#sib layouts

[vigilskeep]

being silly in picrew thinking abt siblings

#this is very late night bored content do not look too closely at anyone canon #if its unclear: trian yrsa bhelen. keir bethany carver. arthur helena #arthur and hel have two more sibs but they wouldve fucked up the post layout if i included both and i cant leave ONE out #sacrificed

[ambersky0319]

I cannot yet play 1.6 bc I only play console

However

That will not stop me from stalking the beloved sdv wiki to see all the new stuff and hype myself up for it

#i dont care about spoilers. In fact i WANT to be spoiled #i am even more excited to play for myself now tho! #i started checking the wiki cause sib plays on pc so i saw some of the new layout (and like. The menu stuff? Really cool?????) #amber's shit you can ignore

[paradisaeaa]

LIGHT OF KSHAHREWAR . (0/5, reqs open) ・₊✧

・₊✧ ABT ME.

hiii, i'm kie ! i use he/it/doll prns && i'm the biggest gayass u'll ever meet <3 i'm also told i'm mean. that's all u need 2 know !!

・₊✧ EDIT TYPES. (bold fav, italics selective)

icons (pride && regular), headers, layouts (specify site, if tumblr: w/ or w/o pinned), stimboards, card edits.

・₊✧ SOURCES.

enstars, engirls, genshin impact*, haniwa, proseka, d4dj, milgram, hypmic, twst, persona (4&5), hsr, fanganronpas, vocaloid, tbhk, bsd. (+ unlisted.)

*i will do sumeru, but it is likely i'll deny the request.

・₊✧ WHITELIST.

trickstar, knights (enstars); kimisaki rock band (engirls); barbara, nilou, anemo charas (genshin); liphiyo (haniwa); haruka, kanade, tenma sibs (proseka); RONDO (d4dj); teddie (persona 4); danganronpa: despair time (fangans).

・₊✧ BLACKLIST.

super pastel edits; shumika, izumako, sakuma rei (enstars); raiden ei/shogun, yae miko (genshin); ruikasa, akikasa (proseka); honkai impact.

irl/kin requests for sena izumi && fyodor dostoyevsky (bsd).

f/o requests for shinonome akito && tsukinaga leo.

・₊✧ DNI.

proship/anti-anti, racist, terf/transmed/etc, nsfw/18+, yandere, endo sys, doubles of the irls listed above.

・₊✧ RULES.

be polite, specify platform and/or sizing. i can and will deny any requests without reason.

#・₊✧ pinned

[honeyteef]

second ask of the day from ur amazing doll sib but anyways

CLOWNCORE DISCORD LAYOUT CLOWNCORE DISCORD LAYOUT CLOWNCORE DISCORD LAYOUT :3 /nf

BEATS YUU UP ,, ./j

ouu any certain colors or characters in particular yuu'd like in it questionmarkr ?

#🌈﹚ rest of the circus｡

[blake-worth]

hey 𝓫𝓸𝓸𝓴𝓪𝓵𝓲𝓬𝓲𝓸𝓾𝓼 it's elias calling YOU over the pear phone

anyways jajaja can u do monika from ddlc tumblr layout 🤫 pls and thank you sib-sib.. 🔥

request will be posted shortly ^__^

#⠀✙⠀ posts #⠀✙⠀ asks #⠀✙⠀ requests #⠀✙⠀ request ; accepted

[amethyst-geek]

The Masterson family

Time for more discussions about who would become related in my Total Drama/6teen high school/urban fantasy AU. A while ago, I decided that multiple characters will be related via an Irish-Canadian couple who also psychics. Originally, I was gonna have their surname be Higgins, but then I decided that I wanted Jen Masterson from 6teen to be a part of this family as well. I also decided that Granny Masterson will be German-Canadian. Now here is a rough layout of the Masterson family.

Sib 1- Cody's mom

Sib 2- one of Izzy's parents, twin sibling of Scott's mother; one of few siblings to have inherited both telepathy and telekineses, both of which were passed down to Izzy

Sib 3- mother of Scott and Albertha; power- beetle whispering which she passed down to Scott

Sib 4- Jen Masterson's father (may be triplets with sibs 5 and 6)

Sib 5- mother of Harold and Scarlett

Sib 6- father of Kristen (the headband clone from 6teen), Sally (aka Crimson), and 6 other children (including a set of quadruplets); has telekineses which was passed down to most of his children, including Crimson

Sib 7- Rodney's father

Sib 8- Jay and Mickey's mom

Sib 9- oc (twins with sib 10)

Sib 10- oc

Sib 11- oc

Sib 12- oc

#total drama #6teen #crossover #total drama au #cody total drama #cody anderson #izzy td #izzy total drama #td scott #total drama scott #scott total drama #jen masterson #total drama harold #harold mcgrady #td scarlett #total drama scarlett #td crimson #td rodney #td jay #td mickey

[enananhearts]

!!! Okay first off,, im glad you like the gifts hehe~ second,, in case you aren't aware, 80% of the reason i downloaded prosekai is cause you kept talking abt the shinosibs and i was like 'oh so enas depressed' 'so everyone interprets them as abusive sibs but silk doesn't' 'they have a shit dad' thanks to all the info i got from you talking abt them on main

*glances at my layouts on main and here* y... yeah... </3 idk i love them both very much!! very honored to be the reason you got prsk ^^~ also using my icons!! i'm so honored today ehehe~ i do hope you're having fun with the game though <3

also as of today's update on global you can level up the trust rank between the three sibling pairs now... shinosibs here i come ^^

#;; chatting

[lovelyserena-moved]

UWHAHADJDJD TYSM FOR THE LAYOUTS <3

theyre so cute and jsjdsksk 🥺🥺 dw abt taking too long :0 !!! and the one w tsukasa nd saki is so cute,,, i love the tenma sibs HAHJSDK

sorry for sm keyboard spamming im just v excited nd happy w the layouts :]

IM SO GLAD YOU LIKED THEMMM, and the Tsukasa and Saki one is also my favorite JRKSKGJ, i loved how it ended up looking!

#₊˚ʚ♡︎ɞ˚₊ talking ˚ ₊ ✦

[hythlodaeus-mynewoldfriend]

🌟 : A secret wish headcanon

Sorry for being slow. But have my WoLs' and Azem's secret wishes!

Demos is minor in that he wishes that the Scions would take him a bit more seriously with his artistic skill. This has nothing to do with the new job announcement and has always been a bit of a sore spot since it first happened in HW. He's shown off his work, people have loved it, his work was used as maps for the shinobi from time to time (boy loves to climb and will draw the layout of the city that he can see), he's damn good at drawings of people and still Alphie is praised as the artist of the group :') The biggest insult was when he had to relinquish his latest journal in ShB to get them into Eulmore as more evidence of Alphie's skill since the single used paintbrush just wasn't cutting it and Demos isn't going to let it go any time soon. Let him take the drawing reins now and then and he'll be happy. He will never, however, have the same beef with Krile because that's just justice in his eyes.

Sib's secret wish is that somewhere her brother is still alive and it was just her projection on Ultima Thule of him, not his actual soul. Especially knowing what she knows now like she really wants to meet him and get to know him again, thank him, and show him that she's gonna be okay now. Hell she'll even settle for encountering a shard of him at this point to even get a more genuine glimpse into the core of him. Part of her now kind of feels like its missing or something she doesn't quite understand yet, but in honor of him she's gonna keep going to find out just what it is and have fun along the way. Could she go into the Aetherial Sea and seek him out there? Sure, but where's the fun in that? Not to mention the fear of knowing he's there and that he can't speak to her. Which is far from true, Palladium would love to speak with her and tell her what happened and how proud he is of her and wish her well on all the adventure's to come, but she's to scared to find out.

Deimos wishes that he was never made to skip grade levels at such a young age. Like one maybe two wouldn't have been that bad he thinks but going from the equivalent of kindergarten to 5th grade was a bit much and so othering. Like it would have been one more but that was where his parents stopped it because at least at that level he wouldn't be alone, he'd have his cousin Hades with him. But the grade skipping really made it hard for him to connect with kids his age because he was adapting to try and get kids older than him to like him and accept him which ended up in him not really having any friends other than Hades and Hyth. And this is still true well into his adult years, he has a hard time connecting with people in his eyes because he's finding more peers his age but he's not able to find common ground and while he's fine having friends that are older than him there's a part of him chasing the experiences he feels he missed out on. While being Azem afforded him a more variety of people and those that understood him, it still just wasn't quite the same as someone from the culture and society you come from. He's starving for some kind of attention he can't really articulate and it tends to come out in him well being impulsive, loud, out there, constantly moving, etc., thankfully he's always had Hades and Hyth in the wings translating essentially.

#thank you again! Sorry it took awhile! #demos reyes oc #demos headcanon #siberite akagane oc #siberite headcanon #deimos oc #deimos headcanons

[lolo-l0ved]

Hihi! I'm the Anon that asked about the FNAF movie requests the first time, very lovely to see you accept some now! Would you be able to make a Spring Bonnie themed Twitter account with a golden colour scheme? Thank you!

↳ POSTED/QUEUED —📼— Yeah !! My little sibling ended convincing our parents to take us to the next town over so we could see it earlier. I was geeking out the whole time while my sib hid in shame lol. Anyway, I hope they are good, I really like layouts so this was fun. It’s been queued.

#↳posted #reply icons by: sugar and spice edits

[istherewifiinhell]

in which the elephant in the room is not the dinosaurs but Renet and her... design

[Mirage, tales of ...7 Story and Layouts: Laird, Pencils: Jim Lawson, Inks: Ryan Brown, Letters: Steve Lavigne, Toning assistance: Steve Bissette and Eric Talbot]

[ID: Cropped panel of Don kneeling down on small cliffs edge to look at a triceratops. He waves and says "Hi, big fella!" END ID]

But first. In all its -why isnt there higher defs scans of this- Glory. Fashion turtles + April, Museum outfits fits!!!

[All panels of April, Don, and another turtle at a museum exhibit about dinosaurs. The turtles and April all have their skin in the mid tone. April is wearing big earrings, a chunky turtleneck cinched with a belt, tight pants and ankle boots. Don has a hat, trench coat, scarf, and dark colour pants and shoes. The other turtle also wears a chunky turtleneck, hat, waist length jacket, and light colour pants and shoes.]

[ID from alt: Full body shot of all three, Don faces away looking at a display, April and the other turtle walking past it. The turtle looks forward, hands in his pockets. April has one hand behind the turtle, and shes glancing in the direction of the display.]

[ID from alt: Head leave shots of all three. Other turtle saying "Yeah... I hate crowds, too!" and Don says "Let's just not forget to hit the gift shop on our way out!" END]

omg their just like me fr.

[ID from alt: Vertical panel, April looking concerned "Don-- Didn't you tell me this... guy was banished forever to a prehistoric era?" Don, teeth grit, hat shadowing his eyes says "That's right, April... And how he's come back, I have no idea!" END]

Okay but what about the dinosaurs. Time travel. Time Travel? yeah.

[ID: 1. Mikey arguing with Renet. Renet is a woman in a bizarre cowl headdress with digital clocks on the top and either side. Her unitard has smaller ones. She's been drawn with a very large chest. She looks confused and says "Huh?". Mikey is scowling, saying "For that matter, why should we go back? We're here now-- So obviously the crisis was averted somehow. It wouldn't matter if we went back or not!"

2. Three beat panels. Renet drawn with a simplified expression of confusion with little dot eyes. It almost looks like shes looking to the viewer, then Mikey then back to the viewer. Mikey faces her, until the last panel where he turns around, also almost addressing the audience saying "Oh, forget it..." END

Cant help but think they purposely had a voice piece for the time travel plot critics in there. ANYWAY.

ID from alt: Croped panel of the turtles in the past, Raph has hit is head, kneeling, stars over his head, saying "OW" . Mike leans down, hands reaching for Raph saying "You okay Raph?" Don is peaking out from behind the cropped figure of Renet, shocked expression on his face. END

[ID from alt: Raph dangling from a structure made of bones, hes hooked is sai on one, and hold onto the bussiness end of the weapon. Don is leaning down from the top, lowing his bo to Raph "Hold tight Raph..." Raph replies "Like chrome to a trailer hitch, pal!" END]

^The way this just feels like 87 to me.

Yeah well anyway they did get stuck in the past for 3 months.

[ID from alt: Mike, wearing some kind of animal pelt, cutting into a bone fish bigger than he is. He grimaces "Ugh... I hate this part, fish guts-- Yecchh! Another turtle off to the side watching this and smiling. "But you do it so well, Mike!" END]

^def had this kinda exchange with a sib

[ID from alt: Two panels. Wide of all turtles plus Renet, all wearing animal pelts clothes. Renet's is of course drawn hugging her curves. One turtle, shocked "The spectre!!!" Mike holding the sceptre, which is dripping something fluids, "This fish must have swallowed it." Another turtle smiling, "What a coinkidink!" Renet waves both hands in excitement "Ohh awesome now we can go home." The last turtles says "Yeah but not right away..."

Everyone drawn small reacting in confusion. Mike "Huh?" Other turtle explains himself "Well we can't let all this fish go to waste, can we?" END]

^hey anyway in the 03 version mikey was given that line and they all go Oh you. but in this they really do have one last meal about it. tho also the emphasise less the um. waiting for the metor to hit dread. oh 03 angst <3.

#some shit #turbles... #turtle fashion digest #anywaaaayyyyy. this was in the drafts. it was vexing me but im normal now. tales areeeee allowed to be lower effort #anyway. key points. DINOS (i know i didnt show much but ill be honest. they do some violence to those beasts too) #just when this art team got drawing april undercontrol.... Renet..... #and the last tales of for this team. theres a second much longer run of it.... Later? ill find out at some point. #wifi blogs mirage

[a1topp]

Analysing my Internship Applications with Peer Feedback

The peer feedback was needed, as an issue with my over confidence is when I usually produce a piece of work including my internship applications, I struggle to see an issue with it, an outside piece of eyes on your work can work wonders. When you work hard until the very end on a document, we can become tired and our eyes glaze over misspellings, extra punctuation or other typo’s (Ferguson, 2022).

Jye helped me by providing me with a peer review on my LinkedIn profile, cover letter and resume. With my cover letter, he was content with my layout stating it was ‘really nice’ and enjoyed that I spoke about my passion for sport and in particular cricket, showing a good range of skills, experiences and volunteer work. However he believed I needed to talk more about why I would be a good fit for SEN, and to provide more about my sporting experience. This is excellent feedback and when comparing to others I see what he means, I have since rectified the issues and believe they are okay now.

As for the resume, Jye believed it was well structured and designed, with a nice list of relevant jobs and skills. However, I could be more specific with what I want to do within the AFL or Cricket Australia as I just mentioned that I wanted to work for them but did not go into detail with what role I want. I should have also listed the volunteer experience I have such as help shoot the golf show, Golf Barons.

With my LinkedIn profile, Jye mentioned I provided a nice clear profile picture, good list of connections and strong list of work. However, believes I could add a background photo, and also an about me page. Both of which will be taken on board and fixed up.

I found the peer review to be very helpful to improve my resume, cover letter and LinkedIn profile. Jye provided me with clear and concise feedback on which I have taken on board and seek to help rectify, as I want to demonstrate my experience and skills in the best light possible to get the job I want.

Ferguson, J. (2022). Fresh Eyes. Sibirica, 21(2), 1–2. https://doi.org/10.3167/sib.2022.210201

[veworbasics]

Real tube overdrive bk butler tube works

#REAL TUBE OVERDRIVE BK BUTLER TUBE WORKS DRIVER#

#REAL TUBE OVERDRIVE BK BUTLER TUBE WORKS FULL#

(I have and like a lot of solid state pedals, but never use them. To hear this, it's important to compare directly, because taken alone, solid state pedals obviously can sound very fine. Solid state pedals sound kind of boxy, grainy and narrow compared to tube pedals/amps which sound more clear and open. Real tube pedals all sound more natural than transistor pedals. I personally play a SIB CUDA, a KOCH Superlead (these are great), sometimes a Blackstar HT Dual (great rocker), I used a SD Twin Tube before (not as good, but still better than solid state pedals).Ī discontinued VOX straight6 is great for fat low gain or clean. They can sound as great as any great tube amp, if they are put in front of a tube power amp.

#REAL TUBE OVERDRIVE BK BUTLER TUBE WORKS FULL#

These work with real tubes at full voltage and are the same like a tube preamp section. When buying a tube pedal, it's important to know if it's one of these or a real tube driven pedal. Matter of taste, but not the same as a real tube amp. These have no true tube sound, because they don't run on full voltage and therefore sound different. Ibanez tube king, Butler tube driver, etc. pedals with an alibi or starved mode tubeĮx. There are three kinds of "tube sounding" pedals, and knowing what's inside makes it easier to choose.Įxample: Tube screamer, OCD, and a zillion more.ĭo not really sound like a tube amp, but are fine for what they are.Ģ. The Jester does, cause that is what it is. None really sound like a tube amp, honestly. I haven't used thousands but I have had a bunch of the TS and TS type and Boss pedals. It sounds like a tube amp just breaking up, when fed into my dead clean SFDR (playing low volume, so not pushing it). Actually, in my current band, I use it on the lowest gain setting on about 1/2. It isn't super gainy, not like an Angry Charlie (which I also have and don't use). It is basically the OD channel from a tube amp in a box. I also had a Butler, the blue one, years ago. Since a 7660S won't work in this PS layout This goes on the back burner for now. I runs the tube on low power, it is basically a regular OD except the tube kind of smooths it out. I still have an old Ibanez tube king, I like it for gainy stuff. I got this after I sold my MK IV, and it really didn't sound like "typical" boogie stuff to me, like the MK stuff. But as someone said, the high gain channel was real "metal" sounding. Just be careful with the Master Volume control, because these things have the ability to REALLY hit the front end of your amp hard! In fact, they can drive a speaker as about a 1-watt tube practice amp with GREAT TONE.I had the Mesa one. This one has it's original (and wonderful) General Electric 12AX7's and they still test as better than new in my Hickock TV7 tester. There has never been a finer, more powerful actual tube overdrive pedal made. Oh, and there's the VERY powerful bass, middle, and treble controls as well as a very fender-like "bright" switch.

#REAL TUBE OVERDRIVE BK BUTLER TUBE WORKS DRIVER#

for a total of FOUR tube gain stages in the Tube Driver it's only one! Plus, these operate at twice the voltage of the original Tube Drivers. These are often refereed to as the predecessor to the "Tube Driver", but they are really VERY different pedals. This model is also the rarest, as it was only produces for a few months in 1981 before loosing the "Boogee" moniker. This one is from 1981, I personally feel this is the BEST model because it's still labeled "Boogee", and it's in the VERY Mesa-Boogie looking black-n-White color scheme. These things are legendary! There is lotsa chatter about these among serious players, but most folks have never even SEEN one in real life.īK Butler made only a few of these by hand from 1980-1981, then Randall Smith (Mesa-Boogie) asked him to use another name and in 1982-84 he made a few more labeled "Audio Matrix". I recently sold my stupidly rare Mini Boogee Pedal, but I made a little demo video before shipping her out. Hi gang! So this will be, for the most part a video blog. The Rare And Wonderful BK Butler Mini Boogee / Matrix Tube Overdrive Pedal BK Butler Mini Boogee Matrix Tube Pedal

#Real tube overdrive bk butler tube works

[paeusicons]

જ   ⃔ . . . 𝑺𝑰𝑵𝑩 fr. gfriend. (layouts)

reblog/lıke ıf you sɑve.

#sinb #gfriend #yeojachingu #hwang eunbi #sinb icons #sib layouts #sinb packs #hwang eunbi icons #gfriend icons #gfriend sinb #gfriend sinb icons #gfriend layouts #gfriend packs #gfriend kpop #kpop icons #kpop idols #kpop layouts #kpop packs #kpop

[noordzee]

Book of Days, holiday cleaning edition

21- Made a pumpkin alfredo using some of the pumpkin puree I still had left in the freezer from Halloween. It’s so gooood you guuuys 22- Continued experimenting with techniques for work, this time playing with a style I developed for a project earlier this year that involves a barrage of photoshop filters and bright colors. Felt nice to do something warm and bright to contrast the rainstorm outside. 23- Pretty much ran out of work to do at that point, but hey, it was my last workday of the year, so that worked out pretty well! 24- Look upon this laundry, my son. Everything the jersey cotton sheet set touches is still wet. 25- Christmas was spent cleaning at my parents’ house, I was on Dig Stuff Out Of The Playroom duty and came back with all my old Barbies. Still haven’t figured out where they’ll go, ha ha oh no 26- In between cleaning I had a Dungeons & Dragons Session Zero for my siblings! It being my first time DM’ing, though, there was a lot of looking desperately to my brother who had DM’d and asking advice. I looked up medieval European abacuses for Hemera instead of a calculator, because that’s how I like to have fun. 27- I didn’t mask up enough during the previous day’s chores, and wound up with an allergic reaction to the dust AGAIN... (and I know that’s a suspicious thing to say in these covid days, but it’s really a clockwork cause and effect now, I’m just still getting used to dealing with baby’s first allergy over here) 28- My to-do list that day was to dust, do laundry, start cookies, and cram in as much D&D research as I could. 29- My apartment was finally spotless, and I was able to welcome my brother and his wife to stay for the holiday -- with homemade cookies! 30- Our Christmas was delayed due to scheduling conflicts. We had a lovely, chill day. 31- The evening of New Year’s Eve it was finally time for our D&D oneshot! My sibs were champs, knocking over my improperly-scaled adversaries and navigating the dungeon layout i stole wholecloth adapted from the pyramid of khufu.

Whew!! That’s the whole year finished! Thank you for coming along on this journey with me, it’s been a lot of fun! I’m enjoying not being beholden to a daily art project for now, though who knows, Horace and Hemera may return again someday! Happy New Year, everyone!

#book of days 2021 #daily art challenge #illustration #artists on tumblr #copic markers #ink #digital #vector art #Dungeons and Dragons

[life-rewritten]

Lovely Writer Episode 3/4; The Discovery of Identity; Transformation, Perceptions and Hidden Ideals

Writing about this show is interesting, mostly because I have so much to say about everything. With this show it’s layers upon layers upon layers, it’s a lot of information even if it seems like a cheesy BL and like a typical storyline. The story tackles with so much irony and hints and clues to unveil and also representations of real life that takes sensitivity and time to understand and acknowledge. The show is so good already in 3-4 episodes and it’s also at times soft and romantic whilst also at times real and painful about some of the truths about society and the acting and writing industry. The director, screen writers and producers of the show have come with this ideology that they are making a BL storyline but they do not want to repeat the same mistakes as the previous, no instead they will call it out, educate the audience and also still have flawed characters learn and grow from their actions. That’s why with this show even the villains are not villains per say but humans who are forced to act the way they do to survive, they’re understandable and have reasons for why they will end up being an obstacle but also this show has no heroes, at first it seems that Gene and Sib the main characters are going to be perfect, and one dimensional caricatures that fall in love with no personality, depth or growth but actually both of them are flawed, have interesting perspectives on things, attitudes to people and ways of thinking that is vital to connecting them to where the story is going. And that’s brilliant. Whilst episode 3 is more information and outlook into the other characters as Gene deals with pressure of the industry and people and his new feelings for Nubsib, episode 4 is a softer , calmer episode dealing with Gene and Nubsib actually making their relationship mean something to the audience, showing that they could have a chance to grow a healthy, romantic love story and not the toxic, worrisome ones we feared.  And I adored both episodes. So this essay we are going to be focusing on the love story of Gene and Nubsib portrayed in these two episodes, but also how it connects to Gene’s self awareness, and also unveiling Nubsib’s character more and changing him from being seen in a sinister scary light to a soft romantic light instead.

The Price of Ambition: The Effects of Pressure

So First of all Episode 3 maps out what the writers and director want to achieve with this show. I tend to think this show becomes like a self insert for the director/writer. What they make Gene say about the way a story should be written, is also what they want to tackle and achieve with this. The nightmare scene discusses about the physical nature of BLs when it comes to NC scenes, the show mocks the lack of actually talking about the reality about what that entails by showing us Gene learn about positions and educate himself on that topic, but also it mocks the audience who expected from the books for the show to be more explicit and aggressive with NC since that’s what happens in the novel with Gene and Nubsib. Gene says in the nightmare scene that all he wants is a story that does not need that type of content to get fans but focuses on the depth of its characters, fleshing out their romance and showing why they are in love, a way to make the audience focus on the humanity of the characters as they fall in love. And that’s exactly what immediately the show starts to show, we start to immediately after the nightmare scene see Nubsib’s true colours and realise he’s not just with Gene for physical chemistry but he’s actually warm, comfortable and his love for Gene is actually quite pure and innocent despite him using inauthenticity to show it. So that’s important to think about because the next episode goes into more detail as well about these two’s romance, we start to really flesh out our characters opinions on companionship and love and we evade a NC scene by focusing on gentleness, devotion and protective love that Nubsib has for Gene as he ensures that he treats Gene properly and does the right thing and wait for consent. That’s one of the best things about this show, it will talk about the issues of BL industry but it’s not going to repeat the same mistakes its making. Yes Nubsib seems like a typical controlling, manipulative BL lead but actually he’s different and all we have to do is wait to understand why he’s hiding who he is and what his aims are. But the show is also not afraid to talk about flawed characters, and problematic actions, we may have characters that make mistakes because that’s life but they will learn from those actions. This is why I’m really in love with this show.

 Episode 3-4 also tackles transformation and the discovery and awareness of self. Especially since in episode 3 the theme is pressure, the pressure to conform which makes Hin want to start writing new BL novels like Gene did so he can get more success and notice from his writing, pressure to be something different like Aey has to do because he’s pressured to act romantic on set with Nubsib with people who objectify and sexualise them, and pressure for Gene to write more NC scenes and lose his own values and ideas on what he wants his content to be like. So there is this idea of pressure causing characters to transform and push down parts of them self.

Desperation and Transformation

I do not know where Hin is going in the storyline of course episode 4 focuses most of the story on the development and intimacy of Gene and Sib’s new relationship but in episode 3, I still feel like I could be right about Hin. Hin is a mirror image of Gene just like Aey is a mirror image of Nubsib. Both of them are exposing the hidden flaws of the characters.  The more we focus on him the more we have a storyline for him building, we’ve been told he wants to be a writer,  he’s not making money, he’s not being noticed, he has a lot of things that he wants to do but his sacrifices hint that there is a desperation in him that I think it’s really important to observe and notice that’s going to make him soon snap or act out. In episode 3 Hin mentions his new BL novel more, and he asks Gene to look into it. I do need to mention that Hin and Gene have essentially the same outline/novel idea because it’s both based on the love story of Gene and Nubsib brewing. Gene is writing about an actor and a writer falling in love with each other, Hin is writing about an editor in chief falling in love with an actor it’s really similar, like really really similar as a layout, it may be different because he doesn’t always see them but what are the odds that he is writing out the same dynamics as Gene’s new novel and asking to Gene to look at it. If the novel ends up being similar isn’t he essentially a rival to Gene? Where is Hin’s storyline going? No matter how much I want to say his journey is to write and become popular and to assert himself with his BL writing, I just don’t see it not being more important?

 All I see is a layout for Gene and him being rivals even though it doesn’t seem like it right now but for him to be like Gene you’re my idol, I look up to you and I really love you, yeah positivity, it’s great he’s inspired by Gene, it’s great that he feels these emotions towards Gene, and there’s no hostility, but I do think that if he thinks Gene is taking writing for granted, or doing something that makes him look like he’s taking that path for granted, then he would be affected, and be disappointed, and disappointment breeds resentment so I think it’s really interesting Hin isn’t being noticed by the publisher, he’s in a desperate situation right now,  pressured right now to do something good and so he’s started to start writing BLs similar to Gene, I can’t help see similarities to ideas about plagiarism, because twice they have mentioned him being immensely helpful and writing the same ideas as Gene, I can’t help notice that they’re both writing for the same publisher and one of their new books is going to be seen as more fit for the publisher, and three Tee has directed and loved characters that seem positive and obsessed with the main character only for that character to be revealed to be the obsession drove that person to villainy. Pressure and Desperation reaches a height with him, and he reacts by giving into that and being an obstacle to Gene later. I love Hin right now but I can’t help thinking he’s going to be an obstacle to Gene and Nubsib, I can’t help thinking he’s an obstacle to writing path of Gene because   he really could sacrifice Gene to become like Gene, to replace Gene, because he needs money and notoriety to make it as a  writer.  Hin also mentioning Gene as an idol is mirroring Nubsib because that’s exactly what Nubsib also sees him as, Nubsib relates to Hin, because  he understands being affected and looking up to him the same way.  Gene gives him a positive feeling and makes him want to do well, and pushes him to do more I’m guessing.

There is twice that Gene is mentioned as an idol to others, he’s an idol to Hin and he’s an idol to Aey. Nubsib does not like that Aey has read Gene’s novels, he does not like the fact that Aey seems really supportive towards Gene. One Nubsib can call out bullshit, because he’s king of faking and pretending,   and as mentioned Aey is like Nubsib’s mirror character, I think Nubsib knows how fake Aey is and he sees Aey as a rival. I really do think the mirror characters may be rivals to each other to and that’s the pattern. Two is Nubsib jealous because he thinks there’s any chance for Gene and Aey to get close? The jealousy and frustration and possessiveness he feels for Gene around Aey is something that needs to be noticed, because Sib definitely has an issue with Aey only he and Aey knows about. I don’t know why he’s so upset about Aey’s actions because he’s literally doing the same thing, he sees Gene as an idol etc, so why’s he upset about Aey unless he sees Aey in him  and that he’s just as fake as he is being. So there’s two reactions from Nubsib towards the two who mention they look up to Gene, one is jealousy and disgust and anger towards Aey and the other is support and understanding towards Hin.

In the episode where the nightmare scene talks about how Gene wants to focus on characters and not focus on the sexual relationships of the BL storyline, not focus on the toxicity of the characters but the depth and reality about their relationship and personalities, we finally get to see the answer to our question, Nubsib is 100% in love with Gene, there is no  weird scary feelings about him in both episode 3 and 4. Episode 3 exposes how he feels for Gene, his natural state and personality with Gene, even when Gene is not watching him, he’s still devoted and caring about him when Gene is sick, he doesn’t need to do that if he’s being creepy and evil and what not, every single thing he does with Gene it’s like there’s a hold on him, and he forgets where he is and it’s just filled with ultimate devotion, ultimate care, and three Nubsib is someone who cares and cherishes Gene so much that his consent is important to him. Nubsib is very practical and serious about issues with consent, even with the kiss, he ensures Gene is okay with it, even in episode 4, he struggles to not give in to Gene’s drunk demands telling Gene he’ll wait till he’s ready. He’s not forceful, he’s not controlling, all he wants is for Gene to be near him and okay.

 Now you could argue that there is a line between non consent and manipulation/coercion but I do think Nubsib was falling more into the line of coercion a little bit as first like manipulating a need for a kiss, but the most important thing that has been noticed since episode 2, is that it’s not by force, he gives Gene a lot of options repeatedly, even if he acts all sad to get guilt, or what he wants. It’s also not because he is sad that Gene is like let’s do whatever it is, it’s more like Gene sees it as opportunity to get better with his writing since Sib inspires him to write, but also he feels comfortable and safe with Nubsib. Nubsib asking for consent is something I really appreciate about him and something I like about him so much.

  Gene’s self discovery is also explored in episode 4 more when we have an episode that just focuses on him and Nubsib starting their relationship. There is a transformation of Gene who is avoidant and evasive of companionship to someone who starts to want that and see the value in that by living with Nubsib for almost a month. By the end of episode 3, his fear of vulnerability and the truth makes him regress and try to bring back what he sees as normal and get some kind of control of his environment that Nubsib has successfully invaded in.

Nubsib; The catalyst for transformation and inspiration

Nubsib causes Gene to have a transformation. Not that being an introvert is a bad thing, I’m an introvert and I also dislike always being forced to go out and hang out in large crowds. But it’s about how Nubsib’s presence is essentially making Gene become better, discover his loneliness in distancing himself from people due to his obsession and focus on writing. Nubsib makes Gene feel good and that’s why you see a difference in him from episode 3-4 after spending just almost a month with him. Even though I was confused with his transformation this episode just because he seemed more outgoing, a bit more open to people, as we see in episode 4, his work is what pulls him away from people but also it’s how he feels when he’s surrounded by people who make him feel uncomfortable. People who bring out worry, insecurity and more. He rather just focus on writing than deal with those people.

I do agree that Nubsib is invasive until episode 4 ha. Gene is an introvert. And as one the way Nubsib does invade his space was a lot, but Nubsib just has feelings for Gene, he’s a doe eyed puppy around him, he loses himself basically when he gets into caring mode with Gene, he doesn’t try to hide his support and eagerness to be with Gene and show him affection,  because it’s so automatic for him to  take care of him, protect him, treat him, because he sees Gene as a romantic partner so I do agree it is uncomfortable but that’s not the reason why Gene is even weird about it. Episode 3 and 4 is about Gene’s internalised homophobia about his sexuality. When Gene starts to put two and two about his feelings for Nubsib he explodes with anxiety and anger because he’s still struggling to accept who he is, but also he has a lot of misunderstandings and biased opinions about what being gay/queer actually means. Because of the way BL has made him view it as unrealistic, shallow, and well toxic, not that being gay is that, but he believes him ending up that way makes him like the characters in his novel, makes him be part of a world he’s seen so negatively about, something he’s trying to escape from because of seeing it as shallow and toxic. When Nubsib invades Gene’s space as well, its for positive reasons  it’s not  him purposely trying to make Gene uncomfortable, it’s to help and make sure Gene is okay, safe and cared for. So it’s not because Gene is scared by Nubsib’s actions because he’s scary but it’s because of panic and repressed feelings he’s felt for him since episode 1. So these are ways we can tell that Nubsib’s feelings under his façade is genuine, he’s just like Aey and others where they are inspired and affected by Gene.

Nubsib: The catalyst for transformation and self discovery

The past two episodes instead of seeing Nubsib being ‘shady’ just like what Gene wanted from the nightmare scene, we saw Nubsib’s good side. His genuine personality with Gene is exactly how he treats him. What I’ve decided with Sib’s character is he’s not evil, manipulative or someone so powerful he thinks he can get with everything. He’s not greedy or scary. He’s just a spoilt child. A child who wants attention, a child who feels neglected, hence he acts like how a spoilt child does, he manipulates the situation to get what he wants and is  a brat, but acts like an innocent person on the surface to get what he wants but he’s in a position of being used to getting what he wants, a position of power especially with Tum who he screams at and shouts at, that’s what a child does, just throws tantrums and make it hard for the person they know they have control over. He’s just a child who’s naïve, puppy like, who wants Gene to look at him. But he’s also spoilt because he’s in a place of privilege, so him being spoilt makes him treat others badly, but Gene makes him different, he wants to be someone better for Gene.    

As of episode 1, it has been hinted that Gene is attracted to Nubsib, he feels this inherent care for Nubsib, wants to hang around him and is also curious about him naturally. He is affected by Nubsib’s presence, and his presence  is the the thing inspiring him and makes him want to write. He’s being inspired by his real feelings but doesn’t know that because he has IH. So the question was in episode 3, as the show started to hint about it; if Gene knows about his identity and sexuality and who he is or was he learning about himself through finally falling in love with Nubsib. I thought he was learning about it but episode 4 made me think he’s known and has just been avoiding it. Gene isn’t homophobic as I’ve seen people worry he is, he has a very ignorant, uneducated, societal opinion on what those relationships is like. So Gene is like very similar to another character Tee directed Type from TharnType (before all those who detest this idea start to click of listen to the explanation),  the thing with Type was his was psychological trauma and hate and pain making him have the mindset he had, he never got to know or understand who he was because he tried hard to avoid thinking about anything to do with sexuality. With Gene, it’s his writing that makes him act sometimes homophobic, makes him overreact when there’s ideas to him being queer/gay or being in a situation like that, the way he acts is because of the corruption of the industry he has had to witness; its why he thinks its all shallow, no substance, it’s so ironic and funny to me because he’s about to find out that what these stories portray or the boys love does have substance, because now he’s falling in love, like real love, authentic love he now understands the real feelings behind wanting to write a boys love story about just two men in a relationship, he now understands the sexual attraction behind some things, why it’s just like any other novel about real life relationships, he understands why characters in BL might be more important than just what the industry is using it for.

Gene’s way of educating himself as the show goes on in this industry is so great to me and one of the reasons I adored episode 3. Opening himself, researching and trying to understand more about things is so important because

1.       He’s a writer trying to do well by this genre but he also feels uncomfortable about

2.       He’s someone represented by this genre as he is  queer character.

3.       He’s literally going through self discovery the more he writes his novel

 For example the nightmare scene in episode 3 is the catalyst of that episode. It what spirals the transformation in Gene’s character we start to see, from being withdrawn to starting to be comfortable and open. He goes through the nightmare and Nubsib shows him care when sick. (That’s what he represents to him, comfort, healing, warmth, companionship, protection). Because he feels cared for by him, he also starts to want to show the same to Nubsib to show him the same care, warmth that Nubsib was showing him etc. And because he has been holding unto his feelings for Nubsib, has been feeling overwhelmed by his fear about them, when he gets drunk to avoid dealing with him sending him away, he blurts out all he’s felt, he becomes the most truthful at that moment because he’s been holding unto all these thoughts since he first met him. But he also says to Nubsib in episode 4 that he reminds him of a lead BL character and it’s like aww he complimented his looks but the fact that Nubsib reminds him of that isn’t a good thing to Gene remember, he doesn’t want to end up like BL characters because he thinks there’s no substance, no truth, just toxicity with that situation so it’s something he panics about that it’s ironic because he’s essentially falling for someone and playing out a BL trope. 

BL: The pressure of transformation and authenticity 

Another thing meta about this show is the inclusion and mirroring of Bad Engineer the series. I mentioned in my previous essay whilst Bad Engineer is another meta call out to the industry it also could play a role as a shadowing device to show you similarities and differences between Nubsib and Aey the actors who play Kin and Bun the caricatures and characters that are exaggerated. It kind of exposes the thoughts and ideas about these two in an interesting way. Let me explain.  Bad engineer starts of with Bun being forced to get the attention of Kinn who is aggressive and seen as wanted and powerful but too scary to go near to. After he hugs Kin we already are hinted from Nubsib’s audition line that Kin could not let go of the mark Bun left on him and becomes essentially obsessive and controlling over Bun wanting to be with Bun. Okay first of all it’s already calling out and exaggerating the obsession that Nubsib seems to have for Gene, he would go to lengths to hide who he is, make up excuses to be near him and hide his power and privilege (by lying he’s poor, and about his housing situation essentially lying about the power he probably does hold over people) which is why his exact words he says to Gene in the audition is foreshadowing, he knows who Gene is before, he’s been affected by whoever Gene was to him in the past and he’s in love with him. Just like Kin proceeds become hooked onto Bun.  

 What’s really funny is that Aey is playing a character that is very vulnerable and gentle and sweet, like what is normally perceived as a typical feminine uke stereotype. It’s interesting because its because he gives of this vibes that he was chosen for this audition, but also in reality he’s wearing a mask to act like this to Gene and everyone around him especially the vulnerable act, where he makes you feel guilty for being in his way or making you feel pitiful for how he’s treated by Nubsib. The fact that Tawan (played by Mhok in the series) is a second lead in bad engineer the series and Mhok is essentially in the second lead role for Aey, he’s the one behind the scenes unrequitedly loving and caring and worrying about the main lead but is always neglected or pushed aside for the other main which is mirroring how Aey isn’t seeing how Mhok cares for him (he gets so jealous if you notice whenever he has to see Aey and Nubsib together) and is pushing him away to focus on his hunt for fame by getting Nubsib’s attention.

Nubsib has a different type of similarity with Kin. It’s how people perceive him that’s similar to how Kin is on the surface, but also Kinn is an exaggerated character, who is toxic and Nubsib as finally shown isn’t going to be toxic or problematic because the writers don’t want him to be that way. For some reason Kin is filled with anger and is aggressive and loud, Nubsib isn’t as angry as Kin but he also expresses his distaste of things when it doesn’t go his way with anger and tantrums to Tum especially because he’s a spoilt child. Kin is possessive, aggressive and obsessive and even though Nubsib isn’t like that in a large scale, he has some of those traits, he is possessive with Gene, and protective and jealous easily when it comes to him thinking something is in the way. Kin is a trope, he’s written to make fun of semes in BLs like Fighter from WhyRU, someone seen as cold and indifferent to people who is meant to be seen as rough and mean, rich, but then the story unveils a softer side when he’s with his partner later. Or Kin also reminds of toxic Kdrama male characters (its not just BL this trope is used), like Gu Jun Pyo from boys over flowers who is just like Kin because he’s rich and spoilt. The reason why Kin and Nubsib is similar is because is that Kin likes to get what he wants, he’s just as invasive, he’s forceful (though as mentioned Nubsib isn’t as problematic with this as Kin), he’s just as determined to do what it takes to get his partner. Both portray this demenour around them where they are not meant to be messed with. 

And I think that’s important about Nubsib, there’s some kind of power and control he has that makes people not mess around with him when  Gene is not in front of him, he doesn’t try to be nice or kind as he does when he’s with Gene. Things that they don’t have in common is that for Gene, Nubsib is the opposite, he’s gentle to Gene, because he’s determined to a better person to him, he’s manipulative but he’s not forceful or aggressive towards him, although he wears a mask, he’s actually authentically automatically the way he is with Gene as we have seen in both episodes. Gene transforms him; he makes him kind, caring and sweet. Gene is a prized person to him; so valuable and worthy that he doesn’t even think he’s worthy as he is for him hence why he chooses to be better with him,  he doesn’t see Gene as less than him but the others he does which is something that does need to be worked on. But if he is spoilt and privilege, if he’s been so used to people treating him this way then I can see why he can be this way. So Kin and Nubsib’s character calls out Nubsib’s flaws and Aey and Bun’s character also show what Aey wants people to view him as on the surface and Mhok and Tawan are mirroring the same roles. 

Bad engineer being written by Gene is so funny to me since all he does is like complain how much he hates everything to do with tropes like it, so there must be some kind of shame inside him for him writing it to remove pressure from his company even though he doesn’t want BL to mean that. It also again shadows Hin’s desperation as Hin takes on his own BL novel, because Gene must have been so desperate when he first wrote it because he was writing it just to also please people and be noticed as a writer more.

Lovely Writer is it obvious despite my late releases of my analysis that I am obsessed and I have high respect and love for this show? The fact that there is problematic worries in the storyline, there are flawed characters and action in the plot, but they’re so real and human. The fact that this show talks about BL, and is trying to make fun of it, call it out but then the characters in it are also falling into some of its tropes and ideas. But it does show that with love sometimes people do get into these situations even though it’s seen as problematic or weird, but it’s dealing with sexual attraction, showing instant connections and portraying passion, sometimes when people are into someone you can get crazy, possessive, sometimes you may even want to be with that person all the time. It’s really important that the show is drawing a line between what is toxic and what is not, what is romantic and what is not, the authenticity of romance vs the idealism of romance in tv shows and  books. The fact that Gene and Nubsib are falling in love with each other and are going to go through a lot together I think shows me that at the end I will also think they’re meant to be together, they’re like a realistic couple falling in love. Gene feels real to me. Nubsib feels human to me even though we’re uncovering his personality. All of the characters feel real and dimensional to me. It’s something I love about the show, it just feels so real despite being literally a BL that’s making fun of how unrealistic BLs are, it’s so real, it’s so meta, it’s so important and I really think it’s needed in this genre, and industry. I think it’s such a great, great show. I love Tee, because he’s good at directing these layered, meta, deep shows always able to provide reasons for why the story is the way it is, what its trying to show, why the characters are the way they are and make mistakes, there’s so much depth to his stories and the things he chooses to focus each time he does a show. In a way Gene’s character development and growth is so important to me because to him the BL industry and genre is bad, and the show seems like that’s what its message is as well, because that’s what his perception seems to portray only, as Gene falls for Nubsib who is literally like a trope that reminds him of the stories he seems to hate (especially when he discovers his inauthenticity) ,  as he falls in love and finds out more about his relationship, his sexuality, his identity as he starts to realise how BL should be written, why it should be created, that there can be authentic love stories in BL,  he can change what BL represents for people like him. I just think its fantastic to see him with a negative perception on writing BL to finally understanding why it should be written but it should be written in a different way, or changed to fit a different way, instead of letting corruption happen he shouldn’t give in but should try and change. He may be making fun of the fact that BL is known for its weird tropes like NC, but NC is real its just attraction between two people, as long as its not toxified or problematic its just another way people can show feelings, there’s so many het series that have NC scenes but when it comes to BL its seen as a fetish or something negative when really if done right its just two people being like normal couple and giving into their affections for each other. Yeah I think this is amazing to talk about and portray. This is one of my favourite shows right now, and I’m so eager about where we’re going with this. Because I just love the layers, the message and the story.

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