#she accepts me im so happy

[taohs]

i came out to my coworker !!!!

#personal #she said she was proud of me for coming so far and trusting her :) #its taken me a long time to come to term with my sexuality and im happy its not something that i want to hide anymore #ive made up my mind to tell my mom the truth this pride month so i am bracing myself for that too #whatever happens will happen but im ready to accept it and it'll be a load off my shoulders #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

[wilsonsmcgillsweatshirt]

I think Amber was genuinely so good for Wilson. She understood him more than most people, and she encouraged his independence. She genuinely wanted him to put himself first and do things he wanted instead of just doing things he thought others wanted. And a lot of that was able to happen because she herself was incredibly independent. She wasn't the stereotypically "needy" person Wilson had been drawn to before, so she wouldn't stand for his attempts at being a martyr. She stood up to House, too, but she also cared about him in her own way because Wilson cared about him. She appreciated their relationship and went out of her way to work things out with House for Wilsons sake. I have a lot to say about why I think all of Wilson's female relationships failed and why I think that was caused by his internalized struggle with his sexuality, but I stand by the fact that I think Amber was actually good for him and one of, if not the most, healthy relationship he had in the show.

#dont get me wrong im a hilson truther until the day i die #but Amber was just such a bad bitch and she was so fierce and amazing and i loved her #and at first i was super hesitant about their relationship but she grew on me so much #and yes she is needy in her own way but nothing compared to wilsons other relationships #i loved how she stood up for herself and did not allow Wilson to degrade himself to make her happy #she wanted them to both be equals #and would not accept anything less #she knew her own worth and saw Wilsons worth and therefore refused to let them be anything less then they deserved #and i do think nobody understood Wilson as well as House #But i think Amber couldnt come very close #as close as possible #house md #house #hilson #james wilson #wilson #greg house #gregory house #robert sean leonard #dr james wilson #amber volakis

[doodlebeeberry]

what implications do u think the amelia investigations episode (possibly) being last has......

thinking about it im not sure implications is the word i was really looking for, rather i think theres like. a particular weight, to me, in placing her episode as the last one (presuming, of course, that there are only 5 episodes in investigations like is generally whats being assumed. for all we know though there could be more than that but thats the assumption im working off of)

ive always read the lack of any particularly tangible details about her pre-plane life, let alone the lake of an actual disappearance scene for her, as a means of further alienating her from her previous life. It drives in this wedge between Amelia and Scenty, such that even though shes probably the most vocal (at least throughout s1) about wanting to go home, her desire is countered by the fact that pretty much her entire existence in the show is defined by exclusively her time on the plane. The lack of a background for her (as absolutely crazy as it drives me) does play a pretty notable role in how her relationship to earth and the plane and herself are laid out.

This, in my mind, creates a bit of an interesting situation for investigations to play with. seemingly, investigations kinda requires an exploration into everyone's pre-plane lives, a certain insight into their lives that amelia just doesnt have. so, unless they do something a bit radical in the presentation of that episode in particular, youd have to explore her old life on some level without undermining the dynamic with it that we already have. I guess the most obvious answer is that it wont be amelia telling her own story to the audience. We wont be hearing her explain or be in her perspective, we'll be hearing from (presumably) garret. Its a story about her that isnt her story to tell. even when we do finally get to see it, her life, her disappearance isnt hers. not really. and i think placing it last in the sequence, the final mystery to unravel, the hardest answer to get, implies at the very least an acknowledgement of that.

but i do have a degree in Reading Into Things so like. who knows. maybe thats just what i want

#in short: i am amelia enjoyer number one thats why #hfjone #i assume that my interpretation of her backstory situation is the popular one but i really have no idea #cause people like. arent as interested in what she has going on in comparison to bryce and liam and airy #(also if taylor and charlotte are your number ones then i dont know how you guys do it. your like 10 times more powerful than me they get #so little despite being so interesting) #its something i accept but like. Real reluctantly. i get why 'not giving a character who wants a thing the thing' is a perfectly sound #writing choice #im just not happy about it. #anyway. hope that answers your question like sensibly. ive gotta go to class #ask

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

HELLO WIFI nightly thoughts anon again, first of all wish you to enjoy your vacation! Then I love reading so much about Marine and Arlecchino it was soo sweet ! I'd like to know more about Marine story if possible, you mentionned she can't see and has artificial skin, is she a puppet similar to Scaramouche and got broken or was she created blind ?

ohohoho you're encouraging meeeeeeee eheheheheheeheh :]

Marine is sort of like Scaramouche in that she's an artificial creation of an archon- she's specifically referred to as a "doll" at several points rather than a puppet

she's a creation of Focalors specifically to help guide Furina and keep her company (and on the right path), since Focalors knew that false godhood is a very long and lonely process, and thus Marine has a kind and motherly nature even if she doesn't completely understand it which often make young children and Melusine feel safe and protected around her. Focalors specifically made her without sight, since she wanted Marine to embody the phrase "justice is blind", and ever since then Marine has been looking after Furina and helping her and Neuvillette run Fontaine, which is why i said she's considered third in Fontaine's hierarchy

a few things about Marine's body specifically: -she has visible ball joints like a porcelain doll, and her skin has the texture of porcelain as well -the areas around her joints are decorated with wave-like engravings -the energy used to power her comes from Pneuma-Ousia reactions inside her body -her heart is made of the purest chunk of Condessence Crystal and is extremely important. if her heart is sufficiently damaged, Marine will shut down. it can be replaced, but crystals of such high purity and size are extremely hard to find -because of what she's made of, Marine's body can crack and limbs can break off, but those can be repaired -Marine can't see anything, not even light, and her lack of a need for sleep means she takes many nighttime walks -does not have a Vision, her affinity with Hydro is natural thanks to Focalors -her Arkhe is Ousia -she rarely opens her eyes since her irises and pupils are completely white and she thinks humans might find it frightening -she is waterproof and spends a lot of her limited free time underwater :]

Marine is the one who taught Furina how to fight (just in case!) and uses a rapier that's part of her parasol (the umbrella part is actually water that's being held in place). she was also fairly lonely due to Furina pushing her away and most of Fontaine's citizens finding her dependable but unnerving but has made more friends since Fontaine became more accepting and less formal over the years- she and Navia are close and Neuvillette is basically her best friend for life, while Wriothesley holds her in high regard because she occasionally does work for the Fortress. Marine's usually calm and gentle, but she's unafraid to become violent if anyone threatens her loved ones, and is very proficient at using her sword

and yes, Arlecchino knows. she's one of the only people who knows of Marine's nature, other than Furina and Neuvillette

(please ask me more about Arlecchino and Marine i go insane about them every day)

#genshin talk #genshin oc #wifi's ocs #focalors wanted her to embody 'justice is blind' so she could help judge furina without bias in the final trial #fun fact marine is mostly very calm and doesn't have any huge reactions to anything until after the prophecy is averted #because after that she's technically released from her duties and begins expressing herself more #notably she becomes more genuinely happy and more excited over everyday things #she also likes ballet and sometimes dances in the opera house when it's empty #furina pushes her away because she fears what will happen if marine finds out about her secret #but after the archon quests she's like 'MOM I'M SORRYYYY' #arlecchino finds out when marine trusts her enough to take her gloves off and show her #to arle it doesn't make her any less marine. she's very accepting of it and adores her either way #this does occasionally lead to marine coming into the room with her arm broken off and arlecchino just going 'not again' #auruhgrhghgh im love them #me and my friend were screaming about arlecchino today it was so fun #good evening

[blogalreadydoesntexist]

'oh so changing gender is all fine and dandy but when-' bro if a cishet guy started saying he would 'change' lesbian women you would laugh at him and call him homophobic (like a normal person would do) PLEASE shut up you biphobic shitface. being mspec isnt evil, liking men and women isnt evil, lesbians do not like men, gays dont like women, etc.

being bi isnt evil, being pan isnt evil, being omni isnt evil, etc.

'listen to history-' the history of 'bi lesbian' is rooted in transphobia and terf bs, yet anyone who disagrees with you is a terf..?

it was used to belittle lesbians who'd date trans women, saying that they were actually just bi, that trans women didn't count as 'real women'

but then again, since you consider trans men ''to still be forever linked to womahood forever and ever like theyll always be a girl forever and ever im not transphobic guys im actually so much super exinclusive because i support uh corrective rape uh men fetishizing lesbians uh i mean uh we support ''anti-terfism'' (insert that shitty 'pleading face' here)'' i wouldnt put that past you.

#blog post #if any of them get mad at me 'crosstagging' im gonna giggle and hee-hoo ha ha #swear to god if i lose mutuals or followers over this (i will be happy as i dont accept transphobes on my page) #IM SO FUCKING HAPPY IVE GOT A MUTUAL WHO OPENLY TALKS ABOUT THIS BECAUSE GOD #had to block two of my mutuals in the past over this #anti bi lesbian #anti bi lesboy #men cant be lesbians #terfs and homophobes dont get rights im sorry (i am not) #he/him lesbians are valid #they/them lesbians are vaild (one made the 'sunset' flag ffs) #lesbians with non-she/her pronouns are valid!!! #pronouns ≠ gender #transgender #tw #tw discrimination #tw lesbiphobia #tw lesbaphobia #tw homophobia #cw homophobia

[frobby]

I hate that disabled people need to be diagnosed to ask for accomodation. Accomodation should be available to everyone not just groups that *Need* it because if something makes someones life easier it should be available to them whether or not some doctor says its okay.

#Thinking about this cuz i asked my college professor if she knew a screen reader that worked with pdfs she was assigning #And she told me to call the disability office #But to get help from the disability office i need to be actually diagnosed and i dont want to/cant #So i just gotta struggle #Any autistics know of a free pdf reader that actually works let me know #This isnt even talking about people who are disabled and dont know about it #Idk if this a hot take or not #Happy autism acceptance month #Autism acceptance makes me think someone is giving me an award for autism #Which i accept graciously #I like being autisic but its so hard cuz my support needs arent very high so it feels like im gaslighting myself #I need to stop doing that #actually autistic #autism #disability #Just to add im not against getting diagnosed at all #Its just the theres some very simple accomodations that are unavaliable to people when not diagnosed and i think thats stupid

[bluekingpiece]

I feel like everythings too fast. Everything is moving way to fast. I think thats my problem.

#... #Just... I should be happy for Flo—and I am! Just. I dont know. #I cant just throw away the past that easily. it still hurts. #Those were the worst years of my life and. Yeah I know she apologized. which is a miracle of itself #but... I cant fully accept it still. but god. #Im glad Flo and Anton seem to be having fun. im glad. But i feel like everyones brushing off everything thats happened so quickly #Am i selfish to think like that??? #I probably am. just... god. i dont know. #Its a weird state. Im happy shes my best friend again. Im happy shes doing better. Im happy shes happy #But then also. I cant forgive completely what she did to me. what she did to Anatoly. #Jesus. feels like such a selfish way to think. huh. #Whatever. I should be focusing on whats good.

[craycraybluejay]

Bruh I be having literally the worst urges and I feel bad that I don't feel bad at all. Like damn. Guess I'm really like that. Well, anyway.

#i am apathetic to whatever monstrosities lie within my mindscape #or rather i enjoy them and am apathetic to the idea that they are evil #unfortunately the fact that I'm excited ab them makes me rly rly rly want to talk ab them #which would be bad #but if it gets bad enough i think its time i let my therapist in on the next circle of anouther hell #i know she will be kind no matter what i spring on her #but this. i dont know how to feel or what to think about all this #its pathological. i can fix it about as well as i can fix the fact that i adore music or get turned on by fear or am consistently- #-platonically or otherwise pulled to murderers and the like #i know its some psychosexual nonsense-- some fixation rooted in some perverse symbolism that i cant fully grasp #its so difficult to be a BadWrong thoughts and desires person #bc even tho i have like. some level of control and ethicsband whatnot. even tho im not doing the guilt ocd thing. #even though i know im ok the way i am #i also know i cant talk ab it. cant be excited about it. cant vent or happy rant about it. stay quiet. let it eat ya #cause ppl cant accept some things cant like. come to terms with things. again and again #i find myself relating more to 'good people' but being able to talk more openly and honestly with 'bad people' #like im too far from either side to ever be fully myself but i must let it out #and so i find i cant trust the people i love most with some of the most personal things more than i can trust a complete stranger #because at least that stranger has no spare room to judge. and i cant give af about losing a strangers high esteem of me #i share something truly heinous and sure i may be threatened but. disappointment from ppl u love is worse than murderous rage from strangers #which came first- the fixation or the corruption? i think it was the fixation #i was like that before. whatever false indulgences i have given myself will always sate the beast and not create it #i am not a bad person. but i will always have a monster inside me. a balancing act between #being a somewhat polite functioning member of society and completely losing myself to the dark #i dont hate myself. i wish i did sometimes so i wouldnt have the urge to vomit it all out #i wish i hated myself and felt such guilt over all that so i could be happy with being quiet. i wish it was only good that excited me proper #or rather i wish i knew someone like me in the right ways. irl. no phones no danger. who i could share with excitedly and not feel like ill #be told that im a freak who deserves to die. someone who will share equally horrific things with me and will keep me in check #i want talk therapy but with someone that has something SO wrong with them. a friendship that is nasty and fun and grossly honest #someone to say 'i know what ur talking ab/how u feel' when i say something pitch dark

[flovverworks]

something something about the lgbtq+ cast in gbf & promise of wizard and how important it is to me personally that akiras not cishet

#stardust speaking ! #i wrote more nonsense og but. shrugs!! #been thinking about the cupiris cg forever like the fact they CANONLY had them kiss and DREW THAT makes me dizzy #gbf u r my everything #and the fact the first???? ch of pt2 is just 'ya rustica is trans' #the area convo where figaro talks about his friend #who is def not cis. the paradoxroid npcs. #gbf has had canon trans charas for yeeaaaaaarrrsss like cagli ladiva and balurga are all early charas. and captain has had he/she/they #scattered around for years and years too #im not the biggest katvira fan for the same reason i dont like most ships that falls into those dynamics but i will die on the katvira hill #i need gbf to introduce a new skydweller whos trans i need more #and we need the other writer on miach like what. was happening there #imagine writing a plot that feels so entirely dad accepting kid and then u read the journal entry and go what the hell this wasnt in the ev #anyway point of this post is that im so happy 2 of my big interests are so. not cishet. excellent

[napping-sapphic]

hey there, I umm.. I wanted to say you're like, very cute n, uhm, your blog really is a reason to smile cuz it feels fluffy n warm like, safe place™ y'know? I like that you respond to like, all the tasks being super super nice to ppl n I really hope you find a gf soon cuz you deserve the best from life for making so many ppl feel home in your blog🔅💙

Plus, you'd totally be my kind of girl 20'000%

(in the most respectful way possible I wanted it to be a compliment but I'm scared to sound wierd or bad if that's so I promise I didn't meant it)

Agsjfkgl thank you🥺😭❤️❤️ this is very sweet😭❤️, I’ve had a few people say it but i get so so happy when i hear that my blog is just a nice place to be for some people like I’m just so happy people find this to be a nice space in that way <3!!

And noo!! That’s not weird that’s very sweet of you to say!! Honestly i’m a little bad about figuring out how other people perceive me so i still get really surprised and excited to hear that my blog or me comes off as nice or as someone people would like to be around, i think most people find that a very reassuring thing to hear so thank you❤️❤️

#asks #idk if that makes sense im sorry im so bad at accepting compliments #but to summarize not weird!! very sweet!! made me smile!! #can anyone tell i haven’t been told that sort of thing much lol?? #anyway im happy you like it here <3!! #i am mentally sending you lots of your favorite things and i really truly hope your days are easy on you #🌕 <- lil full moon for you because she means everything to me😌

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#me @ my youngest sister at 6.30 this morning: yooooooo can u draw me a fishy so i can get it tattooed on me? #i drew her some flowers so i want a paralell tattoo with her initials bc she has my initials on her #but i literally have not spoken to her since like may bc i do not talk to my sisters unless we r in the same room. no hate we just dont hav #a lot in common. it makes me a lil sad tho bc im curious abt them. my youngest sister is at least nice to me 😭 #ive been thinking abt asking her for ages and last night i was asked abt my sisters so i was like. the time is now #while im still a bit elevated #which has been to my advantage bc i was able to stay v chatty and energetic while talking to ppl. and i think i made some friends #we bonded over fic reading. so theyre a bit. ya kno. girls gays and theys of science #we make the world go round. but its so interesting to hear them talk abt coming to school here bc they both liked where they were and r #leaving their support systems. and im like bruh if i didn't leave the southwest i was gonna die. im so happy to b here #support system? whats that. i talk to my parents once a month and that's it lol. but im gonna try to establish one here #and try to actually make actual friends. this school is way better abt making grad students interact #my last school was not at all like that. but anyway i had fun #and i mean im only at the start of the semester. and im in a good mood. and i kno things will get stressful #but im just really happy i got accepted here #and the longer im here the more clearly i can see how much i was suffering #the funny thing is tho that i wrote this last night and only hours later i was squirming in frustration bc the fact that im back in therapy #means i feel a greater obligation to not b actively self destructive. evil coping mechanisms my beloved #this is y my mum wanted me back in therapy bc im a goodie 2 shoes and when my counselor is like: did u do X the next time i see her. ill b #honest and itll b annoying >:-[ ugh #its just hard for me to b around ppl a lot bc i get stuck in mental loops bc ocd. which is exhausting. and i want it to stop #and i want to do bad things to make it stop but i wont bc im trying to b better #its just funny to me that ill go from everythings awful to everythings great i shoukd talk to my sisters and make friends and do this and #this and this. to oh god i cant do this anymore in such short time frames with certainty that how im feeling is how ive always felt #ive also noticed that my peaks of high energy do come before stressful events. which does make me worry for future stressful events. like #defending. i mean ive never gone fully off the tracks but its a lil alarming when it feels like the train is going at a million miles an hr #unrelated #meanwhile my other sister is apparently in Colorado but when i saw the pics is was like: YOU BITCH #R U CLOSE TO ME RN??? but no. Colorado is far away

[babygirlcowboy]

My mom trying to accept the fact that I am gay is so funny to me like the bitch interrogated me until I came out to her and now anytime the topic of me being bisexual comes up ((which is always brought up by her btw)) her face is always the physical representation of the "its rotten work. especially to me. especially if it's you. i'll do it but christ alive" text post

#like mom I was sooooo happy keeping this to myself for the rest if my life #but also it is weird living in a world where my mom is like...actively trying to be accepting oh something when it comes to me #she's trying ao hard and it pains her so much #which is funny #like im okay with her knowing if it means she's suffering just as much as i do when she asks me if I've met any cute girls lately

[italictext]

Hurray!! My sister came out to my mum as bi/pan and told ma she had a girlfriend and it went well! She's not 100% supportive but we'll get there

#My mom actually found out about her girlfriend back in February but didn't tell anyone she knew #And although she knew she still allowed my sister and her “bestie” to hang out and even let my sister's gf sleep in our house lol #Our aunt also knows and she's supportive (which is not surprising because my aunt is a lesbian lol) #Dad doesn't know yet and my sister is not ready to tell him because he's more homophobic than ma #He'll probably be unsupportive in the beginning but will be accepting eventually because his sister is literally a lesbian lmao #And although she's a lesbian dad still loves her because they're siblings and mom and dad even bought my aunt's gf/wife a rainbow cake lol #But they did hide that my aunt and her “best friend” were actually gay from us during our childhood because #“ohh kids won't understand and being gay is inappropriate for kids and we don't want them to turn gay” #So like. Not 100% supportive but at least it's not “GAYS ARE EVIL IM DISOWNING YOU FROM OUR FAMILY NEVER TALK TO ME AGAIN!!!” #Oh right and my mom is bi and she told us it's okay and normal to like the same gender as long as you don't act on it #And talked about having a crush on a girl when she was younger but never doing anything about it because she knows it's a sin #I think my parents are more transphobic than homophobic tbh #I have a trans relative and they interact with her and talk to her but they always misgender her #I don't think I'm going to come out as trans anytime soon #There was this one time they were mocking nonbinary people and they/them pronouns and ouch lol #But yayyy I'm happy for my sister!!

[beomnoullitheorem]

Just wanna ramble but don't have any guts. That hurts a lot more than anything actually :)

#noulli's mushrooms #plus Im a little sad cause my mom told me so many bitter truths about me and my body #its truth so I need to accept it but it just hurts that she didnt feel like telling it before but breaks it to me in an argument #that shit hurts more than knwing it right away #apparently im too ugly for short hair so I aint going anywhere #and apparently if I dont study #im not going to get any pizza or garlic bread which makes me happy #that ks also because im so chubby and in indian beauty standards a skinny girl is prettiest #but shes been telling me to get skinny for years and I didnt do it but idk anynore #im too ugly and im a disappointment #she was so rude and bitter #i dobt know we argue everytime but today was just different #she was cold bitter and rude #so hurting and so rude... #idk i dont even feel like crying because i just dobt wanna show anyone my tears #and she doesnt even let me do a part time cause she wants me to stidy full time #and then make me feel like im a burden #ugh... im sorry if anyone reads this #actually im a student and Im always studying so I dont have a job and little things make me hapoy thats why i sound weird #please dont mind me #i just wanna rant

[emryswisdom]

when uther dies but you aren't allowed to even be happy abt it bcuz his death just means merlin's absolute devastation and that arthur hates magic again

#he finally dies but at what cost #it makes me so sad #poor arthur loses his dad #and merlin is once again made to listen to how arthur will never accept him #i feel insane #if you couldn't tell im rewatching #BUT #im watching it with my sister!! #its her first time #im so happy she's getting into it #anyway #im gonna cry myself to sleep<33 #bbc merlin #bbc arthur #arthur pendragon #uther pendragon #camelot

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

i still can't get over my roommate implying i was autistic and my friend pulling out her phone to show me the "i'm like if a beautiful woman was an autistic little boy" meme that she'd been saving for the occasion someone acknowledged it

#HELLO #guys i try so hard to be normal how the fuck are people noticing #ALSO WHY ARE THEY ACKNOWLEDGING IT #my other friend who is actually diagnosed with autism is also such a little bitch about this #if i flinch at noises or say something a lil too blunt he pulls me aside and goes 'are u having a tism moment' cause he's terminally online #just the audacity of people to point out that ur being weird when ur being weird. HELLO RUDE #my roommate and i had a long convo about this because she's Implied this multiple times #and the first time she said it in front of people. after we went home i was like 'do u really think im autistic' #and she went 'well you know i think it's a spectrum and you're def on it but also i know lots of autistic people who have happy lives!' #and girl what the FUCK. why are u so comfortable talking to me like that #i just got very very agitated because someone's phone was ringing for a whole fucking min and they were just ignoring it. what's WRONG WITH #HER. and im allowed to have sensory issues without it being autism ok shut the fuck up #anyways. i truly don't know how im supposed to react if someone says something like this. because a. im not diagnosed #b. people are far too comfortable armchair diagnosing me. like im not Trying to be different from what's socially acceptable leave me alone #c. but i also don't want to make a big deal about it because they're just jokign around but also the joke is that im constantly weird #can someone tell me how im supposed to react to this #honestly im kinda scared to post this on the autism website. #please don't be too mean to me