#she's pretty why don't I remember her?

[svtskneecaps]

ok i do need to ask, do we like KNOW know that some egg admins have been playing as other silly npcs during this downtime or are we speculating. like i've seen people identifying admins with varying strength of basis since the eggs first existed but like. for a while there anytime an npc spoke portuguese everyone thought it was richas and then occasionally it would be agent 18 lmao so. . . are we doing that now or do we like Know lmfao

oh and to be clear i do mean varying strength; people were apparently spotting a leo admin's speech patterns earlier and since leo has such a distinct pattern (tho i'm not fluent in spanish LMAO) i'm inclined to believe that. but yea for a while people seemed to think portuguese=richas and to be fair there weren't many non-english npcs for a WHILE and really no portuguese besides richas (that we knew of) but it does mean i'm a bit more skeptical now when the audience starts trying to clock npc admins lmfao

#qsmp #this is not neg this is just me not being on y'all's same wavelength for the millionth time #sometimes i feel like i'm not cut out to be in a minecraft fandom lmfao #which is wild bc i started my fandom journey as one. maybe that's why lmao mcyt fan spaces are way different than 2012 #anyway i'm apparently super bad with minecraft admin body language bc i never spot it #philza minecraft spotting his kids were Imposters from a mile away blew my fucking mind #bonus shoutout to etoiles who clocked dapper as a code fighting him #and who also had to clock his imposter daughter lol rip the legend #shut up vic #block game brainrot #oh and when phil clocked that bobby was filling in for tallulah tho that one was kinda obvious (lag) #i'm pretty sure fit has also clocked an admin filling in for ramon but i don't remember when or who #definitely pre-purgatory though #ah and when the eggs were missing and pierre clocked pomme and then used her ninho pearl lmao #while she was snipybara #that time roier laid on the ground and played sad music when a different admin filled in for bobby #and ofc cellbit noticing elisangela(iirc) was richas and teasing them #me when the parents can spot their kids a mile away: 🥰

[gildedmuse]

So, I just know all of Tumblr was wondering, "hey, you remember that really weird ZoLaw fan with the annoyingly overly stylized post? I wonder if she's seen this and if she has any theories or thoughts, an observation or two?"

Well, allow me to set your wandering mind at ease, fictional Tumblr fan. The answer is: No. No, I really don't.

I have like three hundred.

[I also spent time just trying to track down as many translations as possible. Is Tera A Criminal's Daughter or The Daughter Of Thieving Bandits! These are CLEARLY separate things and can ENTIRELY change how her utter nonpresence in Zoro's life shaped him! Though I can take comfort in knowing that, regardless of what kind of crimes her father was committing they were more important than anything his daughter ever did in her entire life.]

And, hey, as might as well jump right into that whole mess.

1. Wait, Zoro's mom is dead? Thank goodness, I was worried Oda forgot one!

(AKA: Stop. Murdering. Moms.)

I'll go first, I don't mind saying when I was wrong. True, in the past I may have suggested that the vast majority of female characters in One Piece come off as ever so slightly, "leaning into sexist tropes with unadulterated joy; it's the misogynistic tropes equivalent of a child running naked through a grocery store. It's right there, everyone sees it, yet people shut up and continue shopping in part because, well, these days you just expect most people to cover that junk! What would you even say? And if you DO speak up and call out the inappropriate, be prepared for blank stares and tantrums; but THEY don't mind! THEY don't think it's wrong! You're just being mean!"

More or less a direct quote.

However, I see now that I rushed to judgement and the reality of the situation is far more nuanced. With that in mind, I was just wondering if someone could help answer some of the questions I have.

Like: Why does Oda believe that it's illegal for (maternal) female characters to survive other character's backstories?

More importantly, why hasn't someone just reached out to explain the misconception!? It can't be that difficult. If nothing else, just have a lawyer or judge or other expert in censorship on hand. Or is the one of those cases where back in highschool his friends made something up and then kept pretending it was real to see if he'd believe you and not only did he fall for it, it took over 20 years before he learned that, what, no that's not illegal. That would be crazy if it were an actual law. Cause you know, after the first 10 years I think yeah you have to just lean into it. Pretend it's a creative decision on your part and definitely not because you were terrified of being sentenced to a slow and humiliating public death.

Just to be clear that's definitely what's up, right? I mean, I'm struggling to think of another reason....able excuse why a story that I really enjoy keeps playing the same old sexist tropes cards again and again to the point of absurdity. It would just help if I had a valid excus- explanation. I almost mistyped the word explanation.

....

....

So I imagine it went like.

"That's the third mangaka they've had to Publically Execute this week!"

"They've started taking this law way more serious lately."

"This one really deserved it though! I heard his main character has a mother in her late forties!"

"That does seem old to have your first child."

"No, he's the middle of three and 22 years old. The story even has flashbacks of defining moments in his childhood and never once did she try to sacrifice herself for him, get murdered by his enemies, or die in meaningless unrelated accidents."

"Damn, that's cold to be there for all the protagonist core moments and not die and help him develop and grow a character? They must have a very antagonistic relationship. Is she actually the villain."

"Not that we know, and when they asked about this being a possible plot twist since - obviously if she's evil no laws are being broken."

"Well, of course, that's the whole reason Statue 2-dash-57 exists; if creators can show they have consistently been building up to a surprise twist then the female character in question can continue to live so long as she continues to be unrepentant and unlikable until the resolution of her arch by the protagonist."

"That's the thing! Under oath not only did man present no evidence to support her identity as a secret villain, he went on the record stating he wanted to depict their relationship as one of a normal modern 20 year old and his mother."

"That can't be true! What publishing company would even print that!?"

"It gets worse. I told you he was a middle child? Well, according to those who've read the actual manga, his younger sister was really sick as a child."

"Oh, well, at least-"

"It was just a fish allergy. She's perfectly fine."

"Sometimes I feel this law is unnecessarily harsh but.... Then you hear stories like that, and you realize that some people really are monsters."

#So this was going to be one post three parts (because obviously) then I remembered even people who have purposefully followed me hate that #I took into consideration that not everyone wants a unmountable wall of Zoro meta analysis on their dash so now its gonna be 3 post style #keeping in mind I've already written it all up and will just be posting them one after the other so effectively the same result #only with the illusion of my empathetic nature #I do have a lot of thoughts on what amounts to a very small amount of scribbled lines and a couple doodles #he literally didn't even bother giving Kuina's mom or grandmothers a name like they didn't even have a identity #In fairness there wasn't a need for them to have any kind of identities or individuality or identifiable features #everyone knows only one trait really matters when it comes to adult females: they go down #into the ground....as a corpse. After ensuring that their death would be the best way to help their children grow. As characters. #I'm joking cuz its funny. It's obvious why Zoro's mom got a name & description: she gave birth to a protagonist and not a human sacrifice #But have considered why those specific qualities are what he chose to define her by - she's fictional he could have made up anything! #I'll have to talk about it in the other posts I'm wasting precious tag room #one piece #roronoa zoro #one piece meta #one piece sexism #this post is not for everyone; actually its pretty much just for me #conversations with fictional people #more opinions than anyone asked for about subjects they don't even care about #Oh! I found the blogs new subtitle! #author gets sassy then preachy then sassy again and then swerves sharply to the weird #oh these tags are way too much #Zoro's backstory #Zoro family history #amusing musings #why am i the way that i am #three post style: part one!

[seithr]

Randomly remembered the half-reason i call my oc-verse by the name it has while laying in bed. One-half of the reason i still knew, but I had forgotten what had truly, really cemented it jointly until now

(it was a song from my favourite band I haven't listened to in a while.)

(the song fit so well at the time, still does, that i needed to hold onto it for the main protagonists forever, by partially naming their story in reference.)

Does this explanation make any sense? Does anyone know why I'm tearing up remembering this. Aahh

#(I'm emotional because I've been feeling bad about it all lately. enjoying things I make I mean—art or ocs or frivilous things.) #(So remembering that song and when it came out. That I couldn't see them in person. But i held onto it my own way. As something I loved) #(Something I still do love a lot... Parts of me saying no—you don't hate it. No. I'll help you remember more. I'm a little misty about it.) #The song is just The Killers - Run For Cover. I couldn't see them in person all those years ago—family went without me. #All my new oc rework with Zin and Hunter and Caia were like a year old or so. #It's a little silly. But the character Zin's derived from was a lightning mage so I stuck to it—I like monhun's zinogre for what its worth #So there's recurring theme and imagery. Thunder's not lightning but the sound and the feeling after the flash the flame and strike. #There's that meaningful thought—the story is the aftermath of a big tragedy. It matches what I like in monsters and other chars. #And at that time—my favourite band I missed out on puts out a really good song I download everywhere and it goes like: #He motioned me to the sky/ I heard heaven and thunder cry/ Run for cover/ Run while you can baby don't look back/ You gotta run for cover #And it goes on of course. The rest of the song's still really good. There's more that fits but point is; More evocative imagery. #So there. Why my bundle of OCs—Zinadia Hunter and Caia's story—is called Thunder 20XX. minus the 20XX. That's tongue-in-cheek #About some day I'll manage to make something tangeable or broadly shareable with them. I guarentee this century! #Thunder... oh my darling Thunder. Eight years man. More than that if I really want to count pre-rework INTO the complete original work. but #I like that it's definably 8. I like that I remembered I've always loved them a lot. Always been my thing to lean on even by name... #I need to get to sleep. Ive gotten a little more emotional over one song than I'd rather regularly be. Give it a listen maybe? Goodnight #Armour clanking #I need an oc tag #What have you gathered to report to your progenitors?🎶Are your excuses any better than your senator's🎶He held a conference #and his wife was standing by his side🎶He did her dirty but no-one died🎶 #I saw Sonny Liston on the street last-night black-fisted and strong singing🎶Redemption song🎶 #He motioned me to the sky🎶I heard heaven and thunder cry🎶RUN FOR COVER #What are you waiting for—a kiss or an apology?🎶You think by now you'd have an A in toxicology🎶 #It's hard to pack the car when all you do is shame us🎶Even harder when the dirtbag's famous🎶 #I saw my mother on the street last night all pretty and strong singin🎶The road is long🎶 #I said 'Mama I know you tried!'🎶But she fell on her knees and cried🎶RUN FOR COVER #Just run for cover - you've got nothin left to lose...

[allegorism]

while i think it's fair to worry about how much they're going to change certain stuff, i also think there's Way too much doomposting surrounding bg3's changes in characterisation

#'they changed lae'zel' its literally a greeting. #which changes w different levels of affinity #and according to what i've read it was always in the game files but wasn't working? #she's pretty much still the same in the main plot and in her romance #and the whole thing w gale being more lenient about the magic items is literally bc he would leave if you closed the inventory #without giving him anything #like literally the only real change in characterisation that i've seen has been astarion and his opinion on the mizora thing #that and the gortash gay letters that were changed #other than that the changes have only added scenes (mostly related to epilogue stuff which may have felt lacking at first) and fixed bugs #i will also say that wyll's part in all of this has been Very lacking because he truly needs more content in comparison to astarion #but if they're willing to listen to fans? maybe they Will add stuff? #and about the added lines to the gortash scene.... adding more dialogue options is Not changing the characterisation of a character #it's literally giving you more options. if you don't like them you can literally NOT press the button #OH. i've just remembered. halsin's new thing. not going romantic on you if you didn't flirt with him #that's also another characterisation change i noticed. but that's a coherent one #if you didn't flirt with halsin why would he. yk. #anyways. i'm seeing too much doomposting. worrying about this is normal but people are being so pessimistic #mona.txt

[tempestclerics]

rereading tâm's character sheet. my girl is genuinely a disaster but i love her anyway

#sola said #like i remembered that i really was not playing her to her full statsheet potential (hey. hey sola. TAKE BOTH YOUR ATTACKS. USE REACTIONS.) #but i had genuinely forgotten/maybe never realized just how silly her build is. why does this character still have two +0 mods at level 20 #21 str 15 dex 19 con 10 int 18 wis 10 cha. babygirl why #the thing is that it's actually really nice to look back and realize how differently i would know to build her now if i were to go back #i still don't think of myself as the crunchiest/smartest of players but it's nice to know i understand more than i did two years ago lol #but also. the real answer is that i wouldn't go back. i wouldn't give up anything about the way wandering isles/my first dnd experiences #went for literally anything in the world. #what do you Mean most people's first dnd experience isn't roleplaying slowburn unrequited romance turned aroace interpersonal conflict #turned platonic soulmates after all in the most cathartic and exhilarating possible way? #wandering isles was truly such a way to join and play the back half of a campaign and. yes tâm was a pretty poorly built character but that #was never the point. and it's really nice to look back and be like. i genuinely have no regrets about any of this. #i don't miss playing tâm in that. she got her epilogue. i don't have story left to tell with her. but she still owns my heart #sorry to every pc and campaign i play or will play in the future but i'm genuinely ruined for ttrpgs now <3 #tâm #wandering isles

[running-in-the-dark]

I watched the second and third The Librarian movies yesterday, sooo. I might start watching The Librarians tonight. maybe. I'm not sure. I'm scared 😔

#I really want to watch it #but that's what's scary #that's why I started watching Almost Paradise first - I didn't care. #but I care about the librarians. what if I don't like it? what if I like it too much? and more than anything - what if I don't like Jacob OR #like him too much? #that's a very real possibility and it is scary 😔 #and there's someone I don't like in this show. I don't remember why but I think she was in something where I didn't like her character? or #maybe I just find her irritating? I don't know. #but what if she ruins it for me 😔 #(oh I just saw that she was on relic hunter? that could be why then. I was obsessed with that show.) #also: these movies were sooo bad #I enjoyed them but they were bad #well I say that.... I did enjoy the last one. that one was pretty fun. the first one wasn't that bad but. well yeah #the concept is so ridiculous. I love that #(also had to watch the second one twice because I fell asleep immediately the first time) #personal

[levil0vesyou]

Having a post get popular enough to be independently reblogged by someone you follow but aren't mutuals with is. Wild

#yes it was the sex poll obvs #given the person is a minor i'm very glad they picked answer one lmao #like i do think minors in general are allowed to want and even have sex (with each other obvs) but when it's a minor i personally follow it #would just make me feel pretty weird lmao. like on a personal level ya feel? i mean when u reach an even closer level it becomes not weird #again like my dear friend ness (17yo) who afaik doesn't actually HAVE any sex but occasionally wants to and i support her hot girl summer. #but as stated this person barely knows i exist i just follow his blog (i used they earlier but this was incorrect but tumblr won't let me e #edit the tag 😔) and he's 16yo so seeing him talk about wanting and/or having sex would have been. uncomfortable. like obvs he'd be allowed #to because my personal discomfort is no indication of morality but you get it. like if my big little cousin (she's 15 now by god the years #don't stop coming) were to talk about sex and stuff to me or within earshot i would ummm. throw myself out the window? but like i'd still t #try to be supportive and if push comes to shove then yes i would give her condoms 😔 cuz like if a minor wants sex i will not be able to sto #stop them lmao but i can at least try and make it somewhat safe y'know #actually i remembered i have literally given a 15yo a condom before lmao she's prolly over 20 now but like as the adult dormmate it was alm #almost like a responsibility y'know like what do you want me to DO?? let her get pregnant?? anyway enough tangent lmao #btw all this is also why in the poll i included 'too young' but didn't specify an age cuz that's individual y'know. some people are p late #bloomers (i was one) while others choose to have consensual sex by 14 y'know. not something i like to think about but that doesn't mean it #won't happen ya feel. i mean what am i the american education system? lmao. so some ppl have interpreted being 17 as too young but there's #also folks like this who clearly consider 16 old enough and that's defo ppl's good right. and again i usually don't mind just the fact that #he in particular is someone i already knew made it uncomfy. but anyway yea back on topic it's very interesting in general when your post #gets big enough to independently make it to ur dash thru a non mutual lmao. love the hellsite honestly where else amirite #personal #mine #ok to rb ig #like the actual body of the post anyway. i'd be pretty uncomfy if said person saw my tags on this cuz y'know it's kind vagueing even if it' #not negative but anyway. anyway #*kinda

[blujayonthewing]

'Oh, I have thought about it actually; I don't really see Fengling ever wanting arms again, but if she ever does it'd literally only be so she could, like, actually hold Juniper's hand, or hug her, or hold their child if they ever adopted a kid' hhhHHhhh shut the fuck UP you can't just SAY these THIIINGS!!!!!!

#SCREAMING CRYING I'M SO SOOOOFT YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO MEEEEE #WE WEREN'T EVEN PLAYING THIS CAMPAIGN!! WE WERE JUST CHATTING BEFORE ELYSS CAMPAIGN #GET OUT OF HERE WITH YOUR 'I'VE THOUGHT TENDER THOUGHTS ABOUT THEIR FUTURE TOGETHER' SIR!!! #thinking about juniper and fengling starting a family together what the fuck I'm gonna CRY #'she doesn't want arms-- she feels complete without arms. but maybe to hold juniper or their baby' uuuhuhuuu #I don't remember why it came up exactly but it IS a real question because druids can learn regenerate #and that's a pretty fair way out for june but it IS also something I'VE thought about #juniper loves fengling the way she is she doesn't want to imply that she wants her to have arms or thinks she needs them #but I feel like... if you gain the ability to grow a double amputee's arms back you gotta at least mention that it's an option #about me #juniper #fengling and june #irl frens

[rainbowvamp]

I would really like to spend more time talking about how hilarious the conversation Dream and Johanna have is if you know comics lore. Like... I'm obsessed.

#girl. I don't think I've rewatched that episode with the lens of 'remember dream has dated people in canon' before #and it is so funny #like I feel bad for him #but I am also laughing at him #because he deserves it #oh my gosh #I love dream. I really do. #I love him and he is pathetic #that blank stare when Johanna asks 'haven't you ever had an ex girlfriend' #reads as 'I am an endless what nonsense is this?' because he's pretty dead eyed about the whole thing #but if you know the lore and you're paying attention #that is an avoidant silence #he's not gonna agree with her #but he knows she's not wrong #and he is thinking about every failed relationship he's ever had and going #okay yeah I better let her sort that shit out alone. don't want to be in the middle of that #I'm sorry #why are we making hob and Johanna friends in fics #when Johanna can be that one friend who is absolutely merciless about all the mistakes dream has made? #it would be hilarious! #I am not going to write that #I'm probably not gonna write that. #I am busy! I am not going to write that!

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

(re: language, & i have thought about this some and i think that is important to include people who aren't women who are directly impacted by restrictions on abortion access, but i also think that anti-choice rhetoric & activism is driven by misogyny, so it is also important to me to consistently name women as a group when abortion specifically is being discussed. and i think obviously you can't separate misogyny from a lot of other things, but i also think something is lost when you lose the ability to name misogyny in contexts where it's central or relevant, which i feel like i have seen happen not infrequently. i have thought about specifying "cis women" but if the issue is that not all women can get pregnant and therefore not all women have the potential to require access to abortion, that's true even if you are talking specifically about cis women, and it would feel strange to be like, "cis women without infertility issues who are between menarche and menopause." in mulling that over i landed on something like: i think that ultimately any manifestation of misogyny is relevant to all women, even if for whatever particular circumstances of their lives specific individual women may not ever have to deal with that. i don't have to deal with tabloids dissecting my perceived physical flaws because i am not a celebrity, but i do have to deal with being a woman in a culture where women's bodies are considered acceptable sites of public commentary and beauty is considered an obligation women owe the public. similarly, a woman who can't get pregnant, whether it's because she's trans or because she had uterine cancer, technically doesn't have her life impacted by a lack of access to abortion, but she is still impacted by the underlying ideology of restrictions on abortion access, which is that women's lives are not inherently valuable and women cannot be trusted to make decisions about their own bodies or reproductive futures. hence, "women & others who can get pregnant" is where i have landed for my own use in this and similar contexts, for now at least.)

#i don't... like i feel pretty solid about my choice here but i don't like #feel particularly strongly about other people's decisions #& i think that maybe i think it's kinda good that right now pro-choice sentiment sometimes reads 'women' and sometimes reads 'people'? #idk. i'm ok with having both out there. #and... hm. and i guess also feel like... aggressively being against either one of those... would be a red flag for me personally lol. #but. language is a living thing! & when it comes to linguistic options that are kind of in flux #i think it's really worth it for people to document their own rationales #not necessarily to convince anyone or argue #but to give glimpses of the ways that people can think about things #(martha biondi at the head of her book that i read i cannot remember #gave a little blurb about why she capitalized black but not white #which did make more sense to me than any other explanation i had seen #but also just seeing it was very influential on me. i was like. oh yeah everyone should do that all the time) #so. here's where my thinking currently stands.

[fideidefenswhore]

“And cannon-fire, two miles downriver on this glorious May morning, will get me started. One brutal blast and the queen is dead, long live the queen. Will she, herself, hear anything of the split of her own nape under the sword blade? Not that I pity her, but still: the cracking in two of the bony stem of her, the pouring of her blood to the ground. Perhaps I should have been brave enough to ask the king: ‘Couldn’t she just...?’ Perhaps she could have just gone away. Because surely a nunnery would have done. 

I’m listening hard for that cannon blast [...] I want to be alone when it gets to me; if anyone were here with me, I wouldn’t know where to look.

As soon as those cannons have sounded, I have a job to do: be a queen as if the last one never existed. Give me a job to do and I’ll do it, and I’m nothing if not thorough. And in this case it’ll be my pleasure. Give me time and no one will so much as remember the name Anne Boleyn. Just give me time. 

No block for her, no axe: she’ll die with her head up. She was a mistake of the king’s but the king never makes a mistake, so she’ll be struck out with such speed that no one sees it happen and then the blood will slide in a single wipe from so sharp a blade. For not even three years did England have a pretend-queen. Blink and you’ve missed it.”

The May Bride, Suzannah Dunn

#most docuseries and dramas (i remember tudors omitted this too) never seem to mention that she was waiting for francis bryan to deliver #news of the executions of these man and this woman... #that's why i had to find a different shot. her waiting by the window #it's. y'know. pretty dark #'gentle' jane ..... #i also don't really think it had much to do with catherine (or at least not. this catherine. as this book kind-of-sort-of posits...but #can't quite let go of the reverence of catherine of aragon primary motivator tradition) #anyway a controversial but imo entirely plausible jane here.... #i just don't think it had anything to do with catherine at all #just that she had aligned herself with those that had been catherine's allies...naturally as they were in opposition to anne. #and all that she had stood for/ represented #*these men #suzannah dunn

[astrxealis]

i really want to play dragon age origins again ngl...

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #i only ever played for a few hours but #last night i saw that uhh MOREIFAN #hi i made this post last night but i wanted to post it in the morning but forgot. i now remembered just now #MORRIGAN !! <3 i saw a gifset of her n i didn't perceive her that much back then but wow she is so pretty #alistair was my fave! he's still cool (i think) but i think i'd like morrigan more now ^___^ but also idk. hmm. #it's on the xbox and i barely use it nowadays bcs Playstation and Mobile ya. i should use the switch more. i miss my gaymes there #i was a human noble iirc. idk what i want to be now if i return to the game bcs i'll likely restart! #i actually played dragon age origins before ffxiv . i remember this fact bcs i played xiv and was like WOA i think #dragon age origins helped prepare me for this kind of gameplay (mostly involving clicking ?? iirc) #ya... also idk if i want to be a human noble anymore bcs ever since xiv yeah. faves are miqo'te and viera and lala yk ^___^ #tbh i like both miqo'tes but mostly just male viera I LOVE FEMALES don't get me wrong but there's smth abt them that is Less now #lalas i general i super love they are such lil cute funny guys. female voice 1 is best btw <3 uhh i prefer females w lalas #so it is a BALANCE ... i lov other races like elezens (they are PRETTY. fuck people who don't like elezens) #and auri. plural of aura. i forgot if there was a space. i think there was. so yeah idk which i prefer w male female (male i think) #but it is a balance yes bcs other friends like em more !! uhh mostly femras. sorry elezens. also i like the other races too okay #but i prefer TWINKS over MOMMIES /lh both are great fr tho #wow... i think if ever i were to fantasia (kinda scared of becoming a fantasia addict lmaoo /lh) i want to be male miqo most #bcs i envy male viera gender sm but ?!?!?!??! male miqo seems most fun to play. but also i'm attached to my fem miqo so. #this turned from dragon age to ffxiv. why is this inevitable. why does this always happen #also this is so far into the tags of this post now and this post has strayed so far so small yeah #WAH. sometimes i get all jhdsghjb ?!?! whenever someone is like omg hi you followed me. omg hi i yeah yeah yeah #admiration/indimitation/wrong spelling ik but my shoulders hurt rn IDC. ookay it is hsdbgj??!??! in a VERY /pos way #but also i'm shy i don't really get it (i mean i could if i analyzed it properly. but i'm shy w this okay) #but also i realize i GET THAT WAY TOO !! sometimes i'm kinda woa w some people and when they follow me back it's like hi............ #this is me w my fav writer following me back. and someone from twt i followed w/o realizing i followed them on their tumblr sb #and other people. and yeah. it's like wah hi..... <3 interesting I CAN'T THINK ANYMORE #time to do homework (or roulettes... or dailies.........) #interesting to think abt how i know the games ik. most of the games like cod and dragon age ik bcs of xbox #and they are blizzard stuff iirc !! but i grew up w square enix and a wii aside from a ps2/3 ?? so that is that

[cupcakesmoothie]

Something about me and mean lesbians with their cute sweet girlfriends that they're absolutely whipped for

Lesbians

#Jenn #I've probably written more than two lesbian characters/pairings but the two most recent that I remember are just this #I don't know why even #Something about a bad bitch who don't need no man but WOMEN however #Anyway girl help I'm making another WIP #She's not the main character but her name is Jennifer Mortimez and she's a grim reaper basically #It's a story about being a grim reaper (or death bringer is what I'm calling them in the story) and how hard of a job that is #It's probably not anything special but I was just kinda feeling my mortality tonight after watching a video about Itaewon #Anyway Jenn is a death bringer (for money like the main character is) to pay for her girlfriend's cancer #She receives the news of her girlfriend's death when she's given the job to bring her to the afterlife. #She runs home in the rain and her girlfriend is there. Out of bed for the first time in a while (she got up on her own too). #She's watching the rain and says she feels so much better now and Jenn spends the entire job crying and getting comforted instead of being #the one comforting. She doesn't put on her unifrom that time (It's a suit. It's not the official uniform but she's being like that one SCP) #sweetmountainseeds #I promise I'm not killing off all my lesbians I swear YuanShu and Rumi will grow old and maybe have cats or adopt humans I don't know #I figure if people who don't care or aren't good at writing can get shows and make movies #And I care and think my stories are ehh kinda sorta pretty good I can make a good story too #And it doesn't have to get real big but if someone out there will enjoy it then there's value in it. Y'know? #Anyway enough rambling it's sleepy time #writing things

[ohnoitsthebat]

grief is ugly and messy and painful and I wish it didn't exist.

#grief #grief tag #death #i'm thinking of my grandma today #it's such a pretty day outside and the weather is lovely #and i remember how much she loved spring #i remember helping her in the vegetable garden when I was little #and breaking beans with her on the front porch #i miss her so much #everything around me reminds me of her #she was everything to me #personal #bat.txt #sorry-i don't know why i'm sad today

[caffeinatedopossum]

I just realized something really sad

I have two best friends outside of tumblr (my only irls that aren't roommates basically) and one of them I try to talk to constantly but she doesn't always respond, in fact she kind of barely does. I want to talk to her all the time but I always feel like I'm boring her or like she doesn't understand why I can't do some of the things I can't do.

The other one is always trying to talk to me, usually trying to call me. But I rarely ever pick up or respond or text first. My relationship with her is really complicated because some of my alters are very hurt from some things she did a while ago, others just don't trust her, and then the ones that front when we talk love her.

I have so many mixed feelings and the switches triggered by that mean I always don't answer or forget because I have dissociative amnesia about her trying to contact me in the first place... I don't know, I don't want to make excuses for myself but I genuinely don't know if this is a valid reason for treating her the way I do or if I'm an awful friend. Of course, it could also be both. I just don't know what to do. I don't want her to feel neglected by me like I sometimes do with my other friend.

#for some context about what the things that hurt these alters were ill elaborate here in the tags #so me and friend 2 have been friends for a very long time. since i was about 13-14 and were both adults now #i was raised Christian and it deeply traumatized me. i didnt deconvert until i was about 17 and even then was back and forth #i know theres a lot of variability in Christianity and maybe not everyone raised Christian will be traumatized #but i really really was. and if youve seen some of my posts about my religious trauma youll know why #when i was 18 i had just moved out of my moms house and was basically crashing on a friends couch/floor #i was extremely stressed and vulnerable at the time #and during that time my friend tried to reconvert me #i dont remember exactly what she said but it devolved into arguing and i had a panic attack over it at least once #we didnt talk for a while #shes also stated pretty directly before that she believes being transgender (which i am) is wrong #i let it slide because she apologized and stopped pushing the matter #she almost never brings it up anymore #and parts of me forgive her but other parts don't #i feel like i should also talk about the ways that shes a good friend because this is gonna make it seem really one sided otherwise #so for one shes been with me through the hardest years of my life #talking me down from taking my life late into the nights... being there when no one else was... reminding me that im worth something #shes been patient and kind and supportive all this time #she was also the person who eventually got me to realize that my parents and even my siblings were abusive and neglectful #which was a very big deal for me #i wouldnt have lived this long without her suppory #even now she checks in on me #making sure im not suicidal and reminding me that shes here for me #always reaching out if i havent responded in a while just to make sure im okay #she also struggles with a lot of the same stuff as me having had ptsd depression and an eating disorder before #so she helps me feel less alone #but now i dont ever feel close to her #and i dont know if i ever will again #i feel cruel for not telling her the truth if i haven't forgiven her yet but I don't think itd do any good for her to know

[adozentothedawn]

You know, I still think that women that are actually written in Riyaria are well written, but man this guy has a problem with fridging female characters. The amoun of women who die in these books simply for plot of specifically the male characters is eeeeehhhhhhh. Which is a real shame honestly, because Arista, Amilia, and Thrace are such good characters, I love them. He does unfortunately also have a lack of buff women. So, to remedy these problems I suggest one main fix: make Hadrian a woman. You can even leave the name, I am perfectly happy having a woman called Hadrian run around. You also have to change nothing about his plot or character. Leave it as it is. This would give us a buff female himbo knight, it would mean that for once the male and female protagonist are not in a relationship, and it would make Hadrian’s and Arista’s romance immediatly 10 times more compelling. Give me knight/princess leasbians! And from there you could totally genderflip a few more characters, Esrahaddon would be a prime example. Merrick is another one. Literally the only character that you can’t just genderflip or it would break part of the plot is Royce. Everyone else is fair game.

also give Thrace a half elf bard girlfriend i dare you

just kidding I’ll do it myself

#riyria #also I already decided for my headcanon beacuse it matters exactly not at all is that Hadrian's dad was a trans man #which also explains why the man absoluetly never mentions his mother #and no don't tell me ooooh she died when he was young yeah I know that and I think it's stupid #but also to really upgrade/fix these books you also really have to work on the colonialism #and the racism #but I'm not touching that until I reread the books where that really becomes a problem #for now it's mostly just Gwen and her magical seeing powers which are very heavily roma coded that are a problem #and i mean it is a problem but one that I feel could be pretty easily fixed by untying that from her heritage #it's not like no one else has magic in these books so singeling her out is fucking weird #just make her a normal wizard like Arista who happens to spezialize in prophecy #the general Calis thing is a much more intricate problem that I don't remember well enough to suggest fixes to for now #but oh boy do i remember bad things #anyway #knight princess lesbians when? #i demand #so I guess I have to either go look for a different book or write it myself