#skipped dinner by accident but didnt regret it and actually felt smug abt it. still do tbh😼

[daydreamerunlimited]

i am once again thinking abt how my ed never actually went away and that literally all i did was stop exercising as much as i did

#just today i: #actively chose iced tea over breakfast #only ate fruit salad at lunch (to be fair i wasnt hungry but i also knew i shouldve had more so😐 idk what do u think) #thought abt how many cals id burn pacing #found out that weight loss is a side effect of concerta and unironically considered downing the whole bottle #skipped dinner by accident but didnt regret it and actually felt smug abt it. still do tbh😼 #going to bed hungry🥰🥰 #yknow. the little me in my heads telling me that im bullshitting an ed and it 'wasnt even that bad in the first place' #but not! a! single!! day goes by where i DONT think abt what i could look like now if i kept going like i was #i was going through the weight loss tag on tiktok the other day cus.. yknow #and i saw this girl who had the EXACT SAME BUILD as me before #and she lost fat and looked like EXACTLY how i want to look. #like. ur fucking telling me. that could be me?? like right now???????? #tbh if i had the same will to exercise that i did when i was 14 id be past that girl #id literally be dead #ouughhhh anyway. #my main ed tag is just. #ed #but. im gonna tag this more so i cover everything #ed tw #ed cw #ok ty for reading.. if u did then kissy for u!! i hope u had/r currently having a good day <3