#she asked about my journalling

[tabithatwo]

do you think shauna learned that cells turn over completely in seven years thing in high school biology and latched onto it and had an existential crisis meltdown of nuclear proportions when it was coming up on seven years since she’d consumed jackie because none of the cells in her body were born out of the energy she got from jackie’s flesh anymore?

#or am I the only one who thinks like this l o l #I WISH this was shitposting #I’m so serious tho lmao like #I think shauna would think about this #I think she’d study it. like she’d say okay that’s just an untrue fun fact right #but then like once you get down to the detail and the complexity she wouldn’t know if she was MORE jackie or LESS jackie #she’s sitting in the LITERAL CLOSET that she loves to sit in for environmental storytelling purposes crying about cell turnover #jeff comes home and she’s holding a medical journal in shaking hands asking about heart cells #through sobs she asks if only 40% of your heart renews in a lifetime was any of that at the RIGHT time #jeff says what…what Right time you’re scaring me a little #shauna rolls her eyes and kicks him out of his own bedroom so she can cry under better conditions (without him) #she calls taissa for the first time in two years but she of course can’t bring herself to ask so it’s just an awkward call all around #this is both funny to me and breaking my heart like I’m so emotionally dysregulated about this I’m not sure if I’m kidding or serious!! #much like yellowjackets showtime!!! #yellowjackets #shauna shipman #jackie taylor #jackie x shauna #taissa turner #shauna x jackie

[rexscanonwife]

@dearly-beeloved NAWW BUT THE WAY I ACTUALLY GOT KINDA MISTY EYED WHEN I READ THIS...FAMBILY....😭😭💖💖💖💖

#jane journals #self insert talk #familial self ship #🔬starkissed scientist 🔬 #💙 sugar 💙 #💚 spice 💚 #🩷 everything nice 🩷 #YOU HAVE CHILD F/OS THEY CAME FREE WITH UR FUCKING PROFESSOR 😭😭😭 #like...I LOVE THEM SO MUCH I ADORE ALL OF THEM #to think i guess id kinda be their mom 🥺🥺🥺 #especially when they grow to trust me!! #like i was thinking about my s/i and her alien culture #theyre really long lived and probably dont spend a lot of time in family groups #they kinda just go off on their own. so when the girls ask about her family and she says she never really had one #THEY JUST HUG HER AND TELL HER THAT THEY /ARE/ HER FAMILY NOW 😭😭😭 #IM GONNA FUCKING CRY

[professorsparklepants]

Had an extremely long, plotty dream that took place in Tajikstan. It was very detailed and very Muslim women centric with interesting aspects of local culture at the front of the plot.

Then I woke up and remembered that I don't know anything about Tajikistan.

#literally yesterday if you asked me to list -stan countries i would have forgotten it #that is how littke i know about tajikstan #where did this entire plot about a second generation american going to her grandparents place in the country to be a teacher #& clashing with local culture while being a devout muslim and dating a boy who fell for her when she visited as a child #even COME from #there was a plot point about local embroidery???? #i cannot express enough how much shit my brain made up out of nowhere #dream journal

[milflewis]

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#in a strange place today and i need to put this somewhere. i do not have a journal yet. this is it #my grandad was diagnosed with dementia years ago and the grandad i have now is often unrecognisable from the one i grew up with #and while this like isn’t fun and it is strange for him to look at me and not know me more times than he does. it has also been kind of l #lovely? #bc he thinks my granny is still alive so whenever i get to go see him i get to pretend she is too. and she is for a minute. and tho i am #glad she went before him. it is nice to say oh i’m popping in to see her after this grandad and talk about her like she’s hasn’t been gone #since i’ve been ten. my dad has spoken more to him in the last five years than he has his whole life #he was not an easy man. he was loud and friendly and hard working and funny and scary but not easy. in ways he is even #harder now. in others he is easier. #he is more of a child. this is what dementia can do to a brain. we are learning things about his childhood that no one alive has ever spoken #about. that no one knew. my dad doesn’t love him more now but he understands him better #my grandad taught me how to drive a tractor and how to fish through my dad and he has not recognised me in over a year and he #hasn’t walked since he broke his pelvis seven years ago and his muscles are nearly all gone. he is a fraction of the size he used to be. his #personality and body took up my childhood like adults on the screen in cartoons. he hasn’t dressed himself in a decade. he told one of the #nurses that after dinner he wanted ice cream plain like herself and nearly peed when she laughed and told him to fuck off #he is in there. he is himself. i know him. but he isn’t. he doesn’t know me but he allows me to tell him how to ppl he knows are doing. he #still somehow trusts me. we talk a lot about my granny and how she stayed up watching tv again last night so she’s tired today. don’t stay #long when you call in to see her? #whenever we would journey to see him and my granny and get in v late he’d ask us if we wanted apple tart and my granny would say michael. #not ur kids. u can’t parent them. he didn’t know my name yesterday but he asked me if i wanted apple tart #i hope he dies soon. for all that i will miss this. miss my dad having this. he would not want to live like this. it wouldntbe living to him

[godofsmallthings]

had a taylor dream last night 🥰

#she was playing like a ~1000 cap school auditorium type vibe #and i was barricade #and she played love story and the crowd was not into it bc we were so burnt out on it from eras #and then at intermission i ran into her at the gift shop and asked her about #fair use of her image in merch and she couldn't answer my questions #so then i had to placate her and be like dw i know you're knowledgeable about music business #and then i think she asked for my email so we could keep talking after the show #dreams #first one in a min that didn't involve her dying so that's fun #it's so funny because she's always so like sensitive and aloof in my dreams. which is not at all how i would guess her to be irl #it's just interesting that that's what my subconscious conjures #i need to start keeping a dream journal fr #vi is typing...

[raviiel]

JIMINY'S JOURNAL ENTRY, KINGDOM HEARTS II, TAIYOU

Childhood friend of Sora, Riku, and Kairi.

After Sora thwarted Ansem, Seeker of Darkness, in his attempt to access Kingdom Hearts, she went missing without a trace. She supposedly has a deep tie to Destiny Islands, and Sora was forced to defeat her Heartless in order to return their home to the way it had once been.

According to Leon and friends at Hollow Bastion, Taiyou mysteriously manifested inside of the castle without any memory of what had happened before disappearing again before Sora, Donald, and Goofy had arrived.

#kingdom hearts #kingdom hearts 2 #kingdom hearts oc #kh oc #kh sora #kh riku #kh kairi #jiminy's journal #this is my longtime kh oc taiyou! she's my baby. my cinnamon apple. my second oldest oc that's conceptually over a decade old. LMFAO. #please ask me questions about her! even tho no one will #she exists throughout the series not just kh2 lol i just somehow ended up doing this first before anything else #i'm so proud of myself #taiyou #i'm not saying i have a patent on the name taiyou for kh but... :^)

[blizzardfluffykpop]

You sent me an ask so I shall return the favor! What is the most recent Kpop group you’ve gotten into and how did you find out about them? I always love hearing fan “origin stories” lol

Thank you for returning the favor~ That would be The Boyz 🥰💖 I love hearing fan "origin stories" too hehe (This is gonna get long I love them sm)

Anyways I've known about them since debut? I loved Bloom Bloom Pow with my whole heart when it came out and tried to fall for them then- It didn't work. The next time was when The Stealer (TS) came out~ I had watched them perform for Road to Kingdom- because ptg was on the show too- But I really loved TS cb- sm so that I bought the album about 6 mos later with my favorite members as inclusions at the time (Eric, Kevin and Hyunjae). But nothing came about of it even after watching the weekly idol episodes... Then came Whisper era and I ended up biasing Changmin (Q) and loving that song but again nothing came out of it.

(A little backstory is that Changkyun (I.M) got me into Dominic Fike's music-) Thus, when tiktok showed me Juyeon, Changmin, and Sunwoo dancing to Babydoll earlier this year as a dance cover: I fell. And then I finally checked out Watch It~ But Hui had his solo and it distracted me completely from falling further. Then I had gotten sick and decided 'well, what if I watch their content?' And I did... I watched their hello82 interview and their reaction to fanart of them, and lastly their mafia dance. And I loved each sm that I decided to check out more.

It was the first time I had watched their content and wanted to see more. And now, I watch their content almost daily. It's kind of like they revived the joy of kpop for me? My (old) ult of ults has been on hiatus due to the military so it's been stagnant content lately for me. But then they came in like a breath of fresh air- and I simply can't get enough. This month will be 3 mos and I honestly hope I'll follow them for a long time. (I think they're my new ult of ults tbh)

And lastly now here I am as a Younghoon and Juyeon bias (with bias wrecker: Changmin... he's doing everything to be bias again). And with them having a comeback I loved with my whole heart this past month, I think it really solidified them with me. Honestly, I'm so happy with them.

#my 'fan origin story' hehe #lovely mutuals #asks #kate rambles from here #i even started a new kpop journal just dedicated to them and my thoughts- it's a 200 page journal and i have nearly 50 pages about them #and i started it in february ebhbha- #it's so funny because i saw one of my ults' concerts in theater the month before they should have became the ult of ults and here tbz comes #if the theory is true that you fall in love with certain people/groups/things at certain time then that means even when #i wanted to fall in love with them- that i had to wait until now to fall for them even if i wanted to fast forward it- i think now is a #perfect time- it's when i need them most i think- and fuck i could go on about them forever and why they mean sm to me in such little #time but oh how i love these guys- #no seriously everything i wish they could do- i find out they've done or will do- or for like pcs i like them a certain way and by golly #does yh do my favorite poses- and their music is just ?!?! i love it sm- ofc i've listened to them before a lot but ?? it's my speed rn #kate rambles #did i drag my close friend into them too? yes- yes I did- but she had full free will- she could have stayed on the happy mbb boat instead #of jumping into the water and swimming to lip gloss island with me- but alas she didn't so it's even more fun cause i get to be a new #deobi with her- and it's literally the best experiance i could have ever asked for- she prolly won't see these (i'm banking on it) and #honestly i'm so thankful for her- for joining me in this 'insanity' we've gotten ourselves into- i'm glad we were both stolen from our mbb #home together- it's sm fun to talk about tbz with her- because she's experiencing them new just like i am- i could go on here too #but i won't- so i'll stop here- i love these boyz sm tbh (every time i say it even if it's a lot- it doesn't feel enough)

[aatroxskitten]

i think the solution to seeing more of the content about your specific kind of trans existence to follow blogs that actually post about it instead of expecting different trans ppl to cater to you. tumblr is not activism and ppl are allowed to do whatever they want on their personal tumblrs, so like??? i am not expecting a trans girl to blog about transmasc experiences and vice versa. it is not a "denial of resources" and it is not oppression to not be blogged about on Tumblr Dot Com. this is literally just a little journal. we're not changing the world, we're venting or posting about things we like. allow others their space. "waaah there's too much x on my dash, why aren't they posting about y" why do you follow people who only post about x then, why aren't you following the million blogs that post about y? it's tumblr. we're not running out of space. there is room for all of us, so curate your dash and stop whining.

#trans #basically my personal philosophy #i will not end anti-transmasculinity by posting shit on a blog about taking demon boy cock #it's all venting #it's not activism in the slightest #demanding that someone post more about a certain issue #is pretty much asking for virtue signaling. #using a platform is for people with more than 14 followers #using a platform is for ppl like celebrities #big youtubers #that sort of thing #most tumblr users do not have that kind of reach #so if a trans girl on here doesn't talk about transmasc issues ever? #why do i fucking care #it's her blog #it's not some vital queer resource #i'm not entitled to her silly little journal #where all she does is post things she feels #we need to stop acting like it's bad praxis to just have our own spaces for our own experiences #not everything is about everyone #sometimes it is just about you #sometimes it is just about me #and that is FINE #because tumblr posts are not a limited resource

[sapinelle]

I met with people to sell something on Facebook marketplace and the husband was the most infuriating person I’ve ever met, treating me like I was a crook. His wife looked grey and deflated. I can’t even imagine what her life is like

#sapinelle’s journal #they were buying my fish tank on their daughter’s behalf and she was lovely #the man was talking down to me from min 1 of our encounter. #first off he blamed me for not being clear enough about our meeting place when I sent him a google pin that he didn’t bother opening #he kept asking where the tank gravel was when I was selling a full kit for a fraction of the price #of course I’m not cleaning old rocks and reselling them to you with bacteria all over them are you insane??? #and he rudely laughed saying that fish keeping was a kids hobby and looking down at me #I did not flinch once and didn’t apologize for one thing #in fact I was going to leave and tell him to shove his gravel but his wife was desperately trying to soothe him #tldr I got my money and that’s all that matters but I was this close to leaving with my fish tank and telling him to fuck off

[rosicheeks]

i do not know if i ever sent this to you. i have posted it. i hope you like it Princess.

#uhhhhhm no you HAVE NOT SENT THIS TO ME BEFORE?!?! #I literally am speechless #I’m not super talky right now #but even if I was I feel like I’d still be fucking speechless #like I already said I love your writing 🩷 #and it fucking BLOWS ME AWAY when people write about me or use me as an inspiration #like????????? what??????? me???????????! #I’m going to keep this close to my heart and look at it whenever I’m feeling down #I don’t remember if I said that already but it’s true #I need to get a journal or a cute box to put things like this in so I can just grab it and look through them when I’m feeling shitty #one thing I needed to say is the fact that you shared this with me now of all times??? is kinda crazy to me #idk if it’s a coincidence or if the universe/God/whoever/whatever is trying to tell me to go back into music and singing #not going to go into it too much but I’ve been looking at my life a lot lately #and I’m realizing I’m not getting any younger…. I know I’m still young but if I don’t do something soon - #my life is going to completely pass before my eyes and I really really don’t want that #I’m *finally* going to get mental help soon (long story but I have to wait a few weeks) #and once I’m actually mentally stable I can focus on what I want to do with my life #so I’ve been thinking a lot about my performing arts background and then randomly a get an email from a choir director I know #asking if I could please join the choir for their Easter performance cause they could really use my high notes #and she just kept complimenting me and it felt really nice ☺️ #then when I went to the first rehearsal I sat next to this girl and we were singing a part and the first sopranos go up to a high A #and I can hit it easily but most of them couldn’t so it felt like I was going this mini solo lol #but she asks me what my range is and I told her that back when I trained I could sing queen of the night which I think goes up to an F6 #and she was talking about how impressive that is #and it made me think about if I actually trained and got back into it how good I actually could get #I don’t mean this to be like ‘look at me look at me I’m so good’ #it just feels nice to have a little bit of a direction again #who knows if I’ll actually go down the music path again but it does sound damn exciting #I miss it with all my heart - I miss singing and performing and acting… I even miss music theory #anyway rant over and i ran out of space but thank you so much I seriously can’t thank you enough 😭🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

[meggettes]

my mom died a year ago

#grief #technically I’m about 4 hours early from the exact tod but yeah #i was probably up til 3:30 or so that night #I could double check bc i wrote a journal entry that night when i couldn’t fall asleep #it’s been 365 really busy days but shit right now it feels like no time has passed at all #but shoutout to palliative care nurses everywhere #and mad props to the oncologists doing bonkers scifi treatments and trials #keep up the good work #mom’s final cancer was a hell of an eldrich beast but medicine keeps developing #and bringing on night nurses for those last three nights of hospice was such a help and a comfort I don’t think I have words for #someone asked me earlier in the afternoon if i was through it having been a year and all #and i straight up said No I Am Still In The Thick Of It #my cousin (who lost her dad/my uncle 8ish years prior) said at the funeral reception “it doesn’t get better” #and she was right #it doesn’t get any better at all #you just get used to it #the lack of that person becomes familiar #even though your connection to them still feels active #like a phantom limb #it still feels horribly horrendously wrong that she’s gone #the world is certainly poorer in her absence #if I could offer any advice for anyone it would be to talk to your loved one(s) about this all ahead of time #don’t wait til they get sick don’t wait til they get old or whatever #start talking through it now #(certainly legally but also logistically) #unfortunately it’s a certainty that you will lose the person most important to you #or they will lose you #so don’t hide from it or put it off. it’s part of any relationship. it’s there and no one can escape it. #but yeah #right now this hurts

[jugsjules]

You ever look at things that happened in ur life and go “hey how the fuck did this even happen?” Like what the fuck chain of events unfolded that led five or six year old me to be sat down for an interview which was then used by a bunch of college students to create a contemporary dance routine about the time i got bit by a dog?

#sure i could ask my mom about it #but she’s not gonna have the answers to the real questions i have #jules journals

[rexscanonwife]

Aaaaa it's technically not my birthday anymore now, but it's been the best birthday ever. Perfect, really. Thanks to my wonderful partner and my friends (especially my best friend) who've gotten me where I am now 🥺

As part of my birthday festivities my partner and bff watched ROTS together over stream, then my partner and I watched the finale of the clone wars together and UUUGGGHH. It was their first time ever and MY first time since the first time (so like. Two years ago.) And man...

I will never ever get over star wars. And Rex? Will always be my forever husband. Ever since then I've been completely devoted to him, head over heels. Even if other f/os take center stage once in a while, he's always the one I come back to. I've thought before that there's something SACRED about the way I feel for him, about the passion and work and time I've put into his story with Brea. And tomorrow I'm getting a whole ass TATTOO representing him. ON MY BODY FOREVER AND EVER.

He's always gonna be my captain, and there's nothing I would do differently about that.

#jane journals #self insert talk #💙 oh captain my captain 💙 #UHHH LONG RAMBLY SAPPY POST WAHHH #IM IN MY FEELINGS #i need everyone to know JUST how deep and real this is 😭😭😭 #and idk i feel like getting a tattoo is something brea would do too #after the war at least maybe she finds like a tattoo artist who wont know what she is and do it no questions asked #maybe ill think about writing/drawing that idk #but what i WAS thinking about writing during the finale ._. #was a little blurb where rex finally lets everything sink in and breaks down as he realizes #that with everything hes lost he JUST NOW thought of brea and has no clue if shes even alive #thats the breaking point #and ahsoka is there to comfort him 🥺🥺 sibling momence... #ahfjgj wah ok i go bed now ok #goodnight and thank you everyone for your birthday wishes!!!

[greppelheks]

Totally fucked up from three little glasses of wine with food. Guess i really was tired. Had so much fun having drinks with three wonderful, kind women, and completely and fully fell in love with one of the women's five year old son. Honestly the sweetest, most polite, smartest little boy I've ever met. 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

#she asked if she could bring him because her husband was late #and everybody was so excited because he's so sweet #and he's so talkative #he was telling us all about superman and spiderman and snakes and frogs #and he was giggling away over a story he told he's so precious #tiny tiny little man with red hair #want to put him in my pocket #personal #The three women I was with are so kind so sweet so interested #Theyre the best communicaters and these are just women where hanging out with them doesn't exhaust #But gives me energy #I love them! #I'm gonna make some dinner because wow 3 drinks really? And then I'm gonna start my reading journal! #ok god bless this food just completely sobered me up #gonna make some coffee and have fun not being at woooork! #god bless three days off ahead of me yeehaw

[freebooter4ever]

The tech guys are hanging out in my office again and chatting about $10,000 week long vacations like this is normal.

#Journal shit #Ah yes the life i gave up to be a grunt 3D generalist working on the lowest of the low entertainment \o/ #A lot of my friends here get mad at my dad for not being supportive #And i myself get frustrated at him for being insulting about my general life failure #But like....he has a point #I dont think he needed to treat me like yesterdays trash over it but #He was right i probably should have taken a programming job #But poor dad he got saddled with a child who is stubborn and tragically not financially motivated like at all #I mean he is the exact same damn way i feel like my dad forgets that it was just me and him for four years there #I saw how he lived without certain influences and he did not give a crap about status or money or fancy things #It wasnt until the rich bitch came along and started making him like...update his furniture every few years because *style* #and making him buy new designer coats every year so he doesn't embarrass himself in front of the other volleyball parents #Im just saying prior to the introduction of Steves Wife to our family these things just didnt exist to us #It does greatly entertain me that Steves Wife is not allowed to come to the ohio farm because everybody agreed that she just... #Could Not Handle The Poor #Anyway thats my dads idea of a vacation going to visit grandma on the farm this summer #And two guesses he and grandma will just sit around reading and doing puzzles and watching tennis #Pretty much exactly what i did when i went on vacation to visit her #I want to ask my dad if you think i am a failure what do you think of yourself i am exactly fucking like you for better or worse #Well i mean except i also did a lot of drawing of hockey players and grandma would lean over my shoulder #Saying things like *he looks like a nice young man* #yes grandma and he also racks up the penalty minutes like you wouldnt believe

[bookishjules]

had a dream last night where i was part of a family that was going through a bit of a rough patch. parents separating, teens dating and trying to step out on their own, the youngest ones adjusting to life in a new neighborhood, the mom just trying to keep everything together.. just life things. and i kept switching povs, paying attention to one kid or another or the dad, or just floating around. but i miss them, this little family i'm already forgetting. i miss their house and the toys on the floor and the hugs the kids gave me when i came back home. i miss their smiles. and it's made all the harder knowing they will never exist again--in the world or in anyone else's mind, or likely in my own mind either. because that's the nature of elusive dream stuff.. they were made to be forgotten

#quite a bittersweet way to start the day #jules dream journal #i got a text from my 12yo while i was writing this and she was surprised i responded so quickly so she asked what i was doing #and when i told i was writing a tumblr post about my dream last night she said 'that's very julia' lol #and then we had a little convo #so at least there's that to help the sweet outweigh the bitter :)