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[mamasemeraldjourney]

The Seasonal mood that tends to come to many as we have now set the clocks back,its getting darker earlier & just overall even the winter atmospheric pressure has changed (which affects some of us more then others 😅 😒) and there has been an overall down feeling around many I've been able to come out of my hole & talk to the last few days😊

Knowing the days you want to crawl into a hole for a combination of great physical & mental discomfort are exactly the days you SHOULDN'T crawl into a hole & also knowing one of my very best friends & neighbors, Stacey (who friends the good&challenging days just as strongly as I do, we both have i guess an empath side you could say we feel for other's very deeply also) is almost always in a similar funk type of mood at the same time I am, I picked up the phone; although it took me a few extra minutes, physical symptoms were more bothersome then they have been as my circulation seemed so poor, my joints & muscles were painful enough I just kept uncontrollable dropping things. Although, I am learning little signs my body is giving me ahead of time so often I am able to put tbing down before I drop them.

I'm learning to just listen to what my body says it needs, which despite physically feeling worse, I felt a pull of a magnet drawing me the short amounts of steps from my front door to Stacey's front door. The fresh air will be good for me & I knew we both need nothing only the companionship & love of a friend that understands but we both also needed the positive energy thats created whenever we are together. I can say I have always left her companionship in a happier mood the. Before we had gotten together. Before I left I felt the pull to my jewelry bench, I needed to make her a "quick " friendship bracelet.

TWO hours later, after I had realized it was supposed to he simple & meaningful & had therefore lost its purpose sp i walked away git my things ready to head over to her house went back down for my shoes looked at my jewelry bench again and behold two exactly silver alike sun& moon charm. Needles to say the creativity bug sparked no im sorry to report I made it so quickly like it was natural & it was received with more friendship love, gratitude & appreciation then I could've ever dreamed ❤ #yourthepissinmypants we've created as a meme sent that just fit & we've reused.

Today to start of most people's shorter work week with a Thanksgiving break I'll start with today off giving thanks for something each day. Theres always another day to write about the rougher times or medical stuff.

I've really learned to appreciate (again....except im still FULLY learning to wrap my head to accept 100% the fact every single symptom can be traced to some type of autoimmune responses the likely candidates probably depending on genetics but a lot are treated the same way...FOREVER. If you know me at all I cant he physically or mentally immobile it REALLY challenges me to he physically down & unable to do my normal activities.Having to accept you may not ever do some things you could do just a year ago ever again. So there's another day for that)

Today I am SO thankful for my #besthusbandever hubby is suffering watching me suffer. I feel I shouldn't have to hide how much pain I'm in,but knowing and feeling the pain its causing him breaks me when the physical pain doesn't so yes I don't often let on just exactly how bad I feel yet I know he feels. But im thankful for all of it. Just my not wanting to complain about my pain around him it helps me stay positive & believe it myself hence a little less pain. I love him.for everything.

Im so that kful for my 3 wonderful kind caring smart children.

Im beyond thankful & blessed to have two best friends i don't know wbst id do without either of you!