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A/N : I needed to have a good cry and wrote this ! I’ll pass my birthday alone, so why not ? This one is more personal, so I hope you don’t mind and hope you guys enjoyed this. And people were asking me how it felt to be an adult soon and this is my answer : I’m terrified. But I’ll be allowed to read NSFW so… hey ?/hj

Summary : Gi-hun finds out reader passes their birthday in the Squid Game.

reader has They/Them pronouns and is younger than Gi-hun. (Its a Gi-hun dad fic)

Warnings : mention of death, angst, Gi-hun being a dad.

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Happy Birthday | Seong Gi-hun

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Life was bullshit. It was kill or be killed and you understood that pretty, maybe too well in a place like this. After coming back from school, you called a number and accepted to play the games, which you didn’t know would drastly change your life.

Now, you were stuck here, with Gi-hun and Sang-woo. The three of you were the finalists of the game. Finally, this nightmare was coming to an end. Though, you wished you wouldn’t have called now.

You wished you didn’t have to pass your birthday this way, specifically. As your jaw was clenching in pain, you could feel your right side of your stomach bleed through the chic costume they asked you to wear. You knew it was the end. Ironic, how it’s supposed to be a new day, a new year to celebrate, yet it was your last day on Earth. Why ? Because of a stupid piece of glass that made it through your stomach.

Today, you weren’t talking as much as you usually do. Silent in the corner, wanting no one to see you, but someone did. Someone did noticed your quieter self, the way you want to ignore everyone’s gaze and the fact you decided to not eat the well cooked pork the guards prepared for you. He felt worried for you, you were becoming even more paler and he knew there was something going on with you, but couldn’t pinpoint what.

Gi-hun looked at you, sitting on your bed with the sharp knife in hand, prepared for an attack. Though, you seemed so tired and you were falling asleep to wake up back up after a while, so while you fell asleep, he decides to get closer.

He stands next to you, waiting for you to wake up, knowing you would defend yourself if he did get even more close. He took a look at you, your eyes were closed with your mouth having a small gap between your lips to let out the quiet and peacefull breathing. Your head was just hanging, too tired to care about how uncomfy you were. It reminded him of his daughter, strangely.

Once he would take her back to her mom’s house, she would always either fall asleep on his back or in his arms and the look you had looked so much like her.

He was promising himself to get back to her and take care of her, like he should’ve years ago.

You finally wake up again, looking at your surroundings and getting in a defensive position once you saw him next to you. His serious eyes lands on you. You seemed exhausted and so pale, so fragile. It was hurting him, to see you this way.

You both met at the beginning, Red Light, Green Light game. You tripped on him and since, you guys have been talking and laughing like crazy together. He didn’t know anything about you, why you were here when you seemed so young, what your life was like, but you both got along so well that he didn’t mind about not knowing.

You looked at him, feeling the adrenaline rushing in your veins to make your heart beat faster. He showed his hands.

‘’I won’t hurt you. Y/n, you’ve been dozing off for a while, if I wanted to kill you, I would’ve done so already.’’ He said.

You still hesitated, looking at the sharp object in his hands then back at him. Understanding, he puts the knife in his pockets and looked at the other male in front of them.

‘’I took it because of him.’’

You looked at Sang-woo and sighed to yourself, lowering your knife and sitting in your normal position again. He sits next of her bed and both stayed silent for a moment.

‘’You know, I thought life out there was shitty before this and now… I wished I could’ve embraced it more.’’ You said, sighing.

He understood that. Thinking life wouldn’t be worse, he joined back without thinking of consequences. A part of him wasn’t thinking he would’ve made it this far, to be honest. He never thought the bloody screams, the gunshots, seeing his friends dying, would’ve pained him this much. He had many people and in one day, he lost all of them.

‘’What was it like for you, out there ?’’ He asked, not thinking about if you wanted to say it or not.

You looked down for a moment and sighed. He started to feel bad and was about to tell you it was fine until you spoke.

‘’My dad is leaving to USA to gain money, but not enough to help us through all of the depts and shit we went through. My mom was starting to get sick and I tried so hard to work and help her, but…’’ You stopped and he understood.

‘’I’m sorry.’’ He said, looking down.

‘’What about you ?’’

He sighed before positioning himself into a more comfortable pose.

‘’I live with my mom, she was getting more and more sick. I wanted to save her…’’

There was silence in the room, both understanding each other well. Ironic how you thought it was the worst thing happening until you came here. There were so many deaths in less than a day, you could still feel the metallic sent of the blood spreading on the floor as every bullet hit their head or body.

And now, out of 456 people, only you three got out. You looked at Sang-woo at the other end of the room. You had a good relationship with him, you developped a good chemistry and you thought it was a waste that you will never meet him again by either him or you dying. The pain on your right side said it would be you, however.

Gi-hun looked at you.

‘’Y/n, what’s wrong ?’’ He asked, too inpatient to wait for you to say it.

‘’Nothing.’’

‘’Stop that bullshit. You didn’t even touched the food, and you’re getting paler and paler.’’

You sighed as your left arm softly pats the bleeding wound. It wasn’t the wound, it was the fact you would die here, on your birthday. It was the fact you will never see their faces again nor hear them, on your birthday. Was it really how it was supposed to be ?

‘’It’s my birthday, today.’’ You finally said, feeling your troat clenching.

Everything clicked in his head. He looked at you, reminding you of the father you never had. A father that would help you to sleep, that would sing for you when it was time for bed time. You felt your eyes watering and a tear sliding on your cheek.

‘’And I’m going to die here, on my birthday.’’ You finally said, crying at the end.

He gets up, reached to you and grabbed you instantly, feeling his heart break at your sobs on his shoulder. He pats softly your back and lay his jaw on your head to calm you. He knew how hard it must have been for you too. You were so young, too young to be in this place.

Too young to live through all of the shit you’ve been through, too young to even understand how hard life actually was. He shakes his head.

‘’Don’t say that, don’t say that Y/n. We will get out together, no matter what.’’ He said.

He then walked back from you and grabbed your shoulders.

‘’Y/n, let’s team up for the next game. Let’s show him what we’re capable of, and win this together.’’ He then said.

You looked at him, admiring his bravery or stupidity. You knew at this moment that he would be the winner. He had to be after fighting so hard to stay alive.

You felt yourself caughing blood, Gi-hun gasps as he saw the red liquid out of your mouth. He instantly takes you to the bed and lay you down, your head was falling back as you saw the tiny stars in your vision, telling that you were about to faint, he looks you up and down to see what was wrong.

‘’Y/n. Hey, Y/n, stay awake for me. What…’’ He finally saw the red spot on your left.

He lifts up the jacket and see the red painting even more clear. He panicks, holding your wound to make it less bleed.

‘’Y/n what happened ?! What happened !’’ He started to say louder.

You were too dizzy to comprehend what he was saying. You just sadly smiled at him.

‘’I’m-‘’

‘’No. No.’’ He gets up and runs to the front doors.

He starts yelling, hoping for the guards to open and help. It was stupid, but he couldn’t lose you too. He didn’t want that and just couldn’t let that happen to you. You had to fight with him, no matter what.

‘’Open the door, someone is hurt, they can’t play your stupid game if they’re hurt!’’

He grabbed his hair and heard a ‘ugh’ coming from you. He looked behind and saw Sang-woo, standing on your side with his knife full of blood. You were grabbing him to try to stop him, but your hands slowly fell back down.

Run.

His immediate answer was running to you, not even noticing the lights turning on as the guards came back in with a coffin.

He finally reached to you and saw the ugly cut on your neck, caused by Sang-woo. He grabs your head, your eyes were closing as you were being choked by your own blood.

‘’Y/n, no ! Stay with me, please !’’ He yells.

You smiled sadly again, knowing it was too late. It was the end.

He softly pets your cheeks as he felt his eyes watering. His tears falling on your face that was slowly losing it’s light.

He sighed then hugged you. He knew he couldn’t bring you back, he did this. It was too late.

‘’I-I-m..’’

‘’No, don’t try to talk, Y/n. Please.’’

You caughed even more and he cried as he saw tears coming in your eyes too. You reached to his face and he grabbed your hand.

‘’I’m sorry, Y/n. I’m so sorry.’’ He whispered.

You sighed and shake your head, falling soon to the deeper end. Your eyes closed and your torso softly stopped moving. You were gone.

The guards pushed him on the ground and hold him down. Two others take your lifeless corpse and put it in the black and red box that was serving as your coffin.

He was deaf at that moment. Only seeing red as he saw for the last time your peaceful face in his life. The one he was paired with, the one that he was laughing with not a day ago, that shared even his most darkest secret with.

He felt guilty, for leaving your side on that crisis moment, when he knew the wolf would attack you instantly. He felt guilty, for not protecting you. He considered you maybe even like his daughter at this point, but he couldn’t protect you at this moment, like he wished he could.

They take your coffin and leave with it. It was over, never again he will see that smile, that spark of joy, that intelligent mind.

He wished, for your last day on Earth, he would’ve said Happy Birthday.

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