#shes not real it doesnt add up

[i-bring-crack]

No one in the history of ever:

Every creator out there that got their hands on the rights of adapting Solo Leveling: Mind if I just *starts packing shit ton of more SL content*

#and we love them forever #eternally grateful for people looking at Chugong's work and being like: baby i can fix you *spams more lore MORE CONTENT* #now the thing is that things begin to contradict each other a lot more than usual #for example the LN SL will have Esil dead #and then in other interpretations she is alive and or she isnt #and then the backstories would be different in game than it would be in SL Rag #and like you can choose which ones you like #but you also are free to not follow canon as much as you want #because these characters arent defined entirely even by canon standards #they are fully fledged in some things #and at the same time they arent fully cardboard #and the more sl content they add the more they feel real to you #but it doesnt stop you from making them however you wish to interpret them #its odd and quirky. but thats cuz we mostly see everyone in a serious situation and not in a realxed one per say #but somehow anything can fit #anyways time to shut up #solo leveling #solo leveling ragnarok #SL Arise #Solo leveling anime

[natsmagi]

im a little curious. In ur opinion how do u think femstars natsumes childhood went ? Was she made to dress up as a boy or was she maybe kind of "forced" to overperform femininity when she maybe was a little more tomboyish ? I feel like natsume's "odd" childhood is very important to his character so I was just wondering how you (or anyone else, but since u draw a lot of fem natsume i was wondering if u ever thought about it) would go about adapting it. anyways i love ur art!!! Its so cute i wanna eat it <33 i love women i love boys idk i just love anything u draw. Ur a big inspiration for me!! <3333

HMMM i guess itd kinda depend on how u wish to view femstars natsume!

for example, to some people femstars is just a way for them to draw their favorite characters as cute girls, and if u want natsume to be and present as a cute girl then itd make sense for her childhood to instead have her be dressed up as a boy! kinda reversing everything and having fun that way!

then theres the angle of using femstars as a way to explore femininity and gender expression as a whole. now, u can still have her dress as a boy during childhood and integrate that into her complicated relationship with gender, but i personally enjoy natsumes complex relationship with femininity specifically. so, while i havent thought about this in alot of detail, i personally enjoy viewing it as her character arc basically being ?? kind of the same as regular natsume ??? having an overly feminine childhood and such, and maybe she felt like a bit of a "damsel" and didnt feel like she was taken seriously due to her "being a girl" and "hyperfeminine," so, she begins to resent it a bit and is more Tomboy. maybe during her first and second year at yumenosaki she really leans into it too, but i do want her to gradually grow comfortable with her femininity. i like natsume in pink and cute outfits!! and id like for pink and cute things to sort of be a guilty pleasure for her!! she just doesnt wear it in public much bc she wants to look Cool, but maybe in her third/graduate years shes more comfortable dressing in varying ways.......

#i like nonbinary natsume so i want her to keep some ambiguity in regards to her gender and how she feels towards it #gender is not the same as gender expression id also like to add #so its alot of fun to explore these various things!! #the thing above is just what i personally enjoy most as it is a territory thats familiar to me and makes me happy #since femstars isnt real and we can literally just make shit up as we go #its fun to find ways to integrate personal factors into it and to explore it through these characters instead #femstars doesnt need to be something super cut and dry! it holds so many possibilities BECAUSE its not canon!! #u can literally do whatever u want!!! its great and i love it so much!!!! #its /MY/ au headcanons and /I/ get to choose how i want the characters to present. #ask #AND THANK U FOR THE COMPLIMENTS WAAAAAA UR SO SWEET........... <3<3

[waywardsalt]

Have you ever thought about how Linebeck describes Jolene as "crazier than a rabid squid"- only to then be possessed by a literal rabid squid later in the game?

Cause I sure have- especially after seeing a lot of your BellumxLinebeck stuff

mmmmghmm im gonna be honest i haven't thought about it much at all

linking it to my bellum x linebeck thoughts, im not too sure what to make of it in context with my other linebeck notes and w/e

there's also my idea that linebeck has a special interested in shellfish and by extension squids, and the idea of him having a weird thing for bellum, and just... enjoying sealife, and it's kinda of...

he compares her to a rabid squid to link in order to i think... offer a shorthand explanation of what she's like, and i think it (with some other stuff) is kinda just another little peek into how he might feel abt her?

i mean he also compares link to a dog in that one letter? i'm not sure where im going with that one. i dont think linebeck particularly likes dogs

i'm not sure abt the link between that and him getting possessed, jolene is kind of just... there a lot of the time and doesn't really do anything except 1) show that linebeck has enemies and 2) show that people know about link's quest by the end, linebeck generally references sea creatures a few times in ph

relating to bellum x linebeck, i dont see him comparing jolene to a squid an indicator of anything in relation to that, with linebeck having a thing for bellum its more of like. there's a lot of complicated ideas i have with what goes on between them during bellumbeck and bellum being a squid thing is more linebeck having a bit of a monsterfucker streak and having a bit of a thing for like. being tied up. as for literal squids he kinda just likes them as food and to dissect and learn about

like i think 'rabid squid' is more like linebeck just tossing out some derogatory shorthand to explain how he thinks of jolene as some fucking. violent annoyance he has to deal with that he doesn't fully understand

tbh i see the comparison but imo it comes down to a difference in characters and interactions and histories, there is the rabid squid thing (and i think in the manga too theres a vague parallel drawn ig) but im not. sure. what there is there just beyond. linebeck talks about sea creatures and wants to get the fuck away from jolene

i'm not entirely certain what you've been thinking about with that comparison, but i haven't been thinking much about it and it's kinda. eh ig???? its something

#asks #musicncomics #like im gonna be real jolene is a character i do everything i can to avoid half of the time #im not too sure what your thoughts on this are but i can tell you like jolene leagues more than i do so like. idk #idk i have a hard time talking abt jolene bc i Do Not like her so im not really sure beyond this stuff its just. idk #bellum also isnt a literal squid like looking at actual squids the most comparisons are surface level and dont work too deeply #he kinda just looks like one at first glance but 1) doesnt line up well enough and 2) we dont have enough info on him anyways #hes more a reference to a squid than an actual squid bc there is the reference to sperm whales and giant squids fucking hating each other #but while oshus is literal whale bellum is like. some thing in the shape of a squid #im not sure what parallels oyu can draw between the jolene thing and bellum thing. if anything theyre opposites? #w/ jolene its like things got so bad (or w/e) that he just robbed her n fucked off and she decided that was enough to warrant murder #while with bellum things get so good (w/ link and co) that he risks his life for em and is turned against them for it? #tbh this kinda comes down to me having a pretty negative bias against jolene and. that ship. so yeah sorry #im not gonna give this any main tags or anything this is way too far off the beaten path and kinda negative #idk i hc linebeck as gay and a lot of other linebeck hcs just kinda. suggest that he kinda had a really shit time w/ jolene #i dont like her im trying to figure that shit out so i can be like. fair at least in how i write her but i dont like her #salty talks #sorry that i keep tearing away from the rabid squid thing but its like a minefield when i try to talk abt anything w/ jolene #theres not a ton of parallels or like shared themes or w/e and its just too dissimilar in little ways that its just. a thing #ill add this in a few hours later idk if youll see jt but like. i can go in depth and discuss stuff #in dms like im fine with that its just weird in posts bc like tagging and my thoughts are a mess #like if you wanna elaborate on your thoughts thats fine

[timeisacephalopod]

I've kinda seen some pushback to the idea of representation in media and I don't necessarily think it's bad to point out actual rights are more important than Disney's thousandth first gay character that's fine, but I've had a LOT of people comment on my works about asexual characters and tell me what I wrote changed their life-and it's always that phrase- because they now have the language to describe what they feel. I've had people who ARENT ace or aro comment that what I wrote finally made a concept they didn't understand make sense, or that the way I explained things was interesting and enlightening and I'm kind of a mediocre writer who hasn't written anything in ages.

Like idk, if reading something from a writer who is fucking around and only somewhat talented can genuinely impact someone because they've not seen anything like them reflected back at them in life or media I don't think pushing for representation in media is as "needless" as some people seem to think and caring about that doesn't mean you don't care about more "important" (although if you think seeing people like you in media ISNT important it's because you already have that representation or are privileged enough to not care if you do, in which case maybe pipe down) stuff. Hell, I even got a Facebook message ages ago from someone who found a comment I left in an ace group about QPR's and what they meant to me and how I perceived them and the person no joke said what I wrote two years before they even found it changed their life forever because they finally knew what kind of relationship they actually wanted.

So like sure, of course there's always bigger fish to fry them diversity in media (you know, like diversity in real life lol) but I don't think it's as frivolous as some people are beginning to act like it is. At least not if you're an aspec person it's not, I STILL don't see ace characters almost ever and I'll bet my whole everything if I asked a writer of a show why they'd tell me that EVERYONE has to be in a sexual relationship and characters that aren't won't sell and are boring- I say this because in film school I had a teacher TELL ME every character needed to basically be sex obsessed and when I pointed out a GREAT MANY CHARACTERS are not revolved around sex (Supernatural stars two brothers, I pointed out) and when she asked if I had love interests I was like ??? That doesn't matter- using my aforementioned supernatural example almost all their love interests die or get mind wiped because at the end of the day that's not what the story was about. So actually I think writers who act like that teacher need like 50 reality checks, and representation in stories isn't unimportant and also support indie writers you'll probably find more funky shit there then Disney anyway lmao.

And also even the asexual characters I DO see in media don't remind me at all of myself even if I appreciate the effort, but they never feel real or genuine and their sexuality doesn't get a lot of exploration so 🤷🏻‍♀️ I actually could use more media focused on characters that I can genuinely see my sexuality reflected in in a meaningful and narratively impactful way because I've got nothing.

#winters ramblings #todd from bojack horseman im sure is SOMEONES version of asexuality but i dont see ANYTHING of myself in him #great character dont get me wrong but not relatable to me on any level including our shared sexuality #sex ed got a bit closer with their brief ace character although maybe she got more exploration in season three or four?? #the latest one i havent watched lmao. but being closer and having a moment wjere shes told shes not broken #while DEEPLY vindicating isnt necessarily all im looking for either #like i wamt a REAL character thats ace or aro or both thats written by people who UNDERSTAND what theyre writting #not just well meaning people who dont know what theyre doing its kind of tiring #also idk why theres no dating shows with gay men because reality dating shows are ALL ABOUT who fucks who and who gets together #gay men would be hooking up ALL OVER THE PLACE and the DRAMA youd think reality tv freaks would be SALIVATING #but no none of that lmao. just ru pauls drag race and thats great it is like its not my bag but people love it #back on yrack though the weord blowback representation is getting is strange and its VERY clear to me #the people writing those posts havent gotten dozens on dozens of messages from people like them who found their writing #and haf their life altered forever for the better because someone who KNOWS what theyre talking about wrote a character like them #and it opened doors they never knew existed. doesnt even need to happen with fiction either i had a friend i had in toronto #tell me the info i sent to her on being aromantic changed her life- THAT'S the phrase i keep getting thats TELLING- because it describefld #described** how shes felt her whole life but didnt have words for. how frivolous IS representation if im getting these messages? #not very i dont think if some rsndom indie fic writer who hadnt written anything substantial in years can change someones life #REPEATEDLY might i add. ive been getting a LOT of messages like this lately and seeing this new bramd of discourse latetly too #like maybe YALL have enough that you dont care anymore but speak for your fucking selves

[talloseye]

The roscinna angst in Cinna's worldstate is insane. He takes Roscoe on the mage quest and when he meets her in the future she is in such a blinding, unrecognizably frenzied rage that she nearly chokes the life out of him as soon as she's let out of the cell. She blames him for everything that happened after he went through the portal. He could've moved out of the way quicker. He could've been more prepared for the trap. She fully blames him for destroying the life she could've had (her greatest fear is insignificance). And then she tries to kill him. Iron Bull literally has to pull her off of him so that he doesn't get killed, and afterwards she's screaming her head off at him. She didn't talk to Cinna for the rest of the quest until the very end and only sacrificed herself for her own gain. She fucking hates him and makes it Very very well known. When he goes back to the present and sees her again it's quite uh...poignant...to say the least. He still has bruises around his neck after all

#not to mentionnn that roscoe would look significantly malnourished compared to how she used to #combined with that and the rage she would be fucking terrified #cinna didnt apologize to her immediately in the future bc he felt that it 'wasnt real' and therefore it doesnt matter but...oof #big mistake #he apologized to her after he was choked but by then the damage was done. mentally and physically #ugh #and then he has to go back to the present!!! looking so beat up and looking at roscoe again JUST after he saw her corpse being flung about #i should also add that all of this happened just as they started to develop a bit of a crush on each other #painful man. anyway #txt #cinna #roscoe #roscinna

[grubloved]

id rly love to see an ethnography of mormon womens' folk religion. it might be hard to get, though, because it is like kind of understood youre not really supposed to talk about it like it's real. theres this like doublethink thats essential to the culture. really interesting politics n motions and directions.

#like i think the invented religion is a rly big part of why women r so less likely to leave #even though theyre secondclass citizens; u become so attatched to ur perfect version of the theology #that uve spent years constructing from essentially scraps #that it doesnt matter when 'real' doctrine shit gets weird; you are very nearly in a religion of one #and the stuff you care abt most you invented wholesale or stole and you think you cant leave the 'real' stufd without abandoning #the things you made. it is really interesting #my mother is really really like this. i think shed be infinitelynhappier if she gave it up and just became the hindu she wishes she was #but she cant approach it outside of the lense of scavenging to add to her own judtifications for remaining mormon. #scraps book

[silverselfshippingchaos]

m.axi thoughts. they don't stop, huh?

#okay but theyve never stopped- ive liked this guy since i was a very small ash aksjaksj #he's just so... 😳 yeah #he's so handsome and funny and cute.. and he's so strong! he's a little dumb but i love that about him too! #i've been thinking about them in the 5th game a lot #so much older now and theyve sorta sorted through everything. ash has her guy back. theyre both pretty messed up from #(gestures to the previous games) but theyre together #also you know how his aging slowed down bcs of the cursed sword? yeah ash doesnt have that shit going on #she very much looks like a woman in her 40s- the kids (l.exia x.iba and n.atsu) are all :O when she mumbles that hes actually older #i especially love thinking about them at night. their cuddles are so soft. ash has a scar on her back from a.staroth #and sometimes he just gets lost in the past seeing that scar #he thinks about everything he lost. and ash just holds him #oh but mostly theyre just the cool aunt and uncle in 5- love that for them. they had more than enough angst in the 4th game LMAO #oh okay alright real quick. story time. okay so i have a m.axi keychain on my bag (i'm gonna add my k.ilik and x.ianghua one too!) #(gotta complete the trio! s.c4 may have separated them but im better than that! muahaha!) #and this guy stops me and is like 'o shit is that maxi?' 'oh haha yeah! hes my favorite 🥰' #and the guy just looks at me for a second. then looks all disappointed. 'oh.. oh youre a m.axi main..' #yes??? so sorry if hes annoying to play against- hes so fun! anyways @that random stranger #not only do i play him #i smooch him too 🤭 #(i didnt say that part out loud) #anyways where was i #right. m.axi. what a guy am i right? #oh and dont even get me started on his voice- #we're down bad this afternoon! #i love him so much akdjqksj he really is the funky pirate guy of my dreams #ash rambles 💚 #okay yeah this one was actually a ramble LMAO

[fatedefyd]

   it’s a shame that they made Spider Queen so damn stupid even by cartoon standards, her stupidity and lack of common sense was her ultimate downfall

   guess the writers were scared of making another Big Mama 😔

#☼ ◜ooc.◞ #// yes im watching the SPQ special now that im done watching the pilor special #// *pilot #// even tho its the SPQ special she isnt in it that much?? #// this portion of the plot leading to LBD's endgame feels #// idk #// a little insulting to her character? #// she wants to be queen and was supposedly a ruler for a bit #// but we NEVER get to see anything to back that up? #// idk SPQ just feels like a fill-in baddie the mk crew is supposed to fight #// she doesnt even feel like a fake-out to the REAL bbeg aka LBD working behind the scenes #// maybe once i hit SPQ's chapter in the novel ill add more insight on this

[arolesbianism]

You know I rly rly wish Jackie had more personal logs because god damn do we barely get to see her perspective on like anything. Like... What gets me most abt Jackie is that she clearly on some level still cares abt Olivia. Olivia was a very important person to her. I don't think Jackie is some victim or anything, but I have to imagine it hurt to watch someone that close to you drift away and grow to hate you. I just find it interesting to imagine Jackie as almost petty in her coldness to Olivia. Like, the two have been working closely for years, Jackie Knows that Olivia isn't the purely moral scientist she seems to think she is, and while I do still think Jackie is worse, I also do think she had a point when she did point out Olivia's hypocrisy. So it just makes me think... Did Jackie maybe become more stubborn against Olivia's feedback because of this? I think it'd be interesting if from her point of view, Olivia has been actively manipulative in her hypocrisy. I think it'd be so fun if Olivia wasn't just an annoyance, but the villain of Jackie's story from her point of view? I just like the idea of them both being the villains of each other's stories, it adds more to the doomed toxic yuri I think

#rat rambles #two middle aged divorced women who low key high key want to get back together but also hate eachother still #I am poking jackie with a stick and begging her to monologue more gimme more perspective pleaseeee #I also desperately want more fuel to add to my olivia jackie parallels that I fully made up bucked #this is me wanting jackie to even vaguely accuse olivia of having a superiority complex pls itd make me so powerful #olivia isnt like. a horrible monster in my eyes. to be clear. #shes not a bad person per say just. not as good of one as she'd like to believe #in fact Id say she is very very narrow in her perceptions of right and wrong #as she seems to only consider the ethical implications of a thing if they directly affect agency or the livingness of a thing #and by agency I dont mean it fully I mean just the literal ability for a being to act on its own #again she doesnt seem to mind the dna stealing enough to make a fuss abt it so her agency horror is quite limited #in fact she seems quite eager to put people into all sorts of extitentally horrifying situations girlie do not give the dupes memories #and when she talks abt this shes all like just think about the possibilities for new ai and technologies like girl. #shes all for giving computers the ability to have existential crisis's until shes the computer having one lol #but also. fucking imagine if she made real progress in restoring the hosts memories in the duplicants. #like imagine not only did someone steal your dna but also your fucking Memories #imagine finding out your memories your Mind being planned for commercial use #how is that not just horrifying? wouldnt you be afraid of being replaced? of being exploited in ways you couldn't possibly imagine? #this is why I love olivia so much. shes so fucked up and thinks shes the most normal scientist here at the same time. #also I can't help but see her putting herself in the printing pod ai as almost. a last grasp for control. #god olivia fucking broussard. she should explode (affectionate) #blame juice for this btw I listened to mr.telephone man by tape girl for the first time and there was no going back #oni posting

[dysfunctionalnerd]

man ok. the family visit has been fun but. id like to go home now

#my grandmas sister is very sick and she wants to die but she has a strong heart and her organs are all flawless. #every night i have to hear my mom amd my grandma bicker and fight about how my grandma force feeds her when she doesnt want to eat anymore #like poor grandma feels like shes committing a sin letting her die by not feeding her but. grand aunt doesnt want to eat anymore #its not a fun time tbh #also my aunt is going in for surgery and my fav cousin was being real grumpy when we were having a final family dinner before the surgery #bc they were anxious and afraid i suppose and i understand but like. i cant believe theyre bringing their mom down like that. #eat. be merry. enjoy each others company. celebrate each others presence in the moment. please understand this #but i didnt fight them on it and i wont bring it up bc i dont want to add to their anguish. we all go thru it in our own way and all that #anyways. its always the adventure when i come visit. sorry for the rant i rly needed to #tomorrow im gonna go and support them while their mom is in the hospital resting. hopefully they'll have more peace of mind then #i want nothing but peace and good fortune for the both of them really

[kawaiianimeredhead]

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#i think its probably quite mean #especially since i dont know really anything going on #but i am fucking tired of one of my roommates being home #especially because my other roommate her now ex has a dog who stays in the others bedroom #and the dog absolutely can tell the other is home so she has been barking significantly more than she has been #had* been because she wants attention #which the one roommate knows about and i think in general isnt super up for regularly caring for the dog so shes ignoring her #and its just frustrating #like i get its her home and shes in her bedroom so besides the dog thing what harm is it doing #but it also keeps fucking with Kenzie because she keeps wandering off to go bother the dog #or get a chance to go right into her room the moment she opens it #both because kenzie likes her and because she constantly has food somewhere in the room usually like trash #so kenzie could be eating Anything because shes not wwtching her or thinks its harmless #she also had various medications that we have no real way of knowing isnt dropping onto the floor at points where Kenzie could find #and its just annoying #i have to keep making sure i know where kenzie is because i dont want her getting into anything #i cant keep the door open because 1 nick doesnt like it open and also says its not fair because we ask them to keep theres closed #which is kinda bullshit because one is holding a dog and the other doesnt actually always keep her door close #and 2 i have to keep it closed so if she lets the dog out the dog isnt going into our room and scarfing down kenzies food #and not that im great at vacuuming or do it often but i certainly dont want to now because i hate the noise and dont want to add noise #and i am just tired #the vibes in the house suck and i am so tired of living with people and a dog thats not mine #dont mind me #tag rambles #shes going through shit but it still annoys me

[ddejavvu]

Hi, i hope youre doing well ☺️

Could i request another part to animagus cat reader where reader cuddles with Remus during winter instead of Sirius because its cold and he runs warmer?? Like he'll be in the common room reading in an arm chair while reader catnaps on his lap while being pet and Sirius tells him to stop stealing his gf and James is jealous/whiny that he doesnt get to have cat snuggles.

part 1 / part 2

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Despite the two blankets layered in an inviting nest on Sirius's lap, Remus is the warmest person in the room. The fire crackes on its logs, offering scorching heat, but what you seek is gentle warmth, and you've found it between Remus's sweater and his undershirt. You're splayed over his chest much like a baby would be, your paws stretched out against his shoulders and your head pressed face-first into his chest. His sweater is tight enough that it holds you in place, and you don't have to worry about falling. It means that you're able to fully relax, and Sirius can hear your rampant purring from where he sits on the couch with a sour scowl on his face.

"If you just wore warmer clothes, you wouldn't be pissy right now," Remus muses, not bothering to grace the man with a glance away from his novel, "She only likes me 'cause my sweater is warm."

That's not entirely true. While Remus does tend to dress for comfort, and Sirius for style, Remus runs naturally hotter than your boyfriend. You don't have the heart to tell him that, though, so you mewl in agreement to Remus's statement.

"Sweaters are dumb," Sirius spits, and no one bothers to mention that he has a small collection of them for the snowy days on the grounds, "I look better in leather."

"Your loss," Remus shrugs, and to add insult to injury, reaches up to scratch a spot behind your ears that only makes your purring louder.

"This is bullshit," Sirius finally huffs, breaking his facade of gloomy indifference, "Prongs, get over here."

James, all too eager to help out his friend and soak up affection to boot, has no problem tipping over sideways to lay in Sirius's lap.

But the man lifts James's head out of his lap by his curls, "No, no, no, not James. Prongs."

"You want me to-?" James asks, but doesn't dare finish, because the prospect of transforming right in the common room sends a shiver of mischief down his spine that he'd be a fool to question, "On it."

"Yeah. Yeah, yeah," Sirius nods, sneering haughtily at Remus, "You're not the only one that's good for a cuddle, Moony. Look at this," He gushes, as James begins his transformation, skin giving way to tight, short fur and enormous antlers that nearly grate against the stone walls around you.

"Oh, he's a perfect fit." Remus nods resignedly, content to continue rubbing at your ears rather than chastise his friends for trying to fit a stag on a loveseat, "Yeah, that'll work nicely- ooh, careful Sirius, almost got stabbed there."

Sirius dodges a prong off of James's antlers, taking them in his hands and holding James's head steady as the oversized buck folds his knobbly knees into Sirius's lap. The back two can't make it, but James fits them clumsily onto the cushion, maintaining his balance out of dramatic willpower rather than the laws of physics.

You decide once they settle that they're no longer in need of your attention, so you turn your head back towards Remus and burrow your face back into his warm chest. You feel it shake with mirth beneath you, presumably at an overdramatized reaction from the two boys opposite you, but you can't bring yourself to care; sleep is at the forefront of your brain in this form.

"Yeah, get real cozy!" Sirius insists, calling so that you can hear him through Remus's thick sweater and beneath the weight of his hand on your ears, "Whatever! We're cozy over here, too, 'never been more comfortable- ah! Prongs, watch the hooves!"

#sirius black x reader #sirius black imagine #sirius black scenario #sirius black oneshot #sirius black one-shot #sirius black one shot #sirius black headcanon #sirius black headcanons #sirius black hc #sirius black hcs #sirius black fanfiction #sirius black fanfic #sirius black fic #sirius black blurb #sirius black drabble #sirius black dialogue #sirius black fluff #sirius black x reader fanfiction

[theonlyadawong]

crying sobbing throwing up... I'm listening to nick apostolides talk abt a.da and l.eons confrontation scene in 2 and the director told him to say, "tell me you love me" after every line in order to evoke the right emotions from the actors

#speakerphone! #thats also really good direction. AMAZING direction #and then ofc when they ran the scene he didnt say it but... whew #'tell me you love me' #good GOD #my knees are shaking #throwing up for real #i have many... complicated thought about a.eon... too many to list right now... but jesus christ #that does add a lot to their relationship #and i have to say so many people have this fantasy that the nice innocent good and pure white boy saved ada from a life of pure evil #and hes the reason her morals change #which is fucking weird (also mmmmmm it feels a bit misogynistic and also toes the line of being weirdly racist as well) #especially considering that she has a bigger impact on his life tbh #she doesnt bend over backwards for him the way he does for her #if shes helping him its because she wants something #very rarely is it just for him #which is fine! she literally doesnt need to be up his ass! #but yeah people always want to talk abt this fantasy where a.da is turning good JUST for l.eon and thats... not happening #she does good because she wants to. on her own terms. #she also saw the horrors of RC and they also affected her im sure. so acting like l.eon is the sole reason she does anything good irks me #anyways. not sure these tags have anything to do w the post but #who knows i might make a normal post abt this instead of rambling in the tags lol #ada posting #<mostly in the tags

[halfway-house-in-hell]

vaggie valtiel redesign!!

(two alternate versions of her angelic weapon)

+ramblings under cut

-valtiel is a fallen angel who fell from heaven around the 1950s. she was heaven-born and enlisted in the angelic "army" (the one that mainly focuses in killing demons) and was an active member she failed to kill a demon she had been assigned, resulting in the death of an angel, and she was kicked out and stripped of her angelic status(including wings and also eye i guess) (i dont really have too specific of a reason why she was kicked out might change it later but all that matters is she was forcibly exiled to hell).

-she managed to sneak an angelic weapon with her to hell before she was exiled (maybw there was a trial which gave her time to prepare?? im still figuring this shit out)

-initially she was extremely distrustful of the demons, and lied about being a sinner sent to hell as she did not want to attract attention to herself (being a fallen angel in hell will guarantee you a reputation) but she began to open up when she met charlie.

-she is very closed off and a very stubborn person. after falling from heaven she took an oath to become a pacifist, something she will inevitably have to break.

-her loyalty lies first and foremost in the hotel. despite being rejected by heaven she still believes that it is a better fate and that charlie's plan is ultimately helpful

-charlie is the only person she can really open up to. they just click. when they met valtiel was hostile towards charlie, but her optimism made valtiel realise that demons weren't inherently evil and gave her hope for the future

-charlie does not know valtiel is a fallen angel

-valtiel does not plan to tell her

-charlie finds out anyways

-it starts with valtiels spear that she is forced to use to protect charlie (maybe its like,, demons often try and kidnap or harm charlie as they wish to threaten lucifer/lilith and she is an easy target)

-"hey where did you get that angelic weapon v"

-"dont worry abt it kitten"

-"ok❤️ yay❤️ wanna cover it over so it doesnt draw attention to you"

-i dont know exactly how charlie finds out valtiel is a fallen angel but i will have it soon

-if im pretending this is an animated show jtst like the real version then comedy would come from how edgy valtiel is all of the time deviantart oc ass girl (affectionate)

-her design went through the most changes since i drew it up originally she had white shorts and no red ribbons (i had to add the red from her canon design back in bc the purple was too much. v*vsiepop redesign improved by adding the red back in ..... truly shocking)

- i really hope this is all readable

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[zeldasnotes]

FRIENDSHIP NOTES 👩🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👩🏽

• 12th house synastry is hard in the beginning because there is this sense of the other person not being honest with you. But once you learn to trust it can be super beautiful because you know eachother in a deep way. You know which topics to avoid and when to be quiet etc.

• People with Moon in the 11th house in their natal chart attract friends super easily. You send them to the store to buy some milk and they become friends with the cashier kinda energy.😭

• Cancer, Leo and Scorpio Moons are super protective over their friends.

• Virgo and Aries friendships have the habit of being a real villain duo. Virgos critical nature and ruthless mouth mixed with Aries straightforwardness and no filterhavingassmouth is just a match made in hell😭

• Lilith in synastry can indicate that the two of you become very bitchy together. You might gossip a lot about other people when you are with this person. Ive noticed this especially with Moon or Mercury conjunct Lilith in synastry.

• Sun in the 1st house in synastry is a ”friends at first sight” placement.

• If your friend got both Libra and Scorpio influence in their chart and they forgive you a little too quickly for something really bad you did, be careful, because these signs are the ”keep your friends close and your enemies closer” sign. Libras dont like being on bad terms with people and Scorpios dont forget easily, so this match can make them hang out with someone they dont like.

• Pluto in the 11th house adds very intense friendships and might fight a lot with their friends. Or there could just be a lot of toxic energy in the friends group. I know someone with this placement and she seriously tattoed her bfs initials…

• 11th house ruler in the 1st house attracts friends who can benefit their life a lot. These people can care a little too much about how their friends make them look tho. The kind of person who might want a friend who makes them look good. Or might be the kind of person who doesnt like to hang out with people that overshines them.

•Nessus is where we abuse and where we are abused. Nessus in the 11th house can be abusive towards friends or attract friends who are abusive towards them.

•Lilith in the 11th house might be part of a disliked friendsgroup. They might have a hard time befriending someone whos kind because they find toxic people funnier to hang with.

• Lilith in the 11th is that friend you will never forget. People they used to be friends with never forgets them and see them as the only one they could take about anything to without being judged.

•Venus/Moon conjunct Chiron might be constantly betrayed by people with feminine energy. Dont trust too fast if you have this placement.

• Moon conjunct Chiron in synastry is the ”best friends at first sight” placement. Because you bond instantly and have a lot in common. But it usually ends with the two of you becoming enemies.

•Asteroid Amiticia (367) is latin for friendship so check what sign you got yours in, you might have a lot of friends with that sign as their Sun or Moon sign.

• 7th & 8th house synastry is the kind of friendship where you havent seen eachother for 6 months but when you finally meet up its like you saw eachother yesterday.

• People with a plutonian Venus might have a hard time being friends with people of the same sex because people constantly compare themselves to you and women want to compete with you. Might have been bullied by women.

• Moon 8th house in synastry can make the two of you draw out something very sick in eachother. There is no boundaries between the two of you. I had this with a friend and we cant let go of eachother but we both agreed not to hang out because we always did bad stuff together. Our teachers in High School told our parents we have a bad influence on eachother. We shared our darkest thoughts with eachother.

• Their Ascendant in your 8th house or vice versa can be a real enemies to friends overlay. You might dislike eachother at first because for some reason you got a bad impression of the other or heard a rumor about them, but then you start to notice how much you have in common when you finally let the guard down and talk to eachother.

• Capricorn Venus wants to be friends with the right people. Atleast until they reach their 20s thats when they start caring less about image. They wont butt heads with someone who got a good reputation. (Other placements can change this ofc). This placement is the one most likely to diss you if you have a bad reputation. They might like you deep down, but wont want to be seen with you.

• 8th house placements in the natal chart might have a hard time finding that one super BFF because they have a hard time letting their guard down. Nobody will ever know them completely. During a whole life time they will meet only like 3 people who know them inside out.

• A friend with planets in your 1st house respects you and are more likely to defend you behind your back. Same thing with someone you got Juno synastry with.

©️ 2023 Zeldas Notes

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[yesimwriting]

Would bestie reader just say that she and felix are soulmates?

For example: her and farleigh are talking about the future and what they want to do and she just says "i would probably work and move somewhere sunny because felix doesnt really like the rain". " You want to live with felix?" " OFC, hes my soumate"

Felix: 🥺

yes yes yes! omg they so would pull the platonic soulmate card

You don't know who decided to label group study sessions as 'productive', but you're convinced they've never actually been to one. As a concept, they're the perfect way to balance social needs and academic responsibilities. It's a way to focus on your school work without isolating yourself completely.

In practice, group study sessions are an academic-hang-out purgatory.

"Y'know how you asked to not be interrupted until you finished your organic bio reading, unless there was an emergency?" Farleigh's voice has now yanked you out of the world of protein and enzyme molecules.

You sigh. If this is him giving into his inability to not snark at you, you might have to pick up your text book and hit him over the head with it. "Is there an emergency?"

The dryness of your response does little to dissuade him. You lift your head slightly. The reading break that's being forced onto you is an opportunity to get ready to copy some bullet points into your notebook. You reach for your highlighter, but before your fingers can grasp it, Farleigh's pulling it out of reach.

You straighten, back pressing into the wooden back of the library's chair. He ignores your glare, thumb pushing the neon pink cap upwards before snapping it back into place.

"I'd be careful, Farleigh." Felix's chair shifts with a soft groan, all four of the chair's legs fully settling on the ground as he sits up and flattens his feet. "That's not one of her nice looks."

"You'd know."

You frown, some half thought out sarcastic retort balancing on the edge of your tongue. Felix beats you to the punch. "You'd know if you had any real friendships."

Farleigh presses down on your highlighter's cap, a quiet click interrupting his silence as it clicks into place. "Friendship. Is that what we're calling it?"

There's a knowingness to the comment that has a hint of warmth attempting to tinge your cheeks. You're used to the jokes and little comments about you and Felix, especially from Farleigh, but his tone hints at a sharpness you're not in the mood for. Sometimes he feels like pushing, turning his jokes and comments into something more. You've been in the library for some time now, you're sure the stillness is making him restless in a way that will only add to that.

"Is this the emergency you interrupted my reading for?"

He shakes his head once, forearm moving to rest against the table in front of you. "Theoretically," he starts, the single word drawn out in a way that has you rolling your eyes, "If Madison was seen leaving a party with Abigail's ex-boyfriend, would that count as an emergency?"

No way. Your jaw drops. Madison and Abigail, roommates that seem perpetually trapped in the outer orbit of Felix's friend group, started the year as total best friends. Then, one day, for reasons that no one you know has been able to figure out, everything turned into a sort of unspoken competition between them. It's such an odd dynamic, you and Farleigh have to talk about it every time there's an update.

"What?" You set your arms over your textbook, leaning forward to better listen. "Why didn't you say anything?"

"You wanted to read organic bio."

Farleigh knows exactly what he's doing. He sat on this piece of information and only dropped it when it became convenient to have something worth saying. "You knew before I said that." You turn in your seat to look over at Felix. "Did you know?"

"I spent the entire night with you," he says, "I know what you know."

Yeah, you and Felix were particularly invested in your own world the last time you went out together. The two of you spent most of the night trying drink combinations you'd normally never get, Felix laughing as your negative reactions grew more theatrical as the night went on. "Well, you're not very invested."

It's not an accusation. You know Felix well enough to know that he's rarely particularly interested in most gossip. A part of it might come from the fact that everyone goes out of their way to present themselves in certain ways when around Felix. Rumors about palpable passive aggression seem a lot less real when the people the rumors are about are constantly trying to gloss over any imperfections in his presence.

"You two are too invested." He turns his head to look at you, a small smile playing at his lips. "You only get along when you're gossiping."

You straighten, lifting an arm off of the table to poke Felix's arm. "We all need hobbies." You then turn your head forward to look at Farleigh, "Okay, tell me everything and do it in less than 5 minutes, or I'm not going to go back to studying."

Farleigh's eyes briefly drop towards the textbook in front of you. "You worry too much." The way he says it feels less concerned and more like an observation of something he finds grating. "We all know you're going to end up at John Hopkins." It lacks any type of inflection. It feels like fact. An inevitability.

Graduate school is currently a foreign, distant concept, and you'd like to keep it that way. You're not sure why, but picturing your future education isn't as easy as you had hoped it would be. It's as if there's some kind of mental wall blocking your ability to connect with the next step in becoming a doctor, when all your classes will revolve around the subjects you don't love and you'll have to dissect and watch more surgeries than ever.

You tap our fingers against the wooden surface in front of you. You're not sure what the right kind of response to this type of thing is. "Uh--realistically, John Hopkins is far from everyone I know, and I don't think Felix would like Maryland, so..."

Farleigh raises an eyebrow as he finally sets down your highlighter. "You're factoring in Felix?" The question is still registering as Farleigh gestures in Felix's direction. "You want to live with him?"

"Yeah." While a lot of your future is blurry in your mind, Felix is clear, certain. "Yeah, he's my soulmate."

Farleigh's eyes widen slightly at the candidness of your admission. It didn't feel that heavy when you said it. There are a lot of ways for someone to be your soulmate.

"You want to--to live together after this?" You turn your neck to look over at Felix. He's already facing you, but his eyes are focused on his lap. "Like with me?"

"Yeah..." You admit again as you pull your hands towards you. Maybe you shouldn't have said anything without thinking. "Do you not want to live with me?"

"No, I do," he forces out the words quickly, his gaze briefly falling towards you. "I didn't realize you were--" He clears his throat, forcing himself to straighten. "Soulmate." Felix's hand reaches for the underside of your chair, pulling you towards him with no warning. "I'm your soulmate."

You're never speaking without thinking again. "There are a lot of ways to be someone's soulmate, so don't start."

His fingers move up the edge of the chair before finding your knee. He's beaming. "'M not starting anything."

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