this is SO dramatic
I agree with you that Zuko’s betrayal was of Iroh mostly, and that is what he blames himself most as well.
But Katara’s anger and disappointment in him somehow was a closer reflection of the anger and disappointment of the audience who watched Zuko’s struggles through Book 1 and 2 and believed in his goodness. I answered a very similar question here about Katara’s anger and Zuko’s acceptance of that anger, which explains how I feel about what happened during and after CoD.
I have a soft spot for Maiko. Yes, they are dysfunctional, but they are trying. Neither of them is good at communicating, they both are hiding parts of themselves, they are both trying to guess what the other person really wants and try to respond to that image.
Mai thinks that Zuko wants more than anything to restore his status a crown prince, and she’s doing whatever she can to help him, while still navigating her own murky relationship with Azula. Zuko thinks that what Mai wants more than anything is to date someone who lives up to the Fire Nation prince ideal, so he hides his feelings about his experiences from her and tries to be the perfect prince.
I wrote a long post about that first Maiko scene. Mai is trying to deflect not because she doesn’t care, but because that’s her way of dealing with things.
I think what they both crave is emotional honesty, but that requires trust, and without opening up, trust just cannot get that deep.
Zuko is at the lowest of low points in The Beach. This was his dream - the place that kept him going for three years, this is what he sees when he meditates. And now when he got everything that he ever wanted it just feels so hollow. The home, the family he thought he’d get back doesn’t exist anymore , he has never felt as honorless as when he supposedly got his honor back, Iroh is in jail and doesn’t talk to him, his father and sister play power-games with him so he doesn’t know where he stands.
He’s trapped in a life which now he understands is built on lies and suffering of others. He just went from a refugee with nothing to the party island of the Fire Nation, crawling with rich, entitled kids. He feels out of place.
His relationship with Mai is the only thing going for him, the only person who is in his corner right now. But it’s not perfect. Mai is not good at communicating, she’s cautious, there is just not enough trust between them at this point. Even with her, Zuko feels unsettled.
But the moment he really starts to spin?
Looking at this guy. A rich playboy with a hair like Zuko sports in this episode, but without the scar. The person he could easily be if he didn’t go through everything he did. The elite of Fire Nation society. Unblemished. Untouched by the suffering in the world.
“Alright babe, I’m heading out. Can I get that kiss tho?”
[After the cat kisses him, and Coolio’s ‘Gangsta’s Paradise’ starts playing in the background.“]
"Thanks, appreciate it.”
february me was clearly depressed because i barely appreciated pentagon’s ‘universe: black hall’ album when it came out - worship u is just as good as asteroid (soty), and shower of rain and die for you slap
jinho and hui make
pentagon’s entire discography this album for me - best vocalists in kpop after taeil
my youtube ad for today was TOO official’s account with around 45ish (?) seconds of the clip and hbgndjskdg i’m so READY for them to drop magnolia PLEASE hurry
ok time 2 watch onf videos
friends and family, pentagon have been confirmed to attend road to kingdom and shooting starts today. if they win road to kingdom they can end up performing with older artists at kingdom
I’ve decided I’m going to try and finish Remembering the Kanji one more time. I got up to almost 800 last time, and then my life got in the way. This time I’m really gonna finish it.
I have a difficult time differentiating between similar kanji (I don’t think I’m alone in this) so I’m really gonna push myself to finish this book in April.
In other news, I’m going to be signing up for the JLPT N3 in July. I’ve been studying for the N2, but my kanji is simply not there. So I’ll take the N3 and hopefully pass, and then it’s on to the N2 for December.
Smoke and Shadow - the good, the bad, the ugly
So I finished reading Smoke and Shadow. As with the other comics, I had the feeling that there were a couple of moments in the creators’ heads that they wanted to put there - and these are quite cool in isolation - they just never manage to thread a halfway coherent story around these moments.
- Loved all the Zuko & Kiyi stuff - it’s super nice to see some positivity in his life and a positive sibling relationship.
As Zuko joins the Gaang, a new element is added to the mix. Everyone is affected differently, and it takes a while to smooth things out.
Little canon-compliant moments set after The Western Air Temple to explore the changes in the group dynamics, from initial unease to friendship. It also explores how the different elements complement and affect each other.