#should activism feel like shit

[archiephd]

So long as the political and economic system remains intact, voter enfranchisement, though perhaps resisted by overt white supremacists, is still welcomed so long as nothing about the overall political arrangement fundamentally changes. The facade of political equality can occur under violent occupation, but liberation cannot be found in the occupier’s ballot box. In the context of settler colonialism voting is the “civic duty” of maintaining our own oppression. It is intrinsically bound to a strategy of extinguishing our cultural identities and autonomy.

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Since we cannot expect those selected to rule in this system to make decisions that benefit our lands and peoples, we have to do it ourselves. Direct action, or the unmediated expression of individual or collective desire, has always been the most effective means by which we change the conditions of our communities. What do we get out of voting that we cannot directly provide for ourselves and our people? What ways can we organize and make decisions that are in harmony with our diverse lifeways? What ways can the immense amount of material resources and energy focused on persuading people to vote be redirected into services and support that we actually need? What ways can we direct our energy, individually and collectively, into efforts that have immediate impact in our lives and the lives of those around us? This is not only a moral but a practical position and so we embrace our contradictions. We’re not rallying for a perfect prescription for “decolonization” or a multitude of Indigenous Nationalisms, but for a great undoing of the settler colonial project that comprises the United States of America so that we may restore healthy and just relations with Mother Earth and all her beings. Our tendency is towards autonomous anti-colonial struggles that intervene and attack the critical infrastructure that the U.S. and its institutions rest on. Interestingly enough, these are the areas of our homelands under greatest threat by resource colonialism. This is where the system is most prone to rupture, it’s the fragility of colonial power. Our enemies are only as powerful as the infrastructure that sustains them. The brutal result of forced assimilation is that we know our enemies better than they know themselves. What strategies and actions can we devise to make it impossible for this system to govern on stolen land? We aren’t advocating for a state-based solution, redwashed European politic, or some other colonial fantasy of “utopia.” In our rejection of the abstraction of settler colonialism, we don’t aim to seize colonial state power but to abolish it. We seek nothing but total liberation.

Voting Is Not Harm Reduction - An Indigenous Perspective

#indigenous action #2024 elections #voting #on one hand i think if one opponent is a mask off fascist white people have an obligation to vote against them As The Least We Can Do #but if that's all we're doing? that and bullying other people who see a futility in participating in a colonial institution of 'democracy'? #sorry but um. shut the fuck up #if we spent half as much energy on direct action to support each other in ways that help people REGARDLESS of who wins what election #as we did on yelling at Other Leftists about voting i think we would get a hell of a lot more actual shit done #and sure as hell help more actual real life people who we claim to be helping by yelling at other people to vote #i'm talking to me here like #our current blue harm reduction candidate actively supporting a genocide should make you feel like maybe this shit doesn't fucking work #because it doesn't <3 #harm reduction as the least we can do needs to be a call to action via vote AND actual action or it's not a call to anything at all #the least we can do needs to be motivating AND convicting #it's the least we can do so fucking do it. it's the least we can do so if that's All you do sit the hell down or stand the fuck up #for people who the status quo serves it needs to be the ballot AND the bullet or our ballot means fuck all for real liberation

[frankenturrets]

come on guys dont blame the trans men for being disgustingly transmisogynistic and forcing trans women out of their spaces :( theyre probably just like reeeally super depressed or something and theyre actually hurting themselves MORE than theyre hurting trans women. this is a normal thing to say. wont SOMEONE please think of the poor transandrophobia truthers in their hour of need

#transmisogyny #you cant claim to care about trans women or transmisogyny if it only extends as far as your own comfort zone and then throw them under the #bus when shit gets hard and you dont feel like it anymore. what goes through your mind to think thats any kind of excuse for the treatment #they go through. framing the suffering of trans women as inherently lesser than or necessary to quell our problems is such a disgusting #display of transmisogyny. as though this is something they ever asked for or invited on themselves or deserve and should just learn to deal #with. and then you turn around and call that activism #notes on this slowed down so im turning off rbs to avoid it finding the wrong crowd. didnt expect anyone to find this in the first place

[wolflyndraws]

Might just go and mute / sb some old Twitter moots on my twt acc some things they’re saying is just… not it… plus like sooo much condescending vague tweeting it’s so fucking annoying

#vent #Should have known when they were like actively shitting on something I love #even if I told them that them doing that made me feel horrible and very sad

[thedreadvampy]

unwarranted Cis Opinion but I'm getting really uncomfortable w people responding to bathroom bills by posting pictures of trans men like DO YOU WANT THEM IN WOMEN'S BATHROOMS

bc like. no they're men. they should be in men's bathrooms unless that feels unsafe. but. it really feels like it's not helpful to lean into the idea that seeing someone presenting masc or being read as a man in a women's bathroom means You're In Danger.

like I know several butch women and NB ppl who are really scared around being on T or getting top surgery bc they're not men and they don't want to be in the men's bathroom, and in that circumstance stuff like growing facial hair or reading more androgynously can be really fucking scary when people are being primed by propaganda to be on edge and hyperreactive to anyone who doesn't look like their idea of a Cis Woman.

and I'm not laying that at the feet of the people saying "hey uhhhh trans men are men and don't belong in women's bathrooms" bc it is not their fault. it's the fault of a concerted effort to make it difficult and dangerous to be trans or substantively gender nonconforming in public.

but at the same time idk I guess it just worries me cause sometimes it feels like "you fools! you are worried about this group of trans people bc you think they're the Lurking Danger of Men In Bathrooms? WRONG! the Men Making You Feel Afraid In Bathrooms are actually THESE trans people!" when in fact neither of those groups using the fucking bathroom is a problem. just piss and mind your business. people need to go where they need to go.

anyway this country is a hot fucking trash fire that somehow accelerates its descent into open fascism more every day so it's all super good and normal. so don't take this too seriously tbh cause it's somewhere near #2535654476457899009765 on the list of priorities for Queer Discourse right now when the fucking human rights commission is actively rescinding protections from trans people. Please ignore my gibberish.

#red said #i get that the point is to follow their logic to its logical conclusion like SEE THE EFFECT IS THE OPPOSITE OF YOUR STATED INTENTIONS #but a) the lawmakers already know this tbf #and also b) ultimately you still do end up making a lot of tweets that look very very very like the original scaremongering abt trans ppl #and transphobes and ppl who are unfamiliar with trans stuff alike have repeatedly and consistently demonstrated either an unwillingness #or an inability. to understand the difference btw a trans man and a trans woman. #and meanwhile idk it does feel like most posts like this are tacitly reinforcing the idea that you SHOULD be scared of masc-presenting ppl #it's putting so much emphasis on clockability. and the truth is not everyone using the bathroom does or should have to pass perfectly. #if a trans woman who looks like one of these trans men needs to piss. a woman with stubble and short hair and muscly shoulders. #SHE HAS EVERY RIGHT TO PISS IN THE WOMEN'S BATHROOM. even if she doesn't look like a cis woman. #if a trans dude looks like a girl he still doesn't belong in the ladies unless he personally feels the need to go there for his safety #if someone is not actively bothering you harassing you or treating you with aggression it's not really any of your business is it #maybe that's a trans man. maybe that's a trans woman. maybe that's a woman or dyke on T. maybe that's a cis woman who just looks masculine. #who gives a shit? a key factor in ladies bathrooms is that they have fucking cubicles. unless someone is making it your business it's not. #and if they are then the problem isn't that they're the Wrong Sex/Gender it's that they're behaving badly/disrespectfully/threateningly #which is also a problem when cis women do it!!!!!

[askcursedtales]

#for munday. this. i never uploaded it #misc #ninetales #pokemon #animation #will i take munday questions later? perhaps #for now. take this. i feel like i should have no activity obligations but also lol i guess i didnt want the blog to go #quiet..... ive been working on that plot post but its LONG so its why shits taken a while

[blueskittlesart]

profs will set the due date for the final as april 24 and then STILL NOT HAVE THE FUCKING ASSIGNMENT UP TO SUBMIT THE PAPER BY 11PM ON APRIL TWENTY FUCKING THIRD

#ALEC. BESTIE. PLEASE. I AM BARELY PASSING YOUR CLASS AS IT IS I NEED YOU TO WORK WITH ME HERE #i feel the need to explain the level of bullshit that has been going on with this particular final actually because holy shit. #he first told us about it about 3 weeks ago which. fine. but all he said was 'you will have to pick a topic and write a paper' #like nothing about what the topic should relate to how the paper should be organized word count etc. literally nothing #radio silence for 2 weeks. we all forgot about it. then out of the blue 'btw your papers are due in a week lol!' #so we all scramble to figure out what the hell the assignment actually is #come to find out he never actually posted the assignment brief on canvas as an assignment. the only way we can access it is via a pdf #linked in ANOTHER UNRELATED ASSIGNMENT. #the project brief in question describes several in-class activities we straight up have not done. #no one actually knows if it's really due tomorrow or next week because he keeps pushing shit back and DOESNT ANSWER EMAILS #but the date on the syllabus is the 24th. and there is still nowhere online where we can submit our papers at all. #jesus fucking christ in heaven #personal #he is going to be getting a. shall we say INTERESTING professor review from me. lmao

[crimeronan]

probably i SHOULDN'T migrate elsewhere if tumblr goes belly-up. i just scrolled thru my dash for 20 minutes and in that short span i could feel myself transform from a mildly tired 27-year-old butch into an active serial killer.

#starts typing posts like 'i hate you people so fucking much' and then pauses like #this is how every terminally online post i've raised my eyebrows at for Weeks has started. #girl if you put all your thought into the computer eventually your world will shrink to the size of it. #this site really does make me feel like shit. i need to follow more photography blogs and people who don't post stupid fucking bullshit. #hey if you post a lot of photography or POSITIVE fandom stuff WITHOUT a shitload of untagged politics. #hit me up. i've unfollowed 80% of active blogs i used to follow for 'annoying me' crimes and my dash is both dead and profoundly irritating #i need to breathe some new life into this account. or what am i logging on for. #by positive fandom stuff i mean you're not typing a bunch of nasty hot takes i'll hate or bitching constantly about varying properties. #and you don't hate polyamory. and you don't hate ace people. and you don't hate queerplatonic relationships. #SHOULDN'T BE A HUGE ASK!!!!! AND YET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND FUCKING YET!!!!!!!!!11SHIFTONE!1ELEVEN!!1! #i'm tired of tumblr not making me happy. i should be able to see my blorbos and feel joy here. #negative #i suppose

[thatonebabybat]

Hey btw having depression is not a requirement for being goth and if you think it is I don't like you. That's a whole chronic illness, not a part of your "goth mindset"/"aesthetic". Please reflect on that.

#“depression makes you introspective and deep” no it just makes you periodically think everyone wants you dead for varying amounts of time #and makes it hard to get up and go to work and eat and sleep and talk to people and do literally anything #if you have depression and you're goth I'm proud of you because being an active part of a subculture is dedication and time and energy #shit's hard. love yall #I understand it usually comes from a place of misunderstanding but don't romanticize people's disabilities pls #mentally ill ppl have it hard enough without you Doing That #goth #goth subculture #gothblr #gothgoth #gothic #I'm mentally ill btw I should clarify that. wont go into details abt it but #I'm speaking from a place of not wanting people to treat my trauma like a fun afternoon activity that you have to do to be goth #you can still relate to and enjoy plenty of goth music without being diagnosed with a chronic illness like major depressive disorder #like a lot of songs are just about concepts like heartbreak or periods of grief or introspection but those are things most people experienc #disabled ppl might experience them differently or more intensely but they're widespread experiences nonetheless. #you don't need a mental illness to “get it” it came free with your humanity actually. you can think/feel deeply abt shit without a diagnosi #I'll stop rambling though #goth music #goth aesthetic #gothcore #mental illness #mental health #depression #goth is about music

[these-conquered-woodlands]

order of the phoenix members & co as incorrect quotes

dumbledore: I’m telling you, my organization's members are all very intelligent and skilled. tonks, rushing in: dumbledore! remus and sirius tried to make pasta in the coffee pot and now it's broken!

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sirius: Ask me anything. Go ahead, I'll give you a straight answer. tonks: Why are we so fucking awesome? sirius: That's the best goddamn question anybody's ever asked.

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molly: I am going to need you to swear- sirius: Fuck. molly: molly: ...swear as in promise.

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molly : Are you drinking enough water? severus: Sometimes my tears get in my mouth.

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tonks: So... what would you do if you were in bed with me? remus: Depends. Is your bed comfortable? tonks: Yes. remus: I'd sleep. I wanna sleep.

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dumbledore: I'm going to ask you to be respectful to each other. severus and sirius at the same time: I will respectfully decline.

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tonks: What happened?! sirius: Do you want the long version or the short version? tonks: Short?? sirius: Shit's fucked. tonks: ...Okay, long. sirius: Shit's very fucked.

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mad eye: So I have made the decision to trust you. tonks: A horrible decision, really.

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harry: We have a problem. severus, probably: No, you have a problem. We have an idiot who keeps making them.

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sirius: Hey I just got a pet snake. What should I name him? remus: A pet WHAT?! tonks: William Snakespeare.

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dumbledore: severus is forbidden from monologuing. at meetings, at least.

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sirius: Remus, old friend, would you take a killing curse for me? remus: ...yes? *snape angrily bursts into the room* sirius: *running away* Great, thanks!

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dumbledore: If you get in trouble, I'm gonna be like... a lawyer to you. Ok? harry: Okay. *later* ministry bro: Potter! Sit down on the chair, you're in trouble. dumbledore, whispering: Deny everything. harry, loudly: That isn't a chair.

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mundungus: stop forgiving my crimes, i worked so hard on those.

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mad-eye: We've got to find a way to cut down our expenses. What can we live without? kingsley: dumbledore, probably. he bought six new purple robes just this week with the budget we were going to use to bribe mundungus. dumbledore: hey! i'm the only one paying for our expenses!

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severus: Why aren’t you sleeping? sirius: I’m too busy plotting your murder to sleep, severus. severus: sirius: …The nightmares. severus: severus: Don't look at me like that, I'm not giving you a hug.

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molly: my future partner must be brave, strong, intelligent, successful and organized. arthur: *steps on a rubber duck and proceeds to drop to his knees and sob while apologizing profusely.* molly: that one. i want that one.

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arthur: Define “dream” for kids. severus: Dream - the first thing people abandon when they learn how the world works. molly : That’s too dark!

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dumbledore: I can explain. some obscure person like emmeline vance, maybe: Can you? dumbledore: If you give me thirty seconds to think of a lie.

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dumbledore: You know you've made it when you see your picture everywhere you go. mad-eye: Those are wanted posters!

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remus: I’m sad. tonks: Don’t be sad, because sad backwards is das. tonks: And das not good.

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fleur: Since we're in a relationship now, your clothes are my clothes too. Don't ask me why I have your shirt on, this is our shirt. bill: Fine, but when I come strutting in with your fuzzy socks I don't want to hear shit.

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severus: Everything will be ok. You can not stop it. mad-eye: Everything will be fine. You have no choice. mundungus: What kind of pep talk is that? severus: Ominous positivity.

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mad-eye: Someone will die. tonks, sarcastically: Oh, fun!

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Harry, Ron and Hermione: *Kick the door down looking panicked.* kingsley: What did you do? harry: Nobody died. ron: *nods* molly: WHAT KIND OF AN ANSWER IS THAT?!

#sources: incorrect quote generator and nuwanda moony's blog #ootp is my favorite book #and i feel like the concept of the order of the phoenix was grossly underutilized #like you're telling me there's this group of (pretty odd) people who want to take down a terrorising group with spies and maps and crooks- #and they barely do much? they don't even get a more active role in helping the protagonist #'s cause? c'mon. #btw yall should go read/listen to the rise of the phoenix screenplay that shit is so good #cursed child got nothing on that #hp incorrect quotes #ron weasley #hermione granger #kingsley shacklebolt #mad eye moody #order of the phoenix #alastor moody #hp fandom #nymphadora tonks #albus dumbledore #harry james potter #severus snape #harry potter #molly weasley #arthur weasley #sirius black #remus lupin #fleur delacour #bill weasley

[caramellashton]

'this is like wanting your kid to get better by yelling at them and hitting them… you know it won't change/fix anything.'

EXACTLY I have been saying this for so long!! it's not gonna work and it's just gonna make everything worse. it's not a form of activism to just bully people until they conform to what you want; humans are autonomous people capable of choosing good, and like. we could be in the fandom of another band that doesn't even try, whose fans have given up on them and are just there for the music and the drama, but it's like the minute they do try to do something good they have to do activism a certain way and it almost becomes a kind of purity culture and purity culture is famously about control and not good for anyone.

but it's also people trying to be funny in the comments with thinly veiled frustrations that come out as insults about their appearance (which especially gets to me bc like. does body positivity stop if you're famous? or are they just idealised figures/bodies/personalities for us to look at and pretend our bodies don't change over time and we don't like it when they remind us that they actually do?) or their partners or how they express themselves. and it's the aura of entitlement that erodes their right to autonomy and individuality that gets me, not only because the way we get the creative music they make is them expressing that.

anyway i do think we as a fandom can do better and i want to attempt to start a conversation about that rather than trying to call people out in the comments. still thinking of how. there's a lot of people in the fandom who are struggling and exasperated with life and relate to their songs and the pressure has to come out somewhere; it ends up being in comments they feel like won't ever be seen except for by people who agree with them, at people who seem to far away and too big to ever see getting hurt by their comments. at least that's what I assume happens. but yes, they were bullying a cat

I agree with everything...

Was it always like this? It can't be because this is too much, none of the hate was on me and I couldn't take it, I wonder how the guys (or any celebrity) feels, being judged about the tiniest move you do, it's crazy I would totally lose my mind.

That's not how life is... yes I would love to be a fan of good people but if the gf/partner of the artist you're a fan of is bad and their friends are bad what does that make them? Maybe it's on you, maybe YOU should pick better idk 😭.

#like you don't have to like everyone around the guys they're not your friends. You don't know them. #maybe I'm the worst person to agree to this because yes i look up the ''drama'' or whatever and I'm nosy but i never thought for a second- #-that I can tell them what or who to hang out with... #because it's stupid. like here I am from across the planet and I'm gonna fix 5sos and their friend group yes totally not mental... #please 😭😭 #Also is it activism if you tell them how they should say it and do it? If they say something it's not enough- #-if they don't they're the worst to walk on this earth. If they apologize for a mistake it's not sincere and won't be accepted. #How will anyone change if you don't even let them? #this fandom can do better but will it ever try? Maybe when it's too late. #too late as in they stop interacting with us ever... and i wouldn't blame them.. #call me bald everyday i will write a paragraph about how you ain't shit. you WILL see me in fan wars lmao... ashton is better than me. #are the tags too much? im sorry i feel more comfortable here lol 😭 #ask #5sos

[pearlpool]

MAN! AHH!

#its so crazy to realize that like #you actually do have a life you can go back to after removing yourself from a space that was actively making you miserable #i fucking love my friends so much. been talking to them a lot more lately #i feel like ive been neglecting them because ive been spending so much time lamenting the relationships that havent worked out for me #and just not even thinking about the ones that HAVE and actively DO #and its like. why do i hesitate to dive headfirst into the friendships that i already have and already feel secure in??? #i think part of me thinks i dont deserve relationships where i dont have to prove myself #but im realizing that i can draw a distinct line between friendships where i feel loved as i am vs ones where i have to earn approval #and the latter is not where i should be focusing my energy #idk! love my irls. rubyrainacharlie forever #feels like im coming back to who i was pre-all the horrible shit thats happened to me in the last year and a half #like even just after the last two days alone #diary

[cookinguptales]

if you want to know where I am on my "dealing with wwdits s5" journey, I've got like six long meta posts in my notes on my laptop that I just haven't posted. lmao

I'm. workin through it.

#wwdits tag #I'm going back and forth on whether they'll ever be posted tbh #part of me is like 'if you stop posting your thoughts because you were getting harassment then you're giving them what they wanted' #'and telling them that it works to harass people' #but part of me is like 'so fucking what I'm tired of getting harassed' #frankly I've been in the middle of a bad flare for the past few days and I realized that tumblr was stressing me out #which was making it worse #and it felt so stupid to let tumblr drama actively make my health worse which was why I just kind of... left #are other people seriously not getting all these messages #how is it that all of my friends instantly DMed me to complain about the finale #but I also got a bunch of shit from people who hate that I complained about the end of the finale #are you guys??? not getting these messages too??? #you hated it too are you not getting the fucking weirdos??? #what makes me so special and how do I stop being special lmao #me: you should just ignore them and do what you want and not let them get to you #also me: but why is the onus on me to not feel hurt when people actively try to hurt my feelings #I'm not built for being noticed lmao #but I got too many words in me to stay quiet #The Worst tbh

[gxlden-angels]

I think it's really funny when fundies are also super into the crunchy lifestyle like bestie your whole system is based on a dude with magical powers born from a virgin you can take a tylenol and stop feeding your infant raw milk now

#I always bring it up #but me @ my aunt that scoffed at me for using my nebulizer while actively having a severe asthma attack #and I mean severe I had to use double my dosage before I could breathe without wheezing and coughing again #I 100% should've been in the hospital #I respect the crunchy life when it's shit like colds and scrapes and aches #absolutely not when it's an asthma attack or PCOS #and doubly not when your CHILD is the sick one #I assume most of the crunchiness comes from the adversion to medicine over prayer #because that implies that there are things that can't be prayed away #And it implies that if you pray and stay healthy that's proof of your worth and praying power #So when someone does get sick and/or die well that's just apart of his plan at least you can say you didn't fight his plan #It's not a preventable illness if you ignore/don't learn how to prevent it /j #every day I wake up and learn another disease raw milk can give you /j #ED tw #And everyday I use to wake up to my stepmom doing a different 'diet' #They 100% encouraged eating disorders both in restricting and binging #Feel bad? Eat food and pray about it! Feel good? Fast and pray about it! #Either way you should feel like you're on the Truman Show with every bite you take #your health becomes a moral issue not a natural one #it becomes a temple and not your vessel #ex christian #religious trauma

[ozymoron]

reading posts that come across my dash and sitting for a minute to debate with my mental disorder if not reblogging this will mean a hell portal will open beneath my feet and i will suffer for eternity for my lack of action or if its all good and i can just scroll on by (its usually the hell portal thing)

#⚠️ #personal #having ocd makes making moral decisions so fucking hard for no reason #cause ill see a post thats like info or seems important and like i can tell its that kind of post just by skimming it st first and somethin #clicks in my brain that just tells me if i dont share that post everyone will know and think im a horrible person #regardless of what the actual post is about #i need like a handbook on how to make proper moral decisions #cause like yeah i do care about things i try to share stuff about things i care about and believe are important but sometimes i dont have #the energy to read long as posts and my brain twists it to make it out that people will know and i am the bad guy #idk my ocds telling me even saying this makes me a bad person #the fact i even struggle with this #sometimes i think im not built for social media but really i think social medias not built for people like me #maybe i should get help for my ocd but the idea of describing all the shit going on in my brain to someone just makes me feel scared #cause like i dont know when to draw the line at making something a problem i should actively have a hand in helping #how much is too much when do i stop #<- in regards to my own mental health like the mental exhaustion that can come from it i hope this makes sense #like some things you gotta invest like emotional shit into and like sometimes im just tired and i come on here and im faced with one of #those posts and i just have to debate with myself what the fuck im supposed to do #this is more a me issue than anything i need to sort this shit out with some mental health professional or something #cause like i dont want to have people think i dont care about these things i do and ik pressing reblog takes like no energy but idk man #im not even sure if some of the shit i reblog is cause i care or is just an ocd compulsion #i feel like most times its both #i cant help but think im the problem here i want to be on social media its just so draining having my mind repeatedly hound me for not like #showing enough care (reblogging more posts) about a certain issue online #idk im so tired of it all im so tired of my mind i wish i didnt have ocd #vent #so funny right after i posted this i scrolled down and one of these posts was rigjt beneath it and the debate happens all over again #lord i need to get out of here

[rollercoasterwords]

reading the first edition of whipping girl (2007) and getting to the last ch where serano talks abt her current observations on queer activism and then makes predictions abt what the future might look like

well she certainly was right wasn't she!!!

#just. the overall observation of inward vs outward political turns.... #v much feel as though much of current queer activism + rhetoric gets tangled up + bogged down w like #this obsession w defining + categorizing + policing the nebulous + inherently individual experience of identity #rather than like. actually focusing on the material conditions that should be uniting us #uggggggghhhhhghggghhh #book recs #also a big part of what she's criticizing + fearful of seeing an increase of in this section is specifically. transmisogyny #which um. yeah! she called it! #also. making me think abt the seeming rise i have noticed re:online lesbian discourse abt masculine dykes #in particular. the widely accepted trend of shitting on masculine lesbians online from within queer/sapphic spaces #serano talks abt how she's noticing this trend of ppl shitting on gender in queer spaces when they perceive that gender as 'conservative' #and i think that idea that masc lesbians somehow have a 'conservative'/'unsubversive' gender is often the excuse given for what is #otherwise just run-of-the-mill lesbophobia #so!!!!!! yeah. anyway i'll stop writing an essay in the notes now

[cxpperhead]

Not enjoying my time off as much as I'd hoped. Going to try and be active this week so please bear with me.

#🐍 || ooc #;; delete later #Hopefully mood picks up in a day or two but otherwise I just feel like shit #Family don't really care what's going on so why should I kind of thing #Youtube is shit now because of all the ads and I can't go anywhere or do anything bc it's winter #negativity tw #negativity cw #It's probably just SAD kicking in but feeling very meh about time off now #I'd rather be at work bc at least I'm active