#she has to let me breathe

[softavasilva]

now how do i normally go about my day after having read this

#warrior nun #avatrice #warrior nun cast #wn txt #'breath her in' they said and alba understood it to be 'look at her with the most yearning of eyes with a treat of an almost kiss' #alba is fucking insane she almost let her intrusive thoughts win #i owe her my life actually #every acting decision she has made for ava is so crucial and profound to her characterization #im so fucking thankful simon fought for alba as ava #no one can portray her like she does and no one can ever fill she shoes #now back to this unhinged information???? wtf jcndjndjd theyre chemistry is so intense they have to be like 'ok wait chill not yet' #also thinking about that time kty said there was supossed to be another kiss in the last ep #so ur telling me we could have gotten a total of 3 kisses? #im gonna fucking throw up #i love this cast this crew this director this whole team so much #no one can do a show better than them

[wildstar25]

What physical part(s) of Arsay does her partners find the most attractive! Is it the same for all partners or does it differ between them?

(also optional bonus ask of what part(s) of/about Arsay generally do they love the most, physical or not!)

Meanwhile, if you were to ask the same of Arsay:

#ffxiv #wolship #g'raha tia #y'shtola rhul #wolgraha #wolshtola #y'shtola x wol #arsay nun #graharshtola #y'shtola calling arsay a pain in her side is very much an affectionate thing btw #and i couldnt pass up the joke of g'raha giving the sweet gentlemanly response only for yshtola to be like 'tits tbh' #her defaulting to an answer that would probably stop the conversation before she has to talk to much about her deeper feelings imo #i have. a lot of feelings about yshtola and arsay's friendship #someone who is constantly trying to build walls between herself and others vs someone who desperately wants to form real connections #its not a 'wearing that person down' type situation either #just one lonely person seeing another lonely person and hoping that they could be less lonely together #or that she could at least bring some cheer to #and idk yshtola strikes me as the type to have been like 'if they want to be my friend they have to work for it' #which arsay certainly did #i could ramble on and on how their friendship lines up so well with yshtolas character development but theres a limit to these tags #so just look at how cute shtola is with the slightest blush on her cheeks #graha is a much more complicated topic since he went from Extreme adoration to I want to be her friend but I dont think im good enough #to 100% Hero worship again to Shes my hero and I love her to Shes a person and I love her #to I love Arsay. Even the parts she can't love in herself. I will love all of her till my dying breath. #he thinks shes the most beautiful person in the world and the most important thing in his life #but he now knows how insane she's been about being everyone's hero and he really doesnt want to feed that beast #so hes trying to build her up in other ways #focusing more on the adventuring side than the saving the world side #and then there is arsay who loves so much about her partners and is in capable of narrowing it down to any one thing so its #'here let me list everything that comes to mind right now' with 0 shame or filter

[yeahyankee]

EMILY AXFORD, MARISHA RAY AND AIMEE CARERRO IN ONE EPISODE? For free????

#I almost passed out from shouting so loud when I heard Matt introduce Emily #critical role spoilers #critrole #critical role campaign 3 #We ​finally get to watch Emily break Matt #I’m so here for this #somewhere Murph and Brennan breathe a short sigh or relief #she has a BOOK CHAPERONE OH MY GOD #I’m letting it wash all Over me

[dont-blame-it-on-the-kids]

I have a question if it’s alright? Personally what do you think happened to Lin after Amon took her bending? Cause I doubt he would have just let her walk free bending or not. Cause like near the end she just pops back up. No escape scene or anything if Amon did imprison her.

*Looks at entire blog* uh yeah... I might have a few thoughts lmao <3

It is Perfectly Alright!!! I will always always enjoy any excuse to talk about After/During Amon shit yessssss

I have a few fics up about this! up on my Ao3, MIND THE TW TAGS I BEG YOU.

I have an OLD one about if Lin got off the island and how she tried to support the Krew and keep out of their way.

i have another idea where she was held in the cells pema and the kids were shoved into in later so she knew she failed to protect them after all.

I have another idea where shes held in a wooden cage in the Sato workshop so she could see the planes and machines being built but couldnt reach them.

I have the more recent fic about her being tortured for the days leading up to the rally. but she is uh, barely alive and that is not really canon compliant with the unexplained scene of Lin on the docks.

so if you're looking for a fully canon compliant take...

Amon did not let her off the island, they probably held her in that cell that they have in the ATI attic (for some reason?) she would have tortured for information, where the air fam was headed, where the Avatar was, ect. she would have been there when Tarrlok was tossed in, but I think maybe she was dragged out to the arena to be apart of the rally as a display of all the trophies Amon's collected the bending of. So no one knew where she was but she was probably with a bunch of other captives so she was found when the police cleared the building. So for keeping it canon compliant then any injuries would have been healed up with a healing sesh. (or she was hiding her injuries rather well)

as an aside, in the south

As to why Lin was there, I think Katara would have tried bloodbending to undo the damage bloodbending did. Lin allowed Katara to try several times on herself with no success.

I also fully believe Korra took Lin into the Avatar state with her so she could see Aang again and he could thank her and say he loved her and was proud of her and Aang could restore Lin's element to her.

#i have so many ideas about this #and they are never kind to lin lol #anonymous #after amon #my brand #please feel free to keep asking me questions #i love you sm #give me an excuse to rant about how they couldnt include the lin scenes cuz its a kids show #let me tell you about how they dont know Amon is dead #how they keep getting reports of him in the city #and how lin's hands tremble and she feels like she cant breathe when she reads those fucking words #how she stumbles her way to Saikhans at 3am after a nightmare left her in a hallucination/delusion and she is terrified Amon is after her #that he has the air kids

[suguru-getos]

Not me bawling and crying to my bf who’s at the airport travelling to another country about my Manager fucking up my ratings for appraisal 😭

#he be at the check-in consoling me while i was bawling #my dad’s like ok tell them to fuck themselves and come home and chill till u find a new job #my bf is like oh fuck that bitch and tell her to shove it and let me spoil you for a few months #but i wanna stay at my workplace out of pure spite and make her life hell #absolutely hell 💯 and make her breathing difficult by putting a stack of feedbacks she cant handle #also ill fight 💪🏻 cus she has no justification of my ratings #but dad’s option is so tempting though #hes like didnt u want to do an mba?? go upskill #en rants #deleting later

[youshouldbesad]

halsey is so funny for releasing their version of die for me randomly after years of people wanting it like she knows we wont miss any opportunity to whack g e*zy tbh i hope she never stops dragging him 

#this version reminds me so much of im not mad #both the lyrics and the sound #love the fact that she has not let this man breathe since 2018 like he deserves it! #halsey

[engagemythrusters]

1000% true reason Ezra's hair got short for s3 is bc Chopper Base is a warmer climate than Lothal and Ezra's got that nice thick hair yknow so time to give himself an edgy teen undercut (or whatever emo vibe he's going for that reduces hair on his head) to get his scalp to breathe. and so he has sabine come do it. but sabine is a perfectionist and, more importnatly, an older sibling. so she messes up once and goes "fuck" and then shaves him bald and tells him to come back in 6 months to try again

#its true sabine told me herself #... tho i do suppose... if. #IF. #if you want the angsty route. #perhaps ezra had a little padawan braid tucked in his nice full head of hair. and perhaps. #perhaps one day when kanan has withdrawn inside himself--cutting himself off from the force and his family and his padawan. his KID. #perhaps when the sith holocron has gotten its wrap around ezra. #perhaps that day he gets so ANGRY. he takes his saber to his braid. #and he regrets it instantly. #guilt gets him so hard and so fast that he impulsively pcks up the cut and continues #and his head is all shaggy and he just sits in his room and cant bear to THINK about hmslf. much less look at what he has just done w hmslf #so he slides into sabines room in the middle of the night. and neither of them say anything. but she evens out his hair and lets him go #and the next morning nobody breathes a word to him about it. #and nobody knows what to say to kanan. so they just... don't. #ANYWAY YEA #okay bye #ezra bridger #sabine wren #star wars: rebels #jokeposting xoxo #or am i....

[quietwingsinthesky]

there’s a progression in there, somewhere, of even going from ‘the master might kill me any day now :(‘ to ‘the master is going to kill me :) she’s not going to let someone else do it after all this time’

#i wouldn’t call it hubris exactly. more like this pretty secure surity that that’s how they’re going to die. #and to them that makes sense. they chose this. they keep choosing it after the doctor offers them a way out. #because this is. they understand this. and they feel safe in the reprieve before their death. #how do you control death? choose who kills you. the last defense of a prey animal. #something something dark mirror to clara’s ‘i am owed’ speech for even is if this ever. doesn’t work out the way they thought it would. #clara tried to threaten the doctor so that he’d reverse death for her. even would turn on the master if she tried to spare them. #i am owed better. i am owed the death you promised… i am owed the knowledge that you don’t care enough to save me… you know. something like #that. #even is. kind of. meant to mirror the doctor’s companions at the time. they are a martha who can’t leave him. they are a donna who has to #remember and never speak about everything they know. they are clara if during deep breath clara reached back and truly didn’t expect. truly #hoped. that no one would take her hand. because if they can be certain it will happen they can know never to reach again. #jesus christ. go to therapy boy. you have so many trust issues. #but that’s why they’re Like That with the master because at the end of the day. who is easier to rely on? the guy who comes in to put out #fires but only sometimes. or the guy who. really really fucking likes starting fires. #better to get burned hoping someone is coming or get burned knowing that’s what would happen. and even. chooses the latter. #AND ALL OF THIS. for me to say thats why i cant actually let the master ever kill them. #i think she needs to do something worse to even. i think she needs to abandon them. #and that will either set them free to go have healthy normal relationships or. lets be honest much more likely. completely fucking break #them. which would be fun :) for me. #dw oc

[dolentends]

❝ she liked your picture . . . ❞ ------ ❝ which is fine . i just don't understand why you guys still follow each other . ❞

#* ╱ 𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐔𝐄 : 𝘬𝘢𝘪𝘢 𝘷𝘰𝘭𝘦𝘬 . #* ╱ 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑 : 𝘰𝘱𝘦𝘯 . #my dancer sweet angel baby kaia #who is literally the most insecure muse i have #its not her fault though :// she's been pitied against her sister since she took her first breath #and let me just say ... number two has always been her title #i was listening to obsessed by olivia and boom

[bitchthefuck1]

One of the weirdest things about finding out you're traumatized/mentally ill/neurodivergent as an adult is looking back at all the very obvious signs in your childhood and realizing none of the adults responsible for you were paying attention

#it really is a mindfuck #like all of yall were really asleep at the wheel here #me: exhibiting very obvious symptoms of neurodivergence and mental and physical illnesses #ever parent teacher coach and other authority figure i interacted with: shes just Like That. #fun fact i when i was in elementary school starting in 2nd grade id have to walk to the front of the classroom and read a section of the #board at a time and then go back to my desk and copy it from memory because I couldn't see well enough from my seat and not a single #teacher said or did anything about it until i was in fifth grade. guess who needed glasses. #like they didn't even ask they just let that happen until my fifth grade teacher was like. what are you doing. and i told her i couldn't #read the writing from two rows back and she told me to tell my mom i needed glasses #anyways ms. [redacted] you're the only valid mfer in this place #not even gonna get into the number of coaches who called me lazy or out of shape in middle/high school (even though i was playing multiple #sports a year) when i told them i couldn't breathe after running for only a minute or two. guess who has sports asthma. #maybe this is just being the middle child but like of you're not going to pay attention to me can u at least not immediately call me a liar #when i say something's wrong maybe #those aren't even mental/neurological those are very obvious and easily demonstrated physical issues and you STILL didn't say anything #not even gonna get into all the very obvious signs of mental illness and neurodivergence

[candied-cae]

I’m gonna be so real, babes, when I saw that storm looking so ROUGH at the end of episode 2, I was real worried The Revenge was going to capsize and completely break to splinters and just sink to the bottom of the ocean. And I was DEVASTATED!

I was legitimately about to cry for that big ol’ boat bc she’s home and she's a part of their journey, and she can’t rest until her captains have been reunited! She deserves to see it happen on her deck, or so help me-

#Cae Has Lots of Feelings About Our Flag Means Death #Treating The Revenge like a living breathing character BECAUSE TO ME SHE IS!!! #I just think there's something so beautiful and poetic as treating the physical structure of your shelter as a member of the family #And I've already gone on a ramble about how much The Revenge and her flag represent freedom and safety #So to lose that in a nightmare sea storm in Ed's attempt at a mass suicide so he doesn't face death alone would be so fucking heartbreaking #like even if everyone survived and found things to float on and got saved... if they all lost that boat I would've been inconsolable #I might end up writing something about that - who knows #Anyway let's all keep streaming and peer pressuring the rest of the world to join in #Our Flag Means Death #OFMD #Our Flag Means Death Season 2 Spoilers #The Revenge #Just a little bit of show meta in these tags #I got emotional #not unusual

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: December 15

"Bad Goodbye" by Clint Black

#song of the day #I really like the writing in the chorus of this song. 'good bye: easier said than done' and 'in my good-bye you're finding none' #Duncan's been on a Clint Black kick for a while now #he plays it while he's in the shower and it comes through into my room--sometimes his music choices are more objectionable #I really really do not like 'Roundabout' by Yes--but the Clint Black has been very nice. soothing #I can't breathe unless I'm sitting up but Jo doesn't understand why I won't lay flat and let her walk around on me and she's mad about it

[camping-with-monsters]

Kind of a rant with full offense but I genuinely despise all the hate Geeta gets as a champion. Yes her battle was a pushover. You have exactly 1 fire type which could totally be your token “overleveled starter” and she’s basically done for. But as a character? She’s not that bland— not from everyone else’s standpoints. Specifically the gym leaders.

First of all, everyone forgets she’s not even the final battle of the Victory Road storyline. Second of all, the fact that in the post game when you rematch all the gym leaders, many of them seem to react somewhat brashly thinking that you are Geeta (as far as I remember. Cause like. I think they’re supposed to have some sort of meeting I guess but Geeta sends you to take care of matters instead.) Many of them mention Geeta having a weird aura— a bewitching aura even (quote taken specifically from gym leader Tulip.) and she seems to rub a lot of the gym leaders the wrong way mentally. People seem to forget that she’s blatantly supposed to be a character shrouded in mystery but everyone and their mom wanna pin the blame on the rock flower she sends at the end of her battle for why she’s a bad champion. Y’all are focusing on the wrong material. Yes, her battle is pretty decently hyped and is a let down because yeah, she’s got a weird ass team and doesn’t use Kingambit or Glimmora’s ability the “right way” and that “Gamefreak doesn’t know how to make a good game” as if most of y’all weren’t crying at the mere concept of Arven’s whole motive for his storyline. Y’all ain’t slick.

Glimmora as her ace is genius. Not because of the battle standpoint— in that regard, it’s of course used very poorly considering it’s hazard setting gimmick. This is introducing the importance of this Pokémon and the lore of Paldea as a whole. Glimmet and Glimmora have something to do with the origins of Area Zero. The way it’s found in large abundances— the emphasis on the Pokémon in general in the endgame. It’s supposed to display it’s importance and not much else. Maybe even give way to whatever is going on in the DLC. It’s called “The Hidden Treasures Of Area Zero” for goodness sake! I firmly believe that when the DLCs come out, we will be getting some major answers to some questions. Why does she battle so carelessly? Why does she emit such a bewitching aura? Why is Nemona oblivious to this? Why is Geeta just… like that? What! Is! Geeta’s! Deal!?

Geeta is a character with so much opportunity for open speculation. She is a character we are supposed to be theorizing on. She’s a character we are supposed to be learning more about as time goes on.

But all y’all wanna focus on her easy ass battle. Hmph.

#The Kiwi Speaks #warning I’m about to be so fucking brutally honest in the post and the tags #/ neg #FULL offense but Geeta is a really solid character BECAUSE of the speculative opportunity #People are so unnecessarily mean to Geeta like. #WE STILL GOT 2 WAVES OF DLC MY GUY #GET OFF HER ASS MAN. LET THE WOMAN BREATHE DAMMIT #“we’re so sorry for bullying you diantha wahhh” #STOP FUCKIN CRYING BITCH. WAH WAH WAH. I DONT WANNA FUCKIN HEAR IT /ref #okay genuinely just. I really like Geeta okay #I think she has a really interesting concept behind her #we have a champion who doesn’t know how to be a champion #and thinks she knows exactly what she’s doing when she doesn’t #but is still considered top champion #and you’re left to question what happened #WHY DO PEOPLE HATE THIS CONCEPT SO MUCH???? #I’m sorry but I will DEFEND Scarlet and Violet and DEFEND Geeta whether you like it or not #y’all jump on the hate bandwagon so fucking fast. can we please for the love of fuck let the DLCs happen #sorry but Pokemon Fans make me mad sometimes <3 #why do people choose to relentlessly hate a character for not living up to expectations #she’s not even the final battle man #I promise you—you’ll hear it here first I guess— that I think her battle is like that on purpose #Pokémon #pokémon scarlet and violet #pokémon scarlet #pokemon scarvio #Pokémon violet #Geeta #geeta pokemon #Pokemon Spoilers

[thebleedingeffect]

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#okay I'm talking in the tags of this post cause shit is happening in my life and I gotta talk about it somewhere #one part of it is my step brother crashing and burning before my very eyes and there's nothing I can do to stop his own destructive actions #so it's just me watching this poor kid ruin his relationships and blame everything and everyone around him as he does so #despite the fact that he's undeniably been treated horribly at times- he's just turned that anger back onto others and himself #and I have no idea what to feel as I watch him get arrested. have drug problems. because I'm just waiting for the inevitable spiral #it doesn't help that my mom has been comparing us and saying that I'm the much better child and she wishes he was like me #not understanding that I could’ve been him if I was just more angry at the world at that age instead of being so sad and scared #and that leads me to my fucking mom cause like- I love her. we've been through alot of bad shit with her #I've almost done some really bad shit for her and I know that she loves me more than anything else #but it feels like its been getting more and more suffocating cause I'm not sure she's able to start seeing me as an adult #and start loosening her grip around me and let me breathe. to have my own experiences without her by my side #to be able to go places and imagine a future without her constantly by my side #she talks and it's like she doesn't even think to wonder that perhaps I want to form my own experiences #and experience the world on my own terms because I feel like I've spent my whole life having so little damn control #religious family. shit and neglectful father who turned into the exact opposite and nearly killed me. family who refuses to listen and talk #having to move and run immediately. put survival above all else. go to school. get out. and god I just wanna breathe #she loves me so much and I love her too. but I feel like I'll be sooner crushed if I stick here for long enough #I'm just mad that my life has been nothing but absolutely no love. sudden waves of intense love. absolutely nothing. sudden spike #and I feel like I'm just finally starting to form good. healthy relationships on my own terms and actually make friends #because I had no idea what I was doing when I was a kid cause I was so fucking lonely and hurting #now I just. gotta figure out how to tell my mom that I can't carry this expectation that I'll continue to stay forever by her side #it just feels like I'm her child first and a person second. and it sucks. it really sucks. #ough. spins and spins and spins and spins-

[puzzlekinq]

cant sleep because im seething with anger

#been laying here for like 40 minutes fantasizing about finally snapping and telling my mom everything i really think and feel #if i ever came out to her she would end up cutting me off like she did to my aunts and uncles and cousins #basically im alone and my parents and siblings are the only family i can be in contact with right now and its isolating #off topic but yeah #i miss having a big family and people besides my parents that i could rely on. people i felt like i could actually breathe around #idk. whatever #why do i feel responsible for her actions all the time. its been my job to keep her stable and listen to her vent for years #but i never say anything about my own feelings. because she would make me feel stupid and ridicule me. lol #all she does is make me feel like shit most of the time. shes always in a bad mood and shes always whining and always pessimistic #and yeah i get along with her for the most part but lately her attitude has been weighing on me a lot. i cant criticize or disagree with her #because she'll just get mad. shes always been an angry person. thats why i hardly spoke to her from ages 10-15 #maybe i jsut wanted to give her another chance. maybe i felt sympathy for her. shes had it rough her whole life #but when shes still bitter no matter how many times i comfort her and let her vent and cry to me and when she chooses her husband over me #every single time he fucks up (which is like. constantly) and always takes his side when they inevitably make up after a huge fight #it feels like i'll never be able to make her happy. it feels like i should stop trying. if she wants to be full of hatred #and have a shitty husband then fine. i cant fix her like and i cant hold the weight of her mistakes #*life

[dirt-str1der]

Still obsessed with these two pages (R->L) from Kiryu-chan ni korosareru because you know theyre about to fuck nasty

#Yakuza liveblog #i literally feel the need to post panels from this dj every single day ........ i love the way they draw majimas face in the very 1st page #he has such big beautiful eyes and soft round features ..... when hes having sex he gets so serious and sharp though #i love when these two guys get right up close to each other for literally no reason #like they dont even have to do that .. they dont have to cling to each other and breathe out on each others faces #and i love when majima just shoves kiryu away with the intention of fucking him silly style #like putting a treat on a dog's nose ... telling him 'not yet' like shes so fucking freaky #and majima calls kiryu cute while hes riding him .. laughing when kiryu gets excited ..... literally such a little boy #everybody must read this idc if you read it before read it again #dicksucking wednesday ... get to it #i really cant stop thinking of the way majima shoves him away ... hrghn ... she should literally not let kiryu get too close #just to tease him a bit .. give him hungry eyes while keeping himself at an arms length ...... you understand what im saying ... #majima says heh ... just try to kill me and then kiryu drags him kicking and screaming by the ankle into his torture maze