#shit i am a burden

[beybuniki]

in hindsight, i rlly like that some of their inevitable conversations aree left covert i love to fill the gaps myself i love to think about their awkwardness :)

#i am plagued by visions i need them to talk some things out at a playground they shoo some kids off and it gets dark by the time they #break the ice #some things cant be said while its bright outside and you can see the shame!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #they talk about all might and deku's burden and bakugo getting stabbed for him i find it so crazy and funny that they dont ever mention tha #boys rlly dont talk about shit #bnha #deku #midoriya izuku #bakugo katsuki

[stiwfssr]

#hank anderson #played by #clancy brown #in #detroit: become human #detroit become human #dbh #video games #my gifs #540px #10mb #This is from the gallery #you unlock shit with points #Hank is in his DPD sweatshirt #which I see in a lot of fanart #In regards to the game though #You don't ever want to see Hank in that sweatshirt #I don't even want to “fix” him #I am beyond that #I just want to look at him and enjoy his presence #for as long as I can #He can do whatever he wants #Humanity is a terrible burden

[stuckinapril]

I’m finally biting the bullet and contacting a therapist today after being ambivalent ab it for so long… this hellsite has its many disadvantages but one thing I can say is it has truly helped me be less scared of pursuing therapy. Silver lining etc etc

#And to be clear I have nothing against therapy. I’ve seen it do wonders for other people #I think the reason it’s a point of defeat (just a little) for me to be like ok. I need a therapist. Is bc I’m admitting to myself that I #need one to begin w. And I get it’s not healthy but I always liked to think I could handle anything by myself #That was even the whole point of this blog. It was supposed to serve as a conduit for these feelings #And I’m not saying I don’t have a support system. I do. I have many wonderful friends #But I struggle to be vulnerable at all tbh and whenever I am I’m guilty ab it bc #I understand so many people have busy lives & I feel like an emotional burden on them by venting #Despite them telling me that it’s totally fine. Obvi a therapist is literally paid to listen so no guilt there #And I think that’s what I need #I’m not like on the brink of a psychotic break or anything but it’s just little things. I think it’d be nice to sit in someone’s office for #One hour a week and just go. That did bother me actually. I am tired actually. I do feel that way actually. #Rather than just burying my feelings w school and a busy schedule #I don’t think therapy will make me any less of a workaholic anytime soon but it’ll at least allow me to slow down one hour a week #And also not bottle shit up so fuckin much #But ya all of this is to say I’m drafting the email to her RIGHT now . #Starting the day off strong by oversharing on tumblr dot com

[bigbeakbirdenjoyer]

rule

#destiny #destiny 2 #destiny the game #196 #r/196 #r196 #izanagis burden #the other half #my cat is going to eager edge me #while i shit #help me i am going to go feral

[liesmultixxx]

i’m so sad right now

hanging out with my friends always makes me aware of how much of a loser i am

nobody flirts with me, nobody wants to sleep with me or date me

no one will ever love me

not even my friends

they’re only nice to me when it’s convenient to them

#tw vent #tw selfhate #vent #i just need to rant #feeling unloved #feeling like shit #feeling like a burden #i am a loser #i am alone #depressing shit #sorry for being depressing #no one likes me #no one cares #mentally tired #mentally unstable #i want to end it all #i hate myself #fuck this

[wolflyndraws]

i keep feeling like venting so much recently but i keep thinking that my freinds would think its their fault or theyre making it worse but litearlly i feel this way cause of me just me being stupid and fucking crazy and being my own biggest fuckign bully and hater

plus i really want to stop burdening everyone here and on twitter and my friends and moots or whatever with my stupid fucking vents i feel like such an annoying bitch of a burden and this feelings been going on like so consistently everyday for the past month self deprication jokes and talk is litearlly so unfunny im just being annoying and stupid

i thought i was getting better yesterday before i slept but that fuckign feeling is back again as soon as i fucking wake up

god this is so cringe and such a new fucking low for me imagine people saying that they love you and everything you make but being so stupid and fucked enough to litearlly be your own hater and convincing yourself to not believe any of it and let it affect everything in your life I'm never good enough for myself and never will be however hard i try

imagine not knowing the worth of your art like a crazy person

#vent #vent again sorry its been eating me alive for the whole month and i feel like im the most #unlovable most annoying stupid bitch in the whole world and im activly making it so that people dont have fun talking to me or just #find me annoying but talking to me out of pity but they just find me fucking annoying and taxing and a burden to talk to #maybe im better off just fucking kms or just staying alone for the rest of my life cause im just a fuckign burden cause i cant get through #any fucking conversation without feeling like shit because of myself #im so annoying god why am i litearlly such a fucking burden will delete later cause what the fuck even is this

[theflyingfeeling]

tomorrow-me: I'd really appreciate it if you could drag your arse to the grocery store so that I won't have to get up early tomorrow morning to do it you know?

now-me, wrapped in a blanket with tears in my eyes: but I'm just a baby?? 😭

#listen i am so so so so so so so so tired 💀 #my landlord's coming for a visit at 11 tomorrow and i have nothing to offer him #but i'm too tired to think about what to buy for the weekend (for myself) #grocery shopping was a burden as it was but then they shut down my nearest store (200 m from my apartment) #and now the nearest one is just far enough so that i don't wanna go there just for a pack of coffee and biscuits #i'm so tired i just had to check how to fucking spell 'biscuits' 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #feeling slightly better now that i rested my eyes a little and drank a glass of water and ate a clementine #but i don't wanna goooooooo it's cold and dark and i don't know what i want to eat during the weekend 😭😭😭😭😭 #it's times like these i hate living alone / being single because i can't just ask someone to go to the grocery store for me #i should also clean up my kitchen and bathroom a bit #i know i'm so brave for doing shit like this all by myself but sometimes i really hope i wouldn't have to #sorry for whining about my little life on main lol pls ignore #i need no advice (but sympathy would be nice. an encouraging headpat even)

[hecksupremechips]

Minor thing that really irks me is when people treat the femc route in p3 portable as like the lesser story or like it’s a fanfic where nothing that happens in it is the “true” canon like. Bitch. The femc and everything that happens in her version of the story is just as canon as the male protagonist and everything that happens in his story. And there’s literally been so many fucking versions of p3 at this point like the base game, fes, portable, the movies, stage plays, reload, as well as spinoffs and manga and they all do things differently. I don’t see anyone acting like the base game is more canon than, say, reload so why do they do this with portable? Why can’t the (infinitely superior) version with the female protagonist just be respected for five fucking minutes goddamn

#persona #persona 3 #kotone shiomi #its the misogyny yay #but god i am so tired of her game being treated as not actually canon like it literally is #theres multiple canons dipshit there is no true version of this game #and also people saying she doesnt fit the theme or some shit like. she literally does??? and honestly she does it better #like you can really feel the love she brings to the group and how she gives everything life and helps everyone #but also just how it all comes with pain she smiles and befriends everyone but shes always been so deeply alone and she doesnt want anyone #to feel the pain shes felt and so she carries all those burdens on her own and when everyone goes to reach out for her #its too late far too late shed sacrifice herself over and over for these people and theyll never once see her cry #she also you know. actually has good social links and gets to know everyone not just people she wants fuck #so you get to see just infinitely better versions of every character with her she really does bring out the best in them #and another thing in particular with the disrespect of her story is the way shinji living is treated again just like #some kinda fanfic au by someone who didnt wanna cope with their blorbo dying like ughh #shinji surviving is just as canon as him dying there is an entire canon where he gets a happy ending and it is once again #much better than versions where he dies like ive. exhausted myself with explaining it but its just better #so yeah basically out of spite i like acting like kotones story is actually the one true canon #and when people mention stuff that isnt in her story im like ‘huh? what? that didnt happen’ #cuz whos gonna stop me

[cordeliawhohung]

oooo, core oversharing again? more likely than you think!

i haven't been able to focus much these last few days and at first i couldn't figure out why. i sit down to write and i get nothing done. i try and watch a show but i couldn't even tell you what it's about. but i forgot that my grief remembers things better than i do. i can't remember the date it happened but my body does. i listen to music and all i hear are the radios. i pretend to like the holidays but really i'm lying. the lights are nice, at least, but i wish you'd stop haunting me already.

#core talks #personal #will probably delete later #but i'm trying to get better about not being ashamed of my pain #who am i kidding shame is all i feel #it's supposed to be my burden but maybe some day i can turn it into something pretty #you always liked my paintings even though they were shit #i haven't gotten any better but you wouldn't know that anyway #i still have that dream #i wish i hadn't been there but i know damn well i'd be kicking myself if i wasn't there #someone had to be there anyway

[thevirgincherry]

how many suicide attempts will it take for my parents to acknowledge mental illness umm I think i would rather die than tell them ab this uni thing when it comes to it it might . literally be the last straw

#tw suicide mention #tw suicide #🏩.diary #today they were talking ab how autism is caused by vaccines and that autistic kids need to be beat to fix it lol #likeeee the beating didn’t fix me so #i can’t how am I simultaneously such a burden to them but like I also hate them for shit like this

[penmanship-of-the-keys]

local man goes insane about lines he's written again, part 392948383 of 2020401031847484738392939

#ray's tag #AUUUUUUU #you are a burden i am willing to bear. You are a burden I am willing to bear. Fucking. How the fuck did I manage this one. Holy shit.

[amethiosspouse]

Realised in class today I swear I'm not on my phone illegally

Not only did Mari get Rayquaza Zinnia'd-

They got fuckin FIREFLY'D TOO

STOP NOOOOOOOOO

they got danhenge'd as well...and yuri'd....

at the very least they didnt die from stairs 😭😭

amethio as the trailblazer and mari as firefly in that one scene though....bro lost his spouse AND the pokemon he's meant to catch. truly the guyfailure of the century

#moots #asks #the other ending for the two is that amethio leaves the explorers and leaves mari behind as well after deeming them as a burden #which leads to mari being a replacement amethio #and then they meet again but mari has been exhausted to the point where not even amethio recognises them #ame kills them only to find out that HOLY SHIT THATS MY SPOUSE THAT I LEFT BEHIND OMG !!! #(there's ONE ending that theyre happy)

[fireheartwraith]

I feel like my parents are fighting downstairs again

#qsmp #4halo #we need a duo name but i'm bad at coming up with shit #qsmp spoilers #i am burdened with knowledge #(watches both streams) #q!forever #q!badboyhalo

[parasitic-saint]

wasting a whole week by sleeping is making me want to cry

#the parasite talks #i'm still able to do my work in a hurry but my godddddddd #this is getting so sad #i know my friends love me but i feel like such a burden and such a bore when im always like this #please i just need my 30°C spring and horrible solar rays #i still cant wake up before 12pm on those days but i am awake more at night at least #rn i will have to force staying awake #maybe energy drinks might help idk anymore #coffee doesnt really help but maybe the caffeine in those might jumpstart me #i just need to get my horrible life in order again and stop thinking how easier it will be to just kill myself #i know spring might not fix me but at least it will be a big help not having these cold temperatures (which arent really cold anyways) #but i hate anything below 25°C #i feel like that scen where will graham is crying and shaking before hving the seizure that's me but i dont have a seizure and i dont... #...look pretty im just depressed #and i am the only one who has to take my sorry ass out of this #and i know the big amount of priviledge i have to just be depressed and sleeping for a whole week in my bed without a worry and just feelin #miserable for myself and i wont be a danger to myself do it's just a spoiled brat's shit

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#reminder for my brain and also chanting it so it sticks #i don't want to die #i enjoy things in life #i have hobbies and things i like and it's ok not to be 100% into the 100% of the time #the mood will pass. i'm about to get my period. i know this and i know this is the reason i feel like shit #i'm not hopeless and i do care about things and people #people also care about me #my decisions are mine alone and i don't need permission to do whatever i want #i am not a burden on people #i will feel better next week when my period starts and the brain fog lifts #it is not the end of the world and i still have time to do things i don't need to force myself #there will be other oportunities and they'll come when i can take them #goddamnit just function like a normal human being for the love of god #IT'S NOT THAT FUCKING DEEP #ok i'm done #angel talks #personal