#she was my baby

[tortellinigirl]

i think the adult relationship to the childhood dog is something that is so tender and heart-wrenching and important. you are the last vestige of my childhood. you are the sacred keeper of the memories i hold dearest, but you can barely see or hear me anymore. who do i become once you’re gone? where do i turn to remember myself? you’re the last one sitting next to me at the door of a childhood home that no longer exists, waiting patiently for the return of a family that no longer exists. where can i live when you, too, no longer exist? i can’t let go. please don’t make me let go. i know you’ll leave soon. i wish you didn’t have to. but she’s just a dog. her life is short and i will witness her death and i’ve known this from the beginning. i didn’t think it would come so fast. am i ready? have i become someone yet? have i become unrecognizable to her yet? does she still see the child i was? i’m still the child i was. please, don’t forget the child i was. please don’t take her away from me.

#i wrote this and put it in my drafts a few months ago #and now my childhood dog just died and im a complete fucking mess and i keep coming back to this #she was my baby #i got her as a birthday present from my parents #only a couple months before everything fell apart #i didnt know what was going on at home was abuse or that things were bad or that thwy would change #i just knew that my parents got me a puppy so i must be the luckiest girl in the world #and she was with us through all of it #and she knew our pain too #he was the one who wanted to put her in a shock collar #we all cried and begged him not to #she was just as traumatized by him as the rest of us #she was the last thread tying me to a time before i understood how bad things were #i don’t know who to be now #im sorry this is sooooo dramatic #i just loved my puppy #but she was 14 years old and we knew it was coming #i just hoped we’d have her for christmas

[galaxythreads]

i think the big difference between Loki and Wanda to me personally is that no one tries to excuse Loki's actions in MCU. When Loki attacked new york, he was sent to prison. When Loki attacked Jotunheim, Thor tried to stop him and told him it was insane. No one around Loki was being like "bro, it's fine that you tried to invade a planet!!" or "attacking Jotunheim was fine just this one time because you were sad :( " Like Loki attacking Jotunheim was bad. Loki attacking New York was bad and no one tries to say otherwise. (And the thing about New York is that there were extenuating circumstances. Loki was being threatened by the Other and Thanos. The Other hurts loki on screen. Like we know that there will be consequences for Loki if he stops attacking New York and MCU has confirmed that he was under the influence of the scepter by some degree.)

With Wanda things are just...different, and I miss the way that she used to be. Wanda in AoU was a stupid kid who made a stupid choice to get experimented on with her brother because they were angry. They joined a terrorist organization because they thought it was the best way to get back at Tony for inadvertently killing their parents. They were stupid kids. But the thing that a lot of people overlook when they have the "why did they join hydra" question is that that is the point of their arc in AoU. They wanted mass annihilation, so they join hydra, then Ultron, who says they can promise that. But when Wanda sees what that looks like and she sees what Ultron can do AND what the mass destruction would look like, she AND Pietro realize that isn't what they want. Both of them had ALREADY made the stupid choice and they spent the rest of AoU trying to fix it and do better. When Wanda gets up in that building and walks out those doors, she has decided then protecting life is more important than personal vendettas or revenge. And that's what made her a hero. Not that she had glowy hands, but that Wanda decided then that she wanted to use her gifts to help people. Civil War does a good job of carrying this arc forward, especially when we see how much accidentally killing eleven people affected her. After AoU, Wanda values life.

But then WandaVision happens and...wanda is holding an entire town captive, and everyone in the narrative on the "good side" is trying to excuse what she's doing. "She's upset!" "It's okay that she held this town captive this one time because she was having an emotional breakdown and we can let it go :(" or "they won't understand your pain" and it makes me frustrated because Wanda did a horrible thing and she never has to face the consequences for that. She doesn't try to make amends with the town, she doesn't promise to do better. She doesn't go to prison, or get held accountable.

SHE LITERALLY BRAINWASHES AGATHA AND NO ONE -- NOT ONE -- SAYS HANG ON.

Instead, she takes the dark hold and floats away because everything Wanda did was explained away by grief. And like. Loki is not the same. His actions were never excused by people around him, but he actively tries to do better from TDW on. He helps rescue Jane and protects Thor. He takes care of Asgard, he and Thor move to repair their relationship. Loki puts Asgard's safety first over his own by coming to help Thor with Hela. Loki dies for Thor. He may not verbally accept responsibility for what happened, but his actions show that he did and he's trying to do better.

After the end of WandaVision, Wanda doesn't. She doesn't care about life anymore, it's an inconvenience to her at best. You cannot look me in the eye and say that Wanda in Infinity War would be hunting down a child across the multi-verse to murder her in cold blood.

In MoM, Wanda is actively killing everyone and anyone and she is completely aware of what she's doing. Like people claim corruption by the dark hold, but like...corruption by the darkhold is not explained. If I'm remembering right, Agatha was also corrupted, but she was the only person who was trying to force Wanda to let the town go, even if she did kill the dog. Agatha was trying to help. She didn't really get turned evil, just morally dubious. So arguably the same should be said of Wanda, right? That Wanda's core was still there and these were things she would have done anyway, the dark hold just pushed her over the edge. Wanda is trying to kill a kid.

And i am ALSO aware that this is just poor writing on MoM's part -- because MoM sucks -- but I'm still frustrated because I miss Wanda. I understand that she was grieving, but I still wish that someone would hold her accountable. Killing someone off (even though I still doubt she's dead) is not a redemption arc. You don't get to do one good thing before you die and it erases everything that came before.

And I am still mad that the narrative tried to justify Wanda holding a town hostage for two weeks. Bud. She may be an Avenger, but that doesn't stop her from being capable of doing some really crappy stuff.

Loki was held accountable.

Wanda wasn't.

#loki #wanda #anti multiverse of madness #anti wandavision #i miss wanda so much #she was my baby #literally she was the only reason i kept watching phase 4 and now i'm like #um #wanda meta #loki meta #and honestly i am feeling that this post is going to get ripped apart so #here we go i guess

[rememberinggrace]

#not ready #but I wanted to share #my kitty #it’s been almost a year #she was my baby

[mydetheturk]

the video i just reblogged (of a kid getting off the bus and coming up the lawn to get hugged by the family dog) reminded me of a story about my dog my mom likes to tell cause i don't have clear memory of it but everything i know about that dog (and that dog was my dog, i loved her, i still love her, its been 13 years since i had to let her go but i'm crying about her right now thinking about her) (indicators of a good, very loved dog) (if i can find a picture of her i WILL reblog this post later with one)

every memory i have of this dog (my beloved soft baby) makes this story so true

my parents live in a little town right in a spot where, when i was growing up and going to grade school, their house was a two to four minute walk to each school. A block from the elementary and jr/sr high schools and three blocks from the middle school kind of close. (literally a block for the elementary school; my parents live on the corner and i would walk our block from my house, past the neighbor, and cross the street and there was the elementary school. its gone now but i have a lot of memories of that playground.) and when i was in elementary, just starting out, so probably kindergarten (i was around 5ish) the utility office was doing some work on the utility pole in the alleyway between my parents' garage and the neighbor's garage

and my mom was in and out all day, chatting to the utility guys and my dog was in and out of the yard, no problems at all

up until she started growling at them. which was a shock cause she'd been sweet as candy all day, no problems (she loved pets and didn't even mind the meter man who came and read the meter once a month.)

and the utility guys backed up and froze and my tiny little five year old self walked past the alley and up the sidewalk to go inside after petting my dog.

it wasn't until i got past the utility guys that my dog laid back down and stopped growling. apparently one of the guys was talking to my mom later like "it was so weird. Fantastic dog though, real sweet."

she let the utility guys finish up with no other problems. it was just me getting home that had her hackles up for a couple minutes until she knew i was okay.

so yeah. that's the story that video of a kid getting hugged by the family dog reminded me of.

good dog. best friend

#myde talks #dogs #she was my baby #pet loss #very brief mention of it #pets #duffy was the bestest girl ever and i miss her SO much #not me getting weepy over my babygirl #she was MY dog #she grew up with me #i spent days crying when we had to let her go #haven't thought about this memory in a while

[galaxgay]

Grief is fucking weird

today marked 3 months since my cat died and im still continuing to take it really hard. We -finally today, after 3 months- cleaned up her litterboxes and packed them away and holy shit-

No one prepared me for how sentimental and emotional I'd get over literal cat piss.

All i could think was "she made that"/"its all i have left of her" and then would dive into hysterics. And then Id laugh because-

It was cat pee. I was crying over old piss and shit.

Grief is so fucking bizarre.

#she almost made it to 17 years #she was my baby #i miss her so much sometimes #it hurts to breathe

[st3ddie-starchas3r]

When I had started Degrassi it was on accident, It had been it own channel on a Roku channel. It was season 3 half way through episode 2, it was on December 13 2019. Don’t ask me how I remember this much detail when I can barely remember what happened a hour ago, couldn’t tell. Anyway at that time my cat, my sweet baby was only 2 and a half months old. We had watched Degrassi for 2 months straight to finish 14 seasons. The next year me and my baby watched it around the same time. It was as accident when I did it again in 2021 but it was then I realized I had made an accidental tradition between me and my cat. We watched Degrassi every year between December-January together. 19’ 20’ 21’ 22’ - four years. She had no interest in anything on my tv other than this show. My cat had passed away in July 2023 and rewatching it and almost done with my rewatch for the first time without her and I’m so sad, I’ll continue the tradition for her tho. RIP, I’ll never forget you.

#sad feelings #i miss my cat #she was my soulmate #she was my baby #degrassi #degrassi tng #degrassi the next generation

[your-official-gingerartist]

Tw cw // pet death , pet death mentioned

I know I’ve mentioned my cats here and there on this account. But recently patches had passed away I had been taking care of her for a long time she had some health issues that progressed alot faster than expected. And I keep forgetting she’s gone- and I come home from work to greet her or I forget and go to get her medication. It just hurts, I miss her alot. And I want to kiss her little head again…

#cw pet death #cw pet loss #tw pet death #tw pet loss #i just ya know.. #needed to get this off my chest #I’ve been holding onto this for a while now #she was my baby #she was about 12 years old #i am greatful to have had her for so long #I’d do it all over again if it meant having her for another 12 years

[clown-demon]

((I'm having an emotional moment talking about my previous cat Balloon. I love her so much and I love getting to talk to her. It makes me cry, but they're not bad tears. <3

#Ti speaks #she was the best #she was my baby

[sincerity--extreme]

Just finished Dead To Me... I understand the meaning of what they did but... Why?!?!? Why her?!?!?? She never even got to see the baby! Never got to have an actual calm day with absolutely 0 worries about them being arrested or anything! I'm so devastated, I think I never cried this much because of a character before (and I've cried a lot over quite a few characters) 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#dead to me #she was.... #she was my baby #a pure little creature that needed to be protected from all evil in this horrible horrible world #I'm not ok at all #seriously #that triggered some bad memories I thought I had processed #apparently I didn't #it hurts so bad now #I'll miss the show so much but... Judy... #my baby Judy.... #oh the pain #make it stop #I lost a friend like that too #I know it's a show but having that experience made me #feel Jen's pain so realistically #hate this feeling #grief is so complicated #did not wanted to go through this again because of a show #my poor little criminals

[liquidstar]

If my mom sees a significant amount of blood she gets lightheaded, and has fainted on some occasions. Once it happened when we were kids, I wasn't there to witness it but I heard the story from my dad. Basically my brothers, around 7 or 8 at the time, were playing outside while my mom was making their lunch, and she accidentally cut her finger. It wasn't anything serious, but it drew a fair bit of blood and she passed out. My dad saw this and rushed over, but he didn't really know what to do so he just sort of started slapping her to wake her up (not recommended, but he had no idea and panicked)

At that exact moment my brothers both came in from playing, and all they saw was our mom unconscious on the floor and our dad slapping her. So, like, without even saying a word to each other they both just INSTANTLY start whaling on him, like, full blown attack mode to defend our mom. Which obviously didn't help the situation, but she did wake up and everything was fine.

Now our dad says that he's actually really glad they attacked him over what they thought was going on, because it means he raised good boys. And I still think that's true, they're very good boys.

#i think about this story sometimes like yeah I'm proud of them for that too actually. good job baby brothers #they're not babies anymore of course they're turning 20 next year which is crazy #but they're still the type of people who'd do something if they saw something of this sort happen for sure #respectful of women and everyone else too. they're good guys #I'm glad I ended up with them living in my house against my will for like 14 years #anyway i have no idea where i was for all this but my best guess is probably a friends house given the time period #i was always at my besties house lol #i hope she's doing well too actually. haven't spoken in forever... #bestie from greek elementary school... if you're out there... let's get muffins and fanta at the bakery across the street again someday 💜☮️

[mydairpercabeth]

just saw the most heartbreaking annabeth take from ep 3

#brb gonna go violently sob in the corner #MINIBETH #MY BABY #SHE JUST WANTS THEM TO LIKE HER #SHES TRYING #PLEASE DONT LOOK AT ME WHILE A CRY #annabeth chase #percy jackson the lightning thief #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #pjo #pjo tv #pjo tv show #percy series #percabeth #pjo series #LITTLE DOES SHE KNOW SHES THE MOST LOVED GIRL EVER

[artkaninchenbau]

Crocodile finds a strange stray cat an 11-year old Nico Robin (AU where they met 13 years earlier. Robin's been on the run from the World Government for 3 years. Crocodile's 27 and has not set up base in Alabasta yet)

It seems like I have become possessed. By some sort of demon.

Bonus:

#My art #One Piece #Nico Robin #Sir Crocodile #Y'all the OP brainrot is BAD #According to an SBS Crocodile would absolutely spoil his child rotten if he had one. *We all know how Robin's childhood went* #Scary mofo who does not know how to parent a child but boy does he have the spirit + Child who has never had proper parent in her life #They'd make. An absolute disaster of a duo. This AU concept is so fucking funny to me okay #But also sad because I would fucking die for baby Robin she deserves the fucking world #This poor girl has never been spoiled in her entire life AND NOW PAPADILE IS HERE TO SPOIL HER #You know it's funny. I know 11 yo Robin should LOOK older than 8 year old Robin. But Crocodile is a fucking giant so she's still baby sized #Also I just had too much fun drawing Robin looking as pathetic as humanly possible lmao #She's a like a wet kitten in the rain 😭

[skellydun]

why is it when people ask me what i want as a gift i immediately become someone who enjoys nothing at all and has never wanted anything a day in their life.

#my birthday is a month away and my best friend and i #will be on our vacation in a treehouse and so she's trying to make it a Day and wants to have gifts there and im like uh #who am i ? #what do i like? #28 on the 09/18 baby

[trek-tracks]

She just sat contented in the comfy chair as I built this up around her

I call this installation “The Cat of Amontillado.”

#cats #cat #my cat #the cask of amontillado #the cat of amontillado #she’s just vibing in her walled-off chamber #Willow #not trek #sorry for the non-trek cat pics but in my defense she is the specialest little baby

[abracadaze]

i feel so bad for nikola tesla like imagine spending years beefing with a guy who has conned the public into believing he's some sort of supergenius when in reality it's his overworked employees developing all of his world-changing inventions and you end up dying broke and starving and alone and then 100 years later another guy cons the public into believing he's some sort of supergenius when in reality it's his overworked employees developing all of his world-changing inventions and he's doing it all IN YOUR NAME. he must be rolling in his grave like a fucking rotisserie chicken

#when penelope scott said ''you promised you'd be tesla but you're just another edison'' she was so right. she gets it #edit: now that this is getting popular i just want to say please don't deify/martyr tesla #yes he was dealt an awful hand but he also had some very bad opinions especially towards the end of his life. like eugenics #he was clearly struggling with untreated mental illness and was also a product of his time so i'm not trying to cancel him or anything lol #but people in the notes saying ''my poor baby boy tesla did nothing wrong'' is weird. you know that's weird right. #daze.txt #100 #500 #1k #5k #10k #20k #30k #40k #50k #60k #70k #80k #90k #100k #speechless btw. about the 100k notes thing

[royal-kitty]

Fuck just once I wish these people would actually listen to me

#because if they had #I wouldn’t have just lost my cat #i fucking KNEW #but everyone else loves to claim they KNOW better #I said multiple times #but no one listens to me #NOT UNLESS I FUCKING SCREAM #i want to die #i wanna die so bad #she was my baby #and now shes gone #because everyone ‘knows’ better #i can hear them laughing at something on their phone #while i sob in my room #im so fucking tired