#so even tho my fic is insane

[teabutmakeitazure]

(university au with Childe as your brother's best friend)

You've never been one to pry into your brother's friend group, not until you started going to the same university as him. Yeah he's a little older than you and you never treat him with the respect of an older sibling but he took care of you when you moved for uni. It helps that he has friends in your dorm despite not living in them anymore, but it sure as hell doesn't help that almost all of his friends know you and treat you like a sister. Don't misunderstand. The way you're treated is good, but it gets a little tiring to be referred to as someone's sister by strangers and greeted with familiarity because they know you while you don't know them.

All goes fine and dandy with him and his friends showing you shortcuts around campus and good places to shop and eat until mid semester rolls around. There's mid terms whooping your ass and you finally make it to reading week barely alive (who decided to keep mid terms before reading week anyway?). It's when you meet up with your brother on a weekly dinner together that there's an unexpected guest. It's one of his friends? Alright. Wouldn't be the first time you've had to be in their presence. Wait. It's his best friend? Your brother has a best friend?

Okay. That's fine. So your brother has someone he's close to. That's good. You meet him and have dinner together. He's ginger but that's a curse he has to deal with himself. You find it cute how he talks about his siblings and maybe the reason why he's your brother's best friend is because of how family orientated both of them are. You exchange contacts like with all the others and think nothing of it even after he's in a same class as you in the next semester. It's just one of those common mandatory courses required to graduate. No big deal.

After the first two classes, you find yourself sitting with him in every class and being in the same tutorial group. Your brother says it's a coincidence with the tutorial group, but you honestly don't mind. He's polite and makes good jokes (even if some of them are shitty puns or dirty). As time passes, you start to understand why your brother is friends with him. The three of you have the same taste in games, movies, shows, etc. It doesn't seem to be much of a surprise that by the end of the semester, you are good friends with the ginger cursed guy named Ajax.

Summer vacation goes well with him sending you photos of his siblings or sceneries of his homeland as well as ranting about his remote internship. You send a few photos of your brother and sceneries back, but don't reply too enthusiastically because it feels a little weird being good friends with your brother's best friend. Ajax contacts you as usual but somewhere towards the end of summer vacation, his messages become... rare. It doesn't bother you at first, your brother assuring you that he's busy with his internship since it's nearing its end. However, before you start getting too worried, you delude yourself that it's because he may have found it weird being friends with his best friend's sister. No big deal. You understand. Life carries on.

Unbeknownst to you, there has been a revelation and a singular message reading, "I'm sorry if this sounds weird but I like your sister. Like I like like her," has created a problem almost as dire as the failing economy. Your brother's best friend likes you and your brother is not happy about it. You see, the male brain works in simple ways. It sees something it likes and thoughts about it swirl around. In the case of a girl, the first thoughts are in no way holy or clean, so to know that your best friend has had thoughts like that about your sister is nothing less than disturbing.

While you carried on like usual with your new semester, there was tension between those two. Ajax and your brother had been on edge around each other ever since your brother replied to his message with, "Grow the balls to say it to my face." Though harsh, it was a friendly way of telling him that his guts are being tested. If he can admit that to his face, then only will anything advance. That brings them both to the pier at 1 am almost one week away from reading week. Both of them have three mid terms this coming week but some matters need to be settled first.

While you spend a peaceful night of gaming to relax and go to bed, your brother and his best friend engage in a potentially life changing conversation near the sea. Like thoroughly rinsing a cloth and making sure there is nothing wrong with it or hidden in it's pockets, Ajax is thoroughly interrogated about his intentions and feelings as a result of bringing his best friend down here with drinks after midnight to talk. Even though your brother's words are a little harsh for someone who knows him so well, he understands as a big brother himself. The night goes well, and he receives a green light. Your brother parts with him with a sigh, telling him to take care of you and warning him that most of what he's seen is a front (you are more of a devil than you seem, according to him).

So, when you get a message from Ajax asking you out for dinner right on the last school day before reading week, you run to your brother to ask him what the fuck is going on just to be met with indifference. "If he likes you so much, he can have you. He'll regret it soon," is his reply. Well, at least Ajax brought roses when he came to pick you up. Sure, he's ginger (ew) but he's cute (even more so after you learn the details of the cat fight he was in with your brother over you. who tells his best friend they'll be family and even closer if he marries his sister? Ajax apparently. you suppose he fought well for your hand).

#childe x reader #childe brainrot #i am so down bad for this man it is insane #i originally planned for this to be the backstory between reader and childe in the tortellini drabbles fic on my ao3 and even wrote the- #-first meeting chapter #never hot published tho #got*

[moregraceful]

i made what was a huge medical decision today that has been received very badly by my family and i feel absolutely nothing but pure freedom and joy about it. the thing i'm really fixated on rn is when should i post this fic i just finished

#i think october 1. for halloween #it was for skelly season but it took such a weird turn in the end that i feel weird about gifting it to someone lol #very short list of people i would subject this particular rarepair agenda to on purpose. maybe just beryl #the medical decision is legitimately life-altering and i should be stressed but i'm just like it's my body. my body horror. and i'm free :) #i'm stressin way more about the fic bro #and like if i don't gift the fic do i then go back and commit to making it even weirder and rarepaired.... #stars future leadership polycule (two guys who are dating and their captain who holds their hand in high stress situations) #what am i even talking about..................... #today my boss was like thank you for your (insane 11 paragraph long) email! i used it as a meeting agenda with my boss :) #i was like oh no now my grandboss knows i use my boss's inbox as my work livejournal #i got to remake my schedule tho now that i'm almost done with my training!! i gave myself a three day weekend... #...so i can go to the therapy i need to deal with this job. was anyone gonna tell me abt secondary trauma or was i #just supposed to find that out on my literal first day of work lol #my therapist was THRILLED she was like oh i have SO many books to recommend we're gonna have SO much fun!! i was like oh no #fridays off and life is good tbh!! except for the fic. i don't know what to do abt the fic #fresno oilers.txt

[daisychainsandbowties]

Keep seeing fanart of your davy jones au but i cant find the fic?? Did you remove it from ao3? If not pls share the link would love to read it

🥰🥰 yeah @thistleation made this & this art for my beautiful and strange au that literally only exists right now as one disorganised ramble (here) and one half-baked attempt at coherence (here).

the fic’s never been on ao3 (i’m a “if the fic’s up, there she stays” kind of creature guy girl thing) but i am writing it (or i was but to be honest i’m still struggling to write fic for personal reasons) it’s sweet to know that the interest is there & i will probably be able to write again in my entire life it just hurts so fucking much when i try right now. but i’m excited about this au i promise that bea is extremely fucking weird in it. and she’s the normal one.

#i was writing it for the big bang this but then i quit that lmao i hate deadlines i hate having to do stuff & also i can’t write 🥰 #i think i have 6k of it written or something but i’m not opening any documents today #i can recommend some good fics tho if you hmu in another ask my friends are so fucking talented it’s insane 😘 #anon #davy jones au #also ty for the art forever thistle makes me cry even looking at them 💖💖

[irulanpaul]

i think i finally found a semi-famous (?) blog that blocked me lmao

#why did they block me (a very small niche blog) tho? #they're in the thg/tbosas fandom and tried to reblog a coryo gifset... but couldn't. i couldn't see their blog either so obv they blocked me #..... i haven't even interacted with them as far as i remember. like ever sjdhhd #i'm not taking it personally i swear. but i'm genuinely curious #was it because of the coryo/katniss insanity from the other day? #(do i really need to specify that i don't want her to fuck actual octuagenarian snow? i just find their dynamic super interesting #but i'd certainly be down for some time travel/deaging/whatever fic) #was it because i said coryo did love (... in his own way) lucy gray in the tags of a reblogged post? #i mean. he did have strong feelings for her that much is obvious. he's was just vaguely creepy and possessive about it #and he also loved himself and power more than a girl he'd known for like. 3 months #(i'm not excusing his actions. he *is* an asshole mind you and will only get worse. but that's his reasoning) #or was it because of the usual suspects - i ship r.eylo? shhdhdhhf #i mean this is genuinely funny #there are so many problematic call outs that could be made about my taste in fiction #that at this point i wouldn't even know where to begin shdhhfhfh #val speaks #txt

[verothexeno]

Me: *writing a fic I am actually really enjoying and I don't put too much thought into it*

-barely gets past 5-10 notes-

Me: TIME TO WRITE MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT GETTING ALMOST NO LIKES. I'M ENJOYING THAT SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

#for real tho; I am INSANELY amused by how unpopular that small fic I'm writing is #but I am just so happy writing it that I'm just ... glad? #Glad that no ones gives a shit and I'm just being a silly bean that enjoys her brainrot #My stuff could even get 0 notes and I would still don't mind #whoever stumbles upon it and likes it is good enough #I'm just sharing 'cause I'm so used to it #but frankly interactivity with people is something I just don't count on anymore #random ramble of the night #JUST LIVE YOUR LIFE #DO AND CREATE WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!

[petrichorium]

Happy anniversary of the time I wrote 20k words in a week and got ghosted by the artist who was supposed to make art for the fic lol

#it’s been a year I can be bitter now right #for a SINGLE DAD BAKUGO FIC r u kidding I should have had artists lining up to make the art and instead I get shafted #I don’t fully blame the Big Bang staff. I think it could’ve been handled better but it’s mostly on the artist #but wow that rlly happened huh LMFAOOOOOO #shoutout to Shay for being the most supportive friend through all that truly #I got to live vicariously through her assigned artist who was amazing && also she drew me some stuff that was adorable 🥺 #if anyone wants to know why sleeping is taking so long to write it’s bc I was fueled by spite and a deadline for the first chapter and now #I am just. kinda bitter and sad abt the rest #which sucks bc I love the fic I rlly do #hopefully I can get over it bc it’s silly to let something like that ruin the fic entirely #SO insane tho. the way I was the only one who made the cut and didn’t get art too #not even bc I didn’t get picked but bc my artist was a sham. nice. love that truly #the staff was okay. I’m not gonna pretend I felt supported but I get that it’s a complicated and stressful event #and it was a difficult situation bc my artist insisted they were working on stuff. never got an official ‘sorry I’m dropping out’ message #so I get it. but I’m also still pissed :) abt the whole situation not. at any singular member or staff or anything #mostly at the artist #but again could have been handled better fr

[daydadahlias]

that lil gif set you just posted of Ashton in the brown suede jacket is what mim ash looks like in my head. all doe eyed and smiley and squeaky clean looking

This guy for sure enjoys going to The Bean with his boyfriend

#he’s so fucking precious #very delighted this is the ash u picture #as u should #even tho he is bearded in the fic #hehe #pigeon #anon #best ask ever ily #I love when people r like ‘this is the ash/cal i picture’ it makes me insane #I LOVE ‘squeaky clean looking’ #pure little angelic guy can u believe #god he’s precious #this is my fave Ashton content ever lmfao

[kuiinncedes]

c:

#i went thru like my entire google drive folder for fic stuff #last night and read/skimmed all of it lmao 😭 #there’s some unposted stuff that i kinda want to post except like idk LOL #like i probably wouldn’t do anything else w it so i could just post it for shits and giggles #i haven’t written anything in so long ;-; #i don’t love my writing tbh but it was fun c: #would be fun to do again #bro how was i so motivated to write during remote college freshman yr lol 🤪 #literally got on campus and couldn’t write shit anymore lmao #not even in the summer #well actually i think i did write a little #but was struggling lmao and then gave up 🤩 #anyway lol #i’m gonna look for some more jason g/race fanfic even tho i’ve like exhausted all the tags i wanted to look thru c: #i want more hoo tartarus AUs that involve jason falling #bc i’m insane #maybe i reread the j/asico one that is INCREDIBLE #anyway c: #jeanne talks #i’ve been on tumblr so fucking much today like i haven’t done anything lol 😭 #my entire dash is hung/er games and p/jo lol it’s kinda fun #i like Barely don’t go there for both but i’m too unbothered to filter anything :P #i rly do just be talking idk what the point of this is lol

[octolingkiera]

5, 15, 16, 29

hi!! thanks for your ask!! :3

(the list)

5. What work of yours got more feedback than you expected?

so on the one hand, my danny phantom fics always get a lot of attention and it always leaves me a little surprised, but on the other hand, that fandom is very fic focused, so at the same time it Doesn't really surprise me when i get a lot of kudos for them. what surprises me more is how much other fandoms DON'T comment or bookmark or follow fics lol. i was seriously spoiled with those lol

as for a fic that's gotten more feedback, uhhhh hm. a couple of my dp fics have done better than i thought they would, yeah, but i also have this bleach fic that's in second person that seems to have come across really well, so i guess that one's the most surprising lol

aftershocks has done really well, but that's not surprising considering the talent that went into it, the fact we updated every week, and the word count, but it still baffled me as we were updating it how well it was doing lol

15. What WIP are you taking into next year with you?

definitely my rottmnt separated au (chapter 1 is posted on ao3 as sunset hues, jetpack blues (SHJB)) lol. ive been putting a lot of effort into it, more than i give most of my fics, tho i'm realizing now as i'm working more on planning i may have jumped the gun a bit and posted it a biiit early?? but also i wanted to post it on my birthday so i'm not so concerned about that kdshbfhdsf

when i post chapter 2 (which is basically done except for the final revision i need to give it), i'm gonna reread chapter 1 as well and make sure it's up to date with the minor stuff i left out bc i hadn't nailed down some specifics yet (but dw, it'll be Very minor and won't effect the plot lol)

besides that, i have oneshot prompts i wanna fill out and i have a fic in the works i'm calling Fallout, which is inspired by fall out boy songs (which ive been thinking about since like february/march when "love from the other side" dropped lol)

i also lowkey wanna try to get a fic done for danny phantom's 20th anniversary in april but idk how that's gonna go lol. i'm still very focused on ninja turtles

16. What’s your most common “Additional Tags” tag?

of my 54 works on ao3 Fluff seems to be my most used tag with 10 times, which is. lowkey a surprise LOL. Hurt/Comfort comes in second with 7 (tied with "not beta read" and a tag for a danny phantom fic event) and Angst is in third with 6 (barring the two that i'm not counting lol)

going by just my rise fics, first place tag goes to Donatello and Leonardo are Twins (TMNT) with 6 of my 8 fics (ao3 says 9, but one of them is aftershocks, which i won't include bc it's a collab) and only reason it's not all 8 is bc i didn't tag it in fics where it's not a main focus lol

29. Favorite line/passage you wrote this year?

hmmmm let's see.... okay what have i written this year....

oh god that's a lot more than i thought, uhhhh

i have a lot of stuff i Really enjoyed tbh. there's a fun little action sequence i wrote for a later part of SHJB that i liked (that i'll prolly have to rework a little), there's a few Other parts of my prewritten SHJB stuff i enjoy, there's a bunch of stuff in my rise august fills i really liked...

but i think for a single line/passage, i'll go with this bit from the beginning of my fic what's in a name? (which is also posted here on tumblr!!)

Donnie, not bothering to look up from his phone, flaps a hand in the air dismissively. “I keep all my anger bottled up in here,” he taps his chest, “and hope one day it will just kill me. Like a normal person,” he adds, as if what he just described is unequivocally a universal experience.

this entire piece was a lot of fun to write and there's some more silly lines in this i really enjoyed but i think this is the one i think about the most, like the exchange directly after this lol

Leo purses his lips and steeples his hands, holding this fingers to his mouth. “So that’s a yes to the mad, then.” “Or it could be, like, the coo-coo for cocoa puffs type of mad!” Mikey chimes in, crossing his eyes and swirling a finger beside his ear. “Y’know, like British people say.” “Ew,” Leo says, because that’s all that needs to be said about that.

and this line a little bit down from that

Raph’s next exhale is heavy, the burden of Atlas in his eternal torment. “Pizza Supreme, I wish.”

thanks again for your ask!!! these were a lot of fun to answer. i love talking about my writing dfjghbdfg get me started and i'll never shut up lol

#thanks for the ask! #sometimes i like talking about writing more than i like actually writing #it's a lot of work and my focus and motivation don't always let me write much #but GOd am i excited for my sep au #it's taking a lot of work #and a lot of research #but i want it to be the best that it can be #at least some of this research is really interesting tho :0 #like this fic has me going insane and making a million notes #i even made little flashcards for the episodes so i could physically see where they might fit the timeline lol #ask #answer #and since they were all mentioned #rottmnt #danny phantom #bleach #aftershocks #i think i have this tagged??? #if not oh well lol #i do now

[fivefeetfangirl]

just how can you read this in front of your family i was crying sm during the last chapters

there is unfortunately a thing called family vacation, one room and its raining outside. so not much choice lol

#actually moved to my bed lol so now i at least have a little more privacy ahahaha #i think i will cry during the reunion tho #i feel like ive been so insane over this fic for so long so rn i cant even cry reading the letters im just sitting here. ache in my chest. #staring straight forward. just feeling empty. #lol sorry to be so unwell on main but what were yall expecting really ahahahaha #91w #91w spoilers #also half of my family went out just now. so just me and my sis hashtag cry safe zone lol #this makes is sound like i dont like family vacations but i do lol theyre nice

[an-abyss-of-stars]

He Saw Her At Daybreak: UPDATE

I just finished the rough draft of the first half of Chapter 3 andddd....

LIKEEE wtf happened 🤣 there's two sex scenes that definitely added to the bulk of this, but damnnnn!

I still have to go over everything and flesh some shit out, this is definitely going to be over 20k and that's not even the full vision 🤣

Definitely splitting it into two now tho! I'll still upload them at the same time or maybe a day or two apart, just to spread it a little... we'll see.

#aemond x rhaena #rhaena x aemond #hotd fanfic #hotd fic #honestly the insanity 🤣🤣🤣 #there's so much in this first half it's honestly crazy that I even THOUGHT all of this would fit in one chapter 🤣🤣 #the second half will probably be 20k words too for all i know 😂 #you can't say i don't feed you with my smutty Rhaemond content tho!! 🤣🤣 unhinged crack that it is 😂 #i joke i really do love you loyal readers so much... you all fuel meeee 💖💖

[nopeferatu]

grrrrr *my eyes turn black as i snarl and growl and bite and bite and bite*

#i just want to find a copy of lj user 271horses' other unfinished brokeback mountain fanfic called 'widower for one year' 😭 #IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK WORLD #literally the only traces of it that exist are snippets on a forum and THATS IT! #this supposedly incredible unfinished masterpiece of a fic by an author who ik was amazing bc ive read another one of their well known #deleted works is just. poof. gone. cant find it. and i cant even find peoples emails on the forum bc theres no moderators on there left #so no one will accept my request to make an account on the old bbm forum EVEN THO PPL STILL POST ON THERE EVERYDAY??? #AND I CANT SEE THEIR EMAILS UNLESS I HAVE AN ACC???? #im so sleep deprived rn im literally going insane. dont mind me #still brokeback posting

[seventh-district]

of course i finally write something for the first time in nearly two months and it’s the most fucked-up, self-indulgent thing i’ve ever written

#Seven.txt #writing stuff #Jimち ASMR #🧷 Matt 🔨 #<- making my own tag for Matt bc i am insane #and this fandom is so small that i don’t think there even /is/ a pre-established tag for him anyways??? #and it’s not like i’m super eager for this fic to even actually be viewed by anyone who knows who the character is #cause this fic is so self-indulgent and embarrassing i lowkey don’t want it associated with the fandom #lest i be called out for being problematic or smthn. dude i don’t even know anymore #it’s not like Jim himself hasn’t been called out for being *ahem* problematic either tho soooooo #it’s not like strange and potentially problematic is anything new around here anyways #and it’s my mental illness so I get to choose the comfort character to project my destructive desires upon #i don’t really even think it’s that bad but i fear i’ve actually just grown immune to my specific flavor of Fucked-Up™️ #and any sane person would look at it and be like… Are You Okay??? #and the answer is No! #but like. in a chill way #anyways iiiiit is 4am and i just stayed up all night writing 7k words of something so brutally honest and revealing of my desires #that if i were a wiser man i wouldn’t post it where anyone who finds my online presence can just… read it #but! i am not a wiser man i am a very stupid man who enjoys oversharing on the internet #and it’s fine bc i don’t think hardly anyone’s gonna see it anyways. given the fact that there’s like almost /no/ fandom for this character #it’s so weird writing for a character that’s never been written for before #by anyone aside from his original creator obviously #but i think Jim just fuckin’ improvs a lot of his shit anyways lmao. #I’m Getting Off Topic!!! Time To Shut Up and Hit Post!!! #edit- i just looked and actually looks like there’s one (1) fic written for Matt on AO3 so i am sadly not the first person to write for him #alas #anyways i’ve still gotta do a final edit and get it all drafted up and ready to post on here and AO3 #so who knows when it’ll actually be out. but it feels good to be writing again! #now if i could just find a way of doing it that doesn’t require me staying up all night long…

[noriakicatkyoin]

Diversity win! Guy i dont like no longer kins kakyoin

#outing myself as a moron making this post anyway i have been waiting a year for this guy to realize this why because im spiteful #how do u kin kakyoin and ignore that hes like a little mean spirited for the funnies. a little hatred pilled. are you insane #this is a case of me getting mad about him being mischaracterized but im sorry it will forever make me angry #kakyoin is like the worlds worst autistic bc hes not socially unaware. he is TOO socially aware in the WRONG direction #thinks he knows SO much about socializing to the point he GIVES UP because its pointless #and HATES anyone who blindsides him socially and plays stupid games with him bc he sees it as cowardly #like that is the thing ? kakyoin is a speak now or hold your peace while i kill you kind of guy lol . #hes not uwu shy damaged and hurt guy who wishes he knew how to make friends #bro is crazy and didnt realize he was suffering from self imposed isolation #bro overly percieved his own weirdness and couldnt see himself intrinsically tied to another person (cough cough aroace) #and was like wow nobody understands me and im aware of this i am so Different tm i need to never attach to anyone bc theres no point #he has to have that attachment almost forced onto him (tho to save his life i.e. jotaro deworming him) for it to register as a possibility #he never creates an avenue for others to truly get close to or understand him bc he doesnt think they can #but then whenever he learns its possible then its just a game of him slowly allowing his walls to fall back and his mask to peel #and then his mask for himself also begins to peel and he realizes how hurt hes always been bc he doesnt even Realize #bc loneliness is All hes known #i lost the plot but also i think i accidentally just got myself out of writers block i know the missing piece i needed to come up- #with my fic ending. ohhhh boy #ohhhh yeah baby #l8r #youve given me unnecessary feelings

[aesoka]

also, i know im not saying anything new here but while I did enjoy seeing hayden & ewan again [ honestly, I'm just happy hayden knows how much his performance as anakin means to ppl ] I'm just disappointed in MYSELF that I didn't see disney using that sense of nostalgia prequel fans have/had as a marketing tool. like UHG. don't get me wrong, there were bits on the series I enjoyed, however, it didn't nearly rip me apart as much as it could have, and they abandoned the more grueling [ but satisfying work ] of tearing obi wan apart inwardly in favor for a more action based, outward plot.

#like im sorry space jesus turned space satan would most def. sense his spawns [ of satan sorry lol I cant not make a joke ] running around #ON THE FRINGES OF HIS OPERATIONS???? this man even incapacitated in a walking iron lung is still #terrifyingly powerful he'd recognize them almost immediately IMO. #ik he was told theyre dead but the force is fucking insane and I firmly stand by the notion hed be on them #like the sad bloodhound he is. #anyways loved seeing kenobi run around like he's in the clone wars again but make it painful #and i like putting suitless anakin just standing out in the dunes #huddled and watching that fucked with me #however hayden deserved more than a spar flashback [ which he looked good in ] #but as i UNFORTUNATELY return to star wars I cant help the bitterness that creeps in #when my gaze turns to disney star wars #/n #i want something as visceral and raw as a husborth fic but I realize disney will never have the balls to pull that off so ig ill stick to #the fics #the thowing obi wan in a fire bit was funny tho very petty very ani

[jennycalendar]

you know it's real when you're making a playlist for it!!! HGHGHGHHG

#my most beloved sequel tag #writing talk #it doesn't even exist yet and it's already . im already so excited about it. #all of my big insane projects have always been jenny fics that are pretending to be about other characters #this is just going to be a jenny fic. tf #(.....have to actually finish what you make tho. expect that soon)