Sad QSMP headcannons that have like half a toenail in canon.
The French version:
Baghera cries very silently, like someone who is used to having to keep quiet.
She also has a very high pain tolerance and she didn't understand why until recently.
When Pomme disappeared Baghera was terrified that the Federation had something to do with that, terrified that her little girl would be at the hands of the people who made her and hurt her so badly.
As much as she wants to hate the Federation for having hurt her, at the same time she can't and that makes everything so much worse.
Baghera doesn't have wings. But she does have two scars on her back where no feathers have ever grown.
Antoine was not prepared to actually get attached to any of the French, or even to Pomme. He knows he is in too deep, has too much to lose if he cuts ties with the Federation, and yet it twists something inside of him when he thinks about their possible reactions, especially Etoiles. For the first time in a very long existence he understands what friendship is, knows what it feels like instead of just watching others experience it, and is very aware that he will lose it all.
That is why Antoine was so pissed off at Osito for being careless with the picture, the earlier they discover about his true past, the earlier he will lose them.
If the Federation truly had Pomme he would have burned it all down himself just to bring her back.
The first time Cucurucho saw Antoine angry was after the torture session nearly killed Pierre for good. No one knows who was more shocked by his display, Cucurucho or Antoine himself.
Pierre continues to trouble sleeping and constant nightmares when he does, he can't remember the last time he managed to truly rest without waking up in a cold sweat or screaming, he is always on the verge of passing out and even when he does crash he still has nightmares.
He refuses to acknowledge it or even talk about it, hides his exhaustion with everything he has, pushes people away just to make sure they wouldn't realize there is something wrong, too afraid they will see a weakness to be exploited.
Pierre hates being alone as much as he craves it- He likes being by himself working on his machines and keeping his secrets close to his chest, but at the same time when he is alone is when the dark thoughts take over
He will, on occasion, not exactly seek to get himself hurt but not exactly avoid it either- If he can feel pain it means that there is something human in him doesn't it?
But Pierre hates dying and he will avoid and lash out when put into such a situation. He fears what will wake up, if it will still be him.
Sometimes Kameto look at the rest of the Islanders and he wonders what his own life could have been, what sort of bonds he could have forged with people, if the Federation didn't come for him first.
Etoiles does not know what his worth is if not as a warrior.
He is not smart like the others, he doesn't build pretty buildings or incredible machines, he doesn't know how to do anything but fight. And if he can't fight, if he can't protect the people he cares about, then why is he still around?
War is everything Etoiles really knows. By the time he reached his late teens and was released from the battlefield he had seen more combat than some people in their old age, everything he knew how to do was to fight, he had nowhere to go, knew no one, had nothing.
He was never able to settle down for too long or even to truly build himself a home, Etoiles knew so very little about the world that he just decided he would explore it. Some people in the army talked about things they missed, things they thought worth fighting for, and Etoiles wanted to understand that feeling of fighting for anything but his own survival.
To this day he still feel more comfortable fighting than he ever does doing anything else.
None of them ever had families.
The concept of family was something Antoine learned by watching other species and for a very long time it was not something he truly understood or could relate. It was only after the plane crash and Pomme that it hit him that maybe he can understand this thing now.
Baghera always thought she was just an orphan with amnesia. She had very little memories of her young years and none of them involved other people, just her and a room, so for a long time she believed she was alone in the world. Even now she struggles with that emptiness, especially now that she knows that the Federation may be the closest thing to family that she will ever have.
Etoiles had parents once. He knows he did, but he cannot remember their faces or even their voices most of the time. He was still just a small child when they came for him and sent him to war.
Pierre was always alone. He had parents but they could as well be ghosts haunting their home, he hardly could see glimpses of them from time to time, all he ever truly had were his machines.
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Sometimes maybe Miss Yuu wants to be like a Disney princess so Neige buys her all these fairytale-esque dress and cutesy jewelry and she wears them with pride-much to the dismay of NRC
(I mean sh*t-i wanna wear frilly dresses and call myself a pretty princess)
(Same, i want to frolic somewhere in a frilly dress the way i was meant to.)
Neige would absolutely make her the princess of RSA. I'm just picturing a bunch of guys falling over each trying do everything for her in the name chivalry. "Because that's what princes do." Over the top heroics all day everyday.
Also for some damn reason Tumblr won't let me attach pictures here. (I've tried so many times😭) But I can make a separate post. So here is Miss Yuus NRC Lookbook.
Something like that is how I think Miss Yuu dresses when not in uniform. Very much still in that cottagecore realm, but a bit more homemade looking and obviously in darker or less bright colors. Because in my head, Yuu (Or at least my Yuu) knows how to sew and has to make her own clothes. So lots of simple skirts that you can tell she made from old table cloths and curtains. Dresses with contrasting panels or patches because she had ran out of fabric and had to improvise. The oversized jackets and shirts, are from a few of the boys that let her have some of their stuff. Like a sweatshirt of Jacks of a jacket from Trey.
I like to think Miss Yuu cares a lot about her clothes. There is very little she can do in her present situation, and her appearance is one of the few things she can control. It something she does solely for her own benefit to make herself feel good. Grim and the first years are aware of this and know better than to complain when she cant decide what to wear, or drags them to Sams shop for sewing supplies. It may not matter to them, but it matters to her, and they don't want to take that from their friend.
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