#she’s selfish. I’m not sorry

[plenaurum]

the thing about this z library thing is that I see small authors rejoicing in the fact that ppl can’t steal their books anymore bc they were “losing out on sales” and. this may be immoral to say? but I kinda don’t care

#z library #call me selfish entitled etc #but a girl in India said she lost her sole access to poetry #ppl in countries that don’t have access to libraries and books had good use for z library #and also. #z library was just easier and accessible #if I liked the book I’d go out and buy it in physical form #if I didn’t. well. i can just delete it #also I love pirating I’m sorry u guys #piracy #zlibrary #zlib

[cowlovely]

i truly do think that clara oswald is one of the characters of all time i’m sorry.

#ivy.txt #i mean i’m not. but i am sorry that some people don’t see the vision #like yeah i have a lot of issues with individual scenes/lines that moffat (and other writers gave her) #i’m not the biggest fan of her s7 storyline even if i don’t think it’s the worst they’ve done #but GOD she is just so compelling to me…. #i LOVE that the doctor meets her and is like oh my god she is SO clever and fast she can keep up with me!! #and she hungers for adventure this is great!! she’s just like me!! #and then that just gradually morphs into oh god she’s just like me….oh no. #like. the doctor is so used to putting on a false pretense and keeping things from his companions #that when he sees someone wearing the same mask as him it doesn’t even occur to him to check if their face is fake too #i just love that both of them are ultimately so selfish and SO selfless at the same time. the codependency is beautifullllll delicious to me

[saturnsorbits]

There’s a secret line AU of my self-ship, where before Bakugo realises he’s actually in love with Kirishima and not me, he gets me pregnant and we have to co-parent…

#He leaves me before we know… #And I tell him over coffee - tell him I’m keeping it too… #He just nods; thin lipped; thinking - unreadable. #And then; he says he’ll be in touch. #He’s not. #I go to the first scan alone. #And the second. #When Mitsuki finds out; she sends me a card and a bouquet - Both an apology and an olive branch… #We meet up twice a month after that. #More closer to the birth. #But I hit almost full term before Bakugo finally reaches back out… #He’s sorry - Ofc he is and he does everything in his power to make up for his absence. #There are no excuses; he’s just there trying to make things right. #And it’s great; having him back; having the support - #but it hurts too… #Bc he’s got that look in his eyes again… The one I thought meant he loved me; except this time I’m not fooled. #I know that look isn’t for me. It’s for the baby. His baby. Growing inside of me. #It kicks up horrible selfish emotions. Bc ofc I’m glad he loves the baby - OFC I am… #But it stings none the less. #Pulls at bearly healed wounds. #It gets better tho. #He’s there for the birth and him and Kiri are the best parents in the world to our little boy - #He takes to calling Kiri dad #And Bakugo is always fierce in my defence when people pass me off as a surrogate. #It’s an odd family - yes - but it’s ours. #And when Bakugo and Kirishima have thier children it grows… #As does it when Denki and I add another little boy to the mix.

[permanentreverie]

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#ok so mini rant session #i am doing a bit better today - little less distraught over getting fired from a job i thought i was doing pretty good at and i was trying #really hard and genuinely enjoying #and just more baffled because truly i had no warning and i was completely blindsided #i was in the middle of a 3 month trial and i would have a review at the end in which i would be offered a permanent position if it went well #and i thought i was making my way towards that! granted i was still making mistakes but genuinely not of such a great scale i thought it #called for my immediate dismissal #that being said i was still VERY MUCH IN TRAINING. i had only been there A MONTH AND A HALF learning COMPLETELY NEW SYSTEMS #and i was told that i had been there a few weeks already and that i wasn’t catching on quick enough. that there were some areas i was #understanding and others i just simply wasn’t #and i asked what areas specifically so that i could learn more and try harder #and they didn’t give me a specific answer. #ok and so. so. i have this insecurity. #that at first impression people will like me. that they may think i’m pretty or kind or funny or whatever #but then they spend time with me or get to know me and realize that that’s all bullshit. #that i’m actually not pretty and im mean and loud and selfish and lazy and rude and etc etc etc #MASSIVE fucking insecurity in that like that’s why i genuinely don’t have friends or a significant other #and that genuinely i’m just a Bad Person #and when i was fired? i was told ‘a persons true colours show after a few weeks’ #so that’s MAJORLY fucking me up. #when i was hired i was boasted to about my boss’s hiring process and how she’s ’only been fooled twice’ #and the morning before i was fired in a meeting my supervisor told everyone that i was doing quite well. #so yeah i truly had no fucking warning. at fucking all. #hurt and confused and angry and baffled and did i mention hurt #anyways if you’re still here i’m sorry i know this is not a good look for me

[nevada-got-screwed-over]

Actually I don’t think I’ll ever forgive how Wash’s disability and subsequent ‘cure’ was handled.

#beans speaks #personal #rvb #red versus blue #the Carolina and wash plotline was a lil ehhh bc I don’t think they gave Carolina’s attitude abt his new limits a healthy foil #like it would have been see easy to have Dr Grey or Wash himself parallel her fear and frustration #and it could have gotten into such character depth too! #shine a light on her past trauma with losing people/them getting hurt to show that a lot of her perspective is ultimately selfish #which isn’t ‘wrong’ it’s normal considering what she’s been through but she needs to respect wash’s autonomy! #I haven’t seen 0 but. I heard. they gave him a. a fucking AI and it was all yippee he’s fine #as though that doesn’t go against like a major personal boundary of Wash (not a big fan of ai in his head) while also ignoring the whole. #yeah we just have to deal with this. it’s not fun and it’s gonna suck sometimes but it doesn’t change our love or respect. #sorry if I sound insane I also haven’t watched that season in a while and I’m. a lil. wooo tonight y’know #like as a disabled person w a progressive condition that is stopping me from doing things I used to be able to do #and will continue to limit my abilities as the years go by #it makes me wanna tear someone limb from fucking limb

[filmcel]

i feel like such an asshole bc i never know how to deal w death in the family. and i always handle it terribly. i hungout w my friends today instead of going to mexico(?? idk if it was all the way there but i’m assuming so) to possibly say bye to one of my aunts. and the issue for me is that IDK i just barely know these ppl. i know they’re family i know they mean something to my parents but it just feels strange to me. idk if i’m insane or something but like i actually feel guilty about feeling that way. but i can’t change rlly feeling “nothing” about it. and its just worse bc my whole family thinks i’m a freak for that. and like maybe i am but it’s not like i can control it.

#captain’s log #diagnose me cuz wtf #eugh #Idk i just feel so guilty that death doesn’t make me go crazy. #ik in this case it’s probably bad i didn’t go . but like …IDK i’m selfish okay #it’s my spring break and this was my single day to go hangout with anyone. i’m genuinely sorry #if she was someone i was close with id understand but like #i don’t know her #knowing someone’s name to a face isn’t knowing them

[withlovefromolympus]

Rachel Smythe, don’t be shy. give the people* what they want**

*me **more hephaestus x aphrodite content

#lol she won’t will she #sorry….I’m super selfish like that #anti lore olympus #?? #idk anymore

[tooshyy]

I’m so sorry I don’t act like I’m obsessed. I’m so sorry I left you. I’m so sorry for hurting you. I know it’s my decision and I’m the one at fault. I know you tried to keep me from doing this. I know I made you sad with my decision. I’m so sorry for making you feel unworthy. I’m so sorry. I know you blame me for the current situation. I too blame myself. But i just don’t have the courage to do it.

It hurts to see you like this. To see us like this. I know I am the one because of whom you’re struggling so much. I’m the one at fault.

I know we talk but it hurts to see us like this. I’m so sorry for not showing my obsession and being at fault and hurting you and breaking us.

I’m so sorry for breaking us up. I am so sorry for making you sad. I’m sorry for making you feel like this. I’m just sorry.

#I hope we become friends and don’t lose each other ~ atleast as friends #it hurts so bad #you can blme me but please know that this isn’t easy for me too #I’m a coward #I can’t deal with real life situations #so I just decided to run away #i am so fucking selfish #I could’ve stayed with her #I feel like I’ve used her #I did not. #but why do I feel like i did? #my head isn’t working Nu more I’m sorry for making this decision #I’m sorry for everything. #she deactivated her account so i can rant here #i’ll remember her forever #her

[monitorkernelaccess]

sometimes I remember that preston max allen tweet that’s like “well at least in MY musical, the teenager actually faces consequences for her actions” (vagueing dear evan hansen) and it’s like. well yeah riley did kill two people so

#original post #dear evan hansen #we are the tigers #don’t ask me why I’m in my defending deh arc again. i don’t know #(to be clear when I say ‘defending’ I don’t mean ‘I think it’s the best ever and has no flaws and doesn’t ever do harm’) #(I mean ‘I think most criticisms of this musical have to do with people not really understanding what the creators wanted to convey and #what Evan’s intentions were.’ or ‘most people who hate it don’t know it very well’) #anyway I don’t remember the part of deh where Evan literally murdered two people. premeditated and everything #though now that I think about it #i feel like Evan’s actions would be more comparable to Cairo’s? instead of riley’s? #cause both constructed false narratives that harmed others (even if they didn’t directly intend to cause harm) #and they did it for selfish reasons #like Cairo framing maddy (is that her name??? i forget sorry) #and Evan lying about being Connor’s friend #still two completely different situations but like I feel like the crime is comparable? the crime being. well lying #and iirc…Cairo didn’t face consequences? she kinda got rewarded? #cause she became the next cheer captain right? #anyway. this post brought to you by [censored reasons why im in my hater arc] #and the fact that I like to listen to my Spotify liked songs on shuffle and watt songs keep coming up lol

[simplysummers]

Am I being a petty bitch and just sitting in the bathroom waiting for my younger brother to come upstairs so I can switch on the shower and say I’m gonna be a while? Yes. Yes I am

#my younger brother has a selfish habit of only showering when he wants and not taking into consideration when the remainder of the family #I live in a house of five btw #need to either use the bathroom or whatnot #my mom wants to take a relaxing bath and this is the only night in the week she can? sorry mom. I’ll be 45 minutes in the shower #my older brother is out at the gym and says he needs the shower at exactly 9am when he gets home? sorry. that’s when bitch boy wants the #shower #I need to come upstairs and brush my teeth for bed cause it’s like 11:15pm? so sorry. even tho he’s had all night and has school tomorrow #hell shower when he wants #so now I’m purposefully sitting in the bathroom just waiting for pay back #there is no level to which I won’t go to destroy this 14 year old #s things #I meant 9pm but I’m on a rage shush

[viiisenyas]

It still makes me sad that they essentially made Jon Snow a whiny himbo throughout the entirety of Game of Thrones.

In the novels he was actually an incredibly bright, albeit inexperienced individual that had to make difficult decisions as a 15-year-old. I couldn’t fathom having to deal with half of what he had to at fifteen.

anyways, I’m fixing it. Hopefully it turns out fine.

#sorry I’m referencing both the books and the show for my thing and I prefer book!Jon far more #since I’m basing my fic off of show canon though I’m fixing him #and giving him way more options than just the Wall #pfft pretty girl who is heir to her house? no problem #nice castle by the sea on an island that’s 3 days away from his biological father? let’s do it #no caesar treatment? I’m frothing at the mouth #writing commentary #I mean granted the story still plays out relatively similar with ned getting the chop but still #someone else can deal with the Wall *cough*Benjen*cough* #also #the stupid ‘hidden prince’ arc is completely out the window #because David and Dan can choke #and Lyanna deserved better than to be painted as a selfish hypocrite #friendly reminder that she was a CHILD and Rhaegar was a straight up pr*dator :)

[sacha-da-1]

Vent post

I hate feeling jealousy so much. I don’t want to be jealous of my best friend’s partner, but it’s a feeling I haven’t been able to shake yet.

#i know part of it’s bc i don’t think do enough for her and even tho they’re a great person I think she deserves better #but still i know it’s more than that #I’ve lost so much and it feels 99 percent of my affection is directed towards #i wanna be happy for her #but i’m selfish and i want to be her favorite too and not feel like it’s some competition #i want us to be together forever…. #but whatever she chooses is her choice and i won’t let something like that get in the way of my love for her #i had a previous friend who wasn’t willing to make things work again after I’d started dating someone #and i don’t wanna be like her #i wanna be a good friend and stand by her side #i know I can do that #she’s still young too #we’ve got time to figure things out #i just hope our friendship never falls apart even if she does find a permanent romantic partner #i want us to stay together and not let small things destroy us #i want our love for each other to always stay strong #sorry about all this #i usually tell her everything but i feel like this isn’t something i should bring up rn with her #I know she’d feel bad and guilty about when she shouldn’t have to #she still makes so much time for me even with her busy schedule #she does so much for me and i never want her to feel for something she deserves to have #which is time with people she cares for and her partner is one of those people #it’ll all be okay #vent post #vent #personal vent

[juniperhillpatient]

i know you guys are probably done with azula pulling dumb shit but -

#I’m not #is the thing #buffy au #is she acting like a selfish little bitch … maybe. but I’m sorry I think that’s how she would act in this particular situation

[niicevibe]

Really wishing my ma had an iPhone and not a Samsung so I could airdrop this picture of a small kitten sitting in the middle of a big kitchen floor

Please lookit

#I’m sorry but she needs to see these things and she’s making things real inconvenient rn #it’s the size of my palm and she’s not in my room to see this and I ain’t getting up #so selfish ugh/jk #🍣: misc posts

[ilikebirdsouo]

Vent

I hate my fucking step mom so much….

#So yeah I was hoping today could be fun but apparently to her everything I do is agressive!!! #I had just woke up and immediately she thought I was upset- idk maybe it’s cuz I just woke up that I’m so mad??? But no!! That can’t be it! #im just an asshole right???? A pathetic child who can’t do anything right??? A child who is selfish and cruel!!! That’s all I am to her!!!! #I hate her I hate her I hate her- #then I say hi to everyone in my family but apparently saying Hi isn’t enough- no I need to engage in a whole conversation even though- #-I am fucking exhausted!!! I’m sorry I’m soooo rude to you!!! I’m sorry I am not your perfect little daughter!!! #speaking of which my parents still continue to disrespect my gender- my dad went on a whole rant taht I like being feminine!!! #uh… no????????????? #I hate it hereeee- #then she just keeps going on and on- no matter what I do I always screw up!!! I always upset her!! I can just breathe and she will get mad! #She makes me wish I didn’t ficking exist cuz holy shittt I don’t want to deal with this anymore- every single day I fuck up- #I want her to stop- I just want her to stop- #I want to have a day where she doesn’t nitpick the smallest thing I do wrong- I just want her to be an actual mom!!! #I wish she could just leave me the fuck alone for once in her life #But no- I do everything wrong… I just want to do something right… but as if that would ever happen :) #I just wish things could be ok for once in my life #Duck vents #duck rants #tw cussing #delete later

[earthsbestdefnder]

knowing that when evelyns born she’s gonna get so much love and so many presents (I know because I share an Amazon account with my parents) and so much attention meanwhile I’m the one who was pregnant for 9 months and then has to push her out of me and I just know that’s gonna be met with…nothing

#from extended family I mean not from Sam #it’s just!!!! a little overwhelming the way everyone seems so excited for the baby and but not at all there for Me #and it sounds selfish to be like ‘hey! celebrate me too!’ #but I wanna scream that from the mountaintop 😮‍💨 #this is about my mom specifically #anyways #taryn rambles #like I know I’m gonna be like ‘can I at least get some acknowledgment for what I’ve done?’ #and my mom will say ‘lots of women are pregnant and give birth it’s not an accomplishment for celebrate’ #because that’s what she said about me graduating college #sorry for the random info dump about my mommy issues