#self-medication with alcohol

[araziahmed]

#Self-Medication #Self-Medication Spread #Types of Self-Medication #Self-Medication with Antibiotics and Painkillers #Self-Medication with Food #Self-Medication with Alcohol #Reasons for Self-Medication #Effect of Self-Medication #Dangers of Self-Medication

[dajo42]

long post about substance abuse and addiction

the thing about me is i was dependent on alcohol for a few years and refused to admit it to myself forever until one morning when something clicked and i stopped but for the past three years its been... difficult. like. i still have dreams where im drinking but justifying it to myself like "this one doesnt count". i hate them

but im sober!!! and thats amazing of me

the other thing about me is i was also smoking whenever i could for a few years but also stopped doing that because i recognised it was another unhealthy dependency and... yeah the dreams happen with that too. the buying a pack of cigarettes and being like well these dont count these are a treat or whatever

but i still dont!! and thats also good!!!!

a third thing about me is for a while i was reliant on self harm to process feelings and i stopped that over a decade ago now!!!! thats so amazing of me

but

the most important thing about me for the sake of this post is that throughout uni i also developed an addiction to painkillers and would take numerous different kinds in dosages way above the recommended numerous times a day and it took a life changing conversation with a best friend in a train station for me to realise how unhealthy it was and how it was affecting people who cared about me to see me basically destroying myself like that

and thats

still ongoing!! i havent drank i havent smoked but i have at numerous points relapsed into full painkiller addiction and it fucks me up and my family still think i went to the hospital for food poisoning this time in 2022 but in reality i had been regularly near fatally overdosing for weeks

and its not like i can cut them out entirely because. they are prescribed to me for chronic pain. like. theres this painful line between taking the right amount to function and... feeling like i have to take more because i cant function without them. its like having an addiction to fucking.... water. i need it to live but its so often hard to tell if thats a real thought or if i think i need way more than i actually do in order to live and i fucking drown because the metaphor is about water

and right now i feel like im on the edge of relapsing again!! recognisable feelings and behaviours are creeping in!! and i dont want that!!!!!!

so im just posting about it on the internet i guess? to get the thoughts out of my head? to vent? to hold myself accountabld by screaming into the void? to ask for advice or reassurance? for somebody to tell me gently but firmly not to take more meds than i should. i took my normal dosage today. taking more would be bad and i recognise that but. i dont know. i dont know if i can trust myself not to tonight without being directly told not to by somebody who cares

#substance abuse #alcohol cw #medication cw #self harm cw

[fuckingwhateverdude]

@nosebleedclub // dec. #28

#alcoholism vibes lately #my writing #my writing tag #nosebleedclub #nosebleed club #poetry #original poem #spilled ink #mental illness #vent writing #alcohol abuse #substance abuse #substance use #self medication #bipolar disorder

[spysflatass]

what pressies the other mercs would get medic because its his bday!!

also cause im done with collage now yippee yippee!!

heavy: food for archimedies, new gloves and boots, a book on old timey medicine, a love letter and extra snuggles :)

demo and sniper: see, the difference between these two is that sniper just got him a generic beer but i think demo would find a really specific wine, and like dose calculations on wines medic already drinks to find the perfect new one (snipers usally too far away from any shop he can use and beer is always appreciated)

spy: cufflinks or masc perfume. its the expensive kind though so it smells weird but still nice.

engie: new tools that were ment for like construction but next week hes getting healed with them. so long as they get used hey?

pyro: lots of different plasters with like unicorns and hello kitty and superheros on them

soldier: lots of old comics that he found and a museum gift shop gift (think like a mount rushmore trinket)

scout: he panicked and brought socks with weenie dogs on them and is surprised when medic still like them (medic has that old man mindset where he goes buckwild for new socks)

miss pauling: a new sweater with a cow on it (he also gets ecstatic over new sweaters) and a new type of instant coffee

bonus two!! :

the devil: (look he has to get his ex something)

me: jars to store the organs he gets in!!

#docs orders #cw alcohol #tf2 #tf2 medic #heavy tf2 #teamfortress2 #tf2 fandom #tf2 demoman #tf2 scout #tf2 sniper #engineer tf2 #tf2 miss pauling #tf2 pyro #tf2 spy #soldier tf2 #tf2 devil #tf2 self insert #teehee #happy b day medic!!

[suffarustuffaru]

writing otto and heinkel is always like. slaps the alcoholism tag on every fic theyre in ever. googles alcoholism googles alcoholism googles and starts crying violently

#THIS IS A JOKE but also it is half a joke its true i do some research okay 😭😭 #i remember trying to learn otto lore and then i was like ‘wait hes self medicating his anxiety with alcohol wkdndnd’ #tw alcoholism????????? #why must these pathetic men be my favorites….. i hate it here… HAH

[smashing-yng-man]

I've done it all - attended Alcoholics Anonymous twice a day, five days a week. Memorized the fourth edition of the "Big Book" from cover to cover. Admitted myself into two different rehabs, staying 60 days each time.

What has ultimately kept me sober from drinking is confiding in my therapist and taking a combination of Acamprosate and Naltrexone twice a day to curb alcohol cravings.

I drank heavily for nearly two decades, and frankly have the experience and genetic predisposition to confirm that addiction is not a choice.

But sobriety and self-care are.

#addiction #alcoholism #drinking #recovery #sobriety #rehab #mental health #mental illness #alcohol dependency #alcohol withdrawal #sober living #self care #naltrexone #vivitrol #camoral #acamprosate #alcoholics anonymous #alcohol use disorder #substance abuse #self medicating

[flame-cat]

alright. im kinda drunk and in the mood to talk about it.

autism and the use of drugs and alcohol. i dont think ive met many autistic people who havent at least considered alcohol, weed, or harder drugs as a method of self medication. it dulls your senses, the very thing that makes it so hard for us to function. being able to walk into a crowded room with lights and music and not be immediately overwhelmed feels like a super power. for once you feel normal. like you can talk to people. like you can be part of something

lets talk about it guys. come on. gimmie your thoughts

#actually autistic #autism #in the life #alcohol #weed #drugs #self medication #drunk pheo

[chuthulhu-reads]

[ID: Five panels from Trigun Maximum. The first shows Milly and Meryl looking up at something, startled. The second shows Wolfwood hovering around a corner, peering out from behind it. The third shows a closer up image of Wolfwood peering around the corner, a serious look on his face as he says, "Booze? Him? First thing in the mornin'? Ya gotta be kiddin'..." The fourth panel shows Vash crouching on the ground, a really awkward face smile on his face as he looks down on his coat, which has been splashed with whisky from a broken bottle. He's sort of laughing, the speech bubbles saying "Ha... heh heh..." but he doesn't really look happy. The fifth panel is a close-up of Vash's face as he slurps some of the spilled whisky off of his glove. Despite being close up, his face is so heavily shaded that it's almost impossible to make anything out. His left eye is sort of visible, closed and curved as if he might be smiling, but that's really not the vibe. End ID.]

I know I yell a lot about Nightow ruining my health and happiness but Colourless Expression really is such an INTENSELY impactful character chapter about SUFFERING. These people drink a lot for fun (can't blame 'em, given where they live) but in the aftermath of remembering about July Vash is day drinking to cope--and his friends don't even know he's been drinking until now. FUCKING OUCH

#Trigun #alcoholism #btw I work in a rehab-adjacent service #and drinking alone isn't exactly a flag that you should seek help for alcoholism #but if you're drinking alone more often than you drink socially #or find yourself hiding your drinking from people who care about you #or even actively avoiding the company of others (including those you'd usually drink socially with) #in favour of drinking alone #plz reach out for help #the people who actually care about you don't want to be suffering alone #addiction does have genetic and chemical components but most of what our service provides is addressing the psychological addiction #finding the untreated mental health problem or physical pain or unaddressed trauma that a service user is self-medicating for #Though I don't know HOW we'd handle Vash's July trauma #I'm not one of the therapists but how do you even BEGIN with a guilt complex like that #You'd probably have to untangle his relationship with Knives first #And maybe some of Vash's own discomfort with/fear of his own nonhuman nature #I mean it hurts to see but can you blame the guy for drinking

[tchaikovskaya]

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#how do u manage to stop a substance abuse habit without committing to total abstinence and/or a 12 step program #asking for a friend #(like im not speaking for everyone and im obvi not a psych or neurologist etc but i think the black and white thinking is #both harmful and unrealistic. and just..... disheartening? uncoupled from the reality of emotionally healthy adult life/habits?) #like i just find it depressing that so many people insist that a recovering alcoholic cannot have a glass of wine with dinner #even 20 years after beginning a successful effort to stop self medicating with alcohol #like that just feels...... fuckng grim? its upsetting to think if ur an addict u will always be one forever regardless of circumstance #so much so that you cannot trust yourself to drink one beer without immediately spiraling into addiction again #i think of this and EDs in very similar ways tbh. like the concept that a recovered anorexic will always have an anorexic mentality #that they have to fight off every single day of the rest of their lives regardless of clarity introspection body image etc....?

[notdelusionalatall]

i don't condone this

#tw personal vent #vent #tw #tw vent #tw personal #tw pills #tw medication #self medicating #i love valium #actually anxious #i'm having alcohol withdrawals #but they are getting less and less frequent #omg #am i healing #am i actually #am i recovering #🥺🥺🥺 #i don't condone this #don't do this at home #stay in school don't do drugs

[dirt-mccracken]

Last time I saw Thursday was 2017 and I got so black out drunk that I remember NONE of their set and I cannot fully process the fact I'm seeing them tonight living a life that is healthier, happier, and so unfathomable to the guy who saw them last. I'm so ready to commit this whole night to memory💖

#like. it was literally a lifetime ago #i was an unemployed alcoholic living in a city where I knew 3 people + having some of the worst depression of my life #pre-T and scared and isolated and self medicating however I could #it's insane that I've lived to go see them again with someone I deeply care for and live a life I never thought I would get #I'm so excited I will DEFINITELY cry tonight and hopefully I don't puke lmao #worst thing my body does is excitement/stress vomit 👍 #personal

[drama-rebellion]

Since alcohol has been the only thing helping me with my depression and borderline, I‘ve come quite addicted to it sadly. But at least then I don’t eat, bc then it works better. But I never even once gained weight bc of it, despite around thousands of liquid calories a day (I really drink a lot and I know it’s too much and toxic). But at Legasthenie I don’t purge or binge. It’s always food or alcohol, never both.

I know my skills are counterproductive, but my therapists haven’t come up with a better solution in ten years, so… am I to blame for wanting the pain to stop?

#tw edtwt #tw ed but not sheeran #tw depressing stuff #tw ana rant #alcohol #self medication #mental illness #borderline

[mad-hunts]

20. what is something your muse wants to tell others, but is too afraid to? 

hey, @absensia! thank you very much for the ask (: it means a lot to me that you'd drop one in my inbox, if i'm being honest!! but of course... i'm incredibly grateful for everyone's submissions in regards to the prompts i posted for barton! alright, so my answer to this one is probably going to be long like the last, so please bear with me while i pour out all of my thoughts as to what i believe barton has wanted to tell people for years. and that is that he might need help — which, considering how much blood he has gotten on his hands + the very poor state of his mind, isn't that unreasonable at all. though barton doesn't want to bring this up to anyone for a multitude of reasons; one of which is because he fears he'll be seen as weak and because he's pretty much convinced himself internally that he doesn't deserve it. though i feel as if most of the time, barton not only feels this irrational as well as powerful hatred towards everyone else, but towards himself, too. which are both dangerous mindsets to be in within their own right.

when you feel like you are completely unlovable but are also so chronically lonely at the same time that you will quite literally seek people out who you know hate your guts, because in a way, seeing them almost validates what you feel about yourself + you also feel so lonely sometimes that you feel like you're going insane ( or more than he already was before anyhow ) ; in barton's opinion, that is probably one of the very definitions of ' something's wrong. ' especially since this has led him down some pretty dark paths before: both with things like self-medicating using alcohol and getting into this relationship with someone that he knows is bad news, but who he believes he belongs with on some degree. this is because they're both terrible, and they feed into each other's desire to receive their own extremely unhealthy idea's of what love is. an idea that love is inherently violent when that is anything but what love actually is.

and barton knows that it's wrong deep in the back of his mind because he is at his absolute worst when he's with this person, but like i mentioned previously, he doesn't believe he deserves any better than them so he hasn't told anyone about what he's been feeling. however, when you disassociate like barton does sometimes in which you genuinely do not remember what the hell happened for a certain amount of time, since your brain is struggling so hard to cope with all of these bad feelings you're feeling and terrible things you're exposing it to that it feels the need to tuck it away somewhere... you should absolutely seek help as he has subtly alluded to how he often feels a few times around his kids, and they were probably the most concerned about him that they've ever been.

but the problem remains that the action of actually reaching out to people feels impossible for barton. both in the way that he wouldn't even know where to begin explaining his feelings into words, on account of them feeling so complex that he feels like he can't even name them a majority of the time, as well as that he was taught that seeking help was something to look down upon by wesley. this is also attributable to the desire that barton feels to appear like he's perfect all the time, as i had highlighted in one of my previous posts on here. and acknowledging that you are actively struggling goes against that, along with the fact that talking to someone is a sign of confidence in yourself. which barton is actually lacking in despite appearances.

though anyhow, i know that this was probably an awfully heavy thing to have to read through, and i'm sorry for that in advance. but barton, kind of like real people, are not the sum of their parts — so i felt like it was important to explain how he feels wholly and without things being sugarcoated / left out. i hope you liked this answer anyhow, though, and are having a great day so far! thanks again for the ask.

#absensia #YOUR NEED GREW TEETH: character study. #ANGERS HELPED ME STAY ALIVE: headcanons. #asks. #i'm going to try my best to include all potential triggers that were in here but please let me know if i missed any! #tw: discussions of self-medicating with alcohol and self-harming by means of getting involved in a toxic relationship. #tw: mentions of disassociation. #tw: discussions of what it's like to be extremely self-loathing. #tw: negative outlook on seeking help for mental illness. #the concept of loneliness as a destructive force. #tw: a VERY unhealthy view of love and feeling like you deserved something bad happening to you.

[discoidal]

i literally need to try weed but it would make my mom worried so i dont 😌😌

#screaming rn i need to self medicate . alcoholism it is #<< joking im joking its a joke

[milfygerard]

Taylor Swift. She's been famous since she wasa teenager. She has been writing about herself as if she's already dead. Her sense of who she is as a person with feelings is inseparable from her stage persona. Do you think she will destroy herself or she already has? Do you think she will figure it out?

man you really get my vibe! Honestly I have no clue, Like her life hasnt slowed down for a moment since 2022 and I have no clue what shes gonna do once eras is over (if she lets the tour end). I am of the opinion that she is perpetually not doing well and I do think shes gonna have a break at some point and i just really hope its more catharsis than destruction considering the amount of self destruction shes already done. Fascinating woman, morbid woman. Shes been on the edge of a true nervous breakdown since the age of 19 and it really does feel like watching cracks slooooowlllyyyy develop on a solid dam wall like. its amazing what youve withstood but this cant hold forever. Please let yourself fall apart in private and try to find some healing. No matter what shes doing better than she was before since shes no longer dating a man whose blonde AND british AND has blue eyes like he had three strikes the second they met and then kept it running for six years. For the final question, I dont think there js a human being alive who has truly figured It out, shes always going to be hurt and wandering as we all are, but i hope she can also find some sort of peace and freedom.

#ask #anonymous #taylor swift #finally asking the real questions #im just glad eras tour forced her out of self medicating with alcohol #cause she wasnt uh. it didnt sound good

[farragoofwires]

don' dweeblog

#the one mass fanon I do NOT buy is how the malpractice dept is found family. #have you. SEEN this show?????

i have seen this show and i can say without a doubt that the malpractice department is definitely found family. because i know what their families are like.

#house: that. #foreman: self-disinherits because he loses religion and his mom gets dementia. takes medical power from his father to give it to a colleagu #he just stabbed and said isn't his friend. #chase: so mad at his dad for leaving his alcoholic mother that he moved from australia to the malpractice dept. #cameron: who knows what the family who raised her is like except that they did apparently think it was fine for her to marry a terminal can #...cancer dude she'd just met. and also chase. and then she apparently immediately remarried because she has a decently aged kid w/in 2 yrs #thirteen: oh baby. she's got a brother she killed; a sister she doesn't talk to; a dead mom; and a father who we literally cannot know abou #taub: lol #kutner: MY BABY DARLING GONE TOO SOON!!!!! i'm giving him a pass because i love him. #amber: honorary because she got so far in the competition and then dated wilson. who then inherited all her shit and apartment. #relatedly: wilson: honorary because he clocks in so many hours for them. anyway. lol. #park: a NEURO RESIDENT and LIVES WITH HER PARENTS. hashtag girl. hashtag did you even apply to any med schools not w/in driving distance. #whatshername: way too traumatized by growing up rich. like get over yourself. #and last but not least honorary: cuddy: THAT!!!!!! #everyone is ABSOLUTELY found family. not my fault you assumed found family is a good thing. #f: house #m: house