I kept listening to Sasha Sloan’s previous EP on the way back to dorm yesterday. As an introvert, her songs reflected part of my daily life and those I didn’t know how to express.
Since I was a child, my mom tried her best to make me believe all the bright sides of the world. I did, yet not happy enough. I was full of anxiety and embarrassment that not being like “normal” children, teenagers, and later on, normal adults. It might come from the loneliness of being only child, or having an alcoholic pop. I somehow became me, perfectly vulnerable. I hate this part of me, but that’s also the best version I can present.
“Lied to my doctor, she knew I was fakin’. Gave me some pills, but I’m too scared to take ‘em.” While the lyrics hit my mind, I thought, what on earth made her afraid of taking the pills? Because the pills so many that may die, or, she’s scared of being awake?
「Lied to my doctor, she knew I was fakin’. Gave me some pills, but I’m too scared to take 'em」讓我思索的是，害怕吞下藥的原因究竟是什麼？是害怕藥物中毒、還是過分清醒？