#she needs her woman ok?

[tittyinfinity]

I was hanging out at the karaoke bar, chatting with a beautiful woman, and we were really hitting it off. I threw a couple of flirtatious comments her way. She giggled nervously, but abruptly stopped and looked at the floor.

She told me that she was too nervous to hit on people because she's trans and worries that people will view her as a predator and that she might get hurt.

My heart sank. I let her know that she could hit on me in whatever way she wanted and I would LOVE it. We spent the rest of the night hanging out and flirting. We ended up making out. It was great.

But I can't stop thinking about how that wasn't the first time a trans woman has said that to me. About how unsafe it is for some women that they feel the need to give out fucking disclaimers to have normal interactions with people.

We have GOT to make the world a safer place for trans women. It pisses me off that there are men at the bar who are openly predatory towards me without fear of consequence, yet a trans woman is too scared to even fucking call me pretty. And that's because she IS more likely to face worse consequences for lesser things! Like what the fuck!

You need to always check on your internalized biases. Being queer yourself doesn't absolve you of transmisogynistic thoughts and behaviors. Being bi/pansexual doesn't mean you don't hold those biases either! If you feel differently about a trans woman hitting on you than you feel about a cis woman or a man hitting on you, you need to evaluate that.

Trans women, I love you so fucking much. You should be able to express attraction and love as freely as everyone else. I hope you can always feel safe around me. And I'll never stop fighting until you can feel safe period.

#her name was Kara which we joked about bc I came with my other friend named Kara and we were at the Kara-oke bar lol #i told her about how last time i was hit on at that same bar was ALSO by another woman named Kara #she said ''i need to find a man to transition right now so we can have more karas'' 🤣😭 she was so great lol #and I'm texting another friend named Kara right now😭 soon everyone will be Kara #transmisogyny tw #.bdo

[eggsploded]

i never posted this lol

#i wish we got just a little more time before kanaya met rose like she needed to go on a quest for love a soulsearch #not for any deep character fleshing out reasons but because it would be funnie #laying down the schmooves on rose Hey Girl “What?” Um #egg art #homestuck #kanaya maryam #sollux captor #karkat vantas #kanayas isnt really about. the abstract beauty and nuances with courting #but thats ok her peculiar woman swag will carry her to marriage in the future

[nevertheless-moving]

Hesina Willshaper AU

Step one canon divergence: Amaram's army doesn't do the kind thing. Kaladin's listed next of kin are sent a letter stiffly informing them that their son is a deserter and, thanks to the highmarshall's mercy, has been sold into slavery.

Step two canon divergence: a light spren has started following Hesina around.

The letter reaches hearthstone.

Hesina cries the bones of the first ideal through labor pangs. Their wretched diamond lamp grows slightly dimmer during childbirth.

Hesina and Lirin discuss if there's anyway they could possibly find their son and pay his slave debt. They're not optimistic.

Hesina talks with her lightspren.

Lirin and Hesina talk again about trying to find their son, now that Oroden is starting to be weaned.

Hesina appears to have grown taller. No one but the two of them seem to be aware but they're worried other future changes might be more noticeable.

Hesina and Lirin realize that she can mold rock as if it was clay with stormlight. A spark of hope for freeing their son emerges.

The two leave town.

They find a slave market in the nearest city. They see other parent's sons, but not their own.

Hesina swears to free those in bondage. Stormlight starts coming easier.

They make a tunnel. Rebellion follows. Lirin is horrified by the violence (the violence is not actually that bad all things considered. a couple guards dead. some bystanders frightened. Fair amount of property damage as they rob the military barracks food supply, steal every sphere that's not nailed down. and also steal the spheres that are nailed down. (Lirin won't admit it but the stealing from lamps part is kindof fun.)).

Many of those they freed flee. Some return to slavery willingly, scared of retribution. Many decide to follow the Radiant woman who has vowed to see others like them freed.

The group proceed to the next town. They find another slave market. They make a tunnel. There is more resistance than last time, clearly they were warned something might happened. Hesina kills a man.

Lirin is terrified by what his wife is becoming.

Hesina swears to shelter those without homes. The lightspren forms an unbreakable hammer, perfect for knocking crem free from buildings. And for knocking down men.

A now larger motley group seeks shelter in a mountain town razed in one of Alethkar's many skirmishes over the last decades. Hesina builds homes. Lirin begs her to stay here, to stop fighting before she goes to far down this path, not to go to war. The slaves they've freed are split, many wanting to stay, hide, some wanting to fight and free more, with a radiant at their head, there's a real chance to change things. Hesina lingers, practicing, spends some time falling in and out of shadesmar.

Lirin and Hesina separate.

Lirin stays with Oroden and the noncombatants. Hesina leads those who want to fight to another city, still trying to find their son, still trying to free everyone's children.

The town settles into a routine. Hesina and Lirin miss one another. This is the first time they've gone longer than two days without seeing each other in the last 25 years, and the two days was only when Lirin had to travel to where someone had overturned a cart on the road nearby and Hesina had to stay and watch the children, too young to travel. besides that, it had been every day. they keep turning to talk to each other.

While the army is gone, the free town is attacked by those trying to reclaim her property.

Hesina swims deliberately through shadesmar for the first time. reaches lirin just in time.

Lirin accepts that not fighting won't stop the violence. (It breaks him just a little bit)

Hesina shouts that one person's freedom ends where another's begins. She vows to fight against powers which would rather see their people in cages then homes. A thousand light spren rise up to grant her strength.

(yes I know she's moving fast through the oaths. but she's always been a thoughtful woman and she raised two children who asked difficult questions and now shes mother to another several hundred. honestly she had already worked through some of these concepts before they became actionable on such a grand scale.)

Lirin vows to support his wife through whatever trials the Almighty seems inclined to put her through.

The lightspren, who has started to get some memories back, remembers Oathgate Spren not terribly far from here by physical realm measurements, guarding a hidden human city

the stone remembers the way the radiants once traveled.

The path to a kingdom in the sky is slow — there are many cages to break on the way.

Kaladin doesn't know it right away, because people weren't exactly telling slaves about the freedom riots, but slave wagons start having harder and harder times reaching the shattered planes after him.

Someone mocks Lirin for having a wife so determined to pursue the masculine art of war. Lirin gets pissy and decides to show them by learning to read and write to help support the administrative side of his wife's kingdom wide asskicking.

The highprinces lead a fairly successful misinformation campaign about the slave riots, lots of accusations of rampant violence, the dregs of society lashing out, you can probably imagine

The ongoing rebellion is large enough that word trickles to the bridge crews, encouraging bridge four's hope for escaping, while also making it substantially more daunting, as the crews are even better guarded than canon.

Rumors of a female radiant swirl around. Most people assume it's a woman in shardplate with some sort of tunneling fabrial, which is still pretty crazy, but several major players Take Note

A very large and tired huddled mass of people reach Urithiru. there's just enough squires, and two new willshapers with their own oaths, to make tunnels through the shattered planes and reach the oathgate without being seen by the alethi armies

the parshendi army is another story, but some are willing to take a chance listening to the neshua kadal, and come with them.

The political implications of Dalinar freeing 1000 slaves is slightly more complex, especially considering the rebellions have been impacting Sadeas the hardest

About a week after being freed, Kaladin hires a spanreed intermediary to write home and find out if his hometown is alright (again, a lot of misinformation and rumors about the violence of the riots)

Is informed by Laral that his family left town looking for him shortly before the riots started, were presumed dead

Kaladin is under the impression that 1) his parents are dead because of him 2) the Rebellion is not the righteous fallback plan that he and the men were hoping it was.

Hesina has many reasons to go to the shattered planes. Nearest part of the trade network for food and necessary goods. Many slaves to be freed from there, and a part of her still hopes to find her son, even thought its been so long. Home of Alethkar's political leaders, the source of Alethkar's slavery.

I have spent. A LOT of time imagining many possible reunions between kaladin and his mom in my highly specific high oath hesenia au. She has a couple faces she could wear when visiting the planes. Brightlady. Radiant. Cagebreaker. Queen of Urithiru (not her real title, they're tentatively trying the Listener council model, but they know what the Alethi will understand). Even darkeyed mother, if she and Lirin approach slowly from a different direction. Honestly, pleased as I am with all of the above, a lot is flexible, the key here is kaladin going "MOM??" In some fashion

Thank you @sorchasolas for conversation and the urithiru ideas and for leading me to actually write all this down <3

#stormlight archive #my au #stormlight au no 2 #hesina cagebreaker #the stormlight archive #stormlight au #Hesina willshaper au #ok for the growing taller thing: hear me out! #like she's a tall woman #she can reach the crem on most rooftops with her crempick #like 95 percent of the rooftops #and that 5 percent of rooftops that she can't quite reach she always forgets to bring a stepstool #so she's a tall woman. but her Identity is that of an even taller woman. #do you see my vision #Lirin leaves to bring her the little stepstool because she always forgets when she's hired to clear the baker's building. #but she doesn't need it #he had noticed...but he had honestly just assumed he had gotten shorter. musculoskeletal atrophy happens to men of a certain age. #he's on the younger side but the heralds know it's been a difficult few years. he didn't bring it up but neither did his wife #now he's looking at his wife and is: #Lirin: I am certain you needed a ladder to reach this roof before #Hesina: I did? Are you sure? #Lirin: yes I'm sure you always—Hesina! #Hesina: what? #Lirin: i am. CONFIDENT. that for the last 20 years my eyes have been level with your chin. #Lirin: not your... #Hesina: not my...? #Lirin: #Hesina: #and then they go bone #ok i'm done thank you for listening <3

[imthursdaysyme]

stali getting ready for a night out

#stranger things #drawing #art #steve harrington #kali prasad #digital art #steve harrington fanart #kali prasad fanart #stali #stali fanart #i adore them ok #i love to think that kali also views robin as The Authority #that woman listens to no one and yet if steve so much as utters a robin said- that woman is doing it instantly #steve: rob said we need to stop smoking with breakfast #kali-throwing her cigarette to the ground grumbling: god fucking damnit why can’t i live my life in goddamn peace #and one day one of kalis friends is like uh why the fuck don’t you just say no to rob??? #and kali stares at them like they just decapitated themselves with a spoon #she’s like uh that woman girl boy thing is The Authority what are you talking about #and they’re like she is literally a skinny little thing what are you talking about #and kali is like you don’t know her like i do #and also i married steve so she’s my best friend in law i have to listen to her #and everyone is like what the actual fuck y’all are the scariest couple in fucking chicago and kali shakes her head and is like #everybody has a boss #and they’re like no the boss doesn’t have a boss you Are the top we don’t understand #and kalis like them you’ve never met her she’s stubborn as fuck once i didn’t put a cigarette out when she said and somehow 2hrs later #i was reciting an entire play with her and she yelled and made us redo if i didn’t give enough passion #i am NOT doing that shit again #and everyone’s like jfc ok fair enough

[uncanny-tranny]

I wish it were more common for people to accept that trans people are often going to have very complex relationships with a lot of things - sexuality, gender, presentation, even growing up.

I'm just really disheartened when I see people expecting trans people to neatly fit into boxes that ridgedly force us to conform. I'm really disheartened with the idea that in order to "really" be a true man, woman, or person, you have to have the right experiences rather than authentic ones. And oftentimes, the "right" experiences for us to have are whatever make cis people (or even other trans people) the most comfortable. It's never truly about the individual's experiences or comfort.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #it just reminds me of this post i saw where this trans woman joked that she will always see her relationships with men as gay because... #...of her complex interaction with society and i really felt that #and it makes sense why she feels that way. why does she need to have conforming experiences to be respected and treated as the woman she is #why does conforming matter more than the trans person? why does being 'correct' and inoffensive to cishet sensitivities the gold standard? #because you don't ever have to understand *why* a trans person feels the way they do. but don't be transphobic or an ass about it #and certainly don't use it as a weapon to try and 'prove' that that trans person cannot know who they are #like i say... trans people don't have to be cis people in order to be recognized as their gender #as in trans and cis people of the same gender can have different experiences WITHOUT it meaning the trans person is 'wrong' about themself #sometimes trans and cis people will have different outlooks and opinions and experiences and that is OK #like... cisness isn't what makes manhood or womanhood or hell just personhood in general

[heavens17th]

#hfjone #im having too much fun #im a au guy #what can I say #im a man of the aus #this one only exists because I thought it would be funny #it is #she’s a little haunted by it #but like also #kinda owning it #out of spite #more girls need creatures who take up 40% of their body anwyays #don’t like the parasite?get over it. #god forbid a woman have anything. #she talks about it like a pet or proud parent or whatever #and her friends are like #what the fuck? #It’s literally killing you? sapping you of your life force??? #and she’s like Ok And #i havent thouhht about hfjone in months #Charlotte stern #rare tumblr post

[cryptiduni]

…i just saw this poll and my unevolved brain gel wriggled inside my cranium like a feral fish:

idk how you look at his official art and call him conventionally attractive. my man looks like a wet dog and has eyebags for daysss. face full of pox scars, skin pale af, and those shaggy ass hair & a rugged beard hanging from his flat long face.

he is pretty *to me* but like dude???

—not exactly a heartthrob boy band material is he?

obv I wouldn’t call him “misunderstood baby uwu” if we are talking a little more seriously —but to be fair jean is having possibly the worst week of his life. the car? fucking sunk. case? unsolved. not to mention his close partner (who is also an ass mind you) doesn’t even remember him, already running around with a new one.

yeah he is absolutely foul and aggressive and degrading harry but like i said before (in my tag essay lol) judit also makes ableist comments and i don’t see people hating her because she’s outwardly nice—

and respects harry as her superior. her BOSS.

(also a friend with benefits? /nope, it’s just him harassing judit/ as well but not as a complicated relationship compared jean and harry’s brötherbund. only a few months of acquaintanceship.)

plus it’s highhlyyy likely that harry is not the only one substance abuse. —look at jean’s rudolf-looking-red-ass-nose. a drunkard’s sniffers. probably had few lines with him late at night… when your lifetime partner is an alcoholic it's hard to say no.

about the left for dead thing, they left because harry told them to fuck off. tbh harry is nightmare to work with esp pre-bender. (and am saying as a pathetic little unmedicated neurodivergent woman.)

but when the second time they left revachol was not jean’s fault, and it was judit’s suggestion anyway. the squad probably thought that since harry had someone a little more responsible looking after him. it will be fine when they come back. the tribunal was absolutely unaccounted for.

yet despite all of these things, he will try to come back to make sure he is ok and accommodate harrier to the best of his abilities which is wearing very thin. look at him trying to make up to our harry boy:

anyways am incapable of writing coherent thoughts (even though i want to talk about it for hours) that make sense so go look at sygneth’s jean psychological analysis instead. it is an excellent read. please go read.

#op might wanna get their eyes or head checked lol. they looked at a little too much fanart. #+do not interact with the original poll. don’t look it up. it’s not worth it. don't give it traction. don't attract drama. #am sure op is just a troll. prob barely spent any time playin/readin DE. not that i am that much media literate but still... #i am sure there are things i left out. oh well... #i know that you need high EDC build run or lotta reading to understand so his “lore” so is kinda gatekept-- #but it’s frustrating to see shit takes like this lmaoo #also don’t get me wrong i like judit. she is a tired working woman w/ a pathetic husband + 2x children. she just wanna grab jean & go home. #p.s stella as in stella from ‘‘helluva boss’’. idk didn’t like its S2 i think she coulda been more complex character. #but not everything needs to be deep and meaningful i guess. simple villains are ok. #her anger is justified towards her husband’s infidelity but she’s kind of a dumb royal brat. esp in s2. just calls of his assassination rig #heron vs secretary #angry bird vs angry bird shit fr beuh #disco elysium #jean vicquemare #jean posting #jean heron vicquemare #loyal is the he… #no. am not tagging HB or stella. #kinda long #longish post #cryptid rambles

[cozylittleartblog]

Why do you like the ship Roulxs/Queen? Honestly, I loved it because of your art! <3

it's about the girlboss/malewife, its about the 'loving someone for superficial reasons, getting to actually know them, and loving them Genuinely', it's about learning to love and care about other people at all, it's about the denial and slowburn, it's about the 'they are both so fucking Silly', it's about the 'royal and the servant who would do literally Anything for them' dynamic, it's about lancer having parents that wont throw him off a roof, it's about the Healing because frankly spade doesn't seem like he was good to Any Of Them, it's about making two of my favorite characters kiss, but mostly it's about lancer just having parental figures who understand and care about him, whether that's romantic or not

#deltarune #queenkaard #loveslashyaoi #ask #THE most cringefail man you've ever met x THE most cringefail woman you've ever met but she's charming about it #she is the queen and he is her silly little jester. sometimes they fight over the jester hat though #AND they're both bisexual. that distinctly changes the vibes. its m x f but it is Not Heterosexual In The Slightest #there's more but i haven't put my queenkaard braincell in in a minute it's a little dusty #ok i need to stop answering asks and go do something productive

[reasoncourt]

idk who needs to hear this but you can hate taylor swift without siding with the ai porn guys. disliking her isn’t an act of misogyny but ai porn of her is an act of misogyny despite her whiteness and wealth and power. like this is fr my problem with most ppl who hate her - they just abandon all of their principles when it comes to her. like we do realise she can suck and also not deserve nonconsenual porn made of her right?

#srry for ppl who haven’t seen this discourse hahaha #i’m just so ???? about it #reminds me of when everyone was taking kanye’s side years ago with that phone call thing #because they hate taylor swift #and it’s like - ok think what u want about the phone call and her reaction #but u have to agree that him making a fake nude plastic replica of her naked body #to have sleeping in bed with him in his music video #was actually disgusting #like she was 25 i think #and everyone was like ‘white woman victimhood tears wealthy woman boo’ etc #and it’s like ok ok but the music video was fucked up #we think the music video was massively wrong right #guys? guys??!!! #right?!!!! #anywho #just needed a rant #this shit affects more than just celebrities #and i don’t think ‘she deserves it’ should ever be an argument #no matter what you think of the victim #when it comes to this stuff #dl

[jackklinemybeloved]

ame worlds beyond number is soooo non-binary coded To Me.

#it’s like. hm. #like that thing of when you’re a kid and you don’t have the expectations to Fit In to the gender binary quite yet #and you can run around and be loud and rough and dirty and no one cares because you’re a seven year old girl #and then you grow up and people ridicule you for being outside of the binary through adolescence #and then as an adult you learn to perform gender for the sake of your community #(thinking of ame’s outfit being pretty hyper feminine and the way her personality as an adult contrasts with her kid personality; #like because of both her position as a witch and a woman she needs to be calm and professional and a caretaker and a mediator and…) #idk. #I’m just thinking about the 14 year old ame scene again it was A Lot #‘she’s not a girl- she’s a witch!’ sparked this post btw. #worlds beyond number #also I get such gender envy from children’s adventure ame and it’s because she reminds me of me as a kid #I want that gender back ok!!!! #twtwatwo #ame wbn

[royalarmyofoz]

Judi the Librarian KEVIN CAN F**K HIMSELF 1.02|1.03|2.05|2.08

#kcfhedit #kevin can f**k himself #* #ok she's my surprise fave #she came out of nowhere and stole my heart #also i need time to emotionally take in that she's the reason patty started dealing #she saw her in chronic pain and it broke patty's heart #like....this woman who she's probably known her whole life #probably a mother figure to patty at this point #this well read woman who recommends and slides her old used never-rented books #(who finally gets to rec all the good queer shit she's had on her list forever) #this sweetheart who is a loyal customer to patty #(i don't think she gives a shit about her hair e.g. the titanic deck chair comment) #because she's always seen and loved patty #and i just made myself cry #OH ALSO that last book she gives her is 'my brilliant friend' and while it is't gay it does mirror patty x allison i feel

[thesmokinpossum]

I can't believe y'all almost made me pay to go watch po*r th*ngs in theater without telling me that the whole thing revolves around a hardcore born sexy yesterday trope with a side dish of pseudo necrophilia where a woman with the brain of a litteral foetus who don't have periods or body hair (but do have boobs!) find joy and freedom by having a lot of sex with a bunch of men, shoving a apple up her vagina for some reason and joining a brothel (but it's a cool socialist brothel and all the girls looove being there, don't worry guys), all of that written and directed by two men, I'm never gonna trust you guys after this one lmao

#she also piss on the floor at some point and talks about fucking with the vocabulary of a toddler but i'm supposed to believe it's not sus #lmao ok sure #'there's more to the story than this!' idgaf! 'you're taking it out of context!' idgaf! 'it's actually a feminist story!' no it's not lmao #i cannot let go of the socialist brothel either like wooooow #men are so obsessed with the idea of natural born sex workers it's almost comical #also i cannot comment on the original book since i haven't read it #but apparently a big thing is that at the end it's revealed by the woman character that the male ones where bullshitting... #...about pretty much everything to look smarter and more important than they are #but in this 'feminist' movie they actually do frankenstein the woman and give her a second life fr fr #like aiiiight lmao #btw i truly don't care if you love the movie that's perfectly fine i love plenty of movies with very questionable content #plus i don't think anyone need my approbation to enjoy anything in this world #but boy does it personally gross me out #poor things spoilers #i hope this don't pop in the tag btw #if it does i'm sorry but people who wants to see it *will* complain about being spoil

[brookheimer]

okay. i need to rewatch the episode probably but i think my current feeling is that i like most of it a lot (rome, ken, the siblings not getting ceo, etc), think the tom ceo makes sense from a logical/character perspective but not sure how i feel about it from a broader more thematic lens (altho i'm leaning towards fine with it), and am very mixed on shiv's ending because i think it's well-conceived and meaningful from a broader thematic lens (shiv becomes her mother, the cycle always repeats, etc) but doesn't quite make sense to me from a logical/character one -- it could've worked, it could've worked brilliantly, but it was far too rushed and forced. it makes sense as an ending for shiv, but not her next step. i'm largely talking about her decision to return to tom, not her decision to vote against kendall (which i think should've been executed better and given more space but can understand given her character, mostly). i'm fine with it as an ending for shiv, but what i'm struggling to stomach is the way it played out -- it didn't feel like a choice the shiv we know would've made. it's an ending that makes sense thematically and for her character arc, but not a decision that makes sense for her character at present. that's kinda where i'm at right now

#long shiv post talking ab this upcoming lol #bc so far i haven't seen like any shiv takes i've actually agreed with #it's either entirely anti ending or pro ending #whereas like. to me the ending works as an ending for the character. it's tragic dark devastating but it works and works well #but shiv making that choice does not make sense for where she is right now. it was rushed writing that forced an ending on her #that would be a satisfying ending but not a satisfying character choice and thus NOT a super satisfying ending #could've been EXTREMELY satisfying. but shiv wasn't there yet. her fatal flaw is blowing up good situations when she feels she's being #disrespected -- she's respect > power when it comes down to it #even tho she thinks she wants power more she NEEDS respect and is unable to stay quiet or make the smart choice in the face of disrespect #or men thinking they're superior etcetcetc. so her making a choice that allots her power (wife of CEO) but is the singular least respecting #outcome imaginable (meekly returning to your husband who betrayed you and stole the job you've been fighting for your entire life right out #of your grasp alongside your closest ally/flirt guyfriend who tapped him to do it explicitly to fuck you over because you're a pregnant #woman and thus inferior to the man who inseminated you -- and EVERYONE KNOWS ALL OF THIS! everyone knows you're the daughter of #the previous CEO and on two separate instances were meant to be CEO and now the weak man you married publicly betrayed you TWICE #but you still meekly return to him and place your hand in his and have his baby like the good pawn you are...) #that does not make sense for shiv. if we saw some development on the power > respect front or had a few more scenes or episodes developing #shiv as someone who would choose to become her mother (powerful and rich yet a disrespected pawn) over literally anything else #given her fundamental fear of being disrespected than maybe this would've made sense. it could be a great meaningful devastating ending #but it's one that just does not track for shiv as we know her right now. #ok tags got long as always sorry LOL i'm gonna write a longer thing explaining my hashtag thoughts bc i haven't seen much i agreed w on thi #front yet oops. ok bye 4 now tee hee #succession #succession spoilers #casey shut the fuck up about shiv roy

[vitalvitriol]

people have got to start drawing mona weirder. or at least less "conventionally attractive white woman"-like. please

#yearnscript #grinding my teeth seeing people saying they prefer the unused japanese localization talksprite for her #where they completely erase her small eyes and just generally her entire face shape #she does not fucking look like thattttttttt. the official art has problems with same face syndrome for the women but GOD #RIDDLE ME THIS BATMAN #WHY DO YOU NEED THIS WOMAN TO BE DOLLED UP IN MAKEUP AND ERASED OF ALL OF HER DEFINING FEATURES #IN ORDER TO LIKE HER #MAKING HER NOTHING BUT YOUR 'WIFE MATERIAL' AND OBJECTIFYING HER IN THE PROCESS #i swear to god dudes sometimes when people are drawing characters they dont even study their features they just do whatever the fuck is lik #their 'normal'. i hate it. STOPPP ERASING THEIR UNIQUENESS #what the fuck ever im going to be the change i wish to see in the world #(also for the record im not vagueposting about anybody in specific and almost certainly not anybody who will ever see this. ok)

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#oh wow... #i just had an oh shit fuck moment #wow #i usually complain about the one therapist i had in my entire life and how she wouldn't just listen to what i was saying #if it didn't fit her textbook definition of whatever she was thinking at the time #and how i talked to her about my anxiety and how that made me feel and she would only focus on how i acted #so the example i gave her was the one time i went into a shop to buy something by myself #because my mom didn't want to go in for me and arguing with my mom in front of the shop in public and then inevitably have to #go in myself either way was way worse to me #because of the embarrassement of arguing in public. the fact that my mom was gonna spend the entire walk home telling me how i have to #''just suck it up and learn and just overcome my anxiety because i don't have a problem'' or whatever #and then having to go into the shop where the lady had been watching me from inside the entire time how i clearly didn't want to go in #and possibly be even more awkward with teary eyes because of the anxiety and awkwardness i already bring to the table any day... #all of those things that were going inside my head were trumped by the fact that i did go in and did buy what i needed #although my heart was coming out of my chest the entire time... all that didn't matter to my therapist because in her words: #''if you had anxiety. you simply wouldn't have gone in'' #which is ridiculous #but anyways... i just had an epiphany... that was masking wasn't it? #forcing myself to do something that brings me major discomfort to make my mother and the shop lady not judge me? #pretend i'm a normal human being just doing normal things instead of someone who's about to have a heart attack buying embroidery thread? #panicking the entire time because i wasn't prepeared and hadn't scripted the entire transaction in my head? #yet still going in and putting on my ''normal person'' mask to try to seem like i wasn't just dying seconds ago (and still was)? #isn't that literally what masking is?! #and the ''autism specialist'' ass therapist was like ''if you did it then you don't have a problem'' #when i'm literally telling her how much of a problem it actually WAS?! #you know what's the best part about all this #that when i told my mom after i left that therapist that she didn't listen to me because [insert everything above] #my mom's response was ''well sometimes therapist will say things that you don't want to hear but you have to accept them''.... #same woman who's always saying how much she hates therapists because they ''will say whatever and pretend they know shit'' #ok so it's only The Truth when I tell you it isn't...

[beedreamscape]

Whenever Laudna talks about her old(?) dream of being a lady and just her way of speaking, I can't help but think of Patia as the kind of poised and classy woman Laudna would be obsessed about.

The composure, the class with which she yields her magic, the extravagant fashion, her intellect, her long ass white hair and bejewelled headpieces. I think there'd also be this dynamic with Patia being an old wise elf and Laudna having been forced into that shape at the time of her death.

ALSO both have died by tree death (i.e. hanging and stabbing/explosion) and then came back to life.

#the sunrays fascinator and the rock chisel have the same energy ok #i could also talk about appearance similarities but they both have clearly been based on Marisha #but like the hair strands falling around the face? accidental? maybe... or maybe unconscious parallels!!!! #i could call them both skinny white bitches but I got only a portrait of Patia....... maybe she has a dump truck #Delilah only got a chance bc Laudna never met Patia. all she needs is another older woman to be obsessed with #which is a separate entity from her cowgirl babe ok? she's also there (also obsessed bc ✨mommy issues✨ #laudna #patia por'co #exu calamity #critical role #bells hells #all my homies hate trees and necromancers