#sa survivor

[zeldasnotes]

”It is never too late to be what you might have been.” 💘

#self love #self healing #healing #self esteem #starting over #loveyourself #trauma #abuse survivor #sa survivor

[guess-who-relapsed]

#sa survivor #csa survivor #trauma memes #actually traumatized #hypersexual #sex repulsed #actually dissociative #childhood trauma #actually borderline #actually bpd #bpd vent

[it-never-gets-better]

MY BODY TURNED INTO A CORPSE WHEN YOU TOUCHED IT VIOLENTLY.

#actuallymentallyill #actuallytraumatized #sa vent #complex ptsd #sa awareness #actually ptsd #physical abuse #sa survivor #tw csa #csa implied

[mindfulparentingproject]

Hey y'all. Healing is possible. It's hard and it takes years. There are things you may not be able to fully heal and there are things you will let go of quickly. It's okay. There is no timeline for healing.

#generational trauma #trauma survivor #childhood abuse #sa survivor #mindfulparenting

[sparrow-the-tired-lesbian]

here’s a friendly reminder for survivors of any sort of abuse that

It wasnt your fault

You are strong

You didnt ask for it

No one gets to invalidate your experience

If someone invalidates your experience, you get to dump their ass

#i suffered through a friend abusing me #physically emotionally and mentally. These reminders save me everyday #childhood trauma #trauma #emotional abuse #parental abuse #sa survivor #abuse survivor #abuse recovery #child abuse #tw abuse

[dying-weeds]

I feel like it's not talked enough about how SA really strips you of your identity. Like someone violates your basic humanity and you're left to deal with the aftermath of having everything you are as a person taken away from you. It makes you feel subhuman.

#tw sa #tw sa implied #sa vent #vent #trauma #sa survivor #tw ptsd #actuallyabused #actually cptsd #actually ptsd #actuallytraumatized #trauma vent

[neuroticboyfriend]

abusiveness and predation is not unique to men. abusive women (and the abuse of men for that matter) are much, much more common than you think. if your support for abuse survivors only extends to women or people who were abused by men, you don't actually support survivors.

so to all the survivors who aren't women, and the survivors whose abusers weren't men: i believe you, and i see you. you deserve to be safe and supported. you are not alone. your pain and suffering matters just as much as others' does. what happened to you is just as awful, and i'm wishing you so much healing and happiness.

#softspoonie #abuse #abuse survivor #feminism #feminist #patriarchy #abusive relationships #sa #csa survivor #sa survivor #verbal abuse #mental abuse #child abuse #emotional abuse #physical abuse #parental abuse #trauma #traumatized #ptsd #cptsd #survivor #trauma victim #abuse victim #intersectional feminism #intersectionality #domestic abuse #partner abuse #domestic violence

[sickmuseum]

I am sitting down in the shower It is this dirty type of clean That keeps me trapped in here for hours Still, I scrub and scrub until my body bleeds Convince myself I am coming clean Forget and ignore who I used to be That kid is never coming back

Bathtub - The Front Bottoms.

#cocsa survivor #sa survivor #csa survivor #sa awareness #cocsa vent #sa vent #cocsa victim #sa victim #sad writing #vent

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

Childhood trauma culture is being grown and still getting really into whatever was popular with kids/teens when you were that age because you feel like you missed out

#childhood trauma #adverse childhood experiences #late diagnosis #medical trauma #family trauma #parental abuse #csa survivor #sa survivor #trauma disorders #traumagenic #trauma recovery #cptsd healing #cptsd recovery #complex trauma #age regression #trauma response #post traumatic stress disorder #complex post traumatic stress disorder #autistic trauma #neurodiversity #neurodivergent #late diagnosed autistic #audhd problems #intersectionality #comorbidities #comorbid conditions

[ptsd-phoenix]

Cause my life did not end with you

My life is only starting to blossom

I did not perish with you

You can stay there in the ashes

I will rise above

#actuallytraumatized #actuallyabused #traumacore #abuse survivor #sa survivor #phoenix posts poetry

[ash-says]

If it kept you alive then don't regret it.

What's important is surviving. Being alive . By whatever means possible.

Forgive yourself for all those decisions you made, you think were wrong and do the right thing now.

You are here. You are alive. It's all that matters. I am proud of you.

#self destruction #self destructive behavior #self destructive tendencies #obsessive compulsive behavior #self healing #self help #trauma survivor #sa survivor #mental health #healing #self love #self care #self improvement #dark feminine energy #level up journey #level up #wellness #positivity #positive mental attitude #glow up #it girl #gaslight gatekeep girlboss #healing journey #that girl #becoming her #becoming that girl #girlblogging #ptsd #mental illness #ash-says

[it-never-gets-better]

NO ONE GETS IT. NO ONE KNOWS HOW IT FEELS LIVING IN THIS BODY.

#actuallymentallyill #actuallytraumatized #sa vent #complex ptsd #sa awareness #actually ptsd #physical abuse #sa survivor #tw csa #csa implied

[family-oddity]

#vent #trauma #traumacore #trauma coping #my writing #sa survivor #actually cptsd #cptsd recovery #ventcore

[chaos-in-one]

I wish I knew how to get people to understand how absolutely fucking EXHAUSTING it is that I cannot share so many of my symptoms either online or irl without being shamed, outright dehumanized, or demonized for it. What I show on here is only a very small portion of what I have to deal with on a daily basis. And it's fucking exhausting to hide the rest but I have to. I don't have a choice because the consequences of being open on certain symptoms is worse than the exhaustion and internalized self loathing of hiding them

#ableism #mentally ill #actually disabled #disabled #bpd #npd #psychotic #actually dissociative #actually delusional #actually borderline #actually narcissistic #hpd #maybe #paraphilic disorder #actually traumatized #trauma #csa survivor #sa survivor #abuse survivor #trauma survivor

[foxylady13]

TRIGGER WARNING!!! Gwyn's Assault at Sangravah

One thing I will never get over is how the other side will try to say Gwyn fabricated her SA to get an in with the Inner Circle to betray them.

Seriously? Gwyn had to spend TW0 YEARS in the library to heal from her trauma. She had her innocence taken and was about to be violently gang r*ped after protecting the children. She watched her sister get beheaded right in front of her.

And you want to say she fabricated the whole story and is working with Korschei? Be for real here.

Azriel was there to save her by slaughtering all the soldiers without a second thought and gave her his cloak after seeing what happened to her. Mor was there and brought her back to Velaris.

I'm sure Rhysand himself wouldn't have let her stay if there was even a whiff her story wasn't true. Rhysand, the same male who did this:

Rhys threw her an easy smile, one Nesta would have bet was crafted to put people at ease in his oh-so-magnificent presence. The casual smile of a male used to people either fleeing in terror or falling to their knees in worship. “Hello, Gwyn,” he said warmly. “Good to see you again.”

The same male who went on to tell Nesta "You are to treat Gwyn with kindness and respect."

Gwyn didn't fabricate anything and it's honestly sickening to hear the other side say that she did because they don't like her all because of a ship war.

Sarah herself would more than likely be sickened at hearing this. She set Gwyn up with a tragic backstory that she can use to help SA survivors when it comes time for Gwyn story to be told. Because she wouldn't have written Gwyn saying their stories deserve to be heard/told if she didn't have plans for more with Gwyn, and she sure as heck isn't going to make a SA survivor out to fabricate their story and turn out to be evil.

Gwyn's story is going to be heard one way or another, and it's going to be with Azriel, the one who Sarah went back to write who saved her and will be revealed as her mate and who will help her heal even more after what happened to her. Nothing can convince me otherwise.

#gwyneth berdara #pro gwyn #pro gwyneth berdara #saying her story is fabricated is sickening #go get some help if you think this #sa survivor #trigger warning: sa #pro gwynriel #azriel shadowsinger #azriel x gwyn #gwyn x azriel #gwyn acosf #pro gwyneth #gwynriel

[iamgodsoopsie]

Astarion Headcanons (that you probably won't like) Pt. 1:

Part 2 link

BG3 does an excellent job at depicting SA trauma and the beginning of the healing process/journey. Many of the headcanons I've seen floating around (intentionally or unintentionally) gloss over the uglier side of healing from (prolonged) trauma. I'm not judging anyone for magically healing him, he's fictional after all, but I'd like to make some more ...realistic... headcanons.

Disclaimer: Everyone's healing process looks different, but they tend share commonalities. These headcanons are based on my own experiences. Not everyone who is healing from their trauma will experience what I have or have experienced it like I have.

[Please don't message me with explicit details about your trauma. I am at the point in my healing journey where I can share my experiences, and commiserate with other's similar experiences, but I am unable to support others in a more personal manner at this time. I wish you the best of luck in your healing process/ journey.]

Spoiler warning

Mental illness, SA, & DV Trigger Warnings

These headcanons are based on an Astarion who is still a spawn and romantically involved with a Tav who honestly loves him and isn't abusive or manipulative. Also Cazador is dead and Astarion got to stab him. They also assume that he himself does not turn into Cazador 2.0 or Wish.com Cazador.

He needs a LOT of love and patience. Which, frankly, many people don't have.

He's messy af. If "Damn bitch, you live like this?" was a person it'd be him. C-PTSD is a hell of a drug. I think he wants to be more organized and clean than he is, it's just going to be a looong process for his inside appearance to match his outside appearance. (His appearance may stay mostly the same or drastically change).

---Don't believe me? Just look at the outside of his tent: it's mostly organized and sophisticated, but the inside is messy and he sleeps on a plank of wood with a threadbare stained blanket.

He'll struggle with control issues rooted in his anxiety until he finds a way to channel that energy in to something productive and/or healthy.

---He'll veer between controlling micromanager (aggressive) and door mat (people pleasing/ passive) until he finds his (assertive) middle ground.

Anger issues ahoy! He went through "200 years of shit. PURE SHIT!" and had to dissociate/repress his feelings to 'survive'.

---Stabbing Cazador was cathartic, but it only released the surface level of his repressed rage.

-----An interesting line from the game that I haven't seen enough people talk about: When you tell Astarion to keep his cool when Cazador is goading him, Cazador scoffs and sarcastically asks Tav if they've witnessed his "fits of rage". (Of course a "fit of rage" to Cazador is probably Astaion having a slight frown when Cazador wants him to smile and be a pretty toy to show off.)

He will try to push you away and 'test' you to see if you stay consistent in respecting him and his boundaries. He needs to make sure you don't turn into a Cazador when you two are in an argument. He needs to be sure that his "No" is respected when in a steamy moment after a dry spell.

---This probably won't be as intense as it otherwise would've been because of what you two went through together, but he'll still do it.

-----He probably doesn't realize what he's doing, and when he does he'll shame spiral.

I hope you are prepared to patiently give lots of reassurance and affirmation about the same things over and over again.

---It'll sometimes seem as though he is seeking permission, but if you ever act as though you are giving him permission instead of affirmation/ reassurance he will become very defensive.

He's indecisive but unwilling to listen to your input.

---He went from 200 years of having no control or ability to make his own decisions to suddenly being free, he's going to feel overwhelmed.

-----He'll eventually realize that you have his best interest at heart and that you are not telling him what to do, you're offering suggestions to help him make an informed decision.

There's so much more but I'm tired. He'll eventually heal and live a happy and healthy life, but it'll be a bumpy road to get there.

#astarion #astarion headcanons #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 #bg3 spoilers #sa survivor #tw abuse #tw sa #tw dv #tw mental illness #astarion x tav #astarion x reader #astarion ancunin #astarion hc #im projecting #i came out of hiatus to write this #astarion headcanon #mental health is hard #cw #heavy themes