#slowly making progress though

[wilsonsmcgillsweatshirt]

I will never recover from the knowledge that thymoma generally has a very high survival rate, and in most cases that it becomes fatal, the patient has unknowingly lived with the cancer for years. There's a chance that Wilson was sick for half the series and didn't even know it.

#I'm just imagining House looking back at the last few years in horror thinking about the possibility that Wilson had been sick all along #I can see it leading to him feeling like all of their memories are tainted #House definitely blames himself as well even though it was never in his control #I can't imagine how much his already extreme self-hatred was amplified #And he probably looked back at all the mistakes he made and all the fights they had and realizing that - #- while they were having all these fights that now seem so trivial that Wilson was probably sick #They wasted all that time unknowingly with Wilsons cancer slowly progressing as they argued and fought #It makes me want to cry #I'm not a doctor and I know this obviously isn't always the case but from what research I've done this seems the be the standard mostly #house md #house #greg house #james wilson #gregory house #hilson #wilson #housemd #favs #favourites

[thescrumptiousstuffs]

“You didn’t response to my message all day. Are you mad at me for that night?” Ray

“Nonsense. Why would I be mad? Whoever you like is your business.” Sand

“I want to speak to you about Mew.” Sand

“Are you not ok that I like him?” Ray

“No. I am ok. I even get why you like him. He is nice. People around him can’t help but fall in love.” Sand

“Be clear of what you are trying to said.” Ray

“Is this Top and Ton?” Ray

“I didn’t know who to tell. I’m not that close to Mew. I don’t want a good guy like Mew to get fooled by someone like Top. Mew is lucky though to have you on his side.” Sand

“I wanted to tell you. I know Top. He stole my lover.” Sand

Only Friends, Episode 6

You know…this scene really highlights the complexity of human nature. I have no doubt Sand is being a good boyfriend by telling Ray about TopBoston because he is aware of RayMew connection (although the way he obtained the recording is definitely not clean). BUT I am also certain wrap in this is his even stronger desire to take revenge on Top (and Boston). People have been debating on Twitter that Sand manipulated Ray cause he knows Ray will somehow tell Mew but I’m certain it’s more layered than that (especially as what we have learn so far about Sand out of all the characters showed he has some integrity and principles) - although Ray being Ray, he has the maturity of a 5 yrs old (unfortunately) - and while his intention is always good, Ray is clumsy with the way he expresses his emotions (worse when he is drunk)

#khaotung thanawat #first kanaphan #firstkhao #only friends the series #firstkhaotung #sandray #anyway good job boys #First nailed it with his calm and steely look while denying he feels anything even though he must be crushing so badly inside #while Ray unfortunately is still stuck in Mew bubble although he was slowly making progress last episode before Ton ruined it and now Sand #adding more fuel to an already combustible situation #episode 6

[toaster-trash]

Sometimes I remember that my sanity is actually dependant on a few fictional characters from 200 years ago, like not a silly haha joke but that I genuinely don’t have any other support system or healthy coping mechanism other than reading about and engaging in fan content for these fictional Victorians, and then I am like “uh oh. Goodness me. I may be in a bit of a sticky situation. A pickle, if you will.”

Anyway ahahahah something something humorous tumblr post as a coping mechanism ahaha something something

#am I genuinely mildly scared? mayhaps but I will not be admitting that properly #on a more genuine note though I have been feeling very unstable and very panic induced recently #the depressive issues just get considerably worse by the knowledge that I genuinely don’t have anyone in real life to help me #if things get even slightly worse than they’ve already shown they can get #I don’t get on with my parents very well despite the whole #‘haha my family member said this thing about gothic literature’ #is there much point to posting this? probably not #but between severe nightmares very often as well as slowly physically deteriorating more and more #and my general mental health getting progressively worse and worse #there isn’t much ELSE I can do and making a shitty tumblr post about it won’t make it any worse #and if nothing else if I end up doing something stupid at least people know what it’s a product of #I am scared to be honest #depressive episodes and dysphoria I can deal with but there’s nothing I hate more than geniune instability #if anyone genuinely has any advice or MINDS talking I would really appreciate it #it’s not like it can do any more harm #and like I said I don’t exactly have any good friends or family members #or teachers or anyone else #I’ll stop with the hashtags now sorry #just throwing my thoughts into the void #gothic lit #classic literature #gothic literature #classic lit #frankenstein #dracula

[futuristichedge]

someone who is good at time management please help me my Shadow is dying

#i know how to fight him im just. very very bad at it #achievement hunting SA2 and slowly making good progress :) #i have pretty much all the A ranks in all the treasure hunting levels except the last two and im getting there with the others #some of the 100 ring missions for the levels are brutal though. i had 99 rings on mission street and got hit by a mech falling on top of me #i had to do another level after that. i was pissed #text

[jovenshires]

the way im constantly refreshing the spommy ao3 tag, truly my brain is rotted

you and me both brother,,,,,, you and me both

#spommy #shipping #i think the problem is that we were spoiled last month. SO many people came out of the woodwork with fics. and now we wait..... #i am slowly but surely making progress on domo though so. content is coming besties #ask #asks #anon #anonymous

[sergle]

OH if the question you’re asking is: is my life BETTER now that I have a small business, then yes. definitely things have improved in the past couple of years. despite the Tax Rawdogging. 

#I might not be making a lot of money but it's not a static amount... #so I can imagine that I WILL make loads of dosh #but until then my life has gotten slowly progressively better #I was able to afford A Dog #I am making income from my art #I get to do fun collabs with people! #stuff like that #and I do genuinely like making merch #the only thing I don't like about merch is that you need money to make it #I would love to make shirts or hats but that's way difficult and costly #maybe someday though! #sergle answers

[puphoods]

i dont have any like... proper lore 4 the egressregress zombies i need to work on it... i do for the other one though

#et cetera #latent disease tht makes u sick -> stays in ur body as asymptomatic but is able to be transferred via bodily fluids primarily saliva -> #'reactivation' (idk the word) caused by a bite from someone with the active variant or who is sick from the initial infection #hold on ive made a post abt it before let me find it #initial symptoms fevers nausea + fatigue after that increase in metabolic system as it starts to cause rapid physical mutations #growth + duplication of various body parts such as teeth + fingers -> as it progresses entire limbs and stomachs and mouths #mental degradation beginning w the onset of increase in metabolic rate happens slowly + then as time goes on happens #faster + faster. eventually the body will fail to keep up with consuming enough nutrients and will start to atrophy + they will starve #to death. though brain death may have occurred before this point + often does but the body is being moved and driven by the disease #<- they at some point come across one who has mutated to the point of immobility + is unrecognizable as having been a person #but is being fed by people to keep it alive #um the egressregress ones are more similar to undead zombies though.. but idk what causes it #or if i want to give it proper reasoning or if its just 'well theyre zombies' #but i want to... because its fun

[dadbots]

cold as shit & freezing my ass off in this winter (But at least we made it to December.)

#dadbots.txt #starting the new month off with a sore throat & body aches due to household cold-like symptoms. Thanks. Even when I was trying 2 avoid it #and with how cold it is — permanently staying In bed forever. Like it’s physically making me curl into a crab rn oh my god it’s so cold #Which is both hell and good in both ways. Bad since I stay in bed too much anyway. Almost everyday. #Especially with chronic low energy and 24/7 fatigued. Mentally and physically. And i really gotta do better - #- and reduce that since that adds up alongside other unhealthy habits. And I can literally feel it taking a toll on me unfortunately. #But also good since I’ll be resting more often than not. It’s not something i do and so having the opportunity to rest is kinda nice? #Still. Two sides of a coin right now. And this cold is definitely not helping me or the fact it’s easier to get sick 10x more. #Back to pain relievers and heat ig. #Although with this just. Might be a cold but also not? Thing? Since not all of my sore throats are colds but overproduced mucus. Gross. #But been drinking tea like habitually to knock this out and warm blankets and stuff. Feeling better as of typing this. So thank god it’s wo #This month been… interesting to say the least. A lot of personal talk and changes that should’ve happened years ago. #But hey. You live and learn. #And I’m not mad at it. I’m making progress when I would’ve shrugged and say it’d never happen. Now it’s happening and even I’m surprised #Doesn’t mean it’ll completely override everything in my life or push stuff to the side. Though it’s better than nothing so I’ll take it. #Winter is always hard for a lot of people and I’ve been hit with it as well. Even near the holidays and all. #Been rough. And the constant realization that each month I don’t remember…. Anything. That has happened. #But also that I did a little more than previously and slowly pushing it each month. Little by little. #There’s been a drastic change from last year to now. Went through new lifestyles and experiences. Exploring different fields. Etc #So it’s been one hell of a ride anyway. And that I can sit back and be content with. Even if nothing else is currently going on yknow #December probably gonna be slow. But we’ll see. Hope to bring new opportunities fortune and possibilities along the way. Take care y’all

[orcelito]

She was so brave at the vet today so now she is hiding behind the toilet. As she deserves ❤

#speculation nation #june bug #cats #she is very mad at me lol. but she let me pet her a little bit. #for now im leaving her in her familiar place. she'll relax in time. #im gonna try phasing her out of containment in the next few days #past few days ive done heavily supervised times where i let her out and have her poke around #and last night she hung out with me for a good 20 mins b4 getting up #she's making progress with tally. though tally did growl at her yesterday earlier in the day lol #aka why i didnt want june bug wandering w/o my supervision #i think theyre approaching okay. im going to slowly relax my forceful supervision bit by bit #still not gonna have june bug out when im not around until im Sure she and tally can coexist without fighting #but we'll get there. in time #an aside. tally started getting super excited at the window. & i looked. there was a squirrel with a whole moldy hot dog bun #What A Find! and thankfully tally didnt knock over any plants again leaping at it lmfao #anyways. life with cats continues ❤ i love them so very much

[jitterbugbear]

i know i haven't been posting any art in some time, sorryyyyyy! it's not an art block or anything, i just haven't had the time to draw anything outside of my internship & it's pretty exhausting to try and draw after you've already done that for 8 hours that day lollll

BUT next weekend should be pretty chill so maybe i'll draw some hobbitses or something nice as a treat :-)c maybe even ghost stuff again

#technically they didnt make an actual nda with me though shsbbdfj but yeah i cant show work stuff either its a secrwt #secret #chat tag #i have one pretty cool animation in progress though‚ i've been chipping at it slowly these past two weeks #its ghibli grass and some uhhhh. magical rocks

[miodiodavinci]

last sample of pitch oneeee (which finally brings me to 45% overall completion yaaay)

#after this it's only #(double checks spreadsheet) #like 265 samples of 480 total left to go #it does feel good to make tangible progress though ksdjlfhgk #and also as this voicebank slowly comes together i get to spend more time rotating potential designs in my head #just a month and a half of work left to go . . . . .

[sesshy380]

No wordcount today. Sciatic nerve threw me for a loop so brain got a little too focused on the pain.

I managed to draw a bit instead. Enjoy my bad attempt at making my OC as a chibi. I didn't finish it, but I think it still came out so-so. Slowly getting the hang of this digital art thing.

I really need to figure out the details for her hair and skirt. It's one of those things you see in mind as part of the whole, but trying to focus on just that particular detail you realize you haven't the slightest clue how it's supposed to look (if that makes any sense).

#writing progress #none #too much pain #instead you get my bad attempt at making chibi kat #i'm slowly getting the hang of this #still a lot to learn though

[ryuichifoxe]

So, here's a question, if I were to reopen my patreon, what would y'all like to see as rewards? I can't handle doing the color commission tier anymore, that's something I'd rather do 1-on-1 when I have the energy to take them.

Like, I'd be down for posting a giant page of character sketch requests for the month. Posting my nsfw content there first before uploading it to twitter.

#the truth is I don't have a lot of energy these days #but I do kinda miss doing patreon #even though I let it burn me out #ryu talks about stuff and things #I'm slowly making dice again #I could post progress stuff there #take requests for new sets and give patrons the chance to purchase first

[sofastuffing]

il bisexual

#WIP #meant to make some pride-themed oc portraits during well. pride month but I missed that #though given how slowly I'm progressing on this maybe I'll be able to post it by the next one anyway #id in alt text #id included #pixel art #digital painting #I mean... it's pixel art but I very much approached it like a digital painting #charactions #hyde #bi #oc #original character art #work in progress

[icewindandboringhorror]

just out of curiosity I saved all of my worldbuilding slideshows as plain text then copied the text into a text editor that actually has a word count function, and it was too long to even put in one document without getting an error gfhvhvh... total is 323,390, and this doesn’t count the additional ones I’m not done with yet but am waiting on... these are just the like 5 slideshows I’m working on turning into videos... e v i l 

#NO WONDER IT TAKES me so long to film edit and record all of my reading these powerpoints.. I'm like.. basically making an audio book of #novel length text #actually looking it up a lot of novels are like 80.000 - 150.000 words so this is like.. maybe 2-3 novels #read audibly then edited in video and so on and do forth #*so forth #Which like . I know this. I'm aware of this. that like.... I have typed a lot of text about my world and stuff like that #but just knowing in your head that its a lot vs. seeing actual numbers is like .. oughh #especially knowing that it's all stuff to read out loud or whatever and make into videos. #If I counted all the other random stuff like documents on my computer or whaterver that I'm not actually using in anything at this point... #anyway still not making much progress on the slideshow reading videos at the moment since I've been feeling sick still and #Having Problems as always unfortunately. but it's something I still really really want to get done near the beginning of the year #at least so its not an everlooming burden task of like.. insurmountable purportions #I just have to chip away at recording bit by bit lol. #on top of all the other things. I still have costumes I want to do and etc. T o T #I wish health problems didn't throw off my productivity so much but.. alas.. my body cannot cope with pain signals and stuff well #even a minor problem sends it into Uh Oh mode and then I can't focus on anything else. I am.. trying.. though aaaaa #slowly working through my 'to get done before 2023' todo list . even though it's already nearly february lol #maybe I'll finish the list by march hjbhj *** #Being usually about 2 months behind on my goals sounds about right.

[jedi-bird]

Sorted through more boxes today and managed to get rid of a lot of stuff. Most of it was old work papers that are now in the recycle bin. Found more craft supplies that are now upstairs to be sorted through again later. Several kids picture books that were my mom's (I'll have to evaluate them some time in a few months, once we're past the day of horror). Lots of dvd's that need to go into space saving binders at some point.

But also, I found several things I wasn't expecting to. The receipt from my mom's birth. Photos of her mixed in with random things. One of the infamous birthday party invitations that she accused me of not giving to my friends when no one showed up to the party she paid for (I did indeed give them out but it was the day before winter break so everyone forgot to take them home).

Fate wants me to think of her. I'm trying hard to ignore it right now.

#birdy cleans house #there is still so much to go through but i have a limited amount of time each day #between pain and exhaustion and the heat i have to stop by early afternoon #keeping busy right now is good though #gives me less time to think #I'm also slowly making progress at getting rid of things i should have let go of years ago #sometimes time and distance helps #also antidepressants make it easier