#sad as fuck

[luvskywxlker]

If I could just be in his arms! Things would be better !!!

#sad as fuck #anakin skywalker #hayden christensen #anakin skywalker x reader #anakin imagine #anakin x reader #skywxlkerconvo

[cleosmasterpiece]

It’s a constant war between wanting to die and wanting to live

#mental health #depressing shit #kinda depressing #tw depressing thoughts #major depression #bpd mood #bpd thoughts #bpd feels #mentally unstable #major depressive disorder #disappointed #sad as fuck #tw depressing stuff #tw unalive #tw depression #tw depressing shit #tw depressive

[a-victorian-girl]

While listening to 'The Moment I Knew' (by Taylor Swift) -and feeling all the sadness and disappointment in her song-, I thought about John.

Because I'm sure he must have felt very similar to Taylor when Sherlock didn't show up to his birthday dinner.

You should've been there Should've burst through the door With that "Baby, I'm right here" smile And it would've felt like A million little shining stars had just aligned And I would've been so happy Christmas lights glisten I've got my eye on the door Just waiting for you to walk in But the time is ticking... (...) And what do you do when the one who means the most to you Is the one who didn't show? You should've been here And I would've been so happy (...) And they're all standing around me singing "Happy birthday to you" But there was one thing missing (...)

@safedistancefrombeingsmart @topsyturvy-turtely @gregorovitchworld @totallysilvergirl @sabsi221b @jawnscoffee @jobooksncoffee @helloliriels @calaisreno @windyspring @meetinginsamarra @kettykika78 @asherloki @gaylilsherlock @catlock-holmes @sarahthecoat @inevitably-johnlocked @peanitbear @toccata-i-voir @221beloved @chocolate1elise @whatnext2020 @happydistraction @ben-locked @jameshavinganxiety

#sad as fuck #sorry for that #sad birthday #fic prompt #bbc sherlock #sherlock #many happy returns #sherlock bbc #martin freeman #john watson #johnlock #Spotify #taylor swift #taylor swift lyrics #artists on tumblr #vicky observe #vicky retouch

[x0x0stuff]

🖤🖤🖤

Ich kann nicht mehr. Ich fühl mich so allein und verletzt und kaputt..

#selbstmordgedanken #borderline problems #so sad #black tumblr #allein #i hate everything #fuck life #müde vom leben #sad quotes #sadgirl #suizigedanken #suizidal #ich will nicht mehr #artists on tumblr #sad as fuck #borderline personality disorder #SoundCloud

[siriuslydying]

How do you sleep at night knowing that Regulus would pick Sirius in a room full of people, but Sirius would always pick James?

#marauders #marauders era #regulus black #james potter #sirius black #sad as fuck #this shit made me cry

[pinkhellhasademon]

Birthday boi... No because his story is so sadd!! :'( it gets me everytime..💔💔💔

#regular show fandom #regular show fanart #regular show thomas #thomas regular show #thomas/nikolai #regular show oc #art #artist on tumblr #anime #anime fanart #anime and manga #anime art #cartoon network #anime aesthetic #anime sad #sad as fuck #sad boi shit #cartoon history #cartoon network fanart #digital drawing #i drew this with my finger #digital painting #digitalart #fan art

[ur1vr]

❤️‍🩹.

hobie brown x fem! reader

tw/cw: angsty, character death (not sayin who), hobie cryinOMFG THIS HURTS TO TYPE, medium description of blood, suicidal thoughts, suicide, sad shit EVERYWHERE…I APOLOGIZE, mentions of sharp objects.

listen to so my darling-rachel chinouriri, or la lune- billie marten <3 (both fucking hurt🫡)

you’re tired. you tired of all these fucking canon events. They tire you so much. You cry in stress in your room every night, everything piles up onto you. Miguel and his harsh comments, your loved ones passing away, you failing school, your parents hating you, it just never stops. You just wish it could end, and you’ve tried. pills, the sharpened knife on your kitchen counter, trying to kill yourself in your bathtub, letting the cold water go up your nose and into your ears. you’ve tried, but nothing ever worked.

One night you thought of trying again. As you were getting up to leave your room a portal opened, but you didn’t even bother turning around. “you okay love?” the familiar voice echoed through your room. You nodded slowly, but you knew he wasn’t gonna take that as an answer. He steps in front of you, looking at you with concern and worry. “ya know you can talk to me, right? Im here if you need me.” you looked at him with glassy eyes, tears already falling. “hey hey hey whats going on love?” you tried your best to make words, despite your shaky voice. “hobie i cant- im so like..fucking tired. im tired of a-all this bullshit on me and im at my breaking point where i might just k-“ “do not say that.” hobie says sternly, but with care.

You slowly realize that his eyes are glassy too, making you break down. “we need you here, I need you here. I need you here more than anyone else on the team, m’kay?” he says while looking at you, tears threatening to spill. “Im sorry.” you say. “what are you sorry about? what do you mean?” hobies breathing slowly turning uneven. He doesn’t wanna know, but he feels like he does. Then it clicks. “oh my god no.” “nonononono” he frantically checks on you then he rolls up your sleeves. fuck. He looks at you with…an emotion you can’t decipher well, which is making you nauseous. “you said you stopped” at this point you were full on sobbing at his words. “why did you lie? i could’ve helped yo-“ you push him away for a moment, confused.

“What do you mean could’ve..?” hobie takes a deep breath. “I meant it as why didn’t you tell me while you we-“ “WHAT DO YOU MEAN WHILE??” your sadness turned into anger. “SO YOUR TELLING ME YOU CANT HELP ME ANYMO-“

“NO I CANT. I CANT HELP YOU. YOU WANNA KNOW WHY? BECAUSE ITS GOTTEN TO A POINT WHERE NOT EVEN A REGULAR PERSON LIKE ME CAN HELP. YOU NEED PROFESSIONAL HELP, CANT YOU SEE? LOOK AT YOUR ARMS LOVE AND Y-YOUR-“ hobie staggers down a bit crying and heavily breathing. “hobie..please.” “hobie look at me, talk to me please.” Hobie puts his head in hands and your heart shatters to the floor. “cmere.” he suddenly says with a scratchy voice. You immediately go to him and hug him like never before, and he hugs back just as tightly, kissing the side of your head still crying. “Im so so s-sorry hobie..please forgive me.” You plead as if he would disappear at any moment.

*time skip🫡*

you and hobie are cuddled on your bed, but you can’t sleep. You stare at your ceiling, only thinking of him. The tears that welled in his eyes, the sadness in his voice, the guilt. It made you want to cry even harder, wondering why you could’ve just fucking stopped. You turn your head to look at him, tears streaming down your face. Hes sound asleep next to you, but you just wanna wonder what hes thinking of. Does he hate you now? It scrambled through your mind. and you thought of something again, but ended up whispering it. “im so sorry hobie, i cant do this, it wont stop at all.” you kiss his forehead tearfully and get up. you find a piece of paper laying at your desk, looking up, you see pictures and polaroids of you both smiling and laughing. A picture of your first date. The kiss at the firework show. You guys at the park. you sniff as you grab a pen and start scribbling down: “im so sorry hobes, i wish i could’ve stayed longer my love. Thank you for everything, i love you so much my little spider-punk.”

You slowly get up and place the paper where you were laying down. you look at your loving boyfriend one last time, before entering the kitchen. You end up finding the knife. “He tried hiding it…” you say quietly crying. You raise the knife to your wrist, targeting your vein roughly, and the rest went from a blur to pitch black. Hobie wakes up in the middle of the night and feels an empty space on the bed. He frantically jumps and looks around the room and finds the paper. He reads it, and tears start flowing like a waterfall down his face. He immediately stands up and yells your name, trying to find you around the house…and when he finds you, its heart breaking. He finds you unconscious on the cold floor, blood slightly seeping from your arm. “nonono please PLEASE.” He yells as he picks you up, lifting your head first. “look at me baby-look at me please, please love don’t die on me my love please” he says while sobbing, trying to find any sign of life in your face.

but he finds none.

#hobie x reader #hobie astv #hobie brown #sad as fuck #i apologize #spiderman across the spiderverse #hobie angst #Spotify #angst #spider punk

[k-i-l-l-e-r-b-e-e-6-9]

𝔖𝔠𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔡𝔩𝔢𝔯'𝔰 𝔏𝔦𝔰𝔱  𝔩𝔦𝔱𝔱𝔩𝔢 𝔤𝔦𝔯𝔩 𝔦𝔫 𝔯𝔢𝔡 𝔦𝔰 𝔡𝔢𝔞𝔡

𝔖𝔠𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔡𝔩𝔢𝔯'𝔰 𝔏𝔦𝔰𝔱 𝔦𝔰 𝔞 յգգՅ 𝔄𝔪𝔢𝔯𝔦𝔠𝔞𝔫 𝔢𝔭𝔦𝔠 𝔥𝔦𝔰𝔱𝔬𝔯𝔦𝔠𝔞𝔩 𝔡𝔯𝔞𝔪𝔞 𝔣𝔦𝔩𝔪 𝔡𝔦𝔯𝔢𝔠𝔱𝔢𝔡 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔭𝔯𝔬𝔡𝔲𝔠𝔢𝔡 𝔟𝔶 𝔖𝔱𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔫 𝔖𝔭𝔦𝔢𝔩𝔟𝔢𝔯𝔤 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔴𝔯𝔦𝔱𝔱𝔢𝔫 𝔟𝔶 𝔖𝔱𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔫 ℨ𝔞𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔦𝔞𝔫.

#Schindler's List #little girl in red is dead #1993 #90's #90s #epic historical drama film #Steven Zaillian. #Steven Spielberg #drama movies #drama #war movies #WW II #second world war #Holocaust #sad as fuck #my gifs #gif #my edit #gifs

[megumiswife4]

Someone on Twitter really said “You think megumis shikigamis will recognize that it’s not him in there?” Like BRO how sad don’t make me sad asf rn.

#gojo satoru #jujutsu kaisen #megumi fushiguro #yuji itadori #toji fushiguro #nanami kento #nobara kugisaki #sad as fuck

[fullofcake]

Babes I want to go to an aquarium so fucking bad rn for 2 reasons only

jellyfish

touchin da stingy rays (if possible)

#aquarium #i want to touch stingrays #and look at jellyfish #i want to do this so bad rn but its late and there are no squariums near where I live #:( #sad as fuck

[i-hate-yuo]

Why the absolute FUCK am I still here

#tw death #selfhatred #suffer #drugs #givenup #sad as fuck #i’m just so sad #im sad now #fuck it #i hate being alive #i hate living #work anxiety #social anxiety #anxiety dreams #agoraphobia #agoraphobic #i hate you #please help #please stop #help me #please just fucking help me #trans man #transition #lgbt

[hobohobgoblim]

I've been in a rut. There are simple, doable things that could get me put, but even though I want to feel better, I don't want to do them. I just want to run away. Reinvent myself. Dissappear. Life asks too much of a girl living in the shadow of Armegeddon.

#sad as fuck #sad thoughts #trans #the end of the f***ing world

[vani-is-typing]

Ep 10 of Celebrity is heartbreaking. That's all I have to say. And I may have also involuntarily found out who _bbbfamous is. I definitely did not go searching for it.

Definitely not.

#netflix #trending #celebs #celebrity #netflix celebrity #celebrity kdrama #kdrama #seo ari #celebrity netflix #han jun kyoung #yoon si yoon #i'm hooked #sad as fuck #park gyu young

[siriuslydying]

When Regulus got the dark mark, he spent hours in the shower foolishly scrubbing it, trying to take it off until his skin was bright red. When he finally gave up, he sat on the floor and cried his heart out.

#marauders #marauders era #regulus black #death eaters #dark mark #sad as fuck #regulus black deserved better

[neo-clown]

☆...I'm never going to experience teenage love and i regret it...☆

#moodboard #grungy aesthetic #sad as fuck #teenage life #teenage love #neoncore #literally me #female rage #Spotify #tumblrpost #tumblr fyp #sad life #it girl #i just want to be loved #feeling

[ur1vr]

je te laisserai des mots.

hobie brown x reader

tw/cw: angsty as FUCK, character death (guys pls don’t come for me), reader is happy then gets hit with alot of sad shit💔 brief description of blood/vomiting..this story had me crying while typing

(they both play piano btw)

listen to to the title of the song 🫂

i used to have a neighbor.

His name was hobie. I usually called him “bee”. I found out he lived next to me through my favorite instrument, the piano. The piano was my way of letting my emotions out. I played and played almost everyday. Soon enough, i heard the same notes through my wall. I was surprised, at first, i didn’t know that my neighbor played the same thing as me. I felt..happy.

As evenings went by, I mustered up the courage to knock on his door. knocked once. twice.

“maybe he’s not the type to answer the door like that. eh, i respect it.” i shrugged off as i went back to my apartment.

One day a cute spider-themed sticky note slipped under my door. I went and picked it up:

“sorry for not answerin !! was busy :[“

thats cute.. i smiled slightly as i left my apartment to go to his. I knocked on his door. once. twi-

He opened the door, dressed in sweatpants and an oversized shirt. He looked so so pretty. At first he was surprised why i came by, but then i held the sticky note up and slightly laughed. “Saw this just now.” You say while smiling. “Well.. i wonder who put it there” he jokingly says as he takes the sticky note from my hand, inspecting it on purpose like some detective. I laughed as i took it from him, stuck it on the side of his face, and walked into his apartment.

It was nicely decorated, plants and little trinkets here and there, but i looked to my right and saw his beautiful piano that i’ve been hearing through my walls. It was just like mine really, but different colors and-decorations. Mine was decorated with pink fake tulips on one side and a framed photo of my friends on the other, but his made me want to cry.

His was decorated with a polaroid of his friends that laid on the top part, and on the other side, was a framed photo of his mother. He kept his prized possession in shape. “Wow hobie..your piano its- beautiful.” i say as i look at it. “It’s okay, you can touch it if you’d like. jus’ not the- frame.” i look at him with a small pang in my chest. He looks at the framed photo of his beautiful mother for a good minute. He looked, sad..as if he’s been mourning for months at a time. “I’m so, so sorry for your loss hobie.” I said with comfort as i embraced him into a hug. I felt a spot my sweater turn moist. “m’ sorry love..didn’t mean to get so emotional and ruin your sweater… i jus’ feel hopeless right now.” he says, while whispering the last part knowing i couldn’t hear it, breaks out of the hug and slightly chuckles as he wipes his tears. “It’s okay, don’t worry.” I rub his arm soothingly. “so you uhm-“ he clears his throat. “Wanna play something?” I nod in agreement as we both went to sit on the long bench.

“Theres this one song i’d like to show you”

“alright, what’s it called?”

“je te laisserai des mots…was my moms favorite.”

As days like this went by, we became close friends through our hobbies and most of all..the piano, of course. One day it was raining, and i didn’t feel like doing much. I went to my piano and played the melody of the song. I started to play it daily just as practice, but now its ingrained in my mind. While i was playing, a familiar series of notes started playing through my wall. “it’s bee” i thought. We ended up playing through the whole song, our notes melting together smoothly, even though the wall separated us. Once we finished, i got up to head to my room until i heard a light sound. taptaptaptap. I laughed as i turned around, knowing where it was coming from. It was hobie, trying to make some type of sound to make it seem like he was clapping. I ended up doing the same, and it ended with laughter.

Time went by, and some things started to go, off-key. Some nights, i heard the sound of things being knocked down, or even worse, sobs. Sobs of someone i knew. I tried reaching out, but he would never open his door. I tried playing piano, no response back. I even tried his favorite. no answer. I started getting worried. I went to knock on his door. once. twice. another time. and anothe-

He opened the door slightly, and the state he was in almost made me cry on the spot. His eyes were glassy, some small tears escaping. he was wearing a long sleeved jacket, small blotches of red seeping through, some already dried. “Bee are you alr-“ “m’ fine. Jus’ leave..please.” I look at him with concern as i try again. “I’m here if you nee-“ “Jus’ go away.” He looks up at me sadly, as a signal to go. I nod in defeat as i walk back, tears flowing down my face. I tried my hardest to help him, but he kept pushing it away. It hurt me deeply. So i tried playing piano again, letting the notes echo through my space, desperately hoping that he responds back. Absolutely nothing. I stared at my hands placed on the ending note, and tears escaped from my eyes. I bit my lip, trying to suppress my cries. I end up going to bed hopeless. As i was going to bed i heard footsteps around his place. I really hope you heard what i played, please respond back. I pray in my head as i drift off into sleep.

I was woken up abruptly by a loud siren. I look out the window, flashes of red and blue. I see police cars and an…ambulance? An ambulance, nonononono. I thought loudly as i rushed out to see where the paramedics were going to. They were entering his house. Hobies house. I try to move through the small crowd of neighbors from other apartments to see the scene. When i saw what was happening, i couldn’t believe it. “Oh my god.. oh my god no no no no” i repeated as tears streamed down my face. I ask one of the police officers desperately, repeatedly asking “whats going on?” “Where are you taking him?” Questions turned into pleas. “He’s my close friend” “He’s the only thing i have at the moment.” “Please tell me.” “Please let me see him.” But then he moved away from me as of the paramedics called him into the house. When he walked back out, i could see the grief in his eyes.

“I’m sorry, but im afraid hobie has passed away due to an attempted suicide.”

My whole body felt like shutting down at that moment. My stomach fell to the floor. I felt like vomiting. My breaths quickened. “W-W-what are you talking a-about?” “N-no. He can’t be..nonono he can’t be dead. HE CANT BE.” i felt like passing out. I almost collapsed but the policeman held me up. I ended up being taken back into my apartment, but i tried not to. I didn’t want to. “No please p-please please let me see him one last time, let me see his face sir please…you don’t understand-you don’t understand-“ i sobbed uncontrollably as i was taken back.

From that day forward, i swore to never touch my piano again. But i wanted to pursue it, just for him. I attended his funeral, and i’ve always been visiting his grave. “You wouldn’t believe what i found in this box i had in my closet bee.” I whisper as i pulled out a polaroid from years ago. It was a photo of us both making stupid faces while we sat in front of the piano. “I guess we got bored in this one.” I laughed as i admired the photo, admiring him. “You were taken too soon bee…why?” I broke down. “Why didn’t you tell me anything? Did you think you would’ve looked vulnerable?” I asked sadly, like he would answer me in a second. I sniffled as i placed the cute photo beside the banquet of tulips. “I miss you so much..” i looked up at the sky painted by the sunset and hummed his favorite song.

“Je te laisserai des mots

En-dessous de ta porte…”

#hobie brown #hobie spiderverse #hobie angst #angst #angsty #spider punk #hobie x reader #spiderman across the spiderverse #hobie astv #sad as fuck #im done #im cryin #Spotify