#so cross ur fingers for me!!!!!

[internetstarlets]

James Aubrey in Every Episode ⤷ 10x03 - The Purging of the Pundit

#james aubrey #jamesaubreyedit #bones #bonesedit #john boyd #johnboydedit #bonescenter #crimeshowsource #tvfilmsource #*jaee #*mine #i made 31 gifs for this but i had to cut it down and that was the hardest thing i've ever done in my life #unfortuantely i really like this gifset format so i will keep posting like this but i wont post a 30 gif gifset also ur welcome #the fact theres a possibility he could come back to me im sick #fingers crossed he leaves fbi if bones returns LMFAO #sorry i messed up and its 10x03 not 02

[zu-zup]

Makin progress!!!

#im on like page 90 out of uhhh #around 160? iirc #should i be working on this rn? probably not. i have other shit #but. #i recently got a motivation boost to do this so might as well take advantage of my undue confidence djjxjkdk #also im waitin on any news from the publishers....guys... cross ur fingers for me theyll either reject or accept me but #i feel like ill find out which one it is soon #my art #do czterech razy sztuka #fourth time's the charm

[daydadahlias]

Hi! How are you? Are you taking a break from writing? Sorry, just that it’s been a bit since you posted a fic and I wanna make sure you’re okay!

hello my little laffy taffy <3 yes i am ok !! and no, I am not taking a purposeful break from writing and i have been writing, I just haven't been posting!! because nothing is finished lol <3

I'm working on a chaptered fic rn (which obvi wont be out for a While because I want to make sure the whole thing is written before i start posting so i don't leave anyone hanging and can post on a scheduled timeline) and then I haven't been able to work on more short-form fics lately because I'm just soo swamped with school aaa.

it's finals time (like, for instance, tonight I'm working on my beautiful 12-page final paper for Multicultural Psych everyone say good luck jess ur so talented jess we love u jess) so I've just been really focused on school stuff and haven't had much time for personal writing lately :( BUT!! summer is coming soon!!!!!! and then i will write to my little heart's content <3 and hopefully post to ur little heart's content too <3

#im good im just. drowning yknow #like all my friends have had to listen to me bitch sooo much over the last month bc #when i say ive been scheduled to the minute i really mean that #im getting home at midnight most nights and doing homework until like 1 or 2 am #and then waking up at 8 and just :D starting it all over again :D #i am EXHAUSTED #i am DRAINED #i am FEEBLE #but im happy :) #feeling v productive v academic weapon #should be all As this semester if things go well for the next 2 weeks so fingers crossed #but !! the second im not absolutely being beaten upside the head with assignments i will be back to writing <3 #i love that it's been literally only a month and a half and ur like #jess must be in grave danger #i love u ! #pigeon #anon #but yes im good im just <3 dying <3

[justghostthings]

Does anyone wanna send me like 3-5$ for no other reason than I'm hot and could really use it my venmo is xanderz-g

#ive been unemployed since my surgery in october and i have applied for like 100 jobs in the last couple weeks n still havent heard back from #anywhere i had an interview at #and now my payment for my surgery is past due n i set up a plan but im constantly so low on money now #mutual aid #aid request #mine #rambles #ftm nsft #t4t nsft #queer nsft #trans nsft #ftm sub #mlm nsft #queer community #pls cross ur fingers for me that i get the job i interviewed for last week i rlly want it

[pepprs]

halfway thru my first drivers ed session. idk if i can do this aftually lol

#purrs #there’s like 30+ ppl in the class and most of them are high schoolers who already have like at least 20-30 hrs and i have 3. also the #instructor is really nice and means well but she is also a little clueless and she embarrassed me in front of everyone (or maybe i #embarrassed myself) bc she had us all introduce ourselves and say what we like to do and i said play video games and she was like oh are you #a bit of a gamer 👀 have you been to any of those conventions. LIKE 💀😭 NO I JUST PLAY SILLY LITTLE PET GAMES….. #but ajyways um. i don’t have enough driving experience to start behind the wheel lessons yet 💀💀💀💀💀 and we r watching videos rn and it’s so s #scary like istill have such trouble even maneuvering the car around how am isupposed to develop situational awareness and be driving on high #hihways and shit. this is so overwhelming. it’s like ‘every moment ur behind the wheel u and the ppl around u are at risk’ well idont want t #to be at risk or risk others lives. but also i need to move out. help 💔💖 #anyways this class has INSANELY long breaks (like 15+ mins thank god) and we might be able to end early every day too so. fingers crossed it #wont be that bad and i’ll actually retain stuff and learn to drive fucking finally. but im so scared #also on thursday we are watching a video depicting a graphic c*r cr*sh so. that’s just fucking great #drivers ed tag

[orcelito]

Went skimming thru late trimax For Reasons, got caught up reading the Legato fight, realized things about the fight that I never had before & went WOW, I kind of want to write an analysis post right now!

Felt the same kind of insanity grip me, however momentarily, that fueled all my analysis posts however many months ago. Too tired to actually word things coherently right now, but...

I May or may not have a full(ish?) analysis of the Legato & Vash fight a la style of This post analyzing the Trigun: Multiple Bullets fight that got unexpectedly kind of popular. People seemed to really appreciate that one, & I even had some ppl saying it could be cool if I did that for others?

So. Legato fight. Maybe. Feel free to remind me later if u see no mention of it again for over a week lol

#speculation nation #ive been wanting to go back into reading the manga again #ive only slowly (VERY slowly) been puttering along with where i am in my fic #for research purposes with the fic. #i do want to go back through the manga bc i STILL havent done a full reread of it #ive just reread so many different parts of it for assorted research that im probably getting to some 10 or so reads total lmao #i wanna reread it in full tho front to back to sort out any stray details and remember any timeline things i might have slightly skewed. #the problem with reading the manga though. is that every fucking time i look at it. i am consumed by a drive to research EVERY little thing #so me reading turns into 'hm thats interesting. that reminds me of this thing that i know happens in volume 8. let me just check that now--' #and i end up so dreadfully distracted every damn time. bc i end up with all my wires crossed and my attention pointing a million ways #it's exhausting. and so i havent been reading the manga outside of random research dives. #im very good at that. i know every volume of the manga and can find Anything within 1 or 2 mins (at the Most) #which is also kind of the problem lol. fingers in too many pies. so many things to think about. #if i get back into Actually rereading the manga tho you can bet ur ASS ill find more things to make posts about #every time i open up the manga i find new things that i could analyze. #i just havent. bc i dont have time. but. ykno what. maybe i Could get back into it... #remind me later. this is one of my favorite fucking fights with my favorite Fucking panels #and i realized smth about the shit Vash is doing that was making me lose my MINDDDD #later tho. ive been sleep deprived today. and it is time for me to rest. #& yea yea ITNL is still the main focus. but idk i have such a mind for details and i remember So many things about the manga #i wanna show that off to people again. and thus. Analyses!!! :D #later. goodnight for now

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

SENDING MY FIRST ASK FROM THE NEW BLOG!!!! i feel like i am sending a letter from a new address... crazy. ANYWAY HOW R U TONIGHT!!!! i hope ur havin a good day!!!! kicking my feet like a teenager at a sleepover rn tell me abt ur day who r the blorbos in ur mind rn what kinda art r u workin on lately how's it going friend!!!

HIIIIIII HI HI . HELLO SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG- i mean catboy cellbit!!! . dude i am. dreading the coming week tbh but it is fine !! we will get thru it we will survive!!! i am so sleepytired but alas i also cannot sleep so i may just have another night of reading and music ahead of me . wah. i hope u are hsving a good night <3 IVE BEEN COMPLETELY ART NERFED TOO BTW. my laptop died on me a couple days ago and while i was able to find a new one affordably it will not be here until the 13th 😔 so no digital art from me for a while. sigh. i DID just decorate my new sketchbook with stickers tho so im hoping that will get my brain in gear for traditional art again. AS FOR BLORBOS. oh . u know. the usuals. vash the stampede. zacharie from off . masky marblehornets (also tim marblehornets) . to name three of them.

#who are ur blorbos rn. i dont watch qsmp i think sering ur posts abt it are really funny bc im like. guy walks into the room on fire gif. #i have no idea whats going on in here congratulations and/or my condolences <3 #thank u thank u i love the sleepover vibes. literally had gossip talk w one of my other friends earlier #(name withheld for reasons but if u see this u know who u are and i love u ) #so the vibes are so correct #i have 2 work tomorrow :( not looking forward 2 that. #however it IS my last day of my long term overnight job which means i will be able to sleep in my own bed tomoerow night. #this is something i have not done for like. close to a month now. whcih is why ive been sleeping so awfully! so hopefully that fixes me #also have. job interview on wednesday for another aquarium place.. #fingers crossed this goes better than my last one but also part of me is kind of hoping it doesnt go well #bc i hate transitional periods and i dont want 2 go thru the moving process again #and i dont want 2 meet a bunch of new ppl all at once again. and do the while job training thing. #alas that is the anxiety talkimg and i do actually want the job bc it would be good for me <3 #sorry it is late and im soooo fucking sleepy so im rambling !!!! do not feel like u have to respond to . gestures vaguely at all that #its blorbo talk time. i desperately want 2 warch more mh right now #however the house im.staying in IS in the middle of the woods and very isolated and i have been so scared and paranoid #so i am OUTTA LUCK sigh. i will simply watch smth silly instead like gg tmph or david attenborough or perhaps spongebob will b on the tv. #asks #friends!!! #false-anachronism #<< oh fuck new url!!! i got like halfway thru typing ur old one before i was like WAIT SHIT.

[dandyshucks]

second life tip in 24 hours: pls do not drift by lunch esp if u have mental health struggles as is, you will suffer the quencies severely T^T

#i ran out of food in the house fhfjdkl bc i did not get groceries last week #so I've been scavenging the last couple days #and rationing stuff before that #and man. I shan't say more but. yeah. the quencies. #sifting thru many articles and studies abt covid also did not help my well-being but i needed to to send to my mother fjfjdl #she finally asked me to show sources when i said some stuff abt how every infection and reinfection heightens ur risk for MORE reinfection #so i had to go thru my stockpile and find some updated stuff to prove that she needs to continue to mask #and anyways fhffjdksl that took a definite hit on my brain for tonight. SIGH #i smile and nod along w so much bullshit but i could not keep my mouth shut on that one #rgrhrhrhh. holding myself back from ranting any more abt any other stuff going on. sigh. #lets just say... i am very tired fjfkdl this is no way to exist but alas!!! it is the cards I must play with !!! #im going to hopefully be able to work on art tonight fingers crossed fjdkdl i Need it fndmkl #vent // #dandy.cmd

[inkykeiji]

clari bb !! im so excited for ur beta ver to come out >.< is there a date I can put on my calendar for it <333 dont overwork urself tho n take care !

anon!!!!!! thank u for ur excitement it means a lot to us!!! we don’t have a set date BUT i’m just finishing up my fourth round of edits (i have three choices left to revise) and then i’ll test it myself and make sure it’s acceptable to give to u guys and then if it has my stamp of approval you’ll have access to it!!!

so all of that is to say, if it doesn’t need any more revisions after round four, u can have it by the end of the week!! i’m testing it tonight so it’s possible you may even have it by the end of tomorrow! <3

#please please please cross ur fingers for me that this is the last round of beta revisions and we can get it to you soon #i am just as if not MORE excited for everyone to test it #your feedback will be crucial to how it progresses #so pls answer the form and participate in the polls if you play it!!! #but anyway yeah! if it doesn’t need any more revision then probably within the next few days! #and i MEAN IT this time lmao not like when i underestimate with my fics 🙄🙄🙄 #have a wonderful tuesday bb pls stay safe and drink water! #inky.bb #clari gets mail

[bo0zey]

anyone else ever get in those silly goofy moods where u just hate urself sooo much that u instantly feel physically almost violently ill just thinking abt urself and also even tho u worked a 12hr shift w no breaks or water running off of the 2 cups of coffee u had for breakfast 20 hours ago, the thought of eating instantly sends bouts of nausea coursing thru ur soul while churning in ur stomach bc ur brain hates u so much that its convinced ur body that u don’t deserve sustenance or anything else that’s life sustaining or promotes ur physical well being because u subconsciously convinced urself that ur such a shit excuse for a human being that u neither deserve nor have any right to anything regarding maslow’s hierarchy of needs bc u r such an awful thing u deserve to be neglected n treated like the nonliving object ur own brain sees ur living body as or am i just mentally ill lol

#laying in bed everytime i think abt myself i feel literally nauseated n like it’s so weird #this feeling comes in waves intermittently just even .01 sec of ‘hm i’m hungry’ FFFFFNOPE HRRGRHFFF VOMITTY #i want to curl up in a ball and die forever i don’t care about me i don’t want to take care of me anymore i’m not even good at it #whyyyyyyyy did i stop taking my meddsssssss i guarantee y’all this is why i’m being such a crybaby on the dash lmaoooo #i have a headache i’m def dehydrated from crying n sniveling n barely drinking any water today while sweating like a mf at work #imma go to bed 🛌 if i don’t wake up i will be soooo pleasantly surprised y’all have no idea FINGERS CROSSED🤞 #real talk tho can someone tell me why my body is literally reacting this way for like no real reason #like am i truly that disgusted with myself i make myself nauseous just thinking abt me #ok yeah the answer is yes lol BUT LIKE WHY THATS SUCH A DRAMATIC BODILY RESPONSE TO MY BRAINS DUMBASS THOUGHTS??? #ik the body and mind have a super powerful link n the brain influences the body like crazy but like #why this why does my brain literally want me to berate and degrade myself and isolate me and make me cry alone n starve me that’s so mean #i’m not starving btw i’m literally always eating just these past 2 days i’ve been such a fuckup my body won’t let me do anything #i had a chocolate poptart for dinner last night (thurs) n threw myself to bed #i hope i don’t end up hurting myself that would be so lame #i literally don’t have time for that like i am Not doing wound care duty off the clock for my damn self lol #also don’t want to take care of myself so i wouldn’t bandage myself up properly sooo yeah i’m not gonna do anything actually #cleaning ur wounds r super important ok yall ur literally playing god if u don’t do good aftercare snfjfbdj #i can’t believe i’m in this nasty ugly depressive episode i hate this so much i don’t have time for this i hate this cycle #i hate being bipolar 2 n my moods n meds have been so fkcdd up lately that i don’t even have the rlly fun hypomanic episodes anymore #i’ve just been constantly having mixed episodes im unbearable to be around im so sorry for everyone that’s ever spoken to me im insufferable #ok that’s enough im done being dramatic lmao #im gonna give myself a bolus PRN dose of clonnie then i’m going tf to bed #ramblings #shut up cianna

[quaranmine]

why do people always try to blame hermit and traffic fandom discourse on new dsmp fans. bestie we have our own homegrown discourse to be responsible of, it isn't always someone else's fault

#i just feel like it's a cop out #oooh the dsmp fans caused people to break cc boundaries!! no they didnt and also the boundaries ur defending dont exist #oooh the dsmp fans made this place hostile!! nope the hermit fans did that perfectly well way before the dsmp even existed back in 2019! #like i am just saying. can we own up to our own mistakes in this fandom and stop pretending to be superior to other corners of mcytblr #and take this from me. someone who is painfully intimately aware of dsmp discourse and someone who loves hermitcraft and traffic series #discourse #also yall have been saying that the dsmp fandom people ruined things for like...over a year now probably. let it go. no they didnt. #like in isolation yes i am sure there were bad dsmp fans who crossed over and made trouble here to but like. #there are also plenty of bad hermit/traffic fans who do the same all on their own without ever being into dsmp #the issue isnt the fandoms themselves LOL and im so sick of people trying to be superior #lets focus on the issues at hand and stop trying to point fingers at innocent groups of people. #ur scaring potential fans off by being hostile. i've seen multiple people who said they didnt wanna watch hermitcraft at all #because they felt uncomfortable after seeing hermit fans drag down dsmp fans #lets all. be nice to each other. please and thank you have a nice day

[littlecafe]

omg when forestella covered legends never die on immortal songs someone said is this a forshadowing for worlds in korea this year and i did not believe because forestella's music and riot's music are very different and the fanbases are basically 2 different circles

but why am i just now seeing hyungho also covered rise at their seoul concert a couple months ago?!!! this was around the same time as their immortal songs too like 2 league songs back to back that's kinda suspicious omg unless he's a fan but why now all of a sudden?! when worlds is heading back to korea ahhh

i don't think they're mainstream enough though but if it manages to happen even if they're not doing the main song i will explode maybe it'll be like a featuring like bobby did for rise

#they already did warriors a year back but warriors is like the league song that no one knows is a league song even though it is #so that's just whatever but legends never die??? RISE??? ur joking #if you do legends never die ur a league fan for real but if you do rise??? no one does rise!!! #rise was the worlds song the last time worlds was in korea back in 2018 too like shut up!! why is this matching up #okay but out of all the worlds songs left rise matches him best but there's a billion songs out there for him to cover at their concert #there's no reason to pick it!! im crying beat interactive lmk what u have planned #so. is hyungho my fellow league watcher he has to be it's either him or mingyu #woorim would be suprising but not really but doohoon would actually be he's so dad coded i can't imagine him being a toxic gamer #im gonna quit working and become a forestella keyboard warrior btw catch me in the youtube comments #tea talks #delete later i'm just having a moment also hiiii i'm kinda back summer was busy but now things are slowing down (fingers crossed)

[sir-elyan]

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#guys i had an interview yesterday at a Book Store #and ive always wanted to work there so pls cross ur fingers for me #the interview was almost an hour long 😵‍💫 (50 minutes) #and they already had me do a background check so like?? #oH id also love to work at a museum but i dont really live close enough to one ): #but yeah even tho it pays Minimum Wage im still excited to maybe work there

[izzy-b-hands]

Ongoing PTSD breakdown trauma stuff below the cut, pls ignore, just need to spew it somewhere that like. I know my feelings will be safe to have and type up and whatever. Also, sorta? mild our flag spoilers under the cut bc my brain is a mess and I use characters I love to help metaphor out and explain my own shit so. yeah. that's also a thing here.

Motherfucking random traumatic memory abt Mum fucking. Randomly hitting me while I'm writing fic (for no apparent reason, no idea what triggered my brain to throw this at me when I WAS NEARLY DONE WITH THE FUCKING FIC NO LESS)

So goddamn rude. I'm off my track on the fic now, so I'm setting it aside for the night (we have Ren Faire today (it literally just hit midnight lol), but after that I want to get back to it) and realising I should really write this memory down.

Like. all of the little details about it, the bits of Mum and I and our relationship surrounding it. Both because my brain does tend to shutter some of those things away and makes them hard to get to without it being stupid lengthy a process involving talking out every feeling I'm having with someone else(unless it pulls some shit like tonight, then suddenly it's no fucking problem throwing it all over the place apparently) and because like

I don't know if I could say this one out loud to anyone, but I think I should. Probably a therapist, but it's one of those stupid trauma things of you just Want Someone, Anyone To Know, Now. To acknowledge it and say if it was as fucked up as it feels (bc I will never deny the possibility that I'm being dramatic and it isn't, and I should just. chill the fuck out about it.)

But every time I start trying to type it out I get hit with this wave of a physical response where my arms and wrists and fingers feel like they're clenching up and I Can't type it. And there's a part of me that doesn't want to because if I can see it in letters on a page, then it's real. It's real and it happened and maybe it was as fucked up as it feels like it was and if that's all true then like. it fits with everything else about our relationship that's already fucked up, from the severe (better than it used to be, but I'm sure it's very clear to y'all that it's still Not Good even though I've moved away from her) co-dependence to the emotional incest (fun fact: that term feels like a gut punch every time I hear it, and I've heard it from my therapist more than a few times now over the past 9ish years of treatment.) So I shouldn't be shocked by that or like, upset, right?

Yet I'm here typing this out to put off typing it up, and I'd bet money I don't necessarily have that I'll wind up putting my laptop away, showering, and going to bed without getting it typed. For better or for worse.

Part of the reason I worry so much abt Frenchie this season (aside from that I love him and he's one of my faves and I want nothing but good and happy for him) is because I also subscribe to his 'shove all the fucked up shit you've seen/experienced in a box in your mind and just. Never open it unless you're putting more in there' method of coping (have all my life, it was so weirdly validating to see it onscreen like that explained so plainly) and like. This is me when the box somehow pops open when I didn't mean it to, and I both want Frenchie to be able to process the things that have happened to him but also don't want to see a character I love so much hurt like this. Because it feels like a big stupid gaping open wound in my chest that I'm being entirely too dramatic about, no matter how valid feeling that way abt it might be.

Kind of hope I can just shut the lid on the box so I can get done and go to sleep after I post this. Should I actually type out the memory and everything? I hate to think that the answer my therapist would have given me, if I could afford to be seeing her rn, would be yes. But the thing is, I have fucking Ren Faire tomorrow in my Izzy cosplay (that Housemate says I look good in, which I'll vainly admit I'm rather happy about, even if it is a very inaccurate and homemade cosplay that's missing certain details I can't yet afford to buy), and I don't want to be dealing with any of this for the rest of the night/into tomorrow. I need to sleep so I can go have some fucking fun, for once. I even feel ok to bring my cane with folded in my bag, just in case I need it, bc that would still be in character if I wind up needing to use it. I can count on one hand the times I've had a fun experience where I also felt safe admitting when my body was hurting and using a physical aid to help it get by; I'm not losing this one.

It's not getting typed out, and I need to duct tape that fucking box shut for now.

#text post #long post #tw ptsd #ngl kind of feeling exhausted and can't think of what other tws to add so if y'all see one I should have pls msg me and I can add asap #here or on discord if u have my discord info whatever works #im going to shut my laptop down shower and try to force myself to cry in there #bc the fact that I haven't had a big physically painful sob session means I'm not fully done with this rough patch bc they ALWAYS get bette #after I have The Big Sob Session #until I have it I just have to work hard to keep myself together and not let it affect other stuff which tbh #this stuff ive carried so long that even in like. active breakdown or wtf ever u wanna call it #masking and getting by in public is somehow still easy enough #but that's another thing I'm fucking off to the shower pls cross ur fingers and toes that i at least cry a little in there so I can sleep l

[dyslexic-mess]

Cry count since starting uni: 6

Classes done: 7

Classes missed: 0

Late marks: 0

Record for amount of crys in one day: 3

Earliest get up thus far: 6am

Latest get home thus far: 9pm

Will to live: 70%

#Im studying musical theater btw #its brutal #but Ive been told it eases off so #cross ur fingers #maybe pray to apollo for me #follow along for more #beks uni stats

[3vocatio]

since satan's event has ended, i wanted to ask what your thoughts on it were?

now that i've finished both routes barbatos' event, i can now make a comparison with satan's event...

unfortunately, both follow the same pattern in which the prime subject of the face of the event...simply isn't. although they're advertised as events that center around the specified character, it's more accurate to call these types of events as a gacha in of itself. you don't know who the "real mc" of the event is until you make educated guesses based on the cards or you read through the story yourself. for satan's, it was diavolo; for barbatos, leviathan.

some people may disagree with me (i'm unsure because i haven't been familiarizing myself with current fandom matters), but satan's event was mediocre at best. the devs brought up some aspects of satan i wished they treated better, and i wish that some things hadn't gone as they did (i.e. making diavolo be the "good guy" and satan, the "bad guy". there is no black & white here, devs...look a bit closer).

barbatos' event was disappointing. there is no exploration of barbatos' character--they treat him as static as they have all these years later. i'll be honest with you, though, i'd rather choose one of two evils than to make him unfathomably ooc for fanservice purposes; the event may as well be leviathan's because barbatos only got a small spotlight shone on him in the very last locked book.

tldr; the devs were making baby steps in satan's event, and then embarassingly fell down 72 flights of stairs when releasing barbatos'. treat these events as though they were gachas because you don't know which character will overshine the one you expect.

#﹒❝ birdsong #omswd #crossing my fingers because they havent messed up with solomon too often but whos to say they wont go #'lollll askctuuually (teehee) we're gonna put the focus on simeon losing his goddamn mind! again! heeheehee' #for /his/ event... #as u can see. i have my priorities straight and i do not fret much over obm men because i have achieved the fandom equivalent #of nirvana #(so now i only fret over solomon--silly me~) #how did i do this? simple make everyone your oc and then talk about them with ur inner circle of fandom friends #and then create content for them better than the original #if i sound scattered & disheveled it's because i ran through the deep dark woods of Discord to find myself in the cursed town of Tumblr #12am sharp #(translation: i haven't been here in a hot minute i've been chasing wendigos with my friends over on discord) #(extra translation: wendigos = hanging out w my friends bc they rule <3)