#severe depressive disorder

[humouragainstreality]

nobody will save me.

no one will ring my bell and hug me until i stop crying.

no one will heal me.

no one will make it last.

i'm destined to be on my own until the last day, when it's me against me and i lose.

#living with borderline #borderline help #cptsdsurvivor #severe depression #borderline personality disorder #borderline thoughts #i need a hug #anxiety disorder #su1c1d4l #severe depressive disorder #heartbreak

[cherryredmistakes]

Mania is fun I guess but sometimes I forget how freeing and comforting depression and mood swings are

I can truly dive in to my madness and not feel the need to stop it or “fix myself” I can just simply be

I can sleep, I can eat or not eat

I have control now

#mental illness #girlblogging #girl blogger #girlblogger #severe depressive disorder #depressive episode #possible bipolar #possible bpd #manic #manic depression #manic episode #xoxo gray #grays diary

[starberrydreamx]

TW

Three days ago I was one month clean, now I’m zero days clean. I was so fucking proud of myself three days ago and now I ruined it.

#sorry for being depressing #vent #venting #personal vent #im relapsing #recovery #major depression #severe depressive disorder #tw sh vent #kinda depressing #please help

[snake-habitat1]

“do you want to talk about it?”

no, i want to kill myself because of it.

#bpd #mentally unstable #major depressive disorder #severe anxiety #bpd thoughts #actually bpd #ocd #overthinking #trichotillomania

[vexedhighness]

WHY DO I RUIN EVERYTHING HOW DO I STOP RUINING IT ALL I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY AND STAY HAPPY

#theo #bpd #bpd fp #borderline personality disorder #bpd yandere #bpd vent #recovery #actually bpd #art #severe depression #yandere thoughts #adhd #living with bpd #recoverywork #borderline personality traits #bpd symptoms #i love you #i love you forever #lovesick #self love

[neuroticboyfriend]

After seeing this Mental Health Pain Scale a while ago, I realized that it doesn't really work well for people whose mental wellness changes frequently (ex: people with BPD or C-PTSD, addicts), and very extremely. So, I made some tweaks for myself, and hopefully it can help others:

Here's a version with a table :) Emotional Distress Scale

0 - I feel great! This is the best I’ve felt in a long time!

1 - I’m feeling really good! There’s no distress to address.

2 - I’m feeling good. If I start feeling bothered, I can be easily distracted or cheered up.

3 - I’m okay, but there are some things bothering me. I can easily cope with them, though.

4  - I could be better. There are a few things distressing me right now. It’s not exactly easy to deal with, but I still have the skills to get through it.

5 - I’m not okay. It’s getting harder to do the things I want to do, but I can do them. My coping skills aren’t working as well anymore, but enough of them work to get me through the day. I need some support.

6 - I’m feeling bad, and it’s very hard to do the things I need or want to do. Most of my coping skills aren’t effective right now, and it’s taking a lot of energy to stay stable. I need help.

7 - I’m feeling awful. It’s hard to focus on anything but my emotions, and/or I’m avoiding things that distress me. I can’t do much but try to take care of myself, which is already hard in itself. I’m running low on, or have run out of, effective coping skills. I need a lot of help right now.

8 - I’m feeling awful, and I can’t escape it anymore. How I feel is affecting every part of my day, and I’m reaching the point where I can’t function. It’s hard to sleep, eat, socialize, etc. I need help before I can’t handle anything.

9 - This is approaching the worst I could feel. I can’t function anymore. My emotions have totally consumed me. I may be a danger to myself or others, or I may be neglecting myself. I need urgent help.

10 - This is the worst I’ve felt ever/since [last time]. I can’t care for myself at all. My emotions are so intense, I’m at imminent risk of dangerously acting on them. I need crisis support immediately.

11 - I have acted on my emotions and hurt myself or someone else. Everything else in my life is impossible to comprehend. I need medical care and/or crisis support immediately.

Note that this doesn't really work well if your positive states end up being unhealthy (ex: mania, idealization, etc.), so it's geared towards negative emotions. This is also meant to be about how you feel NOW. The other scale works best for viewing your overall state.

#softspoonie #bpd #mental health #cptsd #c-ptsd #complex ptsd #bpd awareness #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #mental health crisis #crisis support #mentally ill #severe mental illness #serious mental illness #severe depression #depression #major depressive disorder #mood swings #mentally unstable #personality disorder #cluster b #actually cluster b #npd safe #aspd safe #chronically ill #chronic illness #mental health support #mental health awareness #disabled #disability

[spider-man-2o99]

(shaking you, wailing, frothing at the mouth, etc.) miguel is a heavily-traumatized person and. like. i really just cannot stress enough that that influences just So Much Of How He Acts, man.

#talking tag #spider-man 2099 #spiderman 2099 #miguel o'hara #marvel #comics #comic panels #again. Another Thing Done On Purpose At His Origin Because Mig Was Deliberately Created 2 Be A Foil To Peter Parker: #responsibility nd duty were. like. already Inherent Traits to mig that he didnt Need to learn because he;s AN ADULT!! #he inherently Knows that he has these powers and a responsibility 2 use them. even though HE is so tired and doesn't /Want To./ #he Knows he doesn't have a Choice and there isn't ever a point in the book where he really pretends like he Does either. #and instead his mantra is great power = great guilt. and. like. /woof/ man. yknow. #/just because #like. ppl do not seem 2 Know This. abt him. #or. well. the New Ppl that is. yknow what i mean #anyways it is canon in the text that he hates himself for many many reasons (like seeing his abusive father in himself!). so. Remember That. #(being light-hearted to distract myself from issue 26 specifically) we suppordt a king with severe untreated depression and Disorders .

[bpdcrybaby213]

My mother really underestimates just how low I can sink in my mental illness. The depths I reach are limitless.

#borderline personality disorder #bpd life #bpd thoughts #actually bpd #bpd stuff #bpd things #mental illness #bpd struggles #mentally ill #severe mental illness #actually mentally ill #mental disorder #chronic mental illness #bpd symptoms #major depression

[healingwgabs]

idk who needs to hear this but the necessary time you spent and things did while recovering from varying delusions, in order to be a functional person, is time not wasted <3

#delusion recovery #severe depression #psychotic depression with anxious distress #depression with psychotic features #you are not low functioning you're suffering from something severe #guilt delusions #delusions of persecution #bipolar depression #schizoaffective disorder #schizophrenia #bpd psychosis #bpd paranoia #major depressive disorder #bipolar disorder #bipolar 1 #bipolar mania #anti capitalism #anti oppression

[humouragainstreality]

nobody is going to save me.

we're not in the movies.

nobody will even notice until i put on a show, until i starve myself and run out the street with a gun threatening to end myself.

nobody saves me.

#cptsdsurvivor #su1c1d4l #severe depressive disorder #anxiety disorder #i need a hug #borderline thoughts #borderline personality disorder #severe depression #ftm ana

[cherryredmistakes]

Cleaning my depression room for 2 hours straight

#mental illness #girlblogging #girl blogger #girlblogger #help i’m so tired #severe depressive disorder #depressive episode #severe depression #manic depression #sleep deprivation #manic #possible bipolar #possible bpd

[flirts-with-dragons]

As someone who was cyberbullied into attempting and has struggled severely with major depressive disorder, please:

Don't tell people "kys"

Stop it. Break the habit.

I have started reporting people who do this despite being told the harm it does.

#suicide #tw suicide #suicide baiting #suibait #tw sui #tw sui bait #death threats #death threatening #death threat #important #depression #major depressive disorder #mdd #severe depression #mental illness #actually mentally ill #bullying #cyberbullying

[snake-habitat1]

sorry babe, i can’t have sex right now, im posting about how much i want to kill myself online .

#bpd #mentally unstable #major depressive disorder #severe anxiety #bpd thoughts #actually bpd #ocd #overthinking #trichotillomania

[vexedhighness]

i miss when you loved me

#bpd #bpd fp #borderline personality disorder #bpd yandere #recovery #bpd vent #art #actually bpd #adhd #recoverywork #yandere thoughts #theo #i love you #i love you forever #living with bpd #lovesick #self love #severe depression #yandere #yandere core

[starfishinthedistance]

I have many criticisms of mainstream mental health awareness, but one main one is the exclusive focus on MDD and GAD and how these are treated as the only mental illnesses and the only cause of s*icidality.

Because the symptoms of MDD and GAD are relatable to a less severe degree to the mentally healthy majority, they're the only ones that get attention. And even then, they're so focusing on trying to push a "they're not crazy, they're normal like you and me!" message that they don't get into how severe these disorders are. Everyone can relate to being a little down, and feeling a bit on edge, but being so depressed you want to never move again and rot in your bed? Being so anxious you actually think you're about to go into cardiac arrest? Telling about those cases would break the image of "normalcy" they're trying to push, so they just don't. And thus, people don't get how serious these disorders are. Hell, they aren't usually even called by their proper names, just "depression" and "anxiety", because people with them are normal like you and me, right? They don't have disorders.

But the other side of this is that no other disorder is humanized, because they don't have features relatable to the mentally healthy majority. People with MDD/GAD are "normal", just a little sad/anxious, but people with ASPD? Sociopaths. People with OCD? Neurotic. Bipolar disorder? Psychos. Those are crazy people, not normal like us.

It pisses me off, because not only does it keep other illnesses demonized, but also it's deadly because thr mainstream s*icide awareness is only based around MDD, whereas signs and treatment for other disorder's s*icidality is vastly different, but gets no attention.

Mental health awareness does not end with major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder.

#of course this isn't beneficial to mdd and gad either #because it makes people not take them seriously #and they can be quiet severe #mental health #mental illness #neurodivergent #mentally ill #ableism #mental health awareness #depression #anxiety #mdd #gad #generalized anxiety disorder #major depressive disorder #aspd #ocd #bipolar disorder #anxiety disorder

[audhdreviews]

You ever get so hyperfixated on something you're like "everyone in my life could abandon me and I'd be okay with that. Infact I'm not going to put in any effort to keep people in my life anymore because nothing else is important to me. I'm going to lock myself inside my room and never go outisde again and if anyone tries to interact with me im gonna say i have a headache" or are you normal

#bpd #borderline personality disorder #bpd stuff #bpd mood #adhd #adhd post #adhd things #adhd hyperfixation #hyper fixated #severe depression #death note #sonic #gravity falls #the beatles #it 2017 #sorry im tagging everything ive ever hyperfixated on #oh yeah #autism