Today, I take full accountability of my actions and choices. I have made mistakes that I am not proud of. I am willing to forgive myself because perfection isn’t who I am. I recognize I am more than what anyone made me believe about myself. I apologize seriously and work on fixing my mistakes. I breathe and tell myself I am capable and if I have overcome difficult things, I can, I will, I do overcome everything including adaptability, accountability and self love.
I’m a 25 year old mother, unemployed. I am creative and crave knowledge on some things more than others: Astrology, Numerology, God, Psychology, Learning, Child Development, Self-discovery,The Universe, Symbolism and more.
In all these years of my life, I only wanted marriage the most. I’m not talking about marrying for security but for love. Meaning, if my husband fell in love with someone else, he didn’t ever love me. What can I say? Not only am I seriously picky, I’m strict and stern. (lol)
With this I am also overly emotional and have been called childish and dramatic with that, yet my heart feels so much and my mind always captures my fears. Which in turn makes it difficult to keep a relationship for too long because I’m too much, and certainly write and talk too much.
I don’t agree with change and it often brings out this overwhelming anxiety to think about it and getting out of my comfort zone. Remember, I’m only 25.
At 25, I still have no idea what I would crave for in a career, what will truly motivate me, what will make me feel like I’m making a difference. What will keep me coming back.
I swore my relationship I have now, isn’t easy and is totally not what I ever imagined, but makes so much sense.