#sighhhhhy

[tylostoma]

sighhhhhy whatever *waddles back into igloo and slams the door shut*

[ikyw-t]

here's the main dilemma of my life: i think that my life would likely be improved by spending significantly less time online and therefore on tumblr, but also, esp in the panini, tumblr has been the vast majority of where i get my socializing, and also the biggest problem throughout my whole life has been loneliness and feeling like i don't belong and not having a sense of community. and so uninstalling this ridiculous little app would leave me feeling even more lonely and disconnected from the world which is already something i struggle with but also being online so much is also probably not great for me so -

#tis the ultimate dilemma. #yes it's sad. yes this is my life. #anyway im going back home in a couple days. after spending two months in romania with my grandparents and my mom #i get to go back to my own house with my cat and two roommates and their three cats and one guinea pig #so ill be on my own and with my dear dear cat whomst ive missed so much #but i have to sigh bc i just do not have many irl friends. #here i was spending time with my mom and her group of friends (who are all vaccinated and also ro has had very very few cases) #and also with my childhood bff and his gf #and back home it's like... i dont rly have anyone to see irl. sigh. makes you wonder #how i manage to make friends like every once in a while and then lose them so quick #and it's like huh. rly does make u think huh. makes u think. #it's ok school starts in a month and I'll get to meet new ppl there and hopefully make new friends #like thats the goal. but as always. we will see. #and i always start with low hopes but also realistically i always have such high high hopes bc like.... #if i didn't it would truly be so depressing #sighhhhhy #anyway #eating black cherries gonna have some water and then find a movie to watch #p