#shut up 70sgrunge

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thom york has no business making his instrumentals sound/feel as gut wrenching as they do.. i’m looking at you dawn chorus

#words #shut up 70sgrunge #thom yorke #radiohead

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tagged by @chelsea-boots​ thank you my friend

five things found in my bag (for ONCE i actually have a bag usually i just get by with big coats) 1. gum 2. my wallet. my school id is in there and i hate the picture so much that once i cut out a picture of james dean and pasted it over. this lasted 3 days until i chickened out, afraid that my mom would find it 3. the december 2011 issue of mojo 4. a collection of rimbaud’s poetry, in case i need to look cool and intellectual on the fly 5. a comb. i saw a switchblade comb at a vintage clothing store and ultimately did not buy it, which i regret every day

five things found in my bedroom 1. incense 2. clippings from 16 magazine from the 60s. one is a pin-up picture of george harrison 3. stuffed dolls of schroeder and peppermint patty, from the peanuts comic strip 4. records 5. cat perch

five things on my to-do list 1. memorize my part for the opera because it is VERY small but i still haven’t done it 2. speak more vietnamese with my mom 3. do my summer work for school 4. read more out of my comfort zone. i am starting to even annoy myself with the fact that my room is filled with a) beat literature and b) music biographies 5. something teenager-y that everyone does during high school, smoking weed or something. i dont know

five of my favorite things 1. listening to music 2. my cat 3. joking with my friends 4. libraries 5. walking around town by myself. sounds odd but for a while my parents did not let me out of their sight because of things that happened and i am relishing the fact that after my camp i am free to skulk around for three hours

tagging @cheapskate-bleeding-queer @wlwthewisp @latemodernity @gn0mie i dont know who else

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4 concussions later and i’m simply only a shell of who i once was

#words #shut up 70sgrunge #post concussion syndrome

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didn’t think i’d walk away with a bipolar 2 diagnosis today but sometimes you need a swift punch in the face

#words #shut up 70sgrunge

[70sgrunge]

@kneesnipplesandnonsense tagged me a bit ago to answer some questions and i haven’t done one of these in ages so i figured why not (:

favorite color: red or dark grey

currently reading: (a book for school) the ghost map

last song: across the universe, the beatles

last series: beverly hills 90210 (mom and i watched together)

last movie: rent-a-pal (actually my mom and i watched this together too)

sweet, sour, or savory: i’m torn between sweet and savory

currently working on: wrapping holiday gifts

i’ll tag: @kryptyd @dykerobzombie and @neosynths if you want to do it (:

#tag #kneesnipplesandnonsense #words #shut up 70sgrunge

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poor choices were made on this day by me

this is terrible

#words #shut up 70sgrunge

[70sgrunge]

look i love metal rock and all that heavy stuff but i will openly admit growing up in the country has made me vulnerable to going absolutely feral whenever i hear banjos. it just marks the fall and late night bonfires and these fun things

#idk what this is #words #shut up 70sgrunge

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my symptoms are getting worse, cross your fingers

#words #shut up 70sgrunge

[70sgrunge]

compromised immune system, i have asthma, and i just got covid. maybe i’ll finally get taken off this fucking planet

#words #shut up 70sgrunge

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she told me this day would come. when not every day would be consumed by thoughts of you. but the panic that has set in, in remembering you once again, causes far more pain than the daily reminder that you are no longer here with me

#words #shut up 70sgrunge #poetry for dad

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you have faded from my mind

overwhelming thoughts

have invaded the space you once occupied

numbness has seeped in

as has the guilt of forgetting you

#words #shut up 70sgrunge #poetry for dad

[70sgrunge]

my ed leaving my body after a someone tells me to eat chicken and rice for the fifth time this week ✨

#tw ed #words #shut up 70sgrunge

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someone who i hadn’t seen in like 10 years just popped back into my life today and brought back all these painful memories i’ve been actively repressing for that amount of time. like they didn’t mean to but fuck it was all to much. i just wanted to disappear and forget it ever happened

#ignore #shut up 70sgrunge #words

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this day has left me in ruins, it’s consequences unbearable, ever year gets more difficult, i wonder how things would be if you were here, would i be a different person? i certainly hope so. on this day i remember my final moments with you. not the other memories. becaus i feel i must tear apart those last few minutes to see if i could have saved you. to this day i love you with my whole heart. the pain i feel is immense. occasionally i laugh, but it’s to hide the hurt that hangs over my head day after day.

#poetry for dad #words #shut up 70sgrunge #tenth of march

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#tw #trigger warning #shut up 70sgrunge #everything was so much happier when i was three #not perfect but better #at least i didn’t want to die

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#why would i need sleep? #its only.... 12:30! #and i have to be up at 6 #might as well get an early start #and start doing shit now #words #shut up 70sgrunge