#runarambles

[rune-folk]

my sister sent me the instagram account of one of the most cringe inducing people i have ever seen. one of those guys who made having a beard their whole personality

basically it is an american dude, calling himself ‘modern viking’, and calling being viking a ‘lifestyle’

he is also ‘pagan’, but it is very obvious that he just replaced the chrisitian god with Odin and jesus with Thor

he has a beard and the history tv viking hair, and has videos of himself going to renfairs in machine made, cotton and inaccurate ‘viking costumes’, and doing the horrible history viking accent, which is like MILES away from the accent any scandinavian has when talking english, but i guess a danish hot-potato-in-mouth or norwegian sing-sing accent were not sexy enough

so all that is cringe already, but then he had a video on his page, talking about paganism and ‘how to become a pagan’

i have a bit of an issue with just ‘deciding to become a norse pagan’ because like.. idk, for me, as a lover of all folklore, Instarted to read the myths and sagas out of general interest and found that it made just a lot of sense to me, and a lot of stuff started to happen that confirmed it for me, so that now i am at a point where i can feel the gods and their influence. I always find it weird if people decide out of the blue to become pagan. I was a 100% convinced atheist since i was 7 years old, i did not go into norse myth with any intention of changing my believes

anyway, i digress. so he has this video, where he is like ‘oh yes read the edda, read the havamal (the havamal is in the edda, so point 2 was useless)” and then he was like ‘learn the RUNES! learn the writing of paganism” (which is first of all wrong because runes in scandinavia were even used wildly after the christianisation, with runes carved into the oldest stave churches, but again i digress) but then this guy proceeds to show bloody ELDER FUTHARK RUNES asdhahfhsa WHICH WERE USED WAAAAAYYY BEFORE THE VIKING AGE

quickly proved himself to have absolutely no idea what he was talking about

it is cool to learn the runes and try to understand them and the original texts we find on runestones and carved into houses etc, but like use bloody younger futhark, that are the correct runes if you are looking at late viking age and norse religion which is what is represented in the eddas

sorry i have no patience for people like this. he makes fun of people (other pagans and scandinavians who find his ‘modern viking’ stuff stupid), and acting as if he is the authority of defining what viking means, just because there is a football club named like it and some brands using ‘viking’ (yes he has a video where this is his reasoning)

90% of the people in the viking age were not vikings. vikings were basically pirates. there was piracy in scandinavia also well before the viking age, we have finds of them. a lot of ‘vikings’ were just settlers who wanted to have a nicer home because norway, as much as i love it, is cold and shit and the earth is frozen most of the year, like these people went to north england and thought it was the most amazing land ever, imagine how shit norway was. they were starving, that is why they went there. the raiding was part of their culture, but not a big one, like they did not call themselves viking

i could rant about that for hours. same with those christian-pagans who dont shed their christian believes and just replace stuff with norse things. Hel is not Hell, Hel is actually a nice place, and Valhalla is not the only good afterlife, but that does not go into their small brains

#myposts #runarambles #not going to tag this with any pagan tags #because i know some people on here are exactly like this #and will be massively offended #but like #seriously

[runarobat]

Hai Hai!

So... Twitter is kind of getting wild eh? Introductions: My name is RunaRobat! However I go by Runa or Runya (seems to be my friends' favorite nickname). I am an android vtuber that mostly plays shooter games, but sometimes I do Omega Strikers and other games I find fun. I have a bearded dragon named Reginald Westchester that you will likely see photos of when I take them.

When not doing vtuber activities, I do my work in IT as an MSP and I currently attend college taking Korean language courses. I love to help anyone and everyone with their computers. If you have some weird issues, and don't mind me remoting in to get a first hand view of the problem, I would enjoy helping! It makes me get better at fixing random issues and I can use it as experience for future problems at work. :) Can't wait to meet new people and see familiar faces here on Tumblr! If there is something I could do better at kindly let me know. I can take constructive criticism, but if it comes off as rude I will likely ignore it.

Artist: SheepyShan

#runarobat #runarambles #vtuber uprising

[liminalgardener]

part of me wants to be a witch who delicately lays out rosemary, salt and eggshells on her window sill to ward off bad energy but the other part of me just wants to get a massive gong and start hitting it at 6:30pm to scare the shit out of whatever is in my room. BANG and the stagnant energy is GONE

#witchblr #witchcraft #spells #baby witch #new witch #witchling #witches #witch memes #runarambles #witch #witches of tumblr #cleansing

[rune-folk]

ah, that time of the year again when the norwegian tax office wants to steal my soul, but because that is hard they go for my money instead by just making up over 200k krona in pay that i never made

#myposts #runarambles #skatteetaten is my mortal enemy #i literally have one (1) job that pays below average #i have no car no house no savings #the only 'savings' i have is the deposite of the apartment i rent #i have nothing but a standard stob #and yet they manage to fuck up my taxes eeeeverrryyy year #tyr please help i cannot deal with this

[rune-folk]

i got a bit frustrated recently and had a moment a few days ago basically ranting at Odin what the point of all this is and if he has just no need for me anymore because i feel absolutely no guiding lately. i have a little statue of him that is a reproduction of an archaeological find, which is usually direct at when i talk to him

next day two ravens take off in front of me, almost flying in my face before turning last minute, leaving even people around me shocked and staring at me for a moment

ok, then.. i guess he has still some need for me. who knows what

#myposts #runarambles #odin

[rune-folk]

had a talk with halfdan. i thought it was about his feelings and all that. turns out he was just hurt by me cutting him off so sudden and for so long, which, to be fair, i totally get. lets see what the future will bring, i definitely feel less bad.

#myposts #runarambles

[rune-folk]

i had such a good day today that i am 90% certain that something really, really bad will happen in the coming week

the gods are never so kind without a reason

#usually it is the other way round #a ton of things in my life and my familys lives go shit in a super short time #and then one gopd thing happens to me #so to have a super great day now wothout much bad is suspicious #well i had over a week of daily migraines #which i did nkt jave ever since i moved to oslo #so maybe that was enough bad things #but i doubt it #myposts #runarambles

[rune-folk]

spring has finally come! there are still some heaps of snow about, slowly melting, but it is warm and sunny and flowers start to grow!!! the wolrd is waking up and you can hear the birds again and asdfghjkl

hurra! takk Idun!

#myposts #winter has dragged on this year #and next week there is supposed to be a cold wave again ugh #-4 and sleet #:( #please not #but i have the feeling we will have snow on 17th of may #lets see #runarambles

[rune-folk]

i just got a comment on my intro post asking "why i pretend to be pagan when it would be easier to be a christian or buddhist" and that my "stupid leftist hippy shit" did not fit with the religion of "my ancestors" and that "race is important"

what... the... fuck ?!

blocked the person without giving him a reaction so idk if other people still see it but whaaaat theeee fucccckk

some people holy shit

#myposts #runarambles #unfollow me if you are a pos like that

[rune-folk]

the julebord was so great! Reidar got along so well with all my work friends and said he felt very welcome and enjoyed himself a lot

my boss was very drunk and was like "be good to her!!!" which was... yes

as expected everyone thought we were a couple

but then again, at the end of the night he gave me a short kiss in front of everyone, and later we went home together to his place ;) so all in all an amazing outcome

it did not resolve any of my confusions about what we are but well.. right now i dont really care, it was great!

#myposts #runarambles #am i in love with reidar? #yes #does it make things even more complicated? #also yes

[rune-folk]

two ramble posts in a row, im sorry. again, block the tag if it annoys you. this post is going to be long, sorry

anyways, i am going to introduce a new code name. while Reidar is the guy i have this weird friendship/dating situation thing with and Halfdan is my good friend, i am introducing a non norwegian now. he is from central europe so i will call him Manfred. just as for the other two, not his real name

anyways, Manfred is my coworker. his desk is next to mine. he does not speak any norwegian and is not very comfortable in speaking english, so as i speak german he speaks (according to my boss) more with me than he had in the previous 4 years of working there. (his german is also very unclear, so that even i have to often ask him to repeat himself)

anyways, he is this typical guy who does not go out, only goes from his home to work and back. he has no friends in norway outside of work, and even there he never joins when we go out (we are a very social group and meet up almost every weekend).

he is this kind of guy who thinks not giving a shit about how he looks makes him cool, he has always top everything you say or mame snarky comments. criticising womrns makeup, how people dress or behave, while himself wearing old af shoes, washe dout jeans and a black shirt every day, despite having the money to buy anything he wants. nothing wrong with that but hypocritical. he also complains about norwegian women on tinder, that they expect so much, while looking like sjit. he also thinks it is cool that he does not work out and eats frozen pizza.

he also is older than most of us and even older than my boss (he is 35 she is 32) and thinks this means he is therefore better and treats the rest of us like children in a condescending way, and always says that im such a child even though i am 27 and have my life more in order than he has.

oh wait no, wrong. he does not treat all of us like that. just the women.

he treats us as if we dont know what we are doing (we all have a masters degree in the same field, and i took less than half the time for it than he did), he does not take us for full and acts as if he is the only adult in the room. he also makes fun of us women because we are all pretty short and he is tall. wow such adult. so mature.

then comes the part that only i get to suffer because i speak german.

maybe people who have suffered through my ramblings a bit have noticed, i am a talkative person. i am shy at first, but after a time im friendly and like small talk. so as i started during covid and he was the only other person also coming to the office (i could not be in homeoffice as i literally did not have any furniture in my apartment because i moved for the job) we started talking. he went to the same uni as i, we knew the same people and professors, so of course there was much topic

anyways, he started to make more and more weird comments. like he uses the german word "Schatz" at me, which literally means treasure and is a term you would usually use for your romantic partner. he only does this with me.

then e.g. i dont want kids. i am even one of those people who actively dislikes kids, and does not want to be around them. i am a spoonie. i never want to have children and even if i would never curse them with my fucked genes.

when this came up he just laughs and is like "yea yea you will change your mind", "yea call me when you are pregnant" (mind you i am single). he does not know me or my life, so it is so inappropriate for him to say stuff like that. i also find it highly disrespectful tbh. i am also very easy to startle, and flinch with every loud noise. he constantly says how cute it is. yea.. not something to say to a coworker imo

but i am nice i dont want trouble, i keep it to myself.

but now, in september i was on a work trip in the alps, and he was with me. i met an old colleague there but other than that i knew no one, so he was the only one to talk to outside of the meetings for the week. we also added two days in a nearby city after the work trip because there were no direct flights back home.

during that time the comments just grew more and more inappropriate.

he knows my ex, who studied with him. he said "we should go back and pretend that there is something going on between us just to bother him"

first of all, no. weird. second of all. no. that is so cruel, the thing with my ex is still quite complicated. i told him no.

then again, a few days later, because apparently my boss told my male coworkers not to hit on me when i would start my job.

"we should pretend in front of your boss that there is something going on between us, that would be fun" (she is not his boss, he has a different boss, but his boss is also my second boss.. it is a bit confusing i know but we are still working in the same group)

no it would not. that is weird..stop suggesting that.

he also made a comment like "we're not married yet, Schatz" when i joked that he could finish my food at a restaurant. again, weird.

after the trip i was super sick of him. but now suddenly he joins all the outings with work people where he usually would not even bother. im so sick of him. and now those outings are annoying because i try to keep away from him but he always goes so he walks next to me and then throws in side comments or german comments

im trying to ignore him and sometimes i think he notices but he still tries to engage so i just pretend i am super busy and stressed. then he constantly looks over the small wall dividing our desks to look at my work and makes comments. usually that is not a problem and i dont mind, we work together and it can be useful but i am so sick of him that every breath he takes annoys me

so, yea.. now idk what to do. i told some of my coworker friends that i am creeped out by him, but they dont know what to do either.

should i tell my boss? she is italian and very direct. idk i dont want stress. i should add he cannot be fired because of this i think, but it would make things weird. i can also not change desks. my second boss who is his boss is also very non confrontational so idk if telling her would do anything.

his contract would run out this month but he got an extension, so my hope to be rid of him is sadly not going to happen. idk.. this is sjit

#myposts #runarambles #im tired #sorry this is long #but i had to get it out #idk how to habdle that #he is creepy af and i want to have time away from him

[rune-folk]

my hot water stopped working while i was washing my hair this morning

what a great start in the day already

in the evening im going to a nuseum with Reidar, im clinging onto that to make it through this freezing thursday

#myposts #runarambles #if the water gets cold it GETS COLD #idk what is wrong usually they tell us if there is a problem #my week has been shit so this is another cherry on the cherry filled top

[rune-folk]

i am feeling lost and burnt out recently. i thought my november would be finally more relaxed, but it is filled with so much work stuff and my boss kind of pressuring me into another last minute conference.

my health, both physical and mental is suffering, and i cant tell you how much i am looking forward to december, where i took 2 weeks off to see my family and not think about work.

#myposts #runarambles

[rune-folk]

i just saw the king (of norway)!!!! sitting in front of the palace, reading, and his car drives past me with trumpet music

wow haha

#myposts #runarambles #sorry i had to just post about this #i only saw him from faaaaar faaaaar away on the national holiday #where he waves from the palace

[rune-folk]

meeting Reidar for a coffee after work today, as it is still nice weather out. we will go for a walk in a large park, and i am really looking forward to it

this is also the first day i have not woken up with a migraine since getting covid, so that is also a plus.

im off to a doctors appointment now, where i have a lot of things to talk about, so lets see how that goes. on sunday i have to leave for a work trip, so i hope i will feel up for it. yesterday was just exhaustion and brain fog as soon as i sat down at my desk

#myposts #runarambles

[rune-folk]

yesterday Halfdan was over, because we are planning to make a cloak for side sword fencing for him, and we also cooked together. All in all nice

But.. I had really hoped that after the time he asked me if something was going on between Reidar and me, he had.. idk.. given up on me? It felt like a more normal friendship and i was not too worried

but yesterday.. oh my gods.

he gave me a lot of compliments, told me i was adorable, said how much he enjoyed being with me, and the conversation went towards talking about lovelive/relationships a lot.He told me how he often falls for friends and gets crushes really easily, which was a bit like *hint hint i like you hint hint*. I tried to stir to saver grounds a few times, but it was.. ja idk

I should have made a remark about Reidar and I being a thing, or just of me being into Reidar, just to idk get his hopes down again? but i did not because the thing with Reidar is just a confusing mess in it self. Instead I talked about how my last relationship is still kind of messy because my life and my exes life were so entangled, and how it is not quite resolved yet, and how i dont really have time or want a relationship, because my relationships often end up being codependent with my pouring all my energy into making sure the other person is happy.

idk what to do... maybe i will just mention something the next time we talk about such things? being like ‘yes, this thing with Reidar is occupying my mind a lot’ or some shit like that

I feel bad for him, because it is so obvious how he is hoping for something, but.. i just like him as a friend, there is absolutely nothing else there. i already thought i broke his heart back in june, but apparently i have to do it again

#myposts #runarambles #this is such a MESS #fuck