#rn mostly carry on

[thetopichot]

Why is Yandere Finn deadass built & function like the Goblin King from Labyrinth?

Ngl, I want him to whisk me away to be his princess forever & he would even treat me a princess too.

#the cat speaks #yuurivoice #finn yuurivoice #yuurivoice finn #yandere finn #simping #im kinda tired rn & im fighting being sick rn #so im going to be silly until i get better #well i was always silly but im going to be sillier #yandere finn is hot & i want him to carry me like a princess #i want him to call me his sweet little princess #honesty princess is the only feminine term that I will accept #mostly because I like dressing up like one #like dressing up as a hime lolita or hime gyaru #i enjoy dressing up as a hime lolita & hime gyaru #harajuku fashion is fun

[henreyettah]

I should be forbidden from writing fics that take place in a school setting because im much too deep in it to take any of it lightly. Me and brother are galaxybraining a tlt college au and ive gone so far off the rails..... tell me why im out here mapping out what courses theyll all be taking. literally who gives a shit about what classes SILAS OCTAKISERON is in. why have I given the courses course codes. why am I making sure each line of education makes sense throughout the years. come on. its much too much already I need to Calm Down

#this is exactly like what happened with that carry on dance class fic I was writing #(ill come back to it some day I swear) #henrietta write something that isn't school centered challenge #<-- (im losing) #also its very deeply inspired by multiple maroon 5 songs #by multiple I mean all of them #we are not fans we just live in the countryside. its what happens #griddlehark #but also #jodybeth #and some really pathetic #harrianthe #but its one sided and is mostly Ianthe gnawing at herself about harrow #nona is there too #we worked her in sooooooooo cleverly #brother feel free to tell me to take this down if you wanna keep keeping it under wraps #im so fucking bored at the school rn because im done with all my stuff essentially #i had to speak my truth #im sorry

[soldier-poet-king]

U know when ur brain is Like That and whatever it is you have to eat is suddenly Illegal???

#the duality of fran #ughhhhh i am upset with myself #i have issues with leftovers. just generally #so mostly i only ever cool things i can tolerate as leftover #i have the last batch of that pumpkin soup #that i do NOT want to eat and its all gross and it's not like. rotten #but trying to force myself to eat it sounds like hell rn #but also guilt complex abt food yknow???? #im not doing anyonr any favours by just skipping lunch bc my brain hates the thought of it rn #i think. I'm just gonna have to toss it. eaf a granola bar (i always carry some for this reason) #and then. try to forgive myself. eat a proper dinner #i think i hate depression food obessions more than i hate the actual depression sometimes #ughhh and i have to meal plan #i go insane if i eat the same thing always but i also get so nervous trying new foods #bc my mother lives in my brain and yells at me anytime anything turns out bad or where i cant force myself to eat it #i only ever try things that im 90% sure I'll like #And still. #unfortunately. i am realizing my mother left me with major food anxieties #just not in the usual ED way. i got the guilt complex food waste if i don't clear my plate im sinning way #if leftovers go bad? or produce molds before i can use it? im satan incarnate #BUT ONLY ME. EVERYONE ELSE IS FINE. THIS STANDARD ONLY APPLIES TO ME

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#what do you call it when a mind is lacking in depth of m thought? is there a word for that? #because all my mind can do is spin in tiny circles. never push any further. no depth of thought #i cant even carry out this line of thought to completion in my head. i have to write it down like this or else it remains stuck in an eddy #its so frustrating. when my thoughts are pressured i spin so fast it feels like my head might pop but the thoughts never go anywhere #bc they just repeat the same god damn things all thr fucking time. they drag me around in circles. then when im feeling low or even like #normal. my head just feels empty and it freaks me out. i have no intersting thoughts to think. theres nothing behind my eyes #possibly its just my brain on 0cd. but how am i suppose to escape the spiral if its in my own head? i guess im just supposed to changr my #reaction to it. recognize what it is and let it go. but i dont like it #i just want to curl up on a warm tile floor. press myself into a quiet corner and not think anything #in an aquarium or a conservatory. specifically the conservatory in Columbus. i love that place #i went there for my birthday when i was like 12 bc i liked it so much. the botanically gardens and the butterflies and the stained glass #i dunno. i just like it there. ugh. im just tired #god. there was a really cool talk today and im always like im not that inattentive lol but then i cannot for the life of me follow a talk or #read a paper all thr way through. my short term working memory is just a tiny little cup. easy to overfill #so i miss mostly everything. its so frustrating #its all frustrating. whatever. back to the psychiatrist tomorrow. probably up thr lamicta1 dosage #bc im past where i was last time i had a reaction to it 💪 #i just wish i wanted to draw. drawing just makes me tired and impatient rn #unrelated

[risingsunresistance]

finally got one of these cool bags, starting off with my favorite and largest pin (and the only pin i can reach without getting into the storage closet 😅)

#it's the exact same size as my old DS bag from like 2006 i am SOOOOOO happy abt that #i've been chasing down a bag that exact same size for YEARS. i carried that thing around religiously #i still have it but it's uh. it's been through it jdhdjh #but yea i have. So Many pins. and i hate putting holes in my clothes!!! #but now i can stick them on this sheet that is Meant to have holes in it and can be replaced without replacing the bag... #i have. so many pins. i usually just sit them around on my shelves #now i can have them on display after all these years #they're mostly pokemon pins but i have a few others :0 #hopefully i can find them all tomorrow :D i cant get in the closet rn my dad is home and he'll be weird abt it #chat

[rose-ramblings]

you'll never guess what I've been playing lately

#goldic's drawings #vegito #dragon ball dokkan battle #good news everyone! I found a shading brush that I'm happy with! #i'll finish that other thing I keep mentioning eventually I swear I've only got 3 characters left to do on it #but uhhhhh y e a h I've been playing Dokkan for like a week and a half now (blame the content creators for making it look really fun) #I understand absolutely nothing other than 'it's a big number go brr type of game' #but it also gets me to use some strategy in my team building and fighting which I am very much enjoying so far #i didn't get Mr. Yosha himself or melty Zamasu (much to my personal sadness) but I did get a copy of Power-Awakening Piccolo #and enough of that PHY Zamasu with the tea set to rainbow him (and waaaay too many of a certain SR SSJ Goku that can awaken into SSG) #and a copy of that new Mai I guess (I'm not entirely sure how to use her properly in battle yet but I'll figure it out) #I've been calling that PHY Zamasu I mentioned 'Tea Time Zamasu' btw (mostly cuz of the tea set in his art) #oh yeah speaking of Tea Time Zamasu that man's been carrying my team in terms of eating hits like a champ so #definitely gonna be using him a lot; especially since *gestures to blog theme* he's one of my favorite villains in dragon ball #I haven't Dokkan Awakened the Piccolo at all yet (he's just a max level UR rn) but he's been pretty damn useful in taking hits himself #first unit I made an LR (besides the free one) was a Zamasu that turned into an LR Goku Black (F2P STR I think; he's my support unit rn) #I've also already collected all of Bardock's F2P crew and mostly maxed them out because I'm totally normal about it hehe #bardock's crew best crew I don't make the rules #goldic rambles #this is transparent because I couldn't figure out a decent background to give it

[silverjirachi]

maybe this is just the catholic suffering and masochism complex in me but i low key kinda miss school

#i liked learning and studying and sitting in lectures #wandering around my silly little campus carrying around my silly little books #eating my silly little dining hall food #staying up until 2am in my silly little library crying cramming for silly exams #ok also this is maybe because im writing a college au rn #maybe mostly that

[lomakes]

Constantly thinking abt how the doctor and the master/missy approach gender in different ways

#leo txt #dw #the doctor #the master #missy #mostly cause im thinking abt missy and 13 rn #where you have missy throwing her whole self into like a performance with all the skirts and makeup and hair #its like a grand production #and you have 13 who doesn't #its not like she doesnt *like* it its more like... #'well im going to carry on tge exact same what do you mean i cant' #its just...so many gender feels and thoughts rn

[nonbinaryaubrey]

she is getting into the most insane sweetheart discourse on some forum right now.

#HAD THIS ONE IN THE DRAFTS.. #''not rn sunny ^_^ mari is having her daily 3am anime discourse session okay?" <- she wouldnt say it like that. too rude. but like. real #theres like bloodshed and mauling happening on there rn. people are dying. #shes sweethearts strongest soldier <33 #i said this before but i think if her and pewter (<- aitsf) met theyd get into the most insaaane magical girl anime discourse imaginable #theyd be at eachothers throats #i hope sunny carries on her legacy 🙏 he will be sweethearts strongest soldier in Mari's absense. #aubrey.txt #actualy i think she'd awaken from her grave to defend sweetheart. taking a quick break from being dead. #<- THIS IS ALL ME JOKING MOSTLY .BTW. overexaggerating. i wanted to clarify #i like being silly about her

[waywardsalt]

in post-ph specifically a really old idea ive had is that linebeck is extremely, extremely possessive of his coat, but if in a situation where he fears he might actually die, he gives it to the person he trusts to save him, or he gives it to someone he cares about that seems to be on the brink of death

#its not permanent unless he dies. which he doesnt in any of the cases of this happening #at the end of the day its like a symbol of his immense trust and respect for the person and a sign that he really thinks hes not making it #bc otherwise you cannot touch that thing. rn i really only have one scenario with this with link damien and bellum each #link’s is the one where hes afraid the other person will die but hes also afraid hes going to die at that moment its a whole thing #other cases are if he thinks he wont be able to get out of smth without it being damaged or if he just wants it to be safe #theres a bit where he has to be separated from the crew for a bit so he preemptively gives it to damien for safekeeping #generally if linebeck hands his coat to someone its a Bad Sign. something is very wrong #bellum is the only one who understands the gravity of it when he first sees it bc like. hes been in linebecks mind he knows the abstract #idea of how protective linebeck is of it. and he has no idea how to feel the first time linebeck gives it to him. its a warm feeling #with damien its a mixture of terrified and dutiful he understands it as being trusted with it and makes sure to keep it safe #he understands what the coat means to linebeck just not on the same visceral level as bellum. link also has a good idea of how much #linebeck cares about his coat but its filtered through being a slightly mischievous kid whos tried getting to it before. when hes actually #given it or sees linebeck hand it off the first (few) times hes really scared and a bit confused until the idea clicks for him #this is an ooooold idea i think its from back when post ph was mostly going to be a 50 chapter thing using a 50 word challenge list #if anyone remembers those. this shit originates from middle school. the olden days. before damien existed #i like linebecks coat being an item tied to his identity its what he wants its something he finds comfort in its something he made himself #salty talks #post-ph #this might carry over a little to some other aus but these situations dont really happen the same was as they might in post ph

[theloveinc]

hello everyone just want to say sorry for not writing lately ‼️ I am just a little low on ideas currently and am waiting on my computer charger to be shipped in ‼️‼️‼️

#I have my Kiri asks I wanna get to soon as I have my compooper again #also I’m trying to think of a long fic idea bc I’m really tired of only writing short stuff (sigh. my own fault) #but I’ve been reading … not trashy novels but … best sellers like Carrie Soto is back and I wanna write a short version of that !! #I’m kinda thinking abt how I can turn that one idea abt Bakugo and praise into something #but idk if I wanna do canon universe or an au #but it’s on the brain !!! #sadly my computer is out of commission rn boo #so behind on hw because of it too LOL thankfully it’s mostly poetry and some other stuff #anyway I just wanted to say how dearly I miss and love u all!! #caitie blabs

[camelspit]

thinking of elves and art. they have an infinite amount of time to perfect whatever style they want, no limit on resources (that are supposedly better than humans), and can make a living off of it, if they choose to. they could do so so much. they could spend 100 years on just one really big mural if they so chose. but, besides mai and keefe (and cyrah if you want to extend it a bit), nothings ever really mentioned? :(

#see if I was an elf.. #im blanking on the name rn but you guys know that big famous mural on a ceiling? #BITCHES HAVE LEVITATING #they could do that shit #And their abilities could help too! #i could be making shit up but i think it was mentioned in lodestar that juline makes ice sculptures? #and this isnt just like drawing and shit #music and writing are also so so important #but it seems like that mostly falls to gnomes and dwarves. #who are already busy carrying the entire elven world on their backs #alas.. #kotlc

[hobbinch]

Ugh food's been REALLY hard lately it's so frustrating

#it's mostly the decision fatigue it's just so hard to decide what's actually available to me in the house #I hate relying on nestle this much but also chocolate boosts are really carrying me rn I'm grateful

[welcometoteyvat]

tell me why freminet already has more crit rate and crit damage than characters ive tried building for over a year even though i just slapped my random unused artifacts onto him

#to be fair he has no set bonus rn and every one of his artifacts are not useful as set bonus but like #WHY !!!!!!!!!! #can't have shit in artifact rng system #i realized i have legit good pieces... but only 1 or 2 for each set and they're on sets i'll never use except on one (1) character #gilded dreams crit helmet you will always be famous to me. 31 cr and 33 cd AND FOR WHAT. ITS AN EM SET CRIT IS USELESS #anyways i decided to build him on a whim for funsies mostly bc i dont have a good dps on my commissions team rn #yelan is carrying (sexycat emoji) she'll be his support hehe #he's like. 73 crit rate? and 138 cd. which is pretty stacked to me considering he doesnt have any other sources of crit #i have snowtombed starsilver on him rn .. but it's killing me not using the fish claymore T_T i need to put it on him for the bit!! #its just that the passive (burst dmg) isnt super useful rip #gacha logs #ramblings! #also i have no clue how to play phys claymore dpses because i am anti eula anti razor #<- literally just dont have either. razor's dodged me for an entire 3 years now #but frem's so cute.... squishing his cheeks giving him a warm blanket etc #showering him with love (aka going to artifact hell)

[daz4i]

weirdest thing i get told is that I'm strong or resilient. girl i crumble into dust on a weekly basis. i only take the shape of a person the next day bc the wind blows me back into that. i do not want to be doing any of this

#i think. i just don't want ppl to think this is me being strong #bc i feel so weak. the smallest gust of wind makes me fall and fail to get up #when i say i never recovered from anything that has ever happened to me i mean it #it feels like my past and the way it shaped me into this horrible creature keeps pulling me down a bottomless pit #and i feel powerless to stop it. mostly because i don't want to #and i don't WANT to be strong. so how can i be? can you carry a weight without intending to? i don't think so (insert atlas allegory here) #and saying I'm resilient feels like a straight up lie (which is funny since this is what my name means i think). i am like an open wound #a sandcastle constantly getting washed by the waves and my loved ones are a kid building it over and over #...I'm being very poetic rn. most of this is bullshit. sorry. i haven't created in a long while #point is. i hate being called that. bc it's wrong. and if i ever do get better and start wanting to live somehow - #- then being called strong now when I'm doing this bad feels like an insult to my future self #and if I'm strong now then imagine the astronomical strength i would need to actually stop falling and start moving #i wish i was dead and rotting in the ground rn #vent #lots of these tonight. sorry. idk what's going on. maybe it's hormonal shit. maybe my lack of near goal. maybe life just sucks #(all of these are true and combined into one. so. I'm at my lowest ig)

[rubberbandballqueen]

also, the kids found a nest with a dead bird on the ground today, and they started yelling abt it n drawing all the other kids over, so i had to actually switch into the Authority Figure Voice(tm) with them so that they wouldn’t like. literally desecrate its body by kicking it around for funsies

#in general i'm just not really all that keen on using Authority Voice on children or people in general #probably bc growing up i got told a lot that i can sound really scary! actually scratch that during argumentative speeches #my prof was like 'i didn't wanna stop you outright bc it felt like you were going to snap at n kill me if i did' n i was like #'oh my god i'm so sorry no feel free to stop me whenever; it's just acting' so even Very Recently i have been told i have frightening energy #but i think mostly i don't like using it on kids bc. well. yeah i feel like it'll make them scared of me n i don't want that #like they're children. i'm not going to kill them. i'm not going to skin them alive. i hardly give punishments in general #but they're old enough to associate Authority Voice with massive trouble. like i can feel it in my bones too when i use it n i don't like it #it makes me feel like the kind of adult i'd have hated n resented the most growing up n it just makes me feel kinda ick #but at the same time it has its uses! like if it was just one to... mm i'd say like three or five kids i'd be cool w/just like #backing them up n then talking to them abt safety precautions when handling dead bodies but otherwise letting them get sticks n poke at it #but there were like five there at the start n then like five more were coming over so i was like. 'mm. cutting this short rn' #esp when one kid started kicking at the body w/o an ounce of reverence. like dude wtf why are you punting bird corpses around #but yeah i can't blame them for their curiosity; n i don't want to teach them that death is scary or dirty or anything #but wild animals can carry diseases and these kids are less than ten years old. i've seen how they handle things. they have no grace #anyway. yeah. long day at work today. #the worm speaks