i keep thinking about jingliu and i wanna write about her bc she’s everything but it would genuinely be the most heart wrenching piece i could ever put out because her and her s/o are so doomed. i can’t wrap my head around how doomed they are like as long life species the mara is an inevitable, debilitating end. even if jingliu hadn’t massacred the cloud knights under her command and fled the xianzhou afterwards, there’s no happy ending for them— eventually they would’ve both been mara struck.
how do you even make peace with that? knowing that if you’re not killed, centuries of your life will be spent in muddling madness, where nothing matters? i just can’t imagine the grief that comes with that acceptance. and what’s crazier is that jingliu didn’t just go mad; she caused a massacre, disappeared for centuries during which every record of her name was scrapped and forgotten out of shame (like it was her fault she was mara struck????? when i catch these people…), then randomly reappeared one day to surrender herself to the alliance’s judgement.
i seriously cannot picture living through that as her s/o, a witness directly affected by her actions and left to pick up the pieces alone because everyone’s fucking dead! yingxing cursed to forget and seek death as he once sought eternal life, dan feng gone, baiheng dead… this is genuinely so tragic i wouldn’t even know how to write this😭 i wanna write about their reunion so bad but i don’t know where to begin— the sheer amount of emotions that would assault me at the sight of her would make me throw up. what would anyone do in this situation like i’m seriously asking help meee
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I will die on the hill of aro Fabian x aroace Riz queer platonic relationship
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My cat started to panic because I took longer to stroke her goodnight than usual and I think she thought I forgot 😭 [crying face emoji]
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out of all of the (many, many, many) miscommunications on dsmp, this one still makes me lose it the most. these two were never on the same page even once and this was the culmination of all of it. 2 entirely different conversations going on
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maybe unpopular opinion but probably one of the least useful pieces of advice I've ever got as an auDHD person to the question of "how tf does one make friends" was to go and join clubs/groups that do hobbies I enjoy. Not only does this not actually answer the question of how to make friends (yknow, how to approach people, how to start a conversation, how to appear friendly enough that they don't immediately reject you for existing, how to actually keep them as friends later on, etc), but also the chance of me choosing to force myself into the discomfort of "making smalltalk with random strangers" is absolutely nonexistent when the alternative of engaging with a hyperfixation is not only socially acceptable but even encouraged
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haven’t been in the donna tag on ao3 in forever because
1. too many people thought she was a top when shes the bottomest bottom on earth. possessive ≠ top, that woman has never had sex in her life she doesn’t know how to eat pussy let’s all be honest with ourselves here
2. ive read so many fics of her lowkey acting like a baby i couldn’t take it anymore 😭 miranda said mentally underdeveloped she didn’t say CHILD
3. not enough people dipped their toes into the creepy horror possessive donna genre and it’s such a shame… out of all the lords she has the potential to be the scariest (house beneviento literally scared tf out of everybody, me included im never going back there) likeee the hallucinogens all around the house, the dolls, the fact that she has no idea how to interact with people, angie etc. i’m begging here
i kinda miss herrrr shes my baby😢 maybe i’ll go read all the new fics she only had a little over 100 fics when i last checked and that was way before RL😭
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The difference between this warm up sketch from today after from not drawing for a week to the most recent sketch from tonight is incomprehensible
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