#school wasnt horrible but i forgot how lonely it was and im overwhelmed and in physical pain and feel super dysphoric so its !! shitty!

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todays mood is angry and sad and!! bad!!

#school wasnt horrible but i forgot how lonely it was and im overwhelmed and in physical pain and feel super dysphoric so its !! shitty! #my teachers are nice but........ idk #i forgot how much it sucked to talk to no one all day #and then feel unbearably anxious when im forced to talk #i lie down #im super good at adapting but i really can never shake the loneliness and just #i feel so angry and sad that i just dont have. choices and options and stuff #not where it matters anyways #it dosent matter how overwhelming and harmful this school becomes to me i dont have the option to leave #anyways the work load is supposed to be A Lot and for someone like me who feels like if they arent perfect theyre a failure? its rough #rant #vent