#sleep rambles

[sleepvines]

Just finished reading Gideon the Ninth.

Astonishing. Somehow, all at once: complex and well woven, painstakingly ornamented; blunt and crass and unafraid to shout it from the rooftops; wildly brutal, it doesn't pull any punches. No, not even that one.

Did I get confused multiple times? Yes. Did Tamsyn Muir pull me to my feet and say "you'll get it eventually" until I got it? Also yes. Things clicked into clarity in retrospect from the initial mystery of Canaan House to the finale and it was electrifying. I love that shit. Realizations that only dawn after it's all too late to change are as deeply satisfying as they are morbid.

I am different after this book, it's shown me things you can do with the medium of novels that is—to make a pun of it—incredibly novel! You can slam down some vernacular you find familiar and emotional, while also having sophisticated vocab at the ready to make those little moments pack more of a grounded punch.

And the supplementary content at the end was great!!

Hats off to this author for cleaving such a unique, gripping path. Woo!

#sleep rambles #the locked tomb #gideon the ninth #I'm so fucked up!!!! this ruled #it ruled so much #I love Gideon as a character so much and I love Harrow as a foil #*Her* foil #gahh! #💗💗💗 #usually I'd leave a review on my other blog but I want to put this on main just because #ALSO! this means I can finally start reading Said The Black Horse which!! I'm thrilled forrr!!!!

[darklighthedgehog]

With the Cursed AU, whether or not I have the permission to continue it I am going to make one more image were its instead Moon as a Scarecrow and Sun as a Rooster (i remembered its name this time). Its gonna be a really silly image were its just Moon yelling at a rooster Sun to stay silent for 5 more minutes.

#hedge rant #sleep rambles #good night #i remembered the rooster because there is currently one shouting at 2 am #mr rooster please stop i want to sleep

[teaboot]

On of the less intuitive things about love, I've found, of any kind, is the importance of needing things.

I didn't realize it until recently, but I've always seen love as something requiring sacrifice, selflessness, patience, and generosity- to ask for nothing is to be the best person I can be, small and quiet and never in the way, always happy and helpful, self-sufficient and present when desired.

It's only as an adult, now, that I'm beginning to see the selfishness of wanting nothing.

I cut my friend's hair in my kitchen the other day. They wanted a trim and I had the skills, so I offered, and was genuinely excited when they stopped hesitating over "bothering me" and took me up on it. It was a peaceful afternoon, and we had tea and chatted for an hour or more.

My brother and I shared popcorn at the movies a while ago. When I came time to pay, I pulled my card out like a wild western sheriff and slapped it on the machine before he could fight me for it first. The satisfaction was delightful.

Someone called me crying on the phone the other day. Kept apologizing for disturbing me at work, talking about how they were bothering me on my lunch break. I was telling the truth when I told them that really, I was flattered and honored and relieved, knowing that if they were hurting I would know, that I didn't have to worry in silence. It felt good to hear them slowly come down, and to know that they knew it would be better soon, and to hear them laugh wetly on the other end. We're getting together for a visit next week.

It's hard to need things, if you've trained yourself not to. It's hard to want things, when you don't know how to want anymore. Trusting people is difficult, and so is relying on them, but I don't know where I'd be without the people who rely on me.

I've heard a lot of people say, "Nobody will love you unless you love yourself". I've had a lot of thoughts about it. It's not right, but it's not wrong, either, I think.

"Nobody will love you unless you love yourself"... I've always taken that to mean, "You will not be lovable until you develop a positive view of yourself as a person".

Now, I think it's sort of inside-out.

"Nobody will love you unless you love yourself"... because nobody can show their love to you in a way that you can accept until you treat yourself kindly, and learn what you need, and what you want, and how to ask for it, and then give that vulnerability away.

Love, for me, is someone I ask for a ride to the airport. Whether they end up doing this or not is irrelevant.

It's not needy, or selfish, or taking up energy. It's giving the gift of being wanted, and needed, and thought of. It's giving someone the security of being part of someone's life.

#Ramble #Sorry I just took my sleeping pills lol #Seepy

[crowleys-bentley-and-plants]

New concept idea: blackout poetry of the bible but make it as gay as possible (and good omens themed of course)

#good omens #ive had 4 hours of sleep last night can you tell #crowley #aziraphale #ineffable husbands #good omens 2 #good omens season 2 #go2 #ramble gamble

[tawaifeddiediaz]

you know what boils my blood.

over the last 2 weeks, i've seen countless patients walk into my urgent care center, symptomatic for so many things, refusing to get tested for covid and flu, citing that they don't want to knowingly bring it to their holiday tables. i had a patient tell me, verbatim, "i don't want to test for covid, because i don't want to be the asshole who brings it on a plane."

i understand that - i understand that holidays are times where people look forward to meeting loved ones that they might only see once a year, or where they get a break from the hectic back and forth of their lives.

but here's the thing - whether they get tested or not, they will bring whatever they have to their holiday tables. it's pure recklessness to know that you're sick, and walk into someone else's house spreading the disease.

today, january 2, i saw 91 patients, many of them who have tested positive for covid and flu. many of these patients are the same ones who didn't want testing 3 days ago, until their events were over, and now, they will have to reach out to everyone they know to let them know that they were positive because they were showing symptoms well before their event.

the next week or two? we're going to see many, many more, all people with symptoms that started around christmas. these are the only two viruses we test for rapidly in our office, but they are potent and can be fatal in many people.

so here's why i wrote this post, and maybe it's a little late, but - if you care about your loved ones, please get tested if you know you're sick. it doesn't have to be at a clinic if you don't want it to, because the over-the-counter tests work just fine too (if you test within 5-7 days of symptom onset). just...please don't try to run from the knowledge that you might have covid, because immunocompromised people, elderly people, people with co-morbidities like asthma, pregnancy, diabetes, etc...many of them may not recover. and they may not be sitting at your holiday table in the future because of it.

#zee rambles #this isn't to guilt trip anyone #but im so so tired of people coming in and just refusing testing because they want to see grandma or whatever #and on top of that people are avoiding vaccinations and all that too?? #we all lived through the pandemic - everyone saw how many people unfortunately passed away from it #now because of vaccinations and some amount of herd immunity we're finding milder cases in healthy people #but that doesn't mean its gone #that doesn't mean it doesn't have long-term repercussions even in healthy people and that doesn't mean people aren't still dying from it #honestly i just needed a lil rant #and if this helps at least one person??? im all for it #also i can't sleep so here we are spilling thoughts into the voidddd

[salamispots]

dream wip

#wip #artists on tumblr #flotsam diaries #arrhghhgg happy I got the textures I was aiming for #I was gonna go sleep but eve's song kororon really got me :'D #cough you can see the full image on uh instagram story if you don't wanna wait haha #technically this one's not a wip but wanna draw some others/make it a set #might tweak the octo though #anyways nOW I will sleep #muffled laugh #edit: oh!! thank for you radar tumblr staff :0 #but also radar putting my post tag ramblings on bLAST LMAO

[sadmages]

In my mind palace my tav and Astarion are playing the exact same game of 5D chess and they don't realize it yet

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #astarion #bg3 tav #my art #gabby plays bg3 #shadowheart #and #lae'zel #are also here #anyway tag ramble time just got the romance scene where you can hug him and on my knees.....this guy..... #astarion: hey i was kinda sleeping with you to save my ass but turns out im feeling real emotions now #matt marja: wtf. me too. this is so embarrassing for both of us we're idiots [tenderly hold hands] #i thought up matt for a campaign we may or may not play last year and deciding to play him in bg3 because i thought it would be funny #to put him against this guy who seemingly has many of his same issues. Best idea i've ever had. the emotional catharsis im experiencing #matt marja

[somegrumpynerd]

Thinking about how Nightmare has 4 mortals and 3 of them are so so bad at taking care of themselves

#UTDR #UTMV #My Art #Truce au #Killer Sans #Dust Sans #Cross Sans #Horror Sans #Nightmare Sans #''I don't feel like drawing a bunch I'll just do a quick silly doodle'' sits up until 1am finishing this #But this is about their bad habits not mine so #Killer and Cross are the worst offenders for sleep but they're pretty managable #Dust is the worst for food but Horror can coax him into enough food to get by #Horror was - for a short time when he first joined - Nightmare's clear favourite #Because he would actually ASK for things when he needed them #(Not that his joining didn't have problems of it's own but y'know #Nightmare was starting to expect it at this point) #I should ramble for 10 pages about the boys joining the gang someday #Not now cause I'm going to bed but y'know #Anyway goodnight gang!

[crescentmp3]

hmm i should sleepy. *ten million explosions

#im sorry its very funny to me when theres an abrupt explosion or the likes happening in a post #now i /should/ sleep #will i? only time will tell #🌙rambling

[turtleblogatlast]

AU where Leo is trapped in the Prison Dimension for months instead of minutes and the only way he gets by with his sanity intact is through recording himself talking to his wrist comm.

When they finally manage to get Leo back and make him rest up to heal, Donnie can’t help but listen to the recordings left behind.

He’s not sure what exactly he’s expecting, only that his subconscious is screaming at him that it has to be heartbreaking, that it has to be torturous.

Instead, what Donnie is subject to is a full thousand hours’ worth of Jupiter Jim and Lou Jitsu crossover fanfiction. More than one part in the series. Spanning well over a million words.

(The worst part is that it’s actually good.)

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt headcanons #donnie keeps the comms going on in the background as he works #when he gets to the end he’s like what the hell…where’s the rest #donnie: leo where’s part nine #leo barely cognizant after not needing sleep for months: whuh- #donnie: you can’t leave it at a cliffhanger. leo. leo where’s the next part. #listen leo has a great memory for his special interests this is CANON plus he’s a great talker so he would totally be able to do this frfr #whenever he needs to be quiet he’s SILENT but otherwise he’s regaling the exploits of his idols to the captive audience that is The Photo #sometimes Krang sneaks up on him and just listens to him talk like ???? #it starts both as leo trying to comfort himself with his favorite things PLUS comfort himself with thoughts of his father #as splinter makes his own crossover fanfiction when sick lol plus he’s Literally Lou Jitsu #and yes krang ALSO gets a bit invested #leo notices the reduction of Ouch but hey more time for rambling fanfic for him 👍 #idk leo’s a damn good actor/liar/planner/schemer and I genuinely think that can pivot into storytelling so well #the literal second mikey’s hands heal donnie zooms to his side with hand stabilizers and a request to draw ‘scene 82 from recording 3’ #mikey’s like what #so obvs now HE needs to listen as he works #he too gets invested #he comes across raph who mentions having trouble sleeping #mikey: have I got the podcast fanfic for you! #it only somewhat helps raph sleep #somewhat bc sometimes he forces himself to stay awake to hear the rest #yes these recordings go to the whole fam and leo is none the wiser #they don’t even mean to hide it it just never comes up lol #it’s only when donnie FINALLY makes it to the end of the recordings that he confronts leo to continue the story #leo: oH YOU HEARD ALL THAT HUH-

[lazylittledragon]

isn't it weird how if you get up at 7 or 8, do your work all day, then have free time and go to bed at 11 that's absolutely fine

but if i said i get up at 10, do fun stuff in the morning then work in the evening and go to bed late, i could be called lazy, nevermind that i'm getting just as much or MORE work done as i would in a traditional work day

#ramble #idk if this is a me problem or not #i've tried to do the early rise early bed thing again and again and it just does not work for me doing freelance right now #maybe it's bc i used to work at a bar so i'm more comfortable being active in the evening #i love working at night because there's less going on to distract me #what used to happen is i would get up early then fight executive dysfunction all day saying i couldn't do fun stuff until i did my work #then my will to work would hit at 10pm and i'd be up till 2am anyway #right now my routine is waking up later and playing a game or knitting for an hour or so and then working in the afternoon and evening #something something capitalism and 9-5 and adhd don't go together #this sounds like i'm just making excuses but it works and i'm actually getting shit done and sleeping enough so i don't see the problem #i just figured i'm probably going to sit and do nothing for a few hours in the morning anyway so i might as well give myself permission to

[sleepvines]

I see you like blue-footed boobies.

you are

Correct :D

I do!! Bloobies are great :] I latched onto them forever ago, and I also like other species

brown boobies have a sleeker look!

Nazca boobies are very pretty and rather dignified looking in my opinion

Red footed boobies have rainbow faces! (and red little feets)

#ask #sleep rambles #:D

[false-guinevere]

Thinking rambly Thoughts about Athena and her genderfuckery and her relationships with Odysseus and Penelope.

Anyway I think it’d be neat if Athena functioned as both Odysseus’ wife and Penelope’s husband in each others absence (and also as a father to Telemachus). Not even necessarily in a romantic way, just a weirdly intimate but unknowable ThingTM they have going on with Athena

TFW your in a triad and one member is a virgin goddess whose definitely playing with you and your family’s lives like Barbie dolls

#just rambles that came to me on the verge of sleep last night #Athena is the third member of Odysseus and Penelope’s relationship but in the Weirdest way possible #Athena thoughts all day every day this week #the odyssey #Odysseus #Penelope #athena #tagamemnon #epic cycle

[ohitslen]

Can we consider Wolfwood with short hair, like even shorter, please.

#i may be an artist but fanart is my weak point believe it or not LMAO #I’m rambling more than usual due to my lack of sleep but idc the enough #but like PLEASE LIKE I don’t know I have a vision but I have to draw it #and my artist juice is DRY #have been designing too much I can’t anymore #or maybe I can give me a couple of minutes #trigun #nicholas d wolfwood #lenssi rambles #also i adore long hair wolfwood a LOT LIKE IM IN LOVEWITH HIM #BUT AL S O #SHORT HAIR

[webonchin]

Ouuhhhyheaaa ouuhyhaaa ,FINALLY! FINISHED SOMETHING BEFORE THE YEAR ENDS

First of all thank you all soooo soo much for following or just liking my art, support means alot to me , second you are all so talented and so sweet! even if you don't create content you are all so cool!! Yes you reading this ,you are so cool!! And for last...

Happy new year's eve, may all your dreams come true!

#dreamling #the sandman #dream of the endless #hob gadling #my art #I AM SLEEP DEPRIVED AGAIN #but I served so whatever #actually really liked this one and i had absolutely no idea what i was doing #first sketch and then whatahek and then finish #i love to ramble in tags aaaaa #also #1389 dreamling my beloveds #they should kiss #have I told ypu that I dreamed about canon dreamling kiss the pther day? no? was a good dream

[melit0n]

Some cryptid photos of Vessel (+ ii) that I've collected over the past week. The fact that almost all of them look like they came out of trail cam footage is absolutely sending me

#add a grainy overlay and the date and time text from an old camcorder and I think I could convince someone it *is* trail cam footage #the fact that this odd pose where he's got his arms out with his fingers spread is a common part of his dance routine makes me giggle a lot #like you go you funky music man #there are so many photos of ii out there where he legitimately just looks like he's either edited into the photo or -> #an actual creature of the night as well #this is just my favourite because he looks so insanely out of place #if anybody has an editions feel free to add! I'd love to get a good giggle out of some more crypid photos #sleep token #st #vessel #vessel sleep token #ii sleep token #mel's rambles #cryptid token #1k