#self cut

[outstandingmenshair]

Fella ploughs through his salt & pepper pomp. Fun times! 

#youtube #Headshave #Transformation #Long to Short #Before and After #Self Cut #Pompadour #Quiff #Blowout #Buzzcut #Bald #Baldie #Baldy

[sadstoriesita]

Sono morta dentro capito?

Il mio cuore non batte più.

L'ho sentito fermarsi.

Ha sofferto davvero troppo e crepa dopo crepa si è spento per sempre.

Non riesco più a sentire niente, non riesco più a provare emozioni.

L'unico modo per sentire qualcosa per me è prendere in mano la lametta e dipingere di rosso la mia tela.

Ecco, un frammento di luce tremolante, fuori esce dalle crepe, peccato che cessa dopo pochi secondi, fermandosi.

Voglio solo sedermi sul letto e stare lì a guardare il vuoto mentre mi faccio mangiare dai miei pensieri e dai miei ricordi.

Fino a quando non raggiungo la dissociazione e di nuovo per tornare in me e a sentire qualcosa ho bisogno di tingere la tela che è sempre a portata di mano.

Zack!

Sollievo, tornata la luce…

#sh #autolesionismo #depressione #tw sh #self cut

[lost-my-way-there]

I wanna cut myself...

🔪🍷

#tw self harm #self cut #tw self destruction #chronic pain #chronic mental illness #mood disorder #Tumblr is a hypocrite

[leftsidelulu]

A practice in perception through trial, and error; such is the performance.🪞✨

#nonbinary #black #trans #trans masc #I haven’t taken photos of myself in ages #no time like the present #fashion #fake deep #braids #I need to give myself a line up eventually #self cut #queer #black queer #black qpoc

[inkskinned]

something bad happened to you, and you died, and you came back wrong.

not wrong all the way. the little ways. you forget important dates, stopped going out with friends. it's harder to make you smile. you're apathetic towards things you used to love, afraid of places you used to go to cheer up. quieter. flinching. different.

you came back for love. you're still here for love. what pulled you back was a brightness so loud that even death couldn't outshout it. death heard the call and smiled at you and said okay. go home. somebody is waiting for you.

but you came back different. like lot's wife; you've turned into salt. you used to chirp through life in hops and skips; but now you lose skin just standing up. you have to move slower, skimming across this world without-touching-it. most things feel dull - until they're suddenly all-too-much. life, and being alive just rushes up and over you and you get hopelessly crushed.

you try to explain it to them: it is ugly, but this is what you are, now. the huge golden hoop of your halo now a little bronze ring. you are still watering your plants and wearing the same clothes. after all, you worked hard to come home. this life; so odd and off-color, now that you are wrong.

but they waited for you - it's just that they wanted the "you" that happened before this. the "you" that could sing in the show and hug people tight and look at a blade without breaking down to cry. the you with a smile in pictures. god, holyshit, it's like looking at a completely different person, isn't it. that other-you; the one they actually wanted.

you are the consolation prize. you are the body that forgot the ghost. you are the memory of the bad thing, and the death after; like you are wearing that memory as a banner. you are a fragment, an assembly. simulacrum. you don't make eye contact in mirrors, afraid the light will glance off and your true nature will flash back at you.

you hear them talk about it in their hushed, desperate whispers. sometimes they even admit it to your face; harsh and violent, acid thrown at christmas dinner. god, can you just fucking be normal again. you do not remember what normal is. you had to climb so far to get back here; you are far too exhausted. you want to open the glass door of your heart and show all the gears. can you help resolve whatever got messed up?

you try so, so hard. you came back for them. because you believed they would love you, even when you were so horribly broken. because you believed they would be patient. because you believed unconditional meant "without exception." you cannot do things the same way. you just get tired too quickly these days.

you want to put them on a couch and pour them the tea with hands that shake more than they remember. you want to line them up and draw them a map of where you have had to wander. you want to show every bruise in a backsplash; the little helpless ant of your soul carrying all that weight, over and over. you want to say: yes! it is different! but i did it for love!

you want to say: "i'm not the same, but i'm yours and i'm here. can that be enough?"

#this is very obviously about my battle with #ptsd #but i think it's also like a pretty apt metaphor for a lot of things like setting boundaries or going to therapy or choosing recovery #i was thinking about the 'comes back wrong' trope and i was like. oh no i have feelings about this bc i have mental illness #and once i stopped masking - i was WRONG. i was different #here's the good news: i am now INNUNDATED with love. fucking swimming in it. excelling at it. the people who stayed #learned my new self. my new different body and how i am different but i am trying. they have held me so tightly #and my life no longer feels quiet. it is not based in my suffering. it feels like i have been growing a tree in my chest #and now it is flowering. #it is so lovely to be surrounded by people who have said - oh! you cut off so many branches i was worried you weren't the same. but now... #... this is just a new you. and i love you. and i love that you're different and happy. #(but yeah also im nb so i was absolutely influenced by Trans things)

[guitarplayermrs]

#sad #depressed #suicidal #depressing #depression #suicide #self harm #self-harm #selfharm #cutting #scars #cut #self destruction #i wanna die #self destructive #low self esteem #broken #low self confidence #low self worth #low self everything #sadness #eating disorders #messed up

[ministarfruit]

ALRIGHT FEMSLASHFEBLINGS bet you thought you'd seen the last of me, well, not so fast! here's next year's prompt list... with a twist. we're going EVIL, baby 💜

if you're new here, I do this every year!! can be any form of media, the only rule is to make it femslash (term is loose, whatever sapphic/GL/yuri content you want, throw 'em in the ring) and you can do as much or as little as you please. no series restrictions but please tag warnings appropriately. thanks and mwah mwah!

see you in february!

(full prompt list in text under the cut)

femslashfeb2024 (evil edition):

if only

please be gentle

your life is mine

doomed by the narrative

hands for holding

it still bleeds

come back soon

living dead

in the shadows

love is devotion

alternate timeline

karma

goddess

before you go

haunting

hourglass

weapons

once upon a time

partners-in-crime

chose violence

fantasy

anything for you

copycat

plagued by the horrors

your voice

apocalypse

diamond

made you smile

and then I found you

(p.s. no it doesn't have to be evil. take the prompts however you wish!)

#BUCKLE UP WE'RE GOING TO YURI TOWN #minifemslashfeb2024 #yes I know the tag is long but it's self-explanatory #if I try to cut it down then it confuses people #ANYWAY PROMPT LIST IS LIVE #DO WITH IT WHAT YOU WILL #MWAH!! #personal #tagging so I don't lose it LMAO

[strozzaprete]

holding grudges against people who have done unforgivable things to you especially if they show 0 remorse is actually really healthy for you it helps your brain build pattern recognition and boundary-making skills and it's a show of self respect self preservation and self love

#''forgiving'' people against my better judgement has never worked out well for me #cutting people out of my life without giving them reason to feel self-righteous though... perfect

[slfcare]

If you’re unhappy with who you are, view yourself as a foundation. You will expand, you will grow and you will reassess, while also realizing that who you are is necessary to who you’re becoming, and that there’s an inherent goodness inside of you already. It’s okay to start from where you are, with who you are.

#cut them some slack as you go #the healing (starts here) #growth in the self

[depression-took-over-my-liiife]

#depressed #depression #alone #lonely #sadness #sad #mad #madness #angry #hate #selfharm #self harm #cutting #cut #cuts #scars #suicide #suicidal #black and white

[lazycranberrydoodles]

i think the barbie movie would have a profound psychological impact on hua cheng

prev comic / next comic / follow for still more hualian barbie movie content because i am not done

bonus angsty version 🎉 i hate love expressions just a couple tiny lines on the mouth and eyebrows and it goes from silly to sad

:(

#this is a haha hua cheng devoted joke but idk it’s nice to think about how much of his identity and self worth is placed on xie lian #obviously since he was 10 most of his major life choices were to serve the crown prince #but in the interval time he became one of the most dangerous men in the world and decided it was his responsibility to create a ghost haven #he works on artistic mastery and alternatively brokers deals with and evades assassination attempts by heaven #if asked i think he would say he only does good for dianxia’s sake (What Would Dianxia Do) and is actually a bad person #and similar stuff about his combat and art skills #theres a question here about how much of his success is due to being such a determined person and how much #of it is luck from ‘the savior’ reversing the star of solitude #how much hua cheng is left when you take away xie lian? #he would say nothing #xie lian would say a billionaire genius playboy philantrophist etc #tgcf looooooves to talk about destiny and free will and so do i #all this to say if it was in character for hua cheng to cry at a movie hed be sobbing #this can be read as pre or post confession btw #the poll decided which version of the comic was the ‘main version’ above the cut #tgcf #art #comic #hualian #hua cheng #xie lian #tian guan ci fu #heaven official's blessing #hob #mxtx #my art #barbie #barbie movie #tgcf meme #lmao

[daily-odile]

everything is the same except Odile is the one looping

oh. heheheheh. muahahahaha. hold on *digs through my pile of disorganized sketches*

Odile loops au; a sketch compilation!!

Some old fic drabbles + associated sketches under cut (a6 secret spoilers):

hc: Since equipment carries over, as long as Odile uses her book in a fight, she can write down notes and have it carry over loops

toxic doomed yuri (for a more fleshed out fic I highly recommend The Sweetest Thing by soreimoon, it's amazing)

#isat #odile loops au #in stars and time #isat spoilers #isat odile #odile timeloop au #isat au #congrats on unleashing the hell gates of odile looping au!!! I've thought about it a bunch!!!!! #contexts: #candy is a reference to sasasap i think. not sure if odile likes candy though #i think it'd be funny if odile struggled with understanding how shields work for a bit. she spends several loops asking mirabelle for help #I think odile would actually spend more time in the loops once she's sure she can just loop again. They're not actually in a rush after all #and she might as well maximize her loops #under cut: #she leaves all of her excess books with loop. Loop has another thing to do while waiting #yes loop is still you know who in this one #toxic doomed yuri is just very self indulgent teehee thanks discord folks #not depicted: I also think that the more loops she does the more she views them as experiments #with variables to control and test #that's where she starts falling off the deep end and start testing stuff like. not warning siffrin about the rock #(instantly regrets it though. loops back the first time she tries) #day 26 today? #A big one! Have funnn #you can tell some of these are really old by the different colored background lmfao

[proudfreakmetarusonniku]

but also like. guys you don’t need to leave the minecraft youtube community bc one person is bad to clarify. like. shelby is a minecraft youtuber. a lot of her friends are minecraft youtubers. those friends are supportive and as far as we know all believe her. the vast majority of minecraft youtubers are like. fine. this shit is something that Happens because Abusers are Manipulative, going to another hobby will Not shield you from anything and you’re not immoral for liking something bad people also liked. which is. one of the biggest video games ever. like in this situation no one was knowingly harbouring an abuser and it seems everyone was supportive. this is just a case of some people being shit, not anything to do with mcyt. hell, the guy hasn’t been on minecraft in like a year lmao.

i fully understand why the content might be uncomfortable to you guys now but like, please don’t self flagellate and cut yourself off from an entire genre of media because of one guy again. i saw that happen after the dream stuff and a lot of people ended up losing important things because they made rash decisions and felt like they Had to leave. but please. take one deep fucking breath. this has happened before. this has happened so much before, and in ways far worse than this. because abusers, unfortunately, exist. you should not feel guilty for being manipulated by a manipulative abuser, don’t blame yourself. do what you have to, but please, please keep in mind that the majority of minecraft youtube is fine. it is fine to continue engaging with it. it’s fine to be manipulated by an abuser and it’s not your fault. please don’t make rash decisions and end up losing things you care deeply about and being unable to get them back. distance yourself all you want, but please be careful to not do so out of emotional self harm from the guilt. that’s something this fandom encourages far too much- even outside of this- and it’s unhealthy and anyone expecting it of you is cruel.

#mcyt #abuse tw #i guess this is discourse idk but like #this happened two years ago and the amount of people who realised cutting themselves off from All mcyt was self harm and came back #only to have lost a lot of content they created and valued because they wanted to punish themselves for trusting a predator #and like. you’re victim blaming yourself. obviously you are not anywhere near as much a victim as The victim #but being manipulated into supporting abusers is still something that is an action they take to harm others #Being used as a tool to silence others unknowingly is a cruel thing and can be traumatic to go through #its honestly really concerning as someone working on their own emotional self harm to see it. like this isn’t about anyone in specific but #guys. emotionally self harming isn’t helping. you don’t need punishment. breathe and think through things.

[lost-my-way-there]

I saw a police woman today whose arm was scarred with dozens of white lines of self harm scars... It was so clear that they were done by razor blades, and they were so visible... I don't think she noticed, but I stared like a creep— and I was triggered af. Thinking that I wanted to hurt myself like that... and I wanted it to scar like that...

#chronic mental illness #chronic pain #tw self harm #bpd #tw suicide ideation #the scars were pretty #self cut

[itty-bitty-sunshine]

Late night talk

#Ignore the cut on speech bubble it was vent #i just really liked how moon turned out despite this being a 3am doodle #not au related #dca fandom #doodles #dca fnaf #dca moon #self insert #sunshine draws

[yamineftis-art]

This is the way, brother.

I’m still kinda mad we didn’t get more Paz content before his demise, I so wish we could have seen more of his relationship with Din :’)

Anyway, this is just me coping lmao

#the mandalorian #paz vizsla #din djarin #grogu #ragnar vizsla #the armorer #this was supposed to be just a couple of panels but as always I love to make my life difficult #I had to cut a lot cuz I'm hella busy and I wanted to finish it already too kajhdkajs #also #yes I wanted to despict young Din as kind of a brat #the prisoner episode gives us light on his young more reckless and ruthless self after all #themandaloriandaily #star wars