#she's been in a rut

[razzafrazzle]

SOME ppl call me the space cowboy

[image description: an illustration of an original character named w. w is a thin, androgynous person with short messy hair, a shadow covering the top half of her face, and a cleft lip. he is wearing an elaborate shiny long-sleeved black bodysuit with holographic rainbow fringe trims with a matching scarf, thigh high boots, and cowboy hat. the outfit is littered with sparkles and is renders to look like a galaxy. they are posing confidently and smiling at the viewer in front of a rainbow splatter that frames the piece. there are two versions, one with a dark background and one with a light background. end id]

#ive been stressed n in a bit of a rut lately and just wanted 2 do somethin a lil designy for myself #i like how this came out!!! she is slaying #ok i worked on this for a while and now im sleepy goodnight <3 #i need to stop drawing so late. how many of the tags on my art are just ''gonna sleep now'' #doc talks #my art #my characters

[aqpippin]

why is naming a fic harder than writing the damn thing

#i have 2 chapters up my sleeve of something new #and i have no name for it 😛 #sorry to those wanting grandekofi but she’s been benched for now (i’m in a smut rut) #i will do non smut grandekofi but this new thing is pouring out of me lmaooo #i’ve written 8k words in like 10 combined hours which is insane for me

[dovingly]

breaking my long silence to post ocs

#ive been stuck in a rut w rl situations + art block and mental health just slamming me #they are married #evvie (fish wife) she/her and hemlock (human wife) he/him #if i should tag this with anything please lmk! #art #fantasy art #dovinglyart #fantasy #artists on tumblr #ocs #ocstuff

[tariah23]

My sister is doing so well at the spa where she works as an LMT at 😭…

#she gets like over $100 in tips every time she works too I’m so happy #especially since she’d been struggling for a while because of her license taking forever to process and the other places that she’d been #working at had not been as reliable #she’d already passed her test back in like November or so and it shouldn’t have taken this long for her license to process they kept on #giving #her the run around #she was supposed to have gotten it by march bro #she’s just now getting it #the place that she’s at now had already hired her back then so it’s nice that she didn’t have to reapply because of so many months passing #by #maybe I should become an lmt they make bank 😭 #I told her that I didn’t want to be a copy cat tho lol #maybe in the future #I still want to get my esthetician license first #and then get certified in both laser hair and tattoo removal since that is where the money is at #rambling #I’m so happy that trades are a thing because you really don’t need to go to college to become successful or make a decent living you could #just pick up a couple of trades or so #take the courses that’ll usually last from between 6-12 months and wala #it’s mostly ideal for to at least get your HS diploma though (PLEASE) or else you’ll be pretty much stuck in a rut unless you get lucky some #how #it’ll just cause you a lot of problems down the line tbh #and the GED process is also a hassle especially as you grow older since you tend to forget lots of things #now she can finally pay me back some money that she owes me because my ass is broke rn and I need a job lol #all of my funds (had quite a bit saved) are almost gone so I can’t really afford to sit around anymore since I have a phone bill to pay #and I want to get back to paying the rent and helping with groceries again/ my moms life insurance #my phone bill went down to like $133 tho so oh??? it was $146… smh

[blueish-bird]

sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive

#lighthearted but also serious bc what is going on here buddy #been feeling weird as hell these past few months #like I can remember some stuff… but it doesn’t feel normal to forget the names of anyone I haven’t seen/heard the name of in a few days #or forget about basic interests and personality traits and experiences and feel like a blank slate every day #idk like ultimately life goes on and I’m happy to live in the moment but it would be nice to understand why my brain is doing this #just thinking #meposting #I think my brain just. does this sometimes when I’m stressed. which is annoying #I recall (lmao) feeling similar during earlier parts of life so this isn’t *new* it’s just unexpected and much more disruptive as an adult #I’m feeling better about it than I was. after like. acknowledging it. bc my mind has not always felt like a sieve it isn’t always this bad. #whatever #I’ll tag as dissociation just in case it’s related/reminiscent and ppl don’t want to see that #dissociation #me and her go way back… haven’t seen each other in years though #she wasnt all bad! coping mechanisms can provide relief and a sense of safety #and as far as coping mechanisms go it’s not the most unhealthy. though it ranks high in ‘socially stunting’ #I kind of miss the distance sometimes to be honest everything’s just So Much all the time #I’m so solid now #so stuck in the ruts of capitalism #fuck capitalism #I wish my imagination didn’t feel so dulled #sorry I love talking #and I don’t miss dissociation when I feel mentally present because I feel so Here with the people and things I love but rn? #it’s like a lose-lose bc I am not Here nor am I untethered. I’m heavy yet hold nothing #I enjoy being dramatic/poetic about it — I feel pretty fine. I just hope this isn’t a permanent and/or long-term state of existence. #like it makes me awful at my job I went from remembering a solid amount of the student body’s names (built up over a few years) to. like 5. #overnight it felt like. like Stressful Thing happened and I went to work and I couldn’t remember anyone’s names. #can’t believe I have to start from fucking scratch AGAIN I’d be better off quitting and working at a different school #bc at least then my lack of knowledge/remembering is justified rather than strange and seemingly rude #I’m getting better now but at the beginning of this it was blue screen in my brain all the time

[stabbingandorbeingstabbed]

i need to run away from home i need to move to a city and meet people who get it and i need to get my tits cut off for realsies this time like i've had enough actually. for the love of god

#my parents are being kind enough to pay for sessions with a life coach bc im very stuck and not at all sure what to do #and the bad news is that it's a woman from my old church #but the good news is that i've always liked her and she's the most normal person there re: non-christians #like we have a relationship that goes back 15 years and i've never once felt judged by her like i love her #and had NO IDEA she did the whole life coach thing #so im hoping that once we start this it'll be the active hand holding i need to like. pull me out of the rut i've been stuck in for like #almost a decade now #gonna have to wait on even thinking abt top surg tho bc i cannot see my family being super supportive of THAT and like #idk how to go about looking into how to do that like my insurance covered my breast reduction #bc i was still on my moms really good insurance and it was deemed medically necessary for my quality of life or whatever #and im SO GLAD i did it but u know what would be even better ?? never feeling the need to put on a bra ever again in my life #anyways. right now at this moment nothing has like materially changed but i think i can feel Something shifting #but that might just be me having a little bit of hope for the first time in a while lmaoo. bleak !!

[cinna-bunnie]

y'all .. i thought i might be depressed but i just had an actual Meal today before 5pm and I'm a whole new person wtf. the 3 meals a day people were RIGHT.

1. don't skip actually eating on ur lunches 2. if u never have energy after work try eating sooner than later

#i usually have dinner sometime from 7-10:30 lol #I've been in a rut fr and feel like i can do Anything 😤 including some stuff I've been neglecting all week bc I've been so busy! #but also... she text back and was kinda sweet so 😔💖 #half joking abt eating 3 meals a day i of all ppl know a lil food isn't gonna cure depression if it's bad enough lol. #but u Gotta give ur body energy. being a sentient meat battery is wild

[rhetoricalrogue]

*stumbles out of 1902 wearing a beaten up black plaid flat cap*

Y’all. I think I unlocked real-time creative writing and improv via RP and I’m emotional over this character I’ve been developing that’s taken over my spare time for the past seven months.

I’m going to have to look back at past posts, but I want to say the last Liv update was back in June? So much has happened and I’m like…all of this is from a character I went in completely blank slate with no plan and pretty much let her take control of where her narrative went.

#olivia smith #Issa does yeehaw RP #I just wanted to be a doctor and I wound up going off the deep end with my gal #would I be able to write any of this? I don’t think so #but it’s been a fantastic format that’s knocked me out of a creative rut #I don’t know if she’s at an endgame stopping point just yet #but if so I have a good ending planned for her #she deserves a calm and gentle end that’s more like the ending of one story and the start of another instead of a hard ‘this is it’ ending #I love her so much you don’t understand

[plum-postmodernprometheus]

hey so . what if. elizabeth. created the monster?

#frankenstien #elizabeth frankenstein #my art <3 #shes not graverobbing shes girlbossing. #finally got outta my little art rut and have been able to draw <3 #also . yes this is another au. yes there will be more.

[leviiackrman]

Hey! I’m bored af and can’t be bothered to make decisions so, out of these characters, who would we like to see drawn next?

Only 1 day to answer so PLS tell me what people are interested in seeing!!

#personal* #jess talks #I am gonna work on willow next cus she’s been on my mind #BUT #I do have an idea for another new oc - mika and Alyssa thank you for encouraging this new obsession #so it may be between 6 more characters #but how mental is it that I only have 6 more characters to draw in general!!!! #excluding revised DA characters and self inserts #and??? then it’s just their cartoon versions??? #I’m legit like !!!! HOW DID I MANAGE TO ACTUALLY FINISH THIS PROJECT?? #well actually you’re not finished yet Jess so don’t jinx it #but having 6 left compared to the 39 ocs I have… #anyway pls answer this or I’ll still be stuck in a rut lmao

[grimoirering]

I'd like for you to draw any Shadows of Valentia! Whatever character. Also i just think you draw Celica soooo beautifully❤️

(oh btw this isnt a request, its just for the meme!)

🥺🥺🥺 wah thank you... but planning on it! i miss this game a lot i wanna draw someone again soon!!

#also honestly i wanna draw celica again LOL. i miss her sm she's my girlie. no one does it like her anymore :'( #been meaning to for a while but erm. was stuck in an art rut so all of my celi's just went to the wip banishment zone #but now that im slowly easing out of it... mayb celica time after im done drawing dorothea :]

[allmuddy]

@dyavolvich: you’re not having a good night, are you?

" that obvious? " her response is barely a grunt; the aftermath of a struggle visible in the ash and dust that cloud her expression, a bruise weaving its purple web on her left cheek. yet the marks of violence seem to do nothing more than amplify her features, an enticing sort of beauty that arises from her aggression." but it's like they say – y'should see the other guy." she can't help the smirk that forces itself onto her face, the flash of pearls. the guy in question is currently reconsidering ever having anything to do with the mutant. " ah could do with a drink though."

#hi! :) #hope this is Ok my writing has been in a rut lately #she's gonna annoy him i promise #ic⁎ you picked a bad day to mess with the wrong woman. #dyavolvich.

[lil-kissy]

Fluff, Drama, Lighthearted or Dark

FMA, Wonderland, Ygo or anything in between

I wanna plot gdi.

Look I love short n sweet interactions, quick asks and small threads they're all great but I'm going to be perfectly honest. I Miss plotted stuff.

I miss a single lengthy thread, or continues story beats and plots over multiple. I want progression.

Character Growth- for all muses, the world and story building, relationship growth/bonding. The good, the bad, the happy , the sad and everything else that comes with those types of threads.

Quite frankly that's what I want more then anything in regards to Kisara, future of the blog, general desire/rp interest.

This isn't to say I want to stop or won't continue doing small stuff, answering asks and sending that. I'm always for those especially as good buffers whether as a break from a current thread, a lull in motivation, life getting in the way of being able to focus on lengthy things you know whatever.

I'll always be 110% on board for any and every interaction nor am I discounting the enjoyment they've brought in the past, I love everyone one of you guys and everyone of our interactions has been a joy to do and always will be.

But I'm gonna be real it has been far to long since I last did like a properly plotted thread, a fun long continuous thread that didn't end up dying out or forgotten real quick.

Just wanted to let everyone know this is what I've really been feeling and really wanting to try and lean into more not just for her but in general with my rping as whole this year.

But especially here cause in part the fragmented one shot mini threads while always fun they kinda end up all over the place and I'd love to be able to start creating some kind of time line? do interactions that will actually carry over from one to the next, consequences for actions, lasting affects of things good or bad between threads (which I already have been trying to do that with some of her interactions and not just let them sit in a unconnected nebulous zone of their own heh)

#I hope this doesn't come off as rude or demanding or anything #I kept quiet but this has been on my mind for awhile #Was always afraid as coming off as pushy or potentially worse ungrateful for the rps/interactions #that have been done #because I'm not #I adore each and every interaction no matter how big or small they all mean the world #just knowing you want to interact with my little girl #but I fear that in part she herself has kind of become stagnant with all her interactions #being relatively brief and more or less the same nothing to push forward #and even if that wasn't true I just adore being able to essentially work together and write story for our muses #plus by plotting and giving more for the muses it may also make it easier/ add to even the small stuff you know #Gotta start small to get big but when doing big stuff still need the small now and then heh #so yeh small threads/short interactions/ask based on offs ect none of that is going anywhere #I've just really wanted to try and get into a more plotted/story proegression type of direction? focus? #I don't want to end up feeling like I'm in a rut of the same old things #and of course I understand life exists motivation or lack there of can come and go or be directed who knows where #and all of that #but even if it means having to slowly get that train going before it can head full speed down the tracks I don't mind taking the time #that's all okay #but let's work together to get it going then

[waywardvagabonds]

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#can i just say what an amazing return to pole class tonight was? #i get what my instructor is talking about when she talks about reclaiming your aliveness #i've been in something of a rut lately feeling like i'm stagnating and no longer good at or even open to exploring new things #so my god was it awesome to be given the prompt 'dance on the stall bars' and just...figure out what to do with that #didn't know a damn thing about how to make it work but by the end of the song i did and it was so much fun #and now i need to find whatever cover of crazy by gnarls barkley that was because DAMN #the music tonight slapped #this is my new favorite class

[rosykims]

im having a lady gaga personal renaissance rn which feels like a mental health win tbqh. morning !

#disclaimer i dont know what shes been up to irl i just like her music #im feeling rejuvinated today ! ive been in such a rut lately feeling so overwhelmed w the littlest things #but ive finally got a hold of most of it and now everythings feeling easier to manage #im not sure how long itll last but im just trying to stay productive in the meanwhile ft scheiBe 💃

[lavenderedhoney]

Idk if there's anything as hot as seeing and feeling her get hard bc I told her I want her to fuck me

#after she came rutting against my chest yesterday she started getting soft until i quietly said i wanted her inside me #bc i hadnt been sure if i wanted it bc id had a difficult night and i was feeling off #but when i said i wanted it. and that i wanted it a lot. and watching her harden again #it was so fucking hot #god she was kissing me so good #soft little curls of her tongue against mine #shes the only bitch in the world who can turn me on when i feel sad #i wasnt thinking about sex at all and then she sat in my lap and started kissing me like that and i needed her to keep going #text #baby 💖