I actually really like what you’re doing with Crowfeather, he feels a bit like a foil to Bramblestar almost. They’re both prophesied Sundrown Patrol cats who end up being awful fathers and bad people. But, Crowfeather matures and changes his behavior. He can never fix what’s already broken, he’ll never be close to Breezepelt or his Grandkits, but Can still become a better person, and he’s still willing to put in the work to change.
Bramble is the opposite. He never matures, he changes for the worse. He looks at the broken shards of his relationships with Squirrel and The Three and instead of attempting to fix it he doubles down and drags the remains through the mud. He gets a second chance to be a good father, now to Spark and Alder, and without care or hesitation he tears opportunity apart. What’s already broken can never be fixed, but unlike Crowfeather he will never be willing to change just for the sake of being better.
Exactly, like... my intentions aren't to 'redeem' every bad parent or family member, or totally erase how they hurt their kids. I think it's especially important to show situations that can't be fixed, and people who never do get better.
But you don't have to be 'rewarded' with a person's time or attention to make that effort worth it. Being a better person has its rewards in the new bonds you can forge, and the meaning you can find in other things. You're never too far gone to be unworthy of happiness and fulfillment, even if there are things that will never be the same.
I think being like Bramble is a very lonely experience. It sucks to be like that. People end up drifting away from mistreatment, which just prompts the abuser to claw harder and hold on tighter to what they haven't already lost, in an endless loop. It's really sad AND infuriating, it's like watching someone try to fill a vertical hole with tears and blood.
It was really helpful to me in my own life to realize that, that a person can be hurting, and that still doesn't mean you personally need to give them the time of day. Real pain and trauma in the heart of someone who's hurting you does not entitle them. They can even be trying to make amends-- you don't need to be their salvation. Regret is just how wisdom turns a wound into a scar, y'know?
But anyway, glad to know that my Crowf changes are going over smoothly. I was a bit worried of the response, since I'm both trying to establish he has some serious differences from canon to establish he could be a competent leader AND still keep that he was an abusive father. I hope I'm hitting a good balance.
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you know the more I think about it, the more I think the scene before "If I Loved You" is steph's um silly roundabout attempt to more solidly confirm if Pete could be into her (and have him admit it and make a move already) after like I dunno many other of her attempts in flirting with Pete and asking him out, and then IMMEDIATELY backtracking into "pft I'm a bad bitch I would NEVER go out with a GEEK like you like I need a REAL man pfft" mode in "If I Loved You" after Pete seems to deny him ever wanting to go out with Steph - even though he actually never fucking denies it LIKE HE LEGIT NEVER DOES BOTH IN DIALOGUE AND IN SONG LIKE "who says i wanna go on a date with you anyways?", says pete in a defensive tone with folded arms while looking away from steph after she called him out for not asking her out yet like holy fuck I find this hilariously cute and somehow extremely fucking accurate for teen couples that share this stubbornly defensive i-refuse-to-admit-shit dynamic
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@icarian-carrion Tisha: "Oh yeah totally because the two things everyone knows about me are I definitely want to be immortal and I love dead things."
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"Mortal. Who even are you?"
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I'm actually mad at everyone else in I'll ride, not Mav, because I feel like none of this would have happened if Mav had know there were people who already knew about him and Ice and still loved him and had his back. If he didn't feel so alone with the problem of Tex I don't think he would have done something so drastic. I always wondered if Viper and the flyboys other than Slider knew about them already but they really should have told Mav cuz how can they expect him to go to them for help when he thinks he can't tell them the full story? Having said that, what Mav did was definitely shitty, Ice can make his own decisions. But at the same time I can't really blame him looking at it from his perspective. What can I say, his abandonment issues and self destructive tendencies have captivated me.
Ahhh sorry for the rant, this is has become my favourite fanfic ever and I relate to Mav a little too much. Thank you so much for sharing this story, it certainly gives me something to look forward to!
((((I am legit living for how many people have thoughts about this last chapter because the point is everyone is human and we all make mistakes and Ice isn't perfect and neither is Pete and you can also love the hell out of someone and hurt them at the same time))))
Pete is also just a handful of months out of being completely alone and the double-whammy of losing Goose and Carole barely a year apart. It's only been like 4 months since Ice swanned into his life with the Flyboys right behind him so he doesn't really think of himself as having a support system. Yet.
Don't worry, there's this one guy who is pretty fond of Pete who is good at trying to think of things from his perspective, so there's that, but I don't want to say more because of spoilers
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Have another silly sticker!
The only reason I'm even doing this is that I've only used like SIX of the things over the course of the fic. And most are generic aka the mascot. Which means, one head shape, different expressions! LOL!
Also.... anyone want to tell me if リオシャ would be the right katakana for Lyosha? I don't even really need it, but it'd be nice. (I can't get a consistent katakana conversion)
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It’s kinda fun to draw cutesy fanart of things from like.. super creepy and scary shit! It’s desensitizing sorta (it’s like “awww look! He’s watching his companion saw his foot off! Adorable!” It’s kinda funny)
Anyway! Three of my favourite saw characters. My favourite being Simone (she may not be a major character, but she is in my heart)
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