#should I just keep my mouth shut??

[moonshynecybin]

Hi! I have been thinking about Marc and the ways he expresses his anger... giving the cold shoulder... the silent treatment if you will (he will speak ABOUT vale but not TO vale let alone WITH vale)... need your input please....

hmm good question.... this got. STUPID long sorry

uhhh marc is, in general, good at keeping his (negative) emotions in check. like i think marc loooooves to think of himself on track as a mature, controlled, and rational dude. above distraction. a killer. a cyborg. idk his dad has talked about how he doesnt really complain much about injury and there's also allll these stories about what a mature kid he was... so i think that when he was young - ESPECIALLY in a racing sense because he was so much younger than most of the people he was competing against - he internalized that in order to do all the stuff he wants to do racing-wise, he reallyyyy has to keep a level head and not well. act his age! and i think that extends to a lot of how he manages his emotions today (at least in a public setting). even in places where im pretty sure hes PISSED (sepang. phillip island 2013.) he just kind of. visibly contains himself. not a confrontational dude in the outright sense he'll clench his jaw and try to work through it.

which is part of what makes his valentino-oriented crazy so interesting. bc people were noticing that marc in 2015 was kind of. being weird. as his and valentino's relationship deteriorated. like they were both outwardly very much like we can keep it on track :) until the big fallout towards the end of the year but uhhhh. well marc has said that vale started pulling back in september of 2014 like he was noticing SOMETHING, and they clashed on track A LOT in 2015, and i think marc sensed vale cooling on him and freaked a lil. hashtag neurotic 22 year old moments. he is my favorite crazy ex girlfriend. like usually he IS good at separating that stuff out and managing his emotions in the racing sense but in assen that year when vale overtook him off track after they made contact he raised a BIG stink with race direction and actually had some uh. not especially chill quotes about it. (it should be noted marc was also flopping for the first time in his motogp career. like in his brain he stopped winning AND vale stopped talking to him he was goin through it) adn all the reporters noticed too they were like. why werent you sucking and fucking in parc ferme. like vale's left turn wrt to spaniard sabotage comes outta nowhere but people WERE noticing that things were changing. i bet marc noticed too. BUT they are not the type of people to talk about these things so they keep it to vague flirting in presscons and escalating on-track tension slash proxy wars waged in race-direction contexts... liek truly you are 22 you are not going to keep your championship title and your hot sports idol bestie is no longer flirting with you on twitter and you COULD just talk to him about that but you'd rather DIE so youre going to ask honda to back you up to race direction about your last race where you DEFINITELY lost bc winning is the ONLY thing thatll make you feel better. even though thatll help convince your hot sports idol that you are engaging in a benedict arnold level betrayal scheme against him. an insane time to be marc marquez. 2015 really kind of is a study on how both of them handle losing: NOT WELL.

and then the thing about sepang is that then the lid is blown clean off and marc spends the ENTIRE race being annoying on purposeeeee. hes so fucking pissed and hurt at valentino that he decides to get under his skin for REALSIES instead of focusing on his race. like idk he probably would have fought hard for the win without the drama that how he works but uh. i think he was being annoying specifically to bite at vale's edges. and part of that is bc marc is naturally and effortlessly annoying. but i think part of it was SPITE. like his team advised him not to speak on anything from that presscon and he didnt, but he can still fuck him over on track. get under his skin. like he cant tell vale to his FACE that he's angry and confused and hurt. but he CAN let him know on that fucking racing line. where he cant be ignored. idk like i cant see marc letting anyone else get under his skin like that.

AND another big ass exception to the marc marquez anger management philosophy is from misano 2019 where vale messes with his qualifying lap. a lovely anon sent me some videos of marc talking to the press and jesus christ i dont think ive ever seen him angrier oh my god. AND the anon also linked the race from that weekend where he won and he celebrated harder than ive seen him celebrate some TITLE wins like he went. notably nuts. the commentators were all like uhhhh. he mustve REALLY wanted to get one over on vale adjfhlkdh... idk if any of this answered your question but his relationship to his emotions fascinates me hes so weirddddd. and its interesting to me that he can shrug off jorge ruining his last race at honda and be friendly but also be like. kind of aloofly pissed at bezz. because of valentino! he can repress the rest of it, but valentino shines through the cracks.

#its interesting bc theres also this tension with him where he keeps all of this tightly controlled and then he also REALLY wants you to know #about it. like in his docuseries hes like okay i know we have to talk about valentino :/ which is CRAZY bc he is producing that series #and its about his comback from injury. he could have EASILY left it out but he wanted to set the record straight #and also pull the punch/make it seem like hes no longer invested by saying he doesnt wanna talk about it #idk i think he was smart to keep his mouth shut in sepang 2015 but it CLEARLY cost him #like i think his own reservedness confines him sometimes and he chafes. and it bubbles out. like marc dont you just wanna go apeshit. #anyways this isnt even my entire marc and anger thesis like i need to go back to grad school lmao #callie speaks #motogp #asks #marc marquez #rosquez #tbh. i should just write some fic. hmm. #long post

[foolishnpd]

24/7 fighting the urge to not make everything about me

#lilyroaring #actually npd #actually narcissistic #narcissistic personality disorder #cluster b things #like no girl #not everything is about you #things can be entirely unrelated #and you can keep your mouth shut and not assume it's all you #it helps nobody to make such assumptions #please dear god just take every ounce of care you have an direct it where it should be #it's not. about. you. #not every vague statement that can be about anything is an attack on you that you need to address #i'm so glad i've long learned how to keep my mouth shut #just. ugh. i need to learn to care a little more #instead of getting sulky about my own assumptions #but then again...would i care at all if something wasn't about me #probably not much-

[vinilsoup]

I'm so mad at my neighbors, like this lady is a neuropsyhologist, and I mentioned getting treatment by the public healthcare (and private) and being denied multiple times bc I either was "too normal" or had to go to a psych ward according to them. Her husband asked what my diagnosis was, I didn't want to say bc I had just met them, but got embarassed said the truth, I believe I have autism and have been diagnosed multiple times with bpd.

She procceded to undiagnose me, talking like I had nothing wrong with me, specially not autism since all adults she worked with who thought they had autism didn't, bc autistic people "don't have the same perception of themselves like us so a true autistic doesn't notice it" which is outdated bullshit. I ain't even need to go to doctors anymore for them to get one look at me and tell me I'm normal I just want attention.

#that was extremely unprofessional of her like I am already going throught a diagnosis process with a capacitated professional #she should have just kept her damn mouth shut #they announe happilly they are both ADD but I soon I tell what I think I am its like I said I think I am a unicorn #actually autistic #autism #actually bpd #bpd #doctors are so stupid when it comes to autism no one even bothers to keep themselves up to date #i remember a doctor who said borderline people were schizophrenic which is something that used to be true in the 70s #so he said I was bipolar and my problem was that I needed to have more sex.

[yelenapines]

watched tbosas today. needless to say i am obsessed with the red uniform skirt and they should have been wearing those the whole movie. thank you.

#tbosas #much more to say about this movie but thats it for now #actually no lets TALK #they literally changed how the games end which is fine but like how is no one noticing #also um clemensia dropped in got bit and thats it?? bye bye? have fun? #also this annoying bitch in my grade said she hates sejanus in the movie but loves him in the book um please get his name out of your mouth #if you're gonna be speaking filth about my son #ugh #anyways um rachel ate #love how the movie can tell the whole story tho i *am* conflicted about my feelings on how fast paced it was #and then again not seeing his inner monologue is a problem but like it's a movie so idk #also ofc the vibe is different between parts 1 and 2 and part 3 idk why people dont like it i think its cool and like thats the point to se #his evolution #sejanus' death was horrible like i'm sorry the mockingjays reproducing his last cries for help are just. #anyhoo #i will not shut up ok let's keep going #ik that like ppl are simping for tom blyth and as u should tbh same but you COULD NOT CHANGE HIM OR FIX HIM IK ITS A JOKE BUT IT BOTHERS ME #SO MUCH #like ik it's being silly and goofy but it just rubs me the wrong way cause like its not true #also Tigris and Snow's story is so fucking sad kms #also TF WAS THAT MOMENT IN THE ARENA WHERE SEJANUS ALMOST KISSED CORYO WE ALL SAW IT OK #sejanus is not straight at all lmao he spent the whole movie batting eyelashes at coryo but ALSO i love the angst of the marcus x sejanus i #idea i made up #also coriolanus is so fucking goofy like bitch pls “mY oLd SeLf. I kIlLeD hIm To Be WiTh YoU” bestie sit down #ok rant over #yelenaposts #sejanus plinth

[m00ngbin]

It’s incredible, every time I think I can’t feel worse, I suddenly do

#i should keep my mouth shut #god I just started feeling a little better if I start thinking about it now I’ll go right back to where I was #it’s so weird that if I’m at my (current) absolute lowest I can’t cry #i just have to sit and stew in it #THAT is why people off themselves #or at least why I’ll end up killing myself #partially #partially why #i can’t make myself feel better #there is literally no way I can think of #it’s been like this all day

[selkiecoded]

okay thats interesting! in the SF try-outs during the song "legally blonde" she sings about how she cant be legally blonde, while in the official version AND THE DEMO she sings about letting her be legally blonde. which means that at some point they changed the lyrics around, and then changed them back! laurence o'keefe.... nell benjamin.... what occurs in your twisted minds

#covers mouth sorry so sorry guys #im a huge fan of beacon of positivity + good boy (elle puts a leash on emmett confirmed) + love and war (not in the demo but part of SF) #+ i liked some of the lyrics in the demo version of so much better (it called back to beacon of positivity!!! (i am insane)) such as: #I dream of your name next to my own but mine's looking fine up there alone #but i greatly prefer all the official songs we got. well. maybe good boy over ireland wouldve been fun (i think ireland is boring) #but itd play into the 'all men are dogs hurr hurr' joke that im glad they avoided. anyways. what was i saying. #right i havent listened to every version of everything yet (for example theres a SF version of chip on my shoulder i need to watch) #(and just the SF vers in general. shes hidden from me... why was emmett there before the remix... let me see their conversation) #but from what i have heard they made a lot of changes that were sorely needed. in take it like a man demo shes so much meaner?? #it made me sad. it wasnt a duet + they wrung out the romantic tension (no subtext by calvin klein... sigh) + shes meaner!!!! #in the bway vers hes baffled but enjoys going along w it + she genuinely likes him even when hes wearing his regular clothes #but in the demo vers she keeps calling him stuff like ugly duckling and talking about how the geek is gone :( but she likes that geek.. #the lines 'how much do you think i earn??' and 'kindly shut up :)' are funny but speak to a dynamic between the two that makes me sad... #follow me for more beautiful opinions on a fifteen year old musical #(heaves. do you know weird it is to see comments from 15yrs ago when this was actually showing. my brother is fifteen.) #god im so sorry i should be put down like a dog #lgb bootleggers are intense. i swear they got a bootleg every night or smth bc we got her shoe flying off + SF + kyle as understudy etc #go watch a so much better compilation sometime how did they take so many bootlegs?? how did you find them?? #and its awesome cause these were filmed on 2007/2008 tech which means they have 15 pixels maximum #SORRRRYYYYYYYYYY

[merrymorningofmay]

tbh the thing that fascinates me the most about the recent calls to boycott is when boycotting disney is being promoted in terms of "don't watch it, and if you can't Not watch it then pirate it"

#like you guys do understand that if you watch it for free and then go and post/make art about it you're still endorsing it right? #that unless you never ever mention it online after pirating it it's not boycotting? #are you gonna watch the new childhood nostalgia show and keep your mouth shut about it? are you? #like i'm all for boycotts. even if i don't suppose that y'all are boycotting corporations for doing business in russia as you should have #i'm trying my best not to be a bitter bitch about it! i really am! #but that's just comically unserious #mari rambles

[feral-radfem]

I'm not going to be tone policed on how I talk about any subject whether it personally affects any of you or not. I am certainly not going to be persuaded to speak more kindly to my oppressors and/or direct political opponents because they are personally affected by the issue I'm talking about.

Some of y'all are letting the female socialization that demands we be kind and considerate at the expense of ourselves (& our social movements) push you right into sugar coating important topics and out of being an effective communicator.

#cutting off any healthy tissue for an aesthetic or mental anguish is mutilation #I'm sorry if that hurts some of y'all's feelings but it's the truth of the matter #whether or not if they are kinder ways to say this is irrelevant #I'm not going to sit here and tell y'all how to talk about any subject so that you don't upset anyone #& I would personally like to stop seeing 50 different variations of the same post telling me what the appropriate way of discussing this is #I'm here to liberate women not coddle you or should you from the criticisms of your actions #we are sisters in arms in a sociopolitical fight not friends. #lily responds #like I was going to keep my mouth shut when you were just discussing that you would like for people not to say this because you are radfems #& want to feel welcomed & comfortable n the spaces you have a fool right to be in regardless if I think it's our job to ensure that comfort #but telling me I can't describe mutilation as it is bc it's hurting the trans ppl who are actively destroying my rights on mult axises? #fuck no lol. I'm not putting in effort work to spare their feelings. #especially when it seems like the most direct blunt way of describing things it's the only way to get through to them #y'all are out of your damn minds lol #ok im done #rant

[running-in-the-dark]

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#nooo youtube is so evil #I've been so damn good about not watching any interviews with [name redacted cuz I still don't want to mention it] #and this goddamn stupid evil website autoplays an interview. that has nothing to do with what I was watching before!!! #fuck I don't want to keep watching but his stupid face is right there! I can't stop 😒 #he's so unbelievably irritating and I want to punch him so so bad but also he is so stupidly hot #I'm so glad he doesn't always wear his glasses because fuck I just. can't. why so cute. why. stupid stupid idiot man #literally he makes me so angry but I just. 🥵 #he should be forced to wear a paper bag over his head at all times so I don't have to listen to him #screaming crying kicking punching because I'm being forced to watch this against my will (by my own brain) #yeah yeah it's christian kane obviously we all know this #truly the most irritating person on earth. but fuck I want him. #fuuuuck no he's already said like two things that made me go aww... that's so sweet and sad though 🥺 no no no he can't pull this shit on #me I know that he sucks I don't want to like him!! I'm not going to! #but he said a sad thing about his childhood though 🥺🥺 I'm weak I want to hug him now oh NO #I hope he says something gross again soon so I can remember that he sucks 😭 #stupid idiot idiot idiot #(he really won't shut up will he. sure talks a lot. shut your mouth boy.) #(pretty mouth though. pretty pretty pretty.) #ck

[xray-vex]

#you ever feel like vibes are off and you should just stop talking forever #i think one of my character flaws is that i sometimes don't know how to keep my fucking mouth shut #or that maybe everything bad that has happened to me is indeed my fault and i deserve punishment #but i don't know if that's actually true or just my brain being cruel to me #but anyways

[feraltwinkseb]

January 15, 1991

Source: Hoch Zwei/Corbis via Getty Images

#I should just keep my mouth shut on this one honestly #not one sane thought #Michael Schumacher #Erwin Goellner #f1 #1991 #formula 1 #formula one #msc

[proxyma]

AAHHHHHHH WHY DO SO MANY THINGS HAVE TO BE SO CLOSE TOGETHER

#holi #uceed #maths board #all these so close to each other what am i meant to do #like sure i aint gonna play holi but my neighbourhood is whos gonna stop them from blasting loud music as they are so prepared and planning #like what am i meant to do i am so not looking forward to uceed result date #like why couldnt mumma keep her mouth shut why why now other aunties are gonna ask about it and i will have failed it cause my drawing wasn #good enough to get the minimum required marks oh man #okay maybe maybe im overthinking just a little teensy tiny bit #maybe i should take a chill pill and start stressing about the CHEMISTRY EXAM ON HAND HELLO PROXY YOU ONLY HAVE 2 DAYS

[willowfey]

no one can make u feel crazier than ur mother<3

#sometimes they’ll just say smith happened in a conversation that. didn’t at all happen. none of those words were said #but if ur like actually that did not happen i did not do that it’s like u’ve personally disrespected their entire existence #and then u go ‘u didn’t have to go about the situation like that and make it smth it wasn’t’ #and then they’ll say smth like ‘i should just never say a word to u ever about anything i should just keep my mouth shut is that it??’ #like. no. who said that. what is going on here #and then they’re like ‘ur just mad about (thing that the conversation stopped being about 20 mins ago)’ #no ma’am. i’m not even mad. i’m boggled that u are mad. we are not experiencing the same situation #and it always ends with them being so hurt for NO reason saying u don’t respect me u always invalidate me idk what to do #u just need to have a better schedule and sleep more and eat different and do more school and do more work u don’t care abt doing anything #like HELLO why are we talking about this now. how did we even get here #i love my mother but why do they all do that. u all know what i mean. #and then u have to flip it around and make them feel better. an impossible task. when ur the one who got freaked out on for no reason #if it goes too far she’ll come and apologise after but in the meantime….. real fun times. i love micromanaging.

[merevide]

i should stop making cringe posts tbh. but i can’t.

#like here at merevide hq we’re going through a little bit of a revamp and cringe text posts are on the chopping block i fear #but i always have smth to say not matter how unfunny how much it’s gonna flop or how much i’m gonna regret saying it #i can’t keep my big dumb mouth shut actually this has plagued me since forever #no it hasn’t there was/is a time where i’ll go completely silent but most of the time i like to talk i just don’t think other like #me talking 💀 like besides reblog it’s either music links or smth ridiculous #but it’s also like man i should reflect i should sit down. #bc it feels like every word i say is embarrassing NO MATTER WHAT like if i’ve ever said anything to you i’m genuinely sorry #sometimes i think i should stop talking forever but then i realize that’s just my anxiety taking over 😒 but she may have a point #i wanna talk to people sooo bad like i wanna reply i wanna ask questions. but i’m gonna say smth dumb eventually !!! im overthinking it but #idk we’ll see :P thank u all (no one) for coming to my ted talk ily #my text

[lucydonato]

You are exactly the kind of person who is a nightmare to have in class, aren't you? Not like in a hateful way, but the way you talk about college, always getting As, reminding teachers about homeworks, being mad that people don't take everything as seriously as you, doing everything way ahead, reporting on people and things, being in your own world of being super intense?

silly answer 1: um I'll have you know all my report cards said I was a PLEASURE to have in class

silly answer 2: yeah

serious answer: I mean I guess to an extent?? I work really hard and it bugs me when people goof off (only if it causes a distraction during class, idc what they do in their personal time) but it also [italian voice] e Bugs me when people feel the need to show off and dominate discussions because I feel like that's denying everyone else the chance to learn and as a science girlie specifically it bums me out when I'm surrounded by people (on either end of that spectrum) who don't care about the subject matter and are only there because they and/or their parents think STEM is a ticket to a big salary, both because I'm really passionate about what I'm doing and want to be around similarly passionate people and because I think everyone else deserves the joy of finding and doing something that they love so. idk man I play nice with my classmates and try to work with them (especially if it seems like they're struggling with something I understand) and I try to get my stuff done ahead of time but only for my own benefit and I don't remind teachers about homework and I don't care if anyone else cheats and yes I do share some of my grades on here and with my friends and family because I'm excited and proud of myself when I do well but I never ask my classmates for their grades or volunteer mine because I'm not trying to compete with anyone else. I just genuinely want us all to be doing what we want and doing it well

#also idk if it was my t*tle ix posting that prompted this message but for the record #the context is that a 43 yr old evangelical outside agitator w/a violent criminal record takes advantage of so called free speech zones #to talk about how gay people are going to hell #and yesterday he started singling out female students (including me) referencing our genitals #and talking about how we're subservient to men and should keep our mouths shut #so like. I didn't spend this afternoon crying in the student affairs office about how my school refuses to protect me and other women #just because I get smug satisfaction out of ''reporting on people and things'' #it's because I'm doing what I'm forced to do in order to keep my home safe #I'm not mad @ you tbc because I realize you may not have realized this or known the full story #I'm just letting you know that this ask and that bit in particular did kind of hit me in a sensitive place at the moment

[goodmorningnona]

listen okay ive been going on about this for like a week now but i just think it's a little funny that ever since i had to stop therapy there's been a MASSIVE increase in my writing. it is not only a wonderful creative hobby but also helps me get through shit and process my emotions and i dont think that's bad at all! but i am living up to the stereotype of creatives Not Being Okay and i do love that and think it's a little bit funny.

#in fact. the less okay i am the better my work gets and that is sooooo toxic cancel me #i wont fuck myself up TOO bad on purpose de #*dw #but anyway i keep being told by even like GOOD therapists that i know all the things anyway and i just verbally work out the problem w them #listening rather than them give me advice so maybe i should just continue this i might actually Be Good. ........ for now. #and YES i know it's probably a bit of a maladaptive coping mechanism but im autistic im allowed one (1) maladaptive coping mechanism as a #treat. and i dont watch tv and havent been gaming SO LET ME HAVE THIS #i must CREATE WITH MY HANDS it feels so much more relaxing to me than doomscrolling and also silences the developing workaholism by giving #me a Product #OKAY IM SHUTTING UP NOW I HAVENT TALKED MUCH TODAY IVE JUST BEEN WRITING SKFBDJDJ #'im shutting up now' i say on my Own Blog as if anyone gonna read this anyway wkfjeksjs #in my can't stop wont stop era fr #lessons of the hand and the mouth