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cid1060-3 · 6 months

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abodywithnosoul · 8 months

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Why is everything so heavy? 😖

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yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou · 3 months

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Will it ever get better?

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noisymentalitypirate · 1 month

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At the end of the day, it's still you alone with your blades while the people who hurt you so much live peacefully

And you're here, on this fucking app, trying to find comfort in people at least as destroyed as you are

how unfair is that ?

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lostmf · 9 months

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“Parents aren’t supposed to bury their kids “

I tell myself

But then parents aren’t supposed to do a lot of things to their children

So I guess it won’t matter if they did this one more thing

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youraverageventblog · 4 months

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In a sick way, I like being this way. I take pride in how fucked up my mind is and how much I hurt myself, whether it be from a blade or indirect self-sabotage.

#vent blog #tw vent #tw depressing thoughts #bpd vent #bpd #cw depression #actually bpd #self h@rm #self mutalition #s3lf mutilation #tw s3lf harm #tw self h4rm #tw self destructive behavior #tw self destruction #self destructive tendencies #mentally fucked

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therigeling · 6 months

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this is what 2 month of art block got me💪

#tgcf #heaven official's blessing #xie lian #tgcf fanart #tian guan ci fu #mxtx #danmei #my art #xie lian fanart #this was supposed to be about xl's self-destructive tendencies #and how hc is trying to help him see his own value as a person #symbolized by a butterfly casting light on him. idk

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lookatmenowx · 8 months

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I feel so disgusting rn I want to peel off every inch of skin on me till this sensation stops

#self destruction #self destructive behavior #tw self destruction #tw self destructive behavior #tw selfhate #self h@te #self destructive tendencies #self h@rm #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressing stuff #sorry for being depressing

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deathgames5 · 27 days

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Cutting the living hell out of me, while being carried away by the music

Fucking love it

You all be safe and

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cid1060-3 · 6 months

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monzter3nergy · 12 days

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guys am I supposed to wash my razors after touching them and using them!!!! because if so I have not been doing that at all!!!!

I'm surprised my ass has not gotten some sort of an infection yet 💀

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yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou · 1 year

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Nobody ever talks about how selfless it is to choose, over and over again, to not commit suicide. Nobody ever acknowledges the tremendous sacrifice suicidal people make every time we choose not to kill ourselves. When a person who is suffering so horribly that death seems like their best option decides not to take their one way out, and to instead remain in hell, day after day, month after month, year after year, because they don't want to hurt the people they love, they are doing something extraordinary. Not killing yourself when it's all you want to do is the purest act of love I can imagine. Dying for someone is easy - you don't have to deal with any of the consequences, you have your moment of nobility and then it's all over. But living for someone, when the simple fact of consciousness is literal torture for you? Every single suicidal person who ever made a choice to not kill themselves in a moment of misery is a goddamn hero in my eyes. Wanting to die and still surviving is an act of titanic courage and self-sacrifice. We deserve more credit for it.

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ares-in-heart · 4 months

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THE ROT CONSUMES

#self h@te #hate #self destructive thoughts #tw depressing thoughts #depressiv #self destruction #tw depressing stuff #self destructive tendencies #tw scuicidal thoughts #tw sh related #sh implied #988blr #self h@rm #cvtt!ng

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charlemagnethegreat · 4 months

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Ed Tumblr: "Tell me I'm fat and disgusting and deserve to starve. Please, make me hate myself even more and invalidate me"

Sh Tumblr: "don't invalidate the cat scratches don't invalidate. Oh gosh😭"

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skania · 11 months

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It's so funny how Aqua talks big about manipulating Akane, yet she ends up being the person he is most honest with in the entire manga (alongside Gotanda) 😂

It's even funnier when you realize this trend started from the very moment he set out to lead Akane on!

He deliberately kisses her to trap her in a fake relationship with him, but Akane sees right through him and to the fact that he isn't looking to date her because he is romantically interested in her.

I believe this is when Aqua first begins to realize Akane is not someone who can be easily fooled, and he rewards her perceptiveness with a truth.

To me, dating is just an extension of my work: This is part of my revenge plan

I'm highly interested in you as an actress: The way you get inside Ai's mind and understand her so perfectly is extremely useful to me

So of course, Akane reads in between the lines and realizes he wants to use her for something.

From the get-go, the one time Aqua intended to lie and manipulate Akane, he couldn't do it. She immediately shot it down.

What's more, Aqua here is telling her a truth while hiding his real motives. But Akane sees through that either way.

Aqua intended for his relationship with Akane to be a lie, but from the very beginning the truth starts to slip in.

At first, it's only because Akane sees right through him. But this soon changes, and Aqua starts sharing his truths all on his own.

(Spoilers for the entire manga below the cut!)

She is also the person he opens up to about his thoughts and feelings once he thinks his revenge is over. He tells her literally everything, from the DNA tests he ran and his struggles throughout all these years, to how relieved he feels now that it's all over.

She also knows that Himekawa and the twins are related.

But this honesty streak doesn't only apply to Aqua's revenge. She's even the first person he allows to see his old acting videos!

The one thing Aqua can't tell Akane about is that he is Goro's reincarnation, but he still goes and shares his entire backstory with her either way.

He later talks big about feeding Akane information so she would find the corpse for him, but sharing Goro's backstory and feelings wasn't relevant at all!

This all gets to a point that Aqua turns to Akane for answers when he is going through an existential crisis about what to do.

What it comes down to is that Akane makes Aqua feel understood. After spending so many years hiding his truth, Aqua craves that feeling.

That's why he can't help but to reveal more and more pieces of himself to Akane, including as much as he can of the one truth he can't say to anyone at all.

Akane, thank you for finding me.

tl;dr It's hilarious how Aqua intended for his relationship with Akane to be a lie, only for it to practically become the relationship he's most honest in lol

#aqua hoshino #akane kurokawa #kurokawa akane #aquakane #oshi no ko #me: onk #fandom: onk #my aquakane meta #aqua's self-destructive tendencies and guilt over “using” akane #as well as how being so completely understood by her felt like salvation to him #are two posts for another time #this is what I meant when I said that I had a lot of Akane brainrot but that metaing about it would mean metaing about aqua #at least 50% of the bad takes I see about her are about her relationship with aqua and aqua's dynamic with her lmao

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lostmf · 6 months

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If all I did for most of my life was to survive ?

What does that mean ..

I don’t know what to tell people when they ask me what I have been up to ?

I have been alive !!

I have used all my energy to stop myself from ending it

I have used it to hide how miserable I am from everyone in my life !

Is that enough ?

I don’t know ..

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