#so I've been in a weird mood all day because it kind of unsettled me

[pbandjesse]

Today was a really good day off. I did a lot of time. And I've spent the last hour or so playing a video game with James. We just took a break so they could take a phone call for their podcast. But I'm having a great day.

Which is nice because last night kind of sucked. Neither of us slept well and I woke up and just a miserable mood because of it. Even though I slept in until like 10:00. I still was miserable. That was the first thing I did was text Jess and tell her how unhappy I was.

But I would start to feel better. I went and got dressed and James made the bed and I felt pretty good. It wasn't perfect but I was okay.

James big thing today was to take our blankets to the laundromat finally. So those were nice and clean now. And while they were gone I would do a whole bunch of organizing.

Before James left thing cleared out a big box for me and I would spend the rest of the day putting just everything that I could think of inside of it. Anything that I didn't want anymore I was trying to be very brutal in my choices of what to get rid of. Expired makeup old hair ties. Things that were just not serving me anymore and I'm trying very hard to pare down. It's going to be really hard with the art supplies. Thankfully I'll be able to take a lot of those to camp. I have places that they can go to be helpful for workshops. But for now at least I was able to get through all of the drawers that I have next to my desk and really sort them out.

And that felt really good. I really felt happy with my progress and I felt like it was accomplishing a lot. I didn't do a lot of like actual cleaning but the actual organizing I was doing was super good and I was feeling great.

I was a little overwhelmed by having to sort so many things. But I was trying very hard that just focus and not jump around a time. Every time I jumped around I got a little bit upset. But I got a lot done and that felt really really nice.

I would stop for lunch. James brought us back 7-Eleven pizza. And I would work at my desk for a bit. I'm starting a new stitching project to practice with a shishiko stitch that I was teaching last year. I would like to teach it to kids at camp this year so I want to get good at explaining. My evenness is not great but I'll get better. And I worked on some of my quilt stuff. I was able to make two of the quilt pieces I have into small bags. They're not as good as the one I made yesterday. I think I just need that larger table space to be able to lay everything out. But progress.

And it was a really nice day though. It was restful. I spent a lot of time doing stuff. I went through all of our cords and chargers and tested every single one of them. Got rid of the ones that don't work. Figured out which one of our charger boxes are still working and which ones aren't. And was just feeling really really good.

That's the sun start to go down I felt a little weird. My stomach was feeling strange all day today. I really just wanted to be organizing but there was only so much I could do today without completely burning myself out. I worked on some projects and poked around. But I felt really good.

James finally is using a heating pad and I'm glad because I think it is helping even if they are still in pain. And I called my rheumatologist because the medication they wanted me to go on is not going to get covered by my insurance so my appointment on Wednesday is now a tele appointment so that they can discuss the options. So I'll probably end up going back on Enbrel. Which I'm fine with but wasn't the idea. I hope that that will just work itself out and it will not be something I have to worry about.

And after we had a little dinner me and James started playing our video game and it's been very scary so far. Which honestly I knew was going to be scary because that's what we had been warned but it's a very cutesy like dating Sim. And it's all bright colors and cutesy and someone the scary stuff happens it's very unsettling. There's only been one part so far where it was like eh that's kind of hokey. But overall very excited to keep playing the game. And then really getting into the lore. It also seems like it's the type of game where you can try a couple different ways and that's exciting.

It sounds like James is almost done their call and I'll go join them and we'll finish our game.

Tomorrow I am working at the museum and it's the needles program I'm very much looking forward to it. And then me and James are going to try to get the last of our Christmas presents and bake cookies. I am looking forward to it. I hope it does a very good day. I hope you all have a good day too. Sleep well everyone. Good night!

[inkykeiji]

(Anon who sent the music ask)

OOOO ok, ok so I definitely listen to «All I want is you» like all the time so when I saw it I was yelling “omg RIGHT??”

My favorite from your list has to be «All I need» cause wow?? That’s reader??? 100%?? And also cause it’s a bop

I also have some songs that remind me of their relationship such as:

False Sympathy by Mondo Grosso

Banana Brain by Die Antwoord

Hole-Dwelling by Kikuo

Girl of My Dreams by Guti

And a special mention is Russian Roulette by Red Velvet because even tho the lyrics are cute the video tells a different side of the song haha, Kinda like False Sympathy!

But thank you for answering my ask! You were so nice idk why I was scared- and also if you don’t mind, may I be 🎧 anon? HAHA I don’t know how this works-

I hope you have a nice day/night!! <33

hehehe hello again!!! <33

AAAAH literally i flippin love that song SO much!!! it is also an extremely 'dari' song for me (dari = dabi + clari HAHA) so it's like,,,, extra special hehehe <333

yes yes yes!!! all that i need is like, quite literally the embodiment of part one and part two of my touya-nii main series in one song HAHAHA like verse one = i can take you there but baby you won't make it back and verse two = all she want is payback for the way i always play that shit ehehe <33 and then the chorus is literally 100% reader like u said!!!

oooooh okay so big apologies that it took me a moment to get to your ask!! i wanted to make sure i had set aside enough time to sit down and thoroughly listen to the recs u gave me & give you my thoughts!! <3

false sympathy:

literally SO GOOD!!! i absolutely love the mood/vibe of the song as a whole and the lyrics are spot on!! i can't even pick out a specific verse or a handful of lines because literally the entire song is perfect for their relationship!!

banana brains:

again i 100% agree with you hehehe my favourite bits are 'baby boy, you so cool, how can i stay mad at you? i love you and that's the truth. you so silly, you so stupid, you the best, i never want you to stress' and 'baby girl, you been there for me, through thick and thin with cool energy, you cared for me, yeah, defended me, helped me defeat my enemies, life is weird, it keeps testing me, no other girl in the world impressing me' AND 'you're like a little angel won't ever pressure me' <333333 as a whole it reminds me a LOT of just the whole mood and vibe of their relationship by the end of my snowman & me!!!

hole-dwelling:

AH I HAVE HEARD THIS BEFORE HEHEHE yes!!!!!! i'm 100% sure i've heard this song in an edit before hahaha but AAAAAAAAAAH anon!!!!!!!! i am so IN LOVE with this holy fuck i can't even find the words to describe the way this song makes me feel like my whole heart is bursting with !!!!!!!! love and obsession and infatuation and god i nearly broke my finger in my haste to add this to my playlist i swear to god everything about this song is perfect <333

girl of my dreams:

waaaaah okay i'm kind of entirely in love with this guy's voice oh my gosh hehe but eeeee (this is probably extremely obvious but) i genuinely love the concept of love being so insatiable, so ravenous, so all-consuming that it's an addiction, and that's definitely one of the big themes within my touya-nii series as a whole, so the chorus here really hit perfectly <3 overall the vibes of the song are perfect, and it reminds me so much of part two!!!!

omg i've never seen the music video so i went to watch it and !!!!! AH literally in love with the aesthetic so much!!!! i have a serious obsession with things that are cute but also like,,,, unsettling????? so i fell in love with this instantly ehehehe <33

thank you so very much for sharing these with me anon bb, they're all literally fantastic and they fit the vibe of my fic/AU extremely well!!! i love love love finding new music and i am always on the hunt so please, PLEASE always feel free to share music with me!!! <333 i actually have another song to share with YOU that mari (@/somberlys) sent to me a week ago and it's gibson girl by ethel cain!! mari sent it to me & said it had total touya-nii vibes and i agree one million percent!!! i was even like 'omg i have to tell headphones anon about this' hehe <33

of course i don't mind!!! welcome to the anon club, sweet headphones anon!!!! 🥳🥳🥳 <33 super happy to have u here!! i hope your weekend is going swell bb <3

#AH such a long answer hehe i'm so sorry #but WOWOWOWOW #literally love all of these sooooo much!!!!! #i think hole dwelling is my favourite out of all of them #im just entirely obsessed with it like i have it playing on repeat rn #wow <3333333 #ANYWAY hehe #stay safe out there sweetpea and drink enough water okay?? <33 #sending u sooooo so so much love n health n happiness!! #🎧.anon #clari gets mail