I can't find the post I made about eating food because it's Good (you know the one) but also:
Please please PLEASE know that you're allowed to enjoy eating. You're allowed to eat because you just like food. You don't need a "perfect" reason, you don't need to justify it, you're allowed to just LIKE to eat.
You aren't a bad person for it, you aren't selfish or gross or anything else that your disorder (or other people) may try to say. You're a person who likes food, and that's a perfectly fine thing to be!
I can promise you that you will never look back on your life and say "I sure am glad that I skipped out on all those meals and treats" Your future self will thank you FOR eating, because you know what comes with food? Memories. You know what comes with not eating? Sadness.
We do NOT skip meals because a relative said we've "gotten bigger". We do NOT turn down our favorite treats because someone says "isn't that a bit much". We do NOT miss out on THOUSANDS OF YEARS OF RECIPE PERFECTION just because the diet industry wants you dead. Because your disorder wants you dead. We will eat and we will LIVE because our happiness is more important than other people's judgment on our bodies.
Let yourself like to eat in the same way we let people like to cook. Do what makes you happy. Fuck that "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels" bullshit because you know what feels better than starving yourself? Letting yourself be happy.
[I report thinspo/pro-ED blogs on sight, don't touch this <3]