. and in imagination, i already “have” my “desires”.
like i said, this didn’t even come in the form of a thought. i was simply aware of it. i did it w/o having a limiting/negative thought beforehand that i needed to fight with a new thought. bc i was AWARE of it w/o needing to think.
a question i had abt non-dualism after reading ms. perfect’s posts was “how can i tell myself not to worry abt the nonexistent “physical world” w/o thinking?” bc i don’t have much experience with being conscious of my consciousness and i have yet to observe how a lot of it works, and i mean, i think i just answered my own question. when u truly understand non-dualism, YOU DON’T HAVE TO CONVINCE YOURSELF OF ANYTHING. YOU DON’T HAVE TO THINK IT TO BELIEVE IT. “convincing urself” and “thinking” r not real, and when u start to realize what u actually r, u just know instinctually that u don’t have to worry.
i also have always been kinda confused abt the “there is nothing to manifest” part, bc i didn’t think fulfilling myself in imagination would be effective since constant reminders of my “3d” were all around me and would distract me/knock me down. but i get it now! when u truly understand what u rly r, YOU DON’T EVEN CARE ABT THE “PHYSICAL WORLD” BC YOU TRULY SEE HOW IT IS NOT REAL!! so ur “circumstances” DON’T EVEN MATTER to u, that’s how u can fulfill urself in imagination w/o getting distracted by the “3d”!
thank u sm @msperfect777 , u rly helped me and i’m so grateful for u aaaaaa <3
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omg hi!!! i love ur writing and ur always so detailed with emotions and reactions when u write!! that’s why i have a req for u i rly hope u accept it!!
could i please request a seungkwan drabble!! just a very domestic fluffy one like the two of u waking up to each other and he’s watching u as u sleep, tracing ur face just things like that!! hehe
content: bf!seungkwan, established relationship, fluff, etc.
wc: 387
a/n: hii thank u so much <33 this was such a soft premise it was so cute to write :c
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it was in moments like these that seungkwan truly felt no cares in the world.
there was nothing but you and him. nothing could disturb nor interrupt the peacefulness he felt in this moment. nothing compared to how happy he felt in watching you at your most relqxed state (well, maybe holding you in his arms as you slept was a big contender).
seungkwan liked to keep this to himself, but he had begun a new routine as of late.
after figuring out your sleeping schedule, he had made it a goal to train his body into waking up a few minutes before you got up and started your day. it had taken much effort to wake up without any incentive other than his instinctive need to see you, but it seemed like his incurable addiction to you had made it possible.
and this new little routine had become a favorite of his. he would wake up, turn to look at your side of the bed and simply watch as you remained asleep. sometimes he would keep count of your breaths, while other times he would lightly trace his fingers along the soft curves of your body. his fingers would sometimes stray away from your body and trace your features, hoping to commit every ridge of your face to memory.
this would only go on for about fifteen minutes or so as he took you in and enjoyed your sight in ways he knew no one else ever would. nothing else mattered to him other than knowing how irrevocably his you were. he felt a pride that could never be abolished.
he would occasionally end up waking you up, smiling at the way you scrunched up your nose as your slumber got interrupted. but he would play none the wiser any time you questioned why he was already awake, claiming he had woken up a minute or two before you did. in most of these occasions, he would entice you into falling back asleep, sometimes falling asleep along with you, while other times staying awake to admire you once more.
this was one of the greatest joys in seungkwan's life, as it allowed time to freeze and for everything around you to cease to exist. all there was was you, him, and his irrevocable love for you.
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hellooo!! lmfao idk if its just me but am i the only one who noticed that pedri absolutely HATES the cold, or he just gets rly cold easily idk but the way he wears his puffer jacket is so cute, anyway i was hoping u could write something related to that?? love ur work btw !!!☺️
cold boy - pedri
summary: pedri visits england for the first time and realises that he was definetely not made for cold weather.
being from an island that is known for its hot temperatures, pedri cannot handle the cold that surrounds him in various areas of barcelona in winter, or anywhere that is close to a minus in the temperature. his coat would be clung to his body, begging for some sort of warmth in these freezing conditions, and this was something that didn't go unnoticed by y/n or many barça fans.
y/n thought it was absolutely adorable, the way he would shove his hands into the pockets of his coat, head and neck covered by the hood. sometimes she would fling her scarf around his neck, just so he could get that extra bit of warmth she knew his body very much needed.
currently, the two were in the uk, back in y/ns home town for a few days of the holidays. y/n was aware of how cold the temperatures usually are in england, which is why she’d made her boyfriend pack as many fluffy sweaters, puffer coats and beanies he had.
pedri was excited for the adventure, the new experience of visiting england, a place he had never been before, but most of all he was looking forward to meeting his girlfriends family once again. he knew how much they loved him, and likewise he enjoyed their presence and the positive, cheery aura her folks possessed.
what he wasn't mentally prepared for was how cold it would be. in all honesty, he thought y/n was exaggerating with the temperatures; he didn't think it would be this cold until it had smacked him right in the face. his nose and tips of his ears had instantly started to turn pink and his lips became chapped, yet he still put a smile on his face whilst greeting his girlfriend's family and laughing at their jokes of how the canarian was finding this freezing weather.
it was now the second day of the couple being in england, and pedri was slightly adjusting to the winter weather. when y/n had asked him to go down to the markets with her, he had refused as he didn't want to spend another second freezing his ass off outside.
but when she pouted and pressed a delicate kiss to his lips, he couldn't deny her anymore.
"thank you! i promise it'll be fun, its not that cold out today." y/n stated as she put on her puffer coat. just a quick look outside begged to differ but pedri huffed and put on his own coat, grabbing his gloves and his beanie before following her out the bedroom.
the two made their way downstairs and as y/n was grabbing her bag, she noticed how cute her boyfriend looked stood to the side, his hair and ears submerged into the wool of his beanie and his hands in his pockets.
she grabbed a scarf and smiled as she made her way over to him.
"here," pedri watched as she reached up and wrapped the scarf around his neck twice. she fluffed it up so he was fully covered, then kissed him on the lips. "now you won't feel as cold."
pedris heart practically leaped out of his chest at her gesture; his cheeks warmed with love and adoration for the girl infront of him, transforming his lips into a shy grin. his arms wrapped around her neck as he pulled her body closer to his so he could lay a kiss onto her lips properly, mouths slotting together and cold breaths mixing as he kissed his gratitude and love into her.
"thank you, but i think i'll still freeze to death." he whispered against her mouth once he pulled away.
y/n chuckled and pinched his side, eyes glaring up into his brown ones. "you'll be fine, stop being a baby."
pedri pouted and snuck his head into her neck. the warmth he felt, all snuggled up into her body with his arms around her waist, was unmatched - no cold could truly bother him whilst he was in his girls arms. he pressed a kiss to her neck and whined once again that he would rather stay inside.
"no, you're gonna have fun, trust me, amor. c'mon." she grabbed his hand, letting him kiss her cheek one last time before pulling him towards the front door.
she really wanted him to see her home town, the markets that she grew up going to every weekend, the views of the sunset, the lights that illuminated the night and kept the town awake, and especially the snow that made everything look like a fairytale.
pedri saw the excitement evident on her face, so his fingers tightened in her hold. he pulled her closer to his body and they both made their way down the streets and to the markets. they laughed and talked about whatever they wanted whilst the snow trickled down and the cold wind wafted around them but pedri could’ve cared less in that moment as he had his girl by his side.
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