#self harmer

[covered-in-bones]

“Who are you?” They asked.

But the who bounced off all my bones and came back without an answer. I couldn’t tell you who I am. but please don’t ask me what I am because I would have so many answers for you

#survivor #traumatized #victom #mentally ill #depressed #anxious #sad #lonely #deprived #helpless #struggling #ruined #numb #emotional #burden #alcoholic #self harmer #dark thoughts #sad aesthetic #sad poem #sad poetry #sad quotes #sad thoughts #sad brain #sad writing #so sad #tw depressing thoughts

[st-a-y]

Why does physical pain make me feel alive

#pain #depressed #self harm #self harmer #deprssion #anger #angry #hurt #alone #lonely #thoughts #dark thoughts #crazy

[xxlyric-maixx]

I don't usually do this but I'm struggling. Im so utterly lonely and I just need someone to talk to. Im on the verge of giving up and I guess I just need a friend.

#suicidal #depression #depressed #suicide #lonely #alone with my thoughts #self mutalition #self harmer #self injury #bpd #actually bpd #bpd thoughts

[justanotherdepressedhuman96]

When I look down at my arms I see all of the scars and want to create more.

#personal #mental health #mental illness #mentally ill #mentally unwell #depression #depressed #anxiety #borderline personality disorder #bpd #emotional unstable personality disorder #eupd #suicidal #suicidal thoughts #suicidal feelings #thoughts #feelings #thoughts and feelings #self harmer #self harm #blades #the blades are my only friends #cut #cutter #i need to cut #worthless #feeling hurt #emotions #misunderstood #suffering

[is-this-how-it-is-now]

for the first time in a very long time I feel like either cutting myself or killing myself. doesn't feel too great.

#whatever #mental illness #mental health #mental instability #personal #mentally ill #relapse #depressions #depression #depressed #tw self harm #self harm #self harmer #cutter #cutting

[xan-the-emo-trans-man]

TW: talk of suicide

I have a psychiatrist app. next month but idk if I’m gonna make it that far chat

I’ve felt a lot better recently but the depression is still very much there. Don’t worry too much about me, I see my therapist in a couple days, I’m just struggling to keep going and keep acting like I wanna be here

stay strong I love y’all <3

#Mentally ill #mentally drained #mentally insane #mentally exhausted #mentally unstable #actually mentally ill #mentally fucked #mentally tired #mental instability #mental disorder #mental illness #tw suicide #suicidial #tw sui ideation #vent #self harmer

[signalofsadlife]

Ningún sentimiento se compara con llevar años limpia y volver a caer...

#autolesiones #adicción #self harmer

[deftonesrunt]

Shifting update for you bae<3

hi....dear tumblr its me again.....

i ofc didnt shift that 1 november day (i dont remember the date). Anyways imma try n shift tonight even though its a school night. Ik we shouldnt shift to escape but like at this point its like.....kms or shift..... HMMM BITCH IMMA SHIFT. So tonight imma shift. I plan on trying to shift to stranger things. imma look over my script hours before n try this new method i found (forgot the name). Tmr i can tell yall the name and give my experience n tell yall if i liked it or not.

#shifting realities #shifting community #shifter #shifting to my dr #shifting to stranger things #lgbtq #self harmer #tw sui implied

[17illiteratebees]

diversity win! your drug dealer is an asexual child of an addict and self harmer

#heartbreak high #ca$h piggott #me 🤝 cash - asexual children of addicts and self harmers

[thefunkyspoon]

Self-harm is not fun.

Stop romantizing self harm. It's not some edgy aesthetic.

Having your family immediately suspect you when any of the knives or scissors go missing is not fun.

Your family checking your body and arms is not fun.

People asking about your scars is not fun.

Making up lies to keep yourself from pity is not fun.

Self-harm. Is. Not. Fun.

Your family going "what the fuck?" When just seeing your healed scars is not fun.

Having a limp from your cuts is not fun.

People not being convinced your healing/okay bc of your old scars is not fun.

These marks will never go away. Anyone who decides to love me is gonna have to be pretty fucking progressive.

Self-harm is not fun.

#self h@rm #cutters collective #self destruction #stop turning addictions and genuinely painful things into quirky little moods #especially if you aren't a self harmer #mental illness #fucked up #bloody cupcakes #cute monsters #ragdoll #stitch doll #cutting board #not going away #cvtting addict #addiction #sry for the rant #blood bather #poem #psych ward patient #ex coocoo den bird

[transmutationisms]

im a mutual sending this bc i saw you getting hate on that post again but im shy - honestly as a person who used to self-harm when i was younger and still does on infrequent occasions your post was deeply validating.

when i was in intensive care a lot of the time self-harming behavior was automatically conflated with suicidality, when that was never the case for me: i never cut deep enough or in locations where i could have hurt myself in a life-threatening way. cutting was a release valve for extreme stress or feelings of guilt and shame too big to deal with in a "healthy" way at the time because of the circumstances i was in.

ive had to lie to numerous professionals about my self-harming (either the details or that i do it at all) because they assume that i am in need of intensive care and sometimes attempt to institutionalize me instead of listening to me when i say that it's not a risk to my physical health and that there are other far more important factors putting my mental health at risk than the action of self-harm ("poverty" and "being abused", for starters).

also note on my second lil paragraph: although it wasn't the case for me, i feel it necessary to note that i believe people who self-harm due to suicidal ideation or are self-harming in a life-threatening way are also entitled to that agency over their behavior. something that was actually very important for me in dealing with my own suicidality was acknowledging the reality of it. rather than shying away from the question and the idea with "suicide isn't an option" type language, what helped me was framing it as just another choice that i was free to make or not make. it became less taboo and less scary, and therefore easier to deal with because there wasn't as much shame and fear in the mix. what made me stop wanting to kill myself as much as i had before was acknowledging that suicide WAS an option, it just wasn't my BEST option. a similar thing has begun to happen to me with self-harm, now that I've moved out of the abusive situation i grew up in - self-harm is still an option i have in my back pocket for emergencies to deal with feelings, and im allowed to do it, it's just not my best option now that i have more space and time to be myself.

^ 💕

#mutuals we are hanging out and having a self harmers symposiun

[landminetype]

are there any fucking landmine girls on this site who aren't "it's just a fashion" posers or reposting pixiv art/random japanese netizens' selfies without credit.

#vivi.world #i know of two blogs. and that's it #don't fucking call yourself a landmine if you treat self harmers like shit. bare fucking minimum #you walked into a community for the mentally ill. the audacity to gawk and call us the undesirables in our own community is astounding #it's yancourse all over again. #''i just like the yandere aesthetic dni if you're an irl yandere'' so you're cosplaying as a stereotypical bpd gf. got it. fuck off

[maxer-blaster]

Sorry (not THAT sorry) for all the Izzy centric posts but I just realized something

I saw a post saying Izzy puts his hand on candle flames when he lies/conspires against Ed.

And they posited that he did it to punish himself.

So I can't help thinking

He's gonna mess something up, or go against Ed again, and to punish himself, reopen his foot wound

I'm imagining him taking his cane and slamming it down on his injury.

#tw: self loathing #tw:self harm #izzy hands #ofmd #never thought of him as a self harmer until this moment #our flag means death

[mordcore]

processing shit my parents did hours

so in school we had, twice a year, 2 weeks to write all of our exams and deliver all of our presentations, speeches and final projects. 4 weeks of hell per year. december and may. i was the kinda crazy person who self-harmed in exams to force myself to focus so those were probably the times i'd do it the most. i was clearly having burnout and 3 or 4 other problems along with it.

my parents apparently didn't notice or care, because guess what happened the one (1) time i stood up til 3 am to finish my physics project. that's right, i've never pulled an all-nighter, the most i did was stay up til 3 am One Time. did they say "congratulations, we can tell you're working really hard!" or "hey why don't you take a break, grades aren't more important than your health" or just "yeah everyone in your grade is doing that" or maybe even "hey you seem to be struggling to get your stuff done in time, do you need some help?"? no. they said "you clearly don't have your shit together so now you're not allowed to go to your grades' private christmas party". you know, the second party id been invited to At All ever since i was in that particular class with those particular people, who were partying all the time. i somehow managed them to convince me to let me go anyways but i had to humiliatingly leave at midnight so i got to do my part of the gift exchange and then immediately had to go.

not that that one party would have made me be accepted by my peers because following parties i was at and could stay longer didn't do that either but it was a bigger punishment than they might have known also given how i had like, half a friend in the whole country at the time, which i guess they conveniently forgot... but also what the hell kinda attitude is it to punish me for ? struggling with schoolwork??? what the hell is wrong with you.

#my stuff #venty #tw self harm #2 days ago i learnt that that was apparently not average self harmer behavior #idk lol #maybe my parents Did read too much into my giftedness and wanted me to be a specific type of person about it #hah maybe thats why mom thinks i cant have adhd. because she thinks it makes u stupid & unsuccessful and thats not who she thinks i am or #should be #anyway #normal monday morning over here. #also gonna give this a #tw abuse #like i dont see it but im told im not 100% objective about my parents soooo #should i add? i was 16 at the time of this story

[amazinglyegg]

I read your tags on you Boone theory and I completly agree. I used to SH as a teen and young adult in college and I hate that everytime I see rep somewhere, it's a 'woe is me' sad teenage girl who cries while doing so and makes it dramatized as hell when if someone has actually gone through that, it's a casual thing like putting water on to boil. I'd love for once if it was mentioned by a character like Boone, talked about a bit as a tender topic in the past but something learned from, and then never used as something to pick him apart. Nothing like 'What if he does it again? He's fragile and I need to keep him with me to protect him'. As soon as things similar are brought up in a narrative, that's all the writers and Fandom seem to associate the character with and I'd love for Boone to be the outlier and the rep we deserve. Sorry for the rant/ agressive agreement, I'm really passionate about this from my past and Boone being my favorite character in any media.

I'm so glad someone agrees with me on this!

You make a great point with the fact that the fandom (and game developers, truthfully) tends to cling onto characters problems and not focus on anything else. Cait does DRUGS, and Preston is SUICIDAL, and like 10 different characters have DEAD WIVES and the rest of their personality gets forgotten about or overshadowed.

This tends to come naturally due to characters not having much time for plot development, hence why "Cait does drugs" is focused on a lot more often than "Nick has a dead wife", even though those are both the main points of their personal quest. Nick just has way more screen time and thus more personality traits and life experiences for the fandom to cling on to. Cait has 1900 dialogue lines and Nick has 2600 including Far Harbor, just to put it into perspective.

It almost makes me glad the idea of Boone's self harm never gets verbally brought up in game because I know it wouldn't be treated the way it should. Boone is stoic and strong and I know it'd butcher his entire character beyond repair if Bethesda tried to put in a "please stop cutting... for me? 🥺" bit between Six and Boone. Boone isn't a sensitive flower that cries and sheepishly pulls down his hoodie sleeves, he's a grown man who can talk and be talked to like an adult.

If Boone self harming ever did become canon the only way I could see the game dealing with it is the same way you mentioned - "a casual thing like putting water on to boil", because that's how Boone would view it. In a perfect world Boone would have scars visible on his arm that Six could bring up and the conversation would be as curt as literally everything else he says. Something like "Yeah, I used to cut myself. I stopped, though." It doesn't need to be any more than that, really.

It would mean the WORLD to me as someone who's been self harming for seven years now to see truly normal, CASUAL representation. My entire life I've had to cling onto dramatic or romanticized stories of self harm, the whole "she drew a picture on her wrist with a razor as her pen..." garbage just to see myself in any sort of fiction. Googling questions just to get hit with "Is your teen daughter self harming?" as the top results. I cannot think of a SINGLE character in media with visible self harm scars at all, not to mention ones whos self harm is treated respectfully.

At the very least I wish Boone self harming was a more common headcanon. It's hinted at in game and it would be the perfect representation if handled correctly

#SORRY FOR THIS BEING SO LONG! #i just have Many Thoughts on it #it would be different if there was literally any rep anywhere. or if it was normal to hc characters as self harmers #but its such a 'touchy' topic that only ever gets written correctly by actual self harmers #i feel like people would think im insane if i dropped something like 'danse cuts btw' into my headcanon list #when in reality sh is NORMAL. I walk around with short sleeves irl and thats okay and not weird or bad. #and if someone brings up my scars i do not start dramatically sobbing and telling them all my hardships #theres a huge difference between 'something being normal' and 'normalizing something bad' that non self harmers tend not to get #fnv #cw self harm #tw self harm #ask to tag