i feel so unwanted and alone.
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Im just a really stupid kid,
Cryin &
Dreamin of a better world
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Emptiness fills this heart
Nothing seems to give a spark
Alone left with my head
Left awake in my bed
To toss and turn in the night
In this brain an endless fight
Turmoil and lust with no one to give
This ill fated life that I do live
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A hug would be nice actually
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im literally so alone😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 just so so lonely like i truly have nobody except for myself yoyok fr..... yoyok FR...
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I have never needed my parents so much in my life as I do right now.
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We've lost
We lost humanity, sanity, love, lust and family the mask sits on the face of many. Rust grows self harm; being our own enemy's. Smile in the face of many. I still hold scares from the past, lost in the sea as hands of pain hold with a new grasp. This pain slaves and shames me. We've lost, im lost floating as life starts scolding I'm folding like many before me. Silently screaming,crying, smiling and denying. But I'm trying, crying; slowly death knows I'm dying. We've lost, the sun is nomore and forevermore life I can't adore.
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I felt so ugly and stupid. Why can’t I feel good about myself ?
I’ve fought all these years for happiness I keep trying to convince myself I deserve. I fake this confidence of knowing what I’m good at and my worth but then they disagree or hate me for it and I feel stupid all over again.
Nothing goes right when I feel good about myself. I feel like I can do is try to repent for my sins my mistakes but it’s never enough.
I’m afraid I really am some ugly monster that doesn’t deserve happiness. I am a Fredi with weird terrifying dark thoughts. I think I am just insane. So is it finally time ?
Can I let myself lose the battle ?
As time passes I’m only more convinced I’m not fit to live. I’m too crazy. Too undeserving. Too shitty with no chance of improving when it’s all I try to do.
But being good doesn’t come easy to me like it does others. I don’t know how to do this...
I wish someone could tell me what to do. I’d die if that’s what it took to make it better for everyone else. If I was really so rotten then I could be at peace with removing myself from existence. Because all I’ve done is make everything worse and ruin the lives of everyone I’ve ever cared about.
I don’t think anyone could ever really love me. Not the real me...
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Damn, it's one of those days when I realize just how fucked up and broken I am
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God I miss her. 🖤
She was so strong no one even realised her life and heart had been broken so much she died inside.
I hope she comes back soon with a renewed mind, heart and spirit. She was my only friend. She was beautiful even though she never knew it. I love her so much ❤️
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Und jetzt sitz ich mal wieder hier.
In der Dunkelheit
Allein.
Allein mit mir und meinen Gedanken.
Mit meinen Sorgen und meinen Ängsten.
Und werd zerfressen davon.
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i feel so lonely and sad all the time how are these the best years of my life why do i have so much to do why won’t anyone tell me i’m doing well
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