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cripplecharacters · 2 years

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Bee

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Hello, I'm bee (she/her) and I'm a bi ace gal with epilepsy. My seizures are considered generalized and I'm nearly 4 years seizure-free (yay). My epilepsy is still around though it more so plays a part in causing headaches and the now occasional migraine. I'm a full-time college student and I work as a cashier part-time. I have loved creative writing for a long time, and I also greatly enjoy fashion, cooking and reading!

Faelan

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Hi all! I'm Faelan, and my pronouns are they/them. I'm a speculative fiction writer, artist, ferret aficionado and former federal public servant! I am Autistic and have inattentive type ADHD as well as dyscalculia. I developed fibromyalgia in early adulthood due to a serious physical injury, which causes all kinds of fun neurological problems and chronic pain.

Frog

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Hi! I'm Mod Frog (he/him, ey/em) and I'm a fulltime wheelchair or cane user with neurological issues and chronic pain which may or may not be migraine-related. I'm also autistic, have C-PTSD + DID, and am on the schizospec. I've been writing disabled characters based on my own experiences my entire life, and I'm very excited to be able to help others with their characters! My favorite genres are fantasy and sci-fi, and I'm passionate about showing that characters who use wheelchairs can be involved in the adventure scenes, too.

Lane

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Hi! I’m Lane and I’m a bi woman who uses she/her pronouns. I have ADHD and have been blind since birth from LCA (Lebers Congenital Amaurosis). I have a career in Blindness education and customer service, and I’ve been heavily involved in blindness community as a member and elected leader for about 10 years. I’ve also got depression, anxiety, and some Az Yet undiagnosed issues with low blood pressure/hypotension. I am a massive sucker for all things cat and spend most of my free time playing D&D. You can find me on basically every platform as Ask a Blind Person!

Nugget

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Hello! I’m Nugget (aroace, she/her), and I am a longtime creative writer with a love for all things fantasy and sci-fi. My other hobbies are videogames, boardgames, reading, movie/TV-watching, and learning. I am pursuing a career in mechanical engineering. I have social and generalized anxiety, as well as mild depression and chronic pain resulting from injury.

Roman

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Hey, I’m Roman, previously known as Becca! I love writing, reading, Twenty One Pilots, and superheroes. I’m working on becoming an EMT and am a very queer idiot. I am HoH/Deaf, schizophrenic (schizoaffective disorder), asthmatic, and have essential tremor and arthritis as well as PCOS and C-PTSD. I’m also mildly colourblind. My pronouns are they/them.

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Hi! i am sasza and i use he/him pronouns. i am a disabled artist who loves to write and draw characters like me! i am autistic, (mild) intellectually disabled and have several physical conditions like dyspraxia, severe hyperkyphosis, fourth cranial nerve palsy (a rare condition causing double vision, chronic pain and minor facial difference among other things) and hypermobile joints. i also have an undiagnosed disorder that causes me to have motor tics

Teeth

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Hello! My name is Teeth, and my pronouns are it/its; I have no preference for backup pronouns, use whichever is easiest. I’m a multimedia artist whose work often focuses on identity and perception. I have h-EDS, which mainly affects my mobility, and causes instability in my cervical spine, in addition to POTS and MCAS. I am autistic, and have BPD, OCD and C-PTSD.

Tyler

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Hey! I’m Tyler. I’m chronically ill, trans and neurodivergent. I’m the host of a medically recognized DID system and have autism, ADHD, BPD, C-PTSD and anxiety. My physical conditions are currently undiagnosed but I have tics, severe joint pain and weakness, issues with walking and standing as well as chronic pain, migraines, nausea, etc. Basically just pick any part of my body at random and I probably have an issue with it. I use mobility aids to get around in day to day life and use a cane or rollator when out of the house.

Mason

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Howdy! I'm Mason, a bi transmasc nonbinary person. I'm schizoaffective (depressive type), and have a myriad of health conditions including fibromyalgia, frequent migraines, IBS, tachardyia, ovarian cysts/endometriosis and a hypermobility disorder currently undiagnosed but suspected EDS. I also have generalized anxiety disorder and cPTSD. I'm a playwright who focuses on disability and a part time cane and brace user.

#mod intros #mod tyler #mod teeth #mod roman #cripplecharacters about #mod Lane #mod Nugget #mod sasza #mod bee #mod faelan #mod mason

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tsumtsum · 5 years

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I’m writing my first ever piece rn tbh !?!?!?

#it's been so long so I have written something for fun but I felt like doing it #I found a prompt about writing a story based on your favorite song #so I am writing about Migraine by twenty one pilots #to summarize it involves Tyler getting the migraine and being so overwhelmed emotionally and being in pain with it #and then Josh enters and helps him and listens to him and !!!! lol #I did it based around when Tyler is still figuring out his musical career and such at like a young age #I know he didn't meet Josh until later but like !!!!!!! idk I wanted to make it like this for my story lmao so shut up!!!!!!#would anybody be interested in reading it when I am done.... it's almost done :3 #rambles

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amygdalagustd · 3 years

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I was tagged by @namjoonia thank you so much, I love getting to talk about music! 💕

My favourite song at the moment

I mean Permission To Dance literally just came out so it's obviously on repeat, but apart from that I've really been enjoying the cover of Where Is My Mind by Yoav that I discovered through an evangelion amv 😅

A song you associate with your favourite ship

Just to stay with the evangelion theme, I think Saturn by Sleeping At Last really fits kawoshin

A song that could be about you

Four and Eight by Sleeping At Last deeply resonate with me. Migraine and Choker by Twenty One Pilots. Whalien 52 and Blue & Grey by BTS. Set Me Free by Agust D. Reflection and Forever Rain by RM. Write a song about loneliness and connection and I'll be there like "omg that's me" lol.

A song that is overrated

Uhm oh god, I don't believe in this concept? Music is there to be enjoyed so if is it's enjoyed it's fulfilling it's purpose

A song that reminds you of a good memory

Spring Day reminds me of singing along to Spring Day with other army in the pop up shop in paris after the speak yourself concert

The last song you listened to

Permission To Dance

A song that makes you laugh:

Back When I Was 4 by Jeffrey Lewis made me snort out loud the first time that I heard it

The song you want to share with your mutuals

Y'all who like rap go listen to Clouds by NF

Y'all who yearn go listen to I Am Easy To Find by The National

Y'all who like emo stuff go listen to Disco! In The Panic Room by Bug Hunter

Y'all who have childhood or relationship trauma go listen to Atrophy by The Antlers

Y'all who like kpop go listen to B-day by iKON

Y'all who like rock go listen to I Was Just A Kid by Nothing But Thieves

Y'all who just need a hug go listen to Dear Hope by Sara Bareilles

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I'll tag: @maybebi47 @superstarsglow @browniemixinawaffleiron @ivy-lavender @yoongiyah @daechwitas @thesevensoulmates @yoongisbluepainting

#this was fun! put way too much effort into it lmao #tagging game

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paradise-creator · 3 years

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Hellooo!! I love love LOVE the diamond box matchup you did!! You're amazing!! Your blog is incredible!! Now I'm here for a romantic haven box Haikyuu matchup pls🥺

Appearance: My name is Kay! She/her, black, straight, 5'1, I have a slightly athletic & curvy-ish figure (lol idk), short-ish hair(like mid-neck), dark brown eyes, shoe size 9, I like to dress comfy so I'm always in oversized hoodies, sweatpants, sneakers, sweatshirts and shorts. I like colorful clothes too, high waisted jeans and shorts and boots. I'm not very fashionable but I try lol.

Personality:

Basics: infp-t, Hufflepuff, Taurus sun, scorpio moon, sanguine, chaotic good, ambivert.

Some positive traits: I'm optimistic, friendly, energetic, organized, enthusiastic, observant, happy, open-minded, loving, encouraging and inquisitive!!

Some negative traits: I'm annoying, perfectionist, insecure, forgetful, easily distracted, kinda lazy, argumentative, too nice at times and clingy.

I love learning new things!! Currently I'm learning Korean, how to draw, how to paint and songs on the saxophone.

When I'm up for it, I love fun physical activity!! Going for a hike, going to the gym, bungee jumping, mountain climbing, going camping and etc :D

Although I love going out, nothing beats lazy days at home. I can spend hours by myself and still be happy. When alone I usually sleep or watch a movie/anime or practice my drawing or saxophone or try and learn something new!

I have a horrible memory and can never remember important dates 😭 I've forgotten my own birthday a few times (rip) so people can get mad at me for missing appointments, forgetting birthdays and other important days. I try my best to organize everything necessary on my phone calendar so I can be reminded.

I love seeing people happy! Nothing can fulfill my day more than knowing I put a smile on someone's face! I usually try my best to help out anyone who needs it and to the best of my ability! This has led to me getting taken advantage of in the past but I can't help but try and make others happy. I've developed a thicker skin and some trust issues as I've grown up because of it.

I love hyping my friends/family up!! Do you need a boost in confidence? Here I am, ready to help you remember the absolute king/queen/royalty that you are!! I'm usually very energetic and enthusiastic about many things and I love spreading positivity around!!

My love language is physical touch! So touch is very important to me in my relationships. Though I am insecure so I tend to think that I smother the people I care about with too much affection idk lol. I live for hugs and cuddles and hand holding 👉🏿👈🏿 but because of that I feel like I'm very clingy and annoying skskfksjd

I'm introverted in nature so although I mean usually full of energy and love making new friends, I can't do it for too long lol. My social battery runs out really fast and I have to hide away and recharge before I can be fully social again, otherwise I won't be my best self. I treasure personal time and understand when people need time for themselves too.

I love spontaneity!! I love living in the moment and doing stuff just for the hell of it!! Wanna go on a road trip? Dance in the rain? Build houses for charity? Go to McDonald's at 2am? Go on a long walk? SIGN ME UP!!

I can also be lazy and unmotivated to do stuff. If something doesn't interest me, I'd find myself incapable of doing it or I'd do it with great difficulty. I'm one of those 'do something when inspiration/motivation hits you otherwise it'll be absolute shit' types.

But when I do have motivation/inspiration that's when my perfectionism comes in and I have to do it in the best possible way and anything less is an insult to me, my family, my ancestors and descendants lmaoo. Unfortunately I subconsciously set a very high bar for myself which can be overwhelming and stressful but when I manage to produce work of that quality, it's very satisfying and rewarding jshkshdhsj

I have more to add but I feel like this is getting way too long 💀 lemme just move to the next section heheheh

Hobbies: I LOVE listening to music, learning new things, watching movies/anime, sleeping, reading, writing, playing saxophone (I'm still learning tho lol), swimming, drawing, journaling, making friends, and cooking!

My music taste: any type of rock (punk rock, grunge, j-rock, metal), pop, KPOP, RnB, jazz, dubstep, lofi hip hop, rap, trap, krnb, anime OP's and bangers from: Elvis, the beach boys, Queen, Khalid, Ateez, Harry styles, Kendrick Lamar, p!atd, mcr, fallout boy, Nirvana, BTS, mxmtoon, Marianas trench, twenty one pilots, stray kids, Jay Park, crush, Dreamcatcher, Skrillex, MJ, troye sivan etc

Fun facts:

I'm more of a cat person but I live dogs and think they're adorable!!

I have four piercings and I plan on getting more soon!!

I'm a night owl, and get super grumpy in the mornings especially when woken up unexpectedly >:/

Although I love making friends, I only have like 1/2 super close friends and like 20+ acquaintances lol

I want to get a tattoo soon but idk what to get :(

I'm super addicted to coffee (rip) and if I don't take some for some time (like a week) I'll get the worst migraines and I won't feel better until I drink some coffee 😭

That's it!! I hope i wrote enough stuff!! Did I leave anything out? If you need more pls tell me and I'll send another ask :D Take your time!! I'm in no rush. I'll patiently wait even though you get writers block or have a large amount of asks 😌 pls stay safe and healthy!! Drink lots of water, sleep well and have an amazing day/night!! 💙✨

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Hello and Welcome my Starlight!

The Haven box includes:

- Match up

- Sun drop

- Journal of Feelings

- 3 am shenanigans

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I'd match you up with

Sugawara Koushi, Vice-captain of Karasuno

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Sun drops

- OKAY so like, as I read your description I thought of Akaashi or Yaku or Sugawara

- Me being the indecisive author I am had trouble picking

- But then I remembered that you loved to do spontaneous things.

- And that's when I realized that Sugawara is THE ONE

- You two would be deemed the "3 am couple"

- Or in the team it would be "Epitome of Chaos"

- He takes care of you

- He will alway remind you that you don't need to be perfect

- Insecurities? BE GONE

- Nagativity? BE GONE

- That's basically his motto

- He is both your mom and partner in Crime

- did I mention he will take care of you?

- CUDDLES AND KISSES FOR DAYS

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Journal of feelings

- Once this man realizes that you LOVE physical affection. He will give it to you. EVERYTIME HE SEES YOU

Kay entered the gym to watch her boyfriend play. She tried sneaking in and so far it has been great. She thought she was off the hook but then felt a familiar arms wrapped around her waist. "I found you~" Sugawara said with a smile.

- You both would often plan pranks and majority of the times, it would succeed

"Okay okay, so what are we doing today?" Kay asked the silver haired male. "Oh~ maybe we can scare Asahi or anyone for that matter with a beetle?" Sugawara suggested. "That's--no," Kay responded.

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3 am shenanigans

It’s 3 am in the morning. Almost everyone is fast asleep or in their homes, well almost. The night sky is littered with diamond in the sky. The streets were silent but it was comforting. A few people walked here and there. And a few cars passes by there and here. “What are we doing up so late?” A silver haired man said as he yawned. “We’ll be going to Mc Donald’s! What else?” The female responded as she smiled at him. “Is it even open at this time?” He asked. “Koushi, darling, it is open,” Kay, the lover of our beloved silvered male man said as she smiled. Sugawara chuckled and held her hand, the smile on his face was evident. “You know, we should be sleeping by now right?” He said as he pulled her closer. “And so what? I wasn’t planning on sleeping early! I slept the whole day yesterday and missed the chance to hang out with you,” The girl responded.

A small blush appeared on the male’s face and he giggled. “That’s very sweet bu-“ He was about to say but was silenced by the girl. “That was very sweet but we could’ve done this later on or tomorrow. Well, sorry to break it to you, Love. But, we are here,” She said as she pulled the male inside the fast food chain. And soon enough, the two got their orders and enjoyed their meal. “I don’t know why but this hits different,” Kay said as she eat a French fry. “It really does. Especially since you are here,” Sugawara stated as he patted her head. Now, she was the one blushing. As the two chatted, the other customers and staff glanced at them every now and then. None of them were annoyed at their interactions. On the contrary, they enjoyed watching them,

Some felt envious of their relationship. Some dreamt to have something like that. And others remembered the times of old. The two were so sweet, it’s almost too much. Laughter and chattering echoed through the building from both the couple and the people around them. Then they were dub the “3 am couple” as the two would often venture in that restaurant at 3 am in the morning.

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Author's note

I'm so so sorry for the long wait! This week has been hectic. Anywho, I hope you enjoy this matchup~ and thanks for requesting!

#☁️matchup #haikyuu matchups #haikyuu!!#haikyuu matchup #fanfic #anime #fiction #sugawara koushi #sugawara kōshi #Sugawara #sugawara headcanon #match ups #hq matchups #hq sugawara #Anime matchups #BlackPearl

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paradoxical-lavender · 4 years

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1. In the end

As I examine people’s faces around me, I ask myself: “can’t they feel it? The hand that choking their necks, how can they breathe properly? I am suffocating.” In my building, someone doormat says: “happiness is where your heart is”, is it? Is it a state of mind? What is home? It definitely can’t be a place. And you can’t make a home of people. My father used to resent these philosophical questions, and my mother used to tell me that I will be the end of myself. She was correct.

Those insomniac thoughts became my daily dose of nicotine, and my hands refuse to write my name, and my pen draws broken places I can’t endure. This sick hope I’ve that the ocean can hear my silent screams and finally call my name so to dive in drains my energy and all I can do is pouring my blood hoping I will lose enough calories to finally be tired just enough to go to bed.

Silence and people have so much in common. Both are loud and I can’t devote a minute with them without thinking about the moment I jumped off the bridge hoping not to survive the fall. Astonishingly the voices inside of my head are silent.

Am I depressed? Or just dramatically sad? There’s beauty in destruction I said a long time ago, smart. The numbness while being high on Zoloft vs the aftermath of the halo happiness, ending long term friendship, and enjoying the lonely feeling afterwards. Sun kisses and hot water hugs. Confronting the fear of highest vs telling myself if I can achieve this it means I can do everything else. These shimmering lights are blinding me from seeing my shadow, and I can’t tell if I am real.

I think I am dramatically sad with a terrible taste in depressive music as twenty-one pilot migraine is playing in the background. As I am sitting in the rooftop drafting this, I realized how red the sky is, the clam rage red that allows only two stars to be visible for the bare eye to see. The sky is the stars cemetery, if we to be reborn after death I would rather be a cigarette burning in your hands hoping it will be strong enough to forget me.

In the end, it doesn’t even matter.

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angelsfalling16 · 5 years

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Top Ten Tag

Rules: Share ten songs that you’re currently obsessed with and tag ten people!

I was tagged by the amazing and talented @rhynixx. Thank you! <3

I actually did this not too long ago, but I’m going to go ahead and do it again because it’s fun. Here is the other one.

1. Carry On My Wayward Son - cover by Facing West I put a different cover of this song on my last list, but I found this song yesterday and it’s great

2 .Build it Better - Aron Wright Ahh, it was on some episode of Grey’s Anatomy. I have no idea the context anymore, but it gets me in my feels every time. Also, I’ve been singing it to my little sister, and she mixed it up with an Ed Sheeran song that we used to sing, so the lyrics became “you look better tonight.” It was hilarious.

3. Where’s Misha - Rob Benedict, Richard Speight Jr, and Mark Sheppard This song never fails to make me laugh, and there is another version that I found the other day. I’m going to show them to my sisters so that they will quit looking at me like I’m weird when I’m singing it. (Who am I kidding? They’ll still think I’m weird.)

Honorable Mention: Jus in Bello Con - Misha Collins I love Misha, and this song is really catchy.

4. I’ll Do Me, You Do You - Blue October I recently wrote an essay that was inspired by this song and the story that was told by the lead singer when we went to see them in concert. It means a lot to me.

5. heart - flor Someone on here recommended this song to me, and I fell in love with it.

6. Migraine - Twenty One Pilots From the playlist for Home is Wherever You Are, and I listened to it on repeat while writing one of the chapters (I can’t remember which rn.) Off topic, but I got to see them in concert, too, a couple of years ago and would love to do it again.

7. Back Together - Loote Another one from the HIWYA playlist, and it is the latest one I’ve been listening to on repeat.

8. The Castiel Song - Elizabeth Smart There are so many fanvids about Destiel, but this is one of my favorites. It used to (and maybe still does?) make me really emotional. I don’t know. I just really like it. (I’ll stop with the spn stuff now. I’m sorry)

Honorable Mention: Plead the Fifth - Unknown Okay, I lied. This is the last spn song. This one is actually my favorite Destiel fansong and really gets to me sometimes. (I couldn’t find the person who actually wrote it by the way.)

9. Good Friend - JP Cooper Another song that was recommended to me. It’s really good and cheers me up sometimes.

10. Someone to You (acoustic) - BANNERS Ahh, this song. I have no words to explain how I feel, but the acoustic version is amazing.

This was really hard this time because I haven’t been listening that often since the break started, and I felt tempted to feel this list with covers of songs, but I decided not to. Maybe next time? Also, this list is completely different from the last one. It feels a bit more upbeat to me.

I don’t know who to tag since I’ve already done it, so I tag everyone! If you choose to do it, tag me because I would love to hear what songs you all are listening to!!

#it took me a few days to get to this #sorry #i had a few more spn songs to share #but i cut myself of #if you can't tell #i recently finished rewatching spn recently #and have been rewatching some con vids #it took me an hour to make this #because i couldnt think of songs #red rambles #music #tag game

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littlemissmeggie · 5 years

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i was tagged by @narrymybed and @narriewithane several days ago and i’m finally sitting down to do this. thank you for tagging me!

1. What is the smell of your shampoo?

i use herbal essences blue ginger because it’s one of the few shampoos that doesn’t bring me out in a rash for an hour after i shower.

2. What’s your aesthetic?

super high-waisted jeggings from american eagle with band shirts tucked in. oversized crewneck sweatshirts with button up shirts. flats and $16 knock-off keds from target. my champagne silver 2000 volkswagen cabrio. arctic monkeys’ aesthetic from suck it and see, am, and tranquility base hotel & casino. two record players and a growing record collection. record stores. gangster movies and television shows. bookshelves filled with books. my town’s library.

3. What’s your favourite time of the day?

i’ve never really had a particular time of day i prefer over any other but over the last month, i’ve really come to like the time of day after i wake up and am sitting in bed with my boyfriend while i’m reading or writing and drinking tea.

4. What do you like most about the beach?

my family used to go to rehoboth beach, delaware every summer for vacation and we spent a lot of time on the beach and the boardwalk so beaches always bring back really great memories. summer’s my favourite season so i love the warmth on the beach. i love the sounds of the waves crashing and seagulls.

5. What do you worry about constantly?

i don’t really worry about anything constantly. i worry about financial stuff occasionally. i worry about my brother and my boyfriend’s younger brother often. i sometimes worry about my car when it makes some weird sound and i start thinking it’s going to be a $1,000 repair (and it usually ends up being $150).

6. What is a song you’ve cried to before?

oh, there are a lot of songs i’ve cried to and i can’t even begin to think of all of them. i have frequently cried to the whole of the maccabees’ album given to the wild. i’ve cried to twenty one pilots’ songs neon gravestones, the city, my blood, and screen. i’ve cried many times to walking in the wind and parts of sign of the times. arctic monkeys’ the ultracheese makes me tear up. roger miller’s song one dying and a burying gets me every time.

7. What are some relaxing tips for your followers?

meditate. there are a lot of guided meditations on youtube (i especially like the mindful movement’s meditations) and apps in the app store. if you’re religious, pray and/or go to public worship ceremonies; i’m roman catholic and i go to sunday mass and it’s another way for me to meditate as we pray and listen to the readings and liturgy. drink tea, coffee, or any beverage you enjoy while reading a book, fanfiction, or any magazines or blogs about subjects that interest you. nap. listen to music if you find that calming. watch something that interests you.

8. What are some things that make you tear up?

videos and stories of people doing good, kind, selfless things for other people. the 2013 coca-cola superbowl ad with all the footage from security/cctv cameras. thinking about things that made me really happy. other things, i’m sure.

9. What is your favourite thing from each of the five senses?

Sight: sunrises and sunsets. (how cliche.) snow falling as long as i don’t have to go outside. my boyfriend. christmas decorations. beautifully plated food. flowers and green grass and summer days.

Smell: the pavement after it rains on a hot day. lavender. any kind of pastries in the oven. book pages and new notebooks and my town library. the ocean. peonies.

Sound: most music. rain. the church bells in the center of my town ringing every fifteen minutes. the scratchiness at the beginning and end of a record. my cats purring. the voices of my family members and my boyfriend.

Taste: communion wafers. (i’m not kidding. it’s my favourite flavour.) curries. ginger and mint and basil. most thai noodle dishes. the traditional flavours of a lot of middle eastern and north african cuisines. yogurt. dark chocolate. teas, especially black teas, and almost always from harney & sons. peaches and apricots and plums. raspberries. i could keep going but i won’t.

Touch: soft blankets. grass. this squishy silicone stress-reliever thing i got from a shop on etsy. my boyfriend rubbing my head. i’m not a very tactile person.

10. What is one alternative reality you’d want to be in?

i occasionally think i’d love to be in a reality where j.k. rowling’s magical world is real. i don’t even need to be a witch but i’d just love to know it exists.

11. What are some troubles you face on a day to day basis?

i don’t really face any troubles on a day to day basis. there are little things that bother me—annoying coworkers and other silly things at work being the most common—but i try not to let anything bother me for more than ten minutes because that’s a great way to ruin an otherwise at least decent day. i suppose i should say that my severe epilepsy, chronic headaches, and migraines "trouble” me but i don’t think about them unless they’re happening. my periods of writer’s block when i’m stuck in a rut bother me.

12. What is a scene from a book that makes you really sad?

cedric’s death. sirius’ death. hedwig’s death. lupin’s death. fred’s death. even snape’s death. any scene with nino valenti in the godfather. pippi de lena’s death in the last don.

13. Say something to your followers.

thank you all for following me. thank you to those of you who send me messages about my stories and reblog/like my posts. thank you to everyone who sends me supportive messages about everything, from my writing to my personal problems. thank you for following me. i’m sorry i’m not a better friend but thank you to those of you who try to befriend me and for putting up with my terrible social skills; please know that i consider you friends.

#meggie talks #fun tag thingy

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blondecarfucker · 5 years

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i was tagged in 21 questions by @taylorroger-s

nickname : cat

height : 5'7. dont know if thats tall but i dont see myself as a short person so idk

last movie i watched : spiderman into the spiderverse and fucking shit this movie is GOOD

last thing i googled : burguer joint sao paulo (my favourite burguer in ny but in my country - i really want to go)

favorite musicians : queen, fleetwood mac, stevie nicks, beatles, the 1975

song stuck in my head : future management by our boiiii roger

other blog : this is my only blog and ive been really using it for like less than a month lol

do i get asks : like three times a day about my writing. and i love them keep them coming!!

amount of sleep : like seven hours, which is a lot. im trying to get my body to work properly with 5 hours of sleep so i have more time for other stuff

lucky number : 17

what i’m wearing : chunky filas, a black button up skirt and a "help!" by the beatles shirt

instruments : im am very very untalented with instruments mostly because im not interested in learning it i guess. maybe i should try. probably not gonna happen tho

dream job : pop culture journalist

dream trip : two weeks alone in greece

favorite food : at the moment its the andean rice with black quinoa, green corn and spices i had for lunch. but usually its brigadeiro

languages : fluent portuguese and english, mediocre spanish, basic (SO basic) romanian, french and italian

favorite songs : drowse, more of that jazz (all queen), landslide, silver spring, gold dust woman, warm ways (all by fleetwood mac), a day in life (beatles), migraine (twenty one pilots), fallingforyou (the 1975)

random fact : i actually worked as a model before i could work as a journalist

describe yourself as aesthetic things : snow melting under the sun, thunderstorms, silk, dark red velvet, adidas superstars, mom jeans, that noise when you listen to music on vinyl, confectioner's sugar in the air, ugly glasses

i tag @its-nessi @pigfish27 @thessxoxo @brianandthemays and anyone that wants to do this! tag me so i can read it cause i love learning new stuff about people

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kusunokihimea · 5 years

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tagged by: @dragonscaleslittlemuses <3 tagging: @abyssaldespair @frogprinceus @yukaikokoro @kyuuzuchiha @cutelittlemuffins @wanderingmelodies aaand anyone else that wants to give it a go cuz I’m too lazy to tag all’a’y’all xD

nicknames: Sylvie, Sylv...silverware xD zodiac: Libra (tho I’m not too big on astrology lol) height: 5′10 I am a tol time: 8:34pm favourite band / artist: Oh gosh, I can’t pick one tbh...tho I like soundtracks a lot cuz they’re easy to write to! song stuck in my head: Currently listening to the Minecraft OST, so...all of that xD last movie i saw: ...I listened to Spirited Away today, does that count? last thing i googled: I’m...not actually sure, been a while lol other blogs: ...too many xD Uhhh there’s drabbles on @kusunogatari, memes on @sylviesmemes, @365daysofsasuhina is a challenge blog for the next year, @sylveradrakeis my art blog (it’s bad lmao), dead personal is @sylviesanctum, aaand I have an empty blog for Ryū‘s fic with @alightamongstshadows. I...think that’s all of them (oh and @nightwalkcrs but that blog’s v dead cuz III can’t blog juggle =‘D) do i get asks: Every so often, yes! why did i choose this username: Welllll, kusunoki (camphor trees) are a big part of my OC clan’s lore! Hime is the honorific for princess, cuz...Ryū is kinda like the “princess” of her village, Kusunokizan, and...yeah, lmao average amount of sleep: ...I’m usually IN BED for like...6-8, but I sleep very poorly, so...no idea, tbh what i’m wearing: A skirt, shirt, and sweatshirt dream job: Novelist (hA) dream trip: ...not really sure, tbh favourite food: Chocolate =w= lol play any instruments: I played clarinet and bass clarinet in school xD I...might remember it if I tried now? eye colour: Grey hair colour: Brown languages you speak: English most iconic song: ...Migraine, Twenty-One Pilots random fact: ...in general or about me? We’ll go with about me, I guess .w.; Uhhh, I have a retainer with two false teeth on it cuz I was born without them. Also needed braces to move the teeth behind those spaces forward cuz they grew in the wrong spots, lol describe yourself as aesthetic things: ...uhhh (I’m so bad at this kinda thing omg) we’ll say...foggy forests, mountains, rivers, cloudy days, rainy nights, old abandoned places, hot mugs of tea, new books, mint gum, glass jars, candles, silver jewelry, empty journals...and probably more but I’m tired lol

#who? me? [ about mun ]#.w.;

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autistic-arcana · 5 years

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Every Twenty One Pilots Song

I saw someone do this and thought it would be a good way to procrastinate everything I need to get done. So here are my favorite lyrics to every tøp song and a some of NPI.

"Let the water wash away  Everything that you've become On your knees, today is gone  And tomorrow's sure to come" - Blasphemy

"Depression and drowning singing now the full parts  Of lightning reveals where the ocean stops and the sky starts I’ve been told by the sky that the ocean I shall win  But it’s hard for me to see where ocean stops, and where sky begins A random strike of light reminds me of what is true But right now the ocean is blacker than black, the sky is too" - Drown

"And my own two hands  Will start bleeding again And floor will turn to  To a hole in the ground" - Hole In The Ground

"It's as good as I can be  This is all that I can be" - Save

"And somebody told me they saw you cry and break down  Do you know how hard that is to get around and think about?  It's not like you to let emotions get the best of things Especially when everything is hanging in the air we breathe" - Taken By Sleep

"I can't live this way  Just to write a song to play Just to stay alive  Just enough to breathe away  Another day, another face  And I will lose another race Save me now 'Cause tomorrow's gone just like yesterday" - Just Like Yesterday

"The point in life must be  Pretty dark and hopeless  Terrifying And if you’re asking me when that is It must be tonight" - Tonight

"I would laugh away the pain  Did you know I'd run all day  Just to maybe hear you say  That you are falling too" - Falling Too

"Reign down and destroy me" - Implicit Demand For Proof

"I'm dying and I'm trying But believe me, I'm fine, but I'm lying  I'm so very far from fine And I, I can feel the pull begin I feel my conscience wearing thin  And my skin, it will start  To break up and fall apart" - Fall Away

"A moth ate through Your favorite shirt" - The Pantaloon

"End of my ways as a walking denial My trial was filed as a "crazy, suicidal head case"" - Addict With A Pen

"You say that you're fine, but you have lost your sway and glow" - Friend, Please

"I realize that this line is dead So I'll follow you instead" - March To The Sea

"We all need you now" - Johnny Boy

"Your twisted thoughts are like snow on the rooftops Please, take my hand, we're in foreign land" - Oh Ms. Believer

"So I'll write my fears" - Air Catcher

"And he pretends he's okay, but you should see, oh  Him in bed late at night, he's petrified...He thinks that faith might be dead  Nothing kills a man faster than his own head" - Trapdoor

"I began to understand why God died" - A Car, A Torch, A Death

"Don't be afraid  We're going home" - Taxi Cab

"Look in the mirror and ask your soul if you're alright Put on the glitter that your soul hides behind You're in my mind" - Before You Start Your Day

"We find our worth in giving birth, and stuff We're lining our homes against winding roads  And we think the going is tough We pick songs to sing, remind us of things that nobody cares about And honestly, we're probably more suicidal than ever now"

"So bold and fearless in the risks we'd take, laugh in the face  Of gravity as its laws we'd break  On trampolines so high we reach for the sky But I do not look up anymore and I don't know why" - Slowtown

"My brain has given up, white flags are hoisted  I took some food for thought, it might be poisoned" - Forest

"We all know somebody who knows somebody who's doing great  I know some people who know people who are flying straight But I'll kindly enter in to rooms of depression  While ceiling fans and idle hands will take my life again" - Glowing Eyes

"Are you searching for purpose? Then write something, yeah it might be worthless  Then paint something, and it might be wordless  Pointless curses, nonsense verses  You'll see purpose start to surface" - Kitchen Sink

"I'm caught under water and I'm falling farther My heart's getting harder, I'm calling my father  Am I screaming to an empty sky?" - Anathema

"The only difference between life and dying  Is one is trying, that's all we're called to do  So try to love Me and I'll try to save you" - Lovely

"We're all diseased" - Ruby

"I'm lying cause I say I am fine" - Be Concerned

"Introspection is the name of this session  Spread this infection, reflect it on the next one" - Clear

"A mask that portrays that we don't need grace" - Ode to Sleep

"Fight it, take the pain, ignite it, tie a noose around your mind  Loose enough to breath fine and tie it to a tree tell it, "You belong to me, this ain't a noose  This is a leash and I have news for you You must obey me!"" - Holding On To You

"I did not know it was such a violent island  Full of tidal waves, suicidal crazed lions  They're trying to eat me, blood running down their chin And I know that I can fight, or I can let the lion win I begin to assemble what weapons I can find  'Cause sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill your mind" - Migraine

"And since we know that dreams are dead  And life turns plans up on their head I will plan to be a bum  So I just might become someone" - House of Gold

"I'm forced to deal with what I feel  There is no distraction to mask what is real  I could pull the steering wheel" - Car Radio

"Night falls, with gravity The earth turns, from sanity Taking my only friend I know  He leaves a lot, his name is Hope" - Semi-Automatic

"We're broken people" - Screen

"You'll have to watch me struggle  From several rooms away But tonight I'll need you to stay" - The Run and Go

"What kids are doing  They're killing themselves They feel they have no control of their prisoner cell  And if you're one of them then you're one of me  And you would do almost anything just to feel free... Our brains are sick but that's okay" - Fake You Our

"Together, let's breathe  Together, to the beat" - Guns For Hands

"I can feel your breath  I can feel my death" - Trees

"Stay alive, stay alive for me" - Truce

"This is not rap, this is not hip-hop  Just another attempt to make the voices stop" - Heavydirtysoul

"Out of student loans and tree house homes, we all would take the latter" - Stressed Out

"Yeah I think about the end just way too much  But it's fun to fantasize On my enemies I wouldn't wish who I was  But it's fun to fantasize" - Ride

"Yo, you, bulletproof in black like a funeral The world around us is burning but we're so cold" - Fairly Local

"Sometimes you gotta bleed to know  That you’re alive and have a soul" - Tear In My Heart

"But I know a thing or two about pain and darkness If it wasn’t for this music I don’t know how I would have fought this" - Lane Boy

"I'm thinking  'Wow, I probably should've stayed inside my house.'" - The Judge

"I'm not sure if I can see this ever stopping  Shaking hands with the dark parts of my thoughts" - Doubt

"It's deciding where to die and deciding where to fight" - Polarize

"I used to say I wanna die before I'm old  But because of you I might think twice" - We Don't Believe What's On TV

"These lyrics aren't for everyone  Only few understand" - Message Man

"Put away, put away  All the gods your father served today  Put away, put away Your traditions, believe me when I say" - Hometown

"I don't know why  I just feel I'm better off staying in the same room I was born in" - Not Today

"Don’t let me be gone" - Goner

"I crumble underneath the weight  Pressures of a new place roll my way" - Jumpsuit

"You can learn to levitate with just a little help" - Levitate

"There's no above, or under, or around it  For "above" is blind belief and "under" is sword to sleeve  And "around" is scientific miracle" - Morph

"If you find yourself in a lion's den  I'll jump right in and pull my pin" - My Blood

"I despise you sometimes, I love to hate the fight" - Chlorine

"I never look for conflict for the thrill" - Smithereens

"Promise me this If I lose to myself  You won't mourn a day  And you'll move onto someone else" - Neon Gravestones

"And you know you're a terrible sight  But you'll be just fine" - The Hype

"Save your razorblades now, not yet" - Nico And The Niners

"I don't mind at all, lean on my pride  Lean on my pride, I'm a lion" - Cut My Lip

"I created this world to feel some control  Destroy it if I want So I sing Sahlo Folina" - Bandito

"I can feel pressure start to possess my mind" - Pet Cheetah

"Then the day that it happened, I recorded this last bit  I look forward to having a lunch with you again" - Legend

"In time, I will leave the city  For now, I will stay alive...In Trench I'm not alone" - Leave the City

#twenty øne piløts #twenty one pilots #tyler joseph #josh dun #no phun intended #self titled #regional at best #vessel #blurryface #trench

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1-800-hellboi · 5 years

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TOP lyrics

favorite twenty one pilots lyrics from each song.

“I mean no disrespect, I am very perplexed by your ways. Why won’t you let us use your name?” - Implicit Demand For Proof

“But believe me, I’m fine. But I’m lying. I’m so very far from fine.” -Fall Away

“The end can’t come soon enough but is it too soon?” -The Pantaloon

“My trial was filed as a crazy suicidal head case but you specialize in dying, you hear me screaming ‘father.’” -Addict With A Pen

“Would you let me know your plans tonight? Cos I just won’t let go until we both see the light.” -Friend Please

“Take it up, seal the door. I don’t want to march here anymore.” -March To The Sea

“Get up, cos the world has left you lying on the ground.” -Johnny Boy

“Your shaking shoulders prove that it’s colder inside your head, than the winter of dead.” -Oh Ms Believer

“You’ve stolen my air catcher and I don’t know if I want it back.” -Air Catcher

“Everyone gather around for a show. Watch as this man disappears as we know.” -Trapdoor

“I began to understand why God died.” -A Car, A Torch, A Death

“Sometimes we will die and sometimes we will fly away.” -Taxi Cab

“You’re in my mind.” -Before You Start Your Day

“Your soul knows good and evil, your soul knows both sides and it’s time you pick your battle, and I promise you this is mine.” -Isle of Flightless Birds.

“We’re going too fast, save us.” -Slowtown.

“I don’t want to be heard, I want to be listened to.” -Forest.

“But do I want to say goodbye to all the glowing eyes.” -Glowing Eyes.

“Go away, leave me alone. Don’t leave me alone.” -Kitchen Sink.

“Haven’t you taken enough from me? Won’t you torture someone else’s sleep?” -Anathema

“I hear a second voice behind your tongue somehow. Luckily I can read your mind. Flies and cobwebs unwind. They will not take you down… I will make you believe you are lovely.” -Lovely.

“You’re an angel fallen down, won’t you tell us of the clouds. You have fallen from the sky, how high?” -Ruby

“I don’t believe my ears and I’m scared of my own head.” -Be Concerned.

“Let me know when you’ve had enough.” -Clear.

“I’ll stay awake 'cause the dark’s not taking prisoners tonight.” -Ode to Sleep

“It ain’t the speakers that bump hard, It’s our hearts that make the beat.” -Holding On To You

“Sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill your mind.” -Migraine

“I will make you queen of everything you see. I’ll put you on the map and cure you of disease.” -House Of Gold

“Sometimes quiet is violent.” -Car Radio

“I’m never what I like.” - Semi-Automatic

“While you’re doing fine, there’s some people and I who have a really tough time getting through this life, So excuse us while we sing to the sky.” -Screen

“Don’t wanna give you all my demons. You’ll have to watch me struggle from several rooms away but tonight, I’ll need you to stay.” -The Run and Go

“You say I’m not alone, but I am petrified.” -Fake You Out

“It shows where your mind has gone. And you swearing to your parents that it will never happen again I know what that means.” -Guns For Hands

“I know where you stand, silent in the trees.” -Trees

“Stay alive for me. You will die but now your life is free. Take pride in what is sure to die.” -Truce

“Death inspires me like a dog inspires a rabbit.” -Heavydirtysoul

“Wish we good turn back time to the good old days.” -Stressed Out

“I’m falling so I’m taking my time on my ride.” -Ride

“What I want to save I’ll kill.” -Fairly Local

“My heart is my armour. She’s the tear in my heart, she’s a carver. She’s a butcher with a smile, cut me farther than I’ve ever been.” -Tear in My Heart

“Don’t trust a perfect person and don’t trust a song that’s flawless.” -Lane Boy

“I know my soul’s freezing. Hell’s hot for good reason.” -The Judge

“Don’t forget about me. Even when I doubt you, I’m no good without you.” -Doubt

“Domingo en fuego, I think I lost my halo. I don’t know where you are, I need you to come and find me.” -Polarize

“And what we want we know we can’t believe. We have all learned to kill our dreams.” -We Don’t Believe What’s on TV

“You don’t know my brain the way you know my name. You don’t know my heart the way you know my face. You don’t know what I’ve done.” -Message Man

“A shadow tilts its head at me. Spirits in the dark are waiting. I won’t let them win, go quietly.” -Hometown

“I’m out of my mind. I’m not seeing things right. I waste all this time trying to run from you. I’m out of my mind.” -Not Today.

“Though I’m weak, and beaten down, I’ll slip away into this sound. The voice of you is close to me, I’m inside out, you’re underneath. Don’t let me be gone.” -Goner

“Please don’t make any sudden moves. You don’t know the half of the abuse.” -Heathens

“If you need anyone, I’ll stop my plans, but you’ll have to tie me down and then break both my hands.” -Jumpsuit

“I got back what I once bought back in the slot I won’t need to replace.” -Levitate

“Lights they blink to me, transmitting things to me. Ones and zeroes, ergo this symphony. Anybody listening? Ones and zeroes. Count to infinity, ones and zeroes.” -Morph

“Stay with me, my blood, you don’t need to run.” -My Blood.

“When I leave don’t save my seat, I’ll be back when it’s all complete.” -Chlorine

“Someone stepping towards you, can’t describe just what I’m feeling. For you, I’d go write a slick song just to show you the world.” -Smithereens.

“Promise me this, if I lose to myself, you won’t mourn a day and you’ll move on to someone else.” -Neon Gravestones.

“I don’t know which way I’m going, but I can hear my way around.” -The Hype

“When Bishops come together they will know that Dema don’t control us.” -Nico and the Niners

“Though I am bruised, face of contusions, know I’ll keep moving.” -Cut my Lip

“This is the sound we make. When in between two places where we used to bleed and where our blood needs to be.” -Bandito

“I can feel the pressure start to possess my mind.” -Pet Cheetah

“Then the day it happened, I recorded this last bit. I look forward to having lunch with you again.” -Legend.

“In time, I will leave the city. For now, I will stay alive.” -Leave the City.

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it-might-be-wordless-blog · 6 years

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Goner + migraine?

goner: have tøp helped you with your mental health at all?

Absolutely. A long time ago, I wrote a letter about this very thing. It was never really meant for anyone, it was just something that I needed to release. It’s very long. It’s very personal. However, I’ve made a promise to myself and others to always be true; there is healing in speaking your truth (in responsible transparency,) for both the speaker and the listener. Maybe some of you can relate. Maybe relatability is one of many doors to understanding and growth.

So here you go: ‘I’ve spent a majority of my life feeling lost. Evensurrounded by a family who loves me, I’ve felt completely alone, isolated, andmisunderstood. I struggle to put my thoughts and feelings into words that myloved ones will understand; that anyone will understand. Why do I feel the waythat I do about the world? About myself? Why am I only ever temporarily happy?Fleeting moments of joy, but always coming to an abrupt end; sometimes soquickly, into such a deep, dark, and toxic despair, the emotional whiplashleaving me exhausted. Always soexhausted; more than physically, but deeply, my soul itself drained.

As a teenager, I absolutely hated myself. There was nothingthat I could do that was enough to make me love myself or my appearance. Itdidn’t matter what anyone had to say. People always have something to say. Iwas bullied because I was a little different, looked a little different, but nomore so than anyone else. (Doesn’t everyone look a little different? Aren’t wesupposed to?) Kids can be mean. I don’t think that anyone escapes childhoodwithout a little verbal nastiness from their peers; so I’m not going to blamechildren. I was a child myself. In many ways, I’m still a child; always willbe, I think. I don’t blame them anymore than I blame my grandfather formolesting me. Or for the men who harassed me. They were sick, too. Do thesethings affect me? Of course. Of course.

But I think, maybe, my brain has alwaysbeen a little sick. Or maybe I was predisposed to illness? Is it intelligence?Or lack of? Maybe all of these things.

If I had understood why, then perhaps I wouldn’thave done what I did to myself. I remember the first time that I purged, andhow ashamed I was of myself; how can anyone be so petty, pathetic, so vain? There are people with ACTUALproblems, and look at you; hugging a toilet, fingers down your throat, wastingfood, wasting good tissue; that burn can’t be good.

Oh, but it was.

That burntook away the other in my brain, and for the rest of that day, in this sick,twisted nonsensical way, I felt a littlebetter about myself; now I have control over this; a button, a switch that Ican flip at any time to make this dark thing cower, for just a little. Thatturned into six years of binging, purging, starving myself, constantlyexercising, not sleeping, crying, feeling horrible; but it was aboutcontrolling that dark thing, right? (I see now that on that day, I gave ITcontrol.)

Art has always been the constant. Creative expression alwayshelped me work through whatever this was. Drawing, writing, piddling around on a keyboard or a guitar; somethingto distract myself long enough to get out from under that dark thing. I’ll show you that I’m worth something; Ican make things, beautiful things with these fingers. You can ruin things with them too.

I remember the first time a song really touched me on alevel so deeply that it literally knocked the purging right out of me. When Itell people, I feel ridiculous. “I listened to a song on repeat, and suddenly Ididn’t need to purge or starve myself anymore.” What?

‘No, you can’t keep lettingit get you down, and you can’t keep dragging that dead weight around. Cause ifyour mind don’t move, then your knees don’t bend. When the morning comes: letit go, this too shall pass.’

Justsome letters thrown together to form a few simple words, but they were theright ones. I’m not telling you that myeating disorder was cured, just like that; the thoughts didn’t go away, theySTILL haven’t, but it gave me the strength necessary to control my urge topurge. No more self-harm. At least, not physically. (But then, isn’t it ALLphysical?) It’s almost comical, really, to think that almost as soon asI defeated that particular bit of nastiness, that demon, if you will, I becameaware of a much larger, much more draining gaggle of demons. I spent so muchtime worrying about what other people thought of what I looked like, (as if I could have helped that AT ALL; as ifthat should even be an issue for ANYONE,) what others thought of how I acted andwhat I thought, that I had completely neglected my internal self, and what Iwanted, who I wanted to be. I found myself already married. I had already givenup the one thing that I had always turned to; I had been accepted into arenowned art school, but turned that down for the sake of ‘practicality,’ andpartially because, unsurprisingly, I let the opinions of others control my ownthoughts. The death of that dream hurt so badly, but more because I let ithappen without fighting for it. Complacency can be a killer. I didn’t pick up apencil for two years.

The world itself is incredibly disheartening. The people init, the truly bad ones, make it so hard to have faith in anyone, in anything;to trust. Why should I ever make myself vulnerable to anyone? Keep to yourself,kid. Don’t let anyone in, and no one can hurt you the way they hurt others. Butthat hurts too. What is the point, if not to connect? What is the point of thisif there is only ugliness all over the world. Selfishness, waste, violence,ignorance, and hurt; so much hurt. Everywhere. Children, men, women, animals,the planet itself. Constantly bombarded with images and stories of pain. Not only that, but to be a young adult in this society (youknow, the one we created for ourselves,) is almost impossible. Finish highschool, go to college, get married, buy a house, have 2.5 kids, retire, anddie. Get up, get dressed, go to work, go to bed, sleep; maybe, and repeat. It’simpossible to make enough money to complete this checklist, and even if you do,it feels so hollow. I’m alive, but I’m not living.

Empty. Heavy. I’mnot alive.

This isn’t what I wanted for myself. How can this be what anyonewants for themselves? Why can’t I spend my whole day outside with the treesinstead of looking at them through a dirty window? When do I get some space?When does anyone? Why is no one else screaming these things? This isn’t right.Who am I? This world isn’t right. It’s sick. What do I want? I’m sick. What doI do? What do I say, and to who? I can’t even tell anyone what this is, becausewe’re selfish by nature. It’s only natural, right? What is right?

“How are you?” “Good, and you?” “Good.” Keep to yourself,and no one can hurt you. But that’s not true. You’re hurting yourself, kid.

I wrote this big long, drawn out piece of cerebral vomit totell you that I am once again being saved by music. My brother shared a songwith me not too long ago that sucker punched me right in the brain; becauseamidst all of the stupid pop songs about how great it is to be alive, this onewas true; and it was on the radio. ‘I wastold when I get older all my fears would shrink, but now I’m insecure, and Icare what people think. My name’s Blurryface and I care what you think.’ ‘Outof student loans and tree house homes, we all would take the ladder/latter.’‘Used to dream of outer space, but now they’re laughing in our face saying:wake up you need to make money.’ Holy shit, someone gets it. Someoneunderstands. This is on the radio? More letters turned to simple words, but, wow, did they hit me.

Immediately I went home and looked for more. I was notdisappointed. Never have I listened to an artist and loved every single song,every word, for every meaning. It was literally as if I was listening to thatpart of my brain that runs on repeat. All of those letters turned into words,into poetry, into art, into feeling and emotion.Understanding. It didn’t matter thatI couldn’t run to these guys and spill everything, to have a conversation,because we were already conversing. Excusethe pun, but that burn in my brain, that deep ache that had ached for so long, had been washed with water; soothed, calmed. I’m not the only one who feels this way. I’m not the only who sees. Withevery word, every line the relief grew; a heaviness that I hadn’t even takenthe time to acknowledge began to lift from my soul.

What is life really, but toconnect? Words have so much power.

Let me just say, I’ve never wanted to kill myself. I’ve beenin a horrible place within, so many times, and in so many differentways. I’ve thought of death. I’ve thought about what the world would be likehere without me (I always came to the conclusion that while it might not make adifference to the world, it most definitely would to the people who love me. ) MaybeI’m too big a coward; or maybe the things that I do recognize in life asbeautiful are too valuable, too dear, too in need of cherishing, but I dounderstand depression, anxiety, and hurt.

Twenty One Pilots has re-awoken that creative part of methat I had given up on. Made me aware of how much my intentional creativeconstipation was actually hurting me. Itfeels so good to just do something constructive with my brain. I’m drawingand writing again. I’ve even gotten into playing the drums. (Can I just saythat literally beating your brain into submission while creating something;especially something that physically alters the air around you and producessuch a variety of complex sounds is exhilarating.)‘Are you searching forpurpose? Write something, and it might be worthless. Paint something, then itmight be wordless. No one else is dealing with your demons; meaning: maybedefeating them is the beginning of your meaning, friend.’

Tyler Joseph and Josh Dun have saved my light. Thank you. Ican’t say that I won’t ever get the chance to thank you in person, but here,now, I am nudging your consciousness with my own. I respect you. I see you. Thankyou.

‘I know where youstand, silent, in the trees. I want to know you, I want to see, I want to say:hello.’

migraine: what’s your favourite lyric?

‘Please don’t be afraid of what your soul is really thinking.’

Here is where I want to just say thank you for being there. All of you. Us. ||-//

#Twenty One Pilots #skeleton clique

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notgreengardens · 6 years

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Ask Tag!

I got tagged by @teaselovekill-me and @phantasieblog!

Rules: Answer the questions, then tag 20 followers whom you’d like to get to know.

Nickname: Mare

Gender: Female

Star Sign: Pisces

Height: 169 cm

Sexuality: Bi

Hogwarts house: Hufflepuff. A very hufflepuff-y Hufflepuff

Favorite animal: PANDAS.

Favorite color: Everything between light blue and dark green. And pink.

Current favorite song: That’s almost impossible to answer, but right I am listening to Imagine Dragons on repeat.

Favorite idea to get creative with: Errrr. Either I can’t control my ideas and just have them or I force myself to sit done and write. I also get pretty inspired by reading good writing.

What do you like to do when you’re alone: I read books or write poetry, or I start a new language on duolingo only to get haunted by duos reminders for the next two months. But mostly it’s pizza and netflix with @kingjacktorrance

What do I think of my friends: They are all great people and I love them.

Average hours of sleep: 7 – 8 at least or I am not a human being the next day.

Cat or dog: CATS. My life goal is to become a crazy cat lady.

Number of blankets I sleep with: 1, even if it’s incredibly hot I need one to snuggle with.

Dream job: Since I probably can’t spend the rest of my life at university studying every science and learning every language in existence, I’d say working for a NGO like Amnesty International

Dream trip: I think about this way too much. If I was super rich I’d first fly to North America for a road trip to visit all my friends there (some exchange students I met at university and some super cool people I met on tumblr like @soulpantheism and @putalydonit), then I’d fly to Brazil to spend a lot of time with my friends and family and then I’d fly to Japan for a language course where I’d also travel around the country.

When I made this account: August 2016

Why I made this account: I was super obsessed with twenty one pilots and all the good clique art was on tumblr. My blog name is actually a reference to the song migraine.

Number of followers: 110

So, 20 is a lot but I’ll tag all those lovely mutuals cause I wanna get to know y’all better <3

@soulpantheism @hellagay-arcadiabay @hawkeyescoffee @harperkyle @awkwardlittlesoul @pendulumandthepoet @shyredpanda @add1ictwithapen @ardre @aph-giraffe @existential-celestial @schoolyardhero

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wheatleyandchell · 6 years

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I’ll Sleep When I’m Dead

So, here’s that drabble :D I thought about making this angsty but I honestly don’t have it in me rn to do that to this beacon of light in my life tbh.

Anywho so the song chosen for this drabble was “Migraine” by Twenty One Pilots and the line chosen was “I’ll sleep when I’m dead.” If you want me to write a drabble inspired by a song, here are the rules, and here is my ask box (I did fix it, btw, to allow for actual anons lol)!

Wheatley awoke to the sound of a plonk downstairs. Groggily, he turned to the alarm clock. The harsh red digits read 2:37 AM. He quickly noticed the empty space beside him and scrambled for his glasses. Oh no. Ohhhh no. She had found them. She had found them and now She was going to take his wife away from him, away from this life that they had built. He began mentally preparing himself for the confrontation- would it be turrets? Or maybe those testing droids? Or maybe both? Maybe She had detached from the mainframe and somehow inserted Herself into a droid? Just the thought of seeing Her again made him walk faster. His feet nearly tripped over themselves as he flew onto the ground floor.

Like a turret scrambling to fire, he examined the living room. No signs of a struggle. He made his way to the office, ready to strike anything that would get in the way of- Chell slouched on top of her desk, in a sleep as deep as Space Core's love for the cosmos. A single desk lamp illuminated the back of her head. The front was buried in the leather bound notebook he had gotten her for their anniversary. She had this habit- which was pretty cute, actually, when it wasn't making his blood pressure increase exponentially -of staying up late and falling asleep while writing.

"Chell?" He nudged her. Still asleep. It looked like he might be carrying her up the stairs tonight. After checking to make sure she still had a pulse- after what they had been through, you could never be too careful- he slung her left arm over his shoulders and hoisted her up, catching the underside of her knees with his right arm and her torso with his left. A page of the notebook clung to her cheek before falling. As he prepared to climb the stairs, her voice- unmistakable even under the veil of sleepiness -broke the silence. "Thank you."

"No problem, dear.” He paused. “Although, sometimes, I would appreciate if you didn't stay up until the ungodly hours of the night.”

Her soft chuckle nearly blended with the air.

"I’ll sleep when I’m dead."

#chelley #chelley fic #chell #wheatley #mine

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astraleunha · 6 years

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about me

i was tagged by my girl @pyosunshine !!! thanks for tagging me babe!!

how tall are you? 5′/152cm

what color are your eyes? light brown

do you wear contacts and/or glasses? glasses!

do you wear braces? nope, but I use to.

what is your fashion style? I wear a lot of like black leggings that are decorated or high waisted jeans (but everything is high waist on me lol) and like graphic tees usually also dark. It's pretty grungy but I've trying to add a more feminine side to my clothing.

when were you born? January third

how old are you? 19, I'll be 20 in four days.

do you have any siblings? one older brother.

what school/college do you go to? None at the moment but I will be enrolling in a school very soon to become a medical assistant.

what kind of student are you? i am pretty anxious and like sad??? I'm dyslexic and I have a lot of problems in like the studying area. I'm fine with being in class but everything else is hard and since I was young I've struggled with feeling like an idiot so...

what are your favorite subjects? Ugh idk.

what are your favorite movies? Spirited away, hush, deadpool, and howl's moving castle

what are your favorite pastimes? netflix, writing, reading, dancing

do you have any regrets? Yes I have one.

what is your dream job? a writer, a dancer, or a piercer.

would you like to get married? not particularly, but if i met the right person and they wanted to get married then I would consider it.

do you want kids? how many? Not really. I'd maybe adopt one. Or I'd have one for a couple who can't if they wanted.

how many countries have you visited? 3

what was your scariest dream? i had one where I swear I could feel pain but I've had a lot of scary dreams

do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend/significant other? no

PUT YOUR PLAYLIST ON SHUFFLE AND WITHOUT SKIPPING LIST THE FIRST 15 SONGS 🎶.

Gashina- Sunmi

Migraine - Twenty One Pilots

First Love - Jungkey, Yuju

Moving On - Block B

War of Hearts - Ruelle

Which Witch - Florence + The Machine

ViViD - Loona, Heejin

Sweet Crazy Love - Loona, Odd Eye Circle

Butterfly - BTS

The Red Shoes - IU

Love Cherry Motion - Loona, Choerry

ODD Front - Loona, Odd Eye Circle

High - Sivik

DDD - Exid

One Dance - Drake, Wizkid, Kyla

i tag: @cutieyoungbin @sf9pentagoner my wives

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