#so fucking sad

[edsrosetattoo]

So what was it? Schedules and logistics? I’m not going to blame Taika for being too busy with Time Bandits because I do think it would have been an option to focus on the the crew without Ed and Stede and only have them do a week’s worth of filming and have a new EP if he really couldn’t do it.

I have to assume it was just a bunch of little things combined with finances since HBO sounds stingy AF when it comes to OFMD. Is it possible to move it to another network? Can we fight for that? I know this fandom will do everything it can, though. That’s a given ❤️.

#so fucking sad #ofmd #our flag means death

[purgemarchlockdown]

Mercy and Amane Momose

(Also Known As: I'm so normal about Amane Momose, lets talk about the conflation of love and pain.)

(CW: Child Abuse, Cults, Discussion around Death and Child Death)

So, recently the 0708 interrogations have answered T2 Question 09:

Q: What does love mean to you

Kazui has a really interesting response that I'll talk about some other time but what I want to focus on is how Amane answers it.

This Translation of her answer is provided by @/milgram_en over on twitter:

A: To spread mercy with no limits

(@/prisoner-000 has there own translation of it over here, it doesn't change my opinion on this, I just thought it would be important to mention.)

Now that's not exactly the clearest answer but we can put it together with T2 Question 02 to get a clearer picture of what she means:

Q: Do you believe you were loved? A: Very much deeply.

Now, as we know, Amane was abused and judged sinful by her parents and punished because of that, this constant punishment and abuse causing her to hate them so much she wanted to kill them.

Amane: Furthermore, isn’t it condescending of you to assume that just because I happen to be a child, I am incapable of hating someone enough to kill them?

Mercy is defined as compassionate treatment of someone you have the power to hurt, clearly what they did to her isn't mercy in the dictionary sense so why does Amane consider it mercy when the actions done towards her were so painful and traumatizing that it really could have killed her? Most people aren't exactly equipped to survive torture, much less a twelve year old who isn't allowed any sort of aid.

Well, here's the thing. Amane Momose was Told and Treated as sinful for her entire life. She was Taught to believe in her own horrible self. She grew up believing herself to be impure and unholy.

She portrays herself as weak and childish in Magic, she punishes herself in Purge March for making small mistakes. No matter how much she says otherwise, Amane Momose doesn't consider herself to be "good."

Magic very heavily features the concept of being a good girl but it's important to note that Amane never Calls herself that. She says that she could be or she's going be. Not she is a good girl.

I swear! I'm going to be a good girl now! That's it!

I promise! I can only become a better girl!

Purge March's good girl theming isn't as intense as Magic's but it is present, especially in this line.

If you become a bad girl, monsters will come out This is the magic that stops that from happening

This line is during The Cat Scene, a scene where she was "weak" and stole away the cat's trial.

Amane: Both pain and illness are trials. According to our teachings, those who run from them are the worst evil there is. That’s one of the four great principles. No matter who you are, that cannot be forgiven. Es: What are you…? Amane: Oh – speaking of which, there is one among the prisoners right now. An evil existence that’s trying to steal people’s trials away from them.

Evil you say?

Amane doesn't believe herself to be good, or even capable of being good and hates that about herself. If she could be good none of this would have happened. Everyone would be happy.

Only if, only if, only if I could be a good girl I hope, I hope everyone can be happy and smile Forever, forever together would be a dream

This is what makes her parent's actions mercy. If Amane is unable to change who she is and Amane is inherently sinful and impure then her parents trying to "cleanse" her using punishment is...mercy. They could do So Much Worse, but they don't, because they think she could be "better."

It's painful yes but their only doing it to help her. And isn't pain a trial anyway? Really her want to get away from it is just a sign of her weakness.

Dear wise one, Is this ok? Is it ok to be weak sometimes?

And this training, is Supposed to make her less weak. They believe there's still a chance for her, a glimmer of hope that she could be better. That with enough time she won't be Amane Momose anymore. She'll be someone better.

And what's more merciful than that really?

Amane: I’m happy that I was born to my parents! It was a bit difficult, and it could feel restrictive sometimes, but I’m really happy that I could grow up on such beautiful teachings! I want to live this way!

#milgram #amane momose #milgram amane #008 #milgram analysis #milgram meta #cw child abuse #cw cults #this question made me #so fucking sad

[obstinaterixatrix]

a pal has a friend that Needs To Break Up With Her Shitty Boyfriend and while we were out for dinner they said something that I think me and air both misheard as ‘[x] broke up with her boyfriend’ and we were like WOO!!! FUCK YEAH!!! it was like when there’s a big win for the sportsball. and our pal had to break it to us that no their friend did not break up with her shitty boyfriend, they were just expressing the general wish that their friend would break up with her boyfriend

#my ramblings #so fucking sad #I hope thry break up

[etoilesbienne]

spreens playing osu something tells me he isnt joining the strippers

#posts from the aether #so fucking sad

[shardain]

and, there it goes. goodbye boops, I'll miss you forever 🫡🫡🫡🫡

#beansposting #the boopening #so fucking SAD #rest in piss you were gone too soon #boop

[saetoru]

draken falls in love with you the first time you cook for him

#𑁍 — tee talks. #still think about that panel of him to mitsuya when they were kids #'i dont have parents' #'i wish i could say things like 'i hate her cooking' ' #SOBS #SO FUCKING SAD

[the-ugly-ly]

realizing my aunt has also unironically looked into getting a lobotomy says a fucking lot about trauma and it’s effect on the brain. yet we still act like people are just supposed to pull themselves up and cope. cope. COPE.

just stfu and work your job. stfu and raise your kids. stfu and go to school. while the fucking muck in your brain builds and cements until your whole fucking foundation is fucked.

to actually consider severing a part of your physical brain organ… i wouldn’t wish that feeling on anyone and yet i learned today it’s not fucking unique and my heart ACHES. i’m so sorry to anyone experiencing the effects of trauma.

#fp bpd #bpd #borderline pd #borderline personality disorder #living with borderline #trauma #childhood ptsd #complex ptsd #ptsd recovery #ptsd #tw ptsd #ptsd awareness #i need a lobotomy #so fucking sad

[barnbridges]

very bad at the mental health if i canr even cope via blorbo.

#my dad is coming to see me tomorrow though im crying #im so sad though #so fucking sad

[sunsetrules]

okay but how are the people that are so willing to crap on Damian for being the little tsundere stink he is able to take the entirety of their unbridled anger out onto this little man without having the self-awareness to actually sit with the fact that the dude is six years of age????

like, even if we were to set aside the fact that irl most young children have NO grasp on their feelings whatsoever and are only as emotionally mature as they've been taught to be/as their still growing, still developing (emphasis on STILL DEVELOPING!!!) brains will allow them to be... small Desmond is literally trying to work out why his mommy and daddy can't take a minute out of their lives to see him when his classmates' parents can afford to take HOURS, while also simultaneously trying to maintain the facade of the perfect independent self-sufficient son that doesn't need to rely on anyone or anything ever...???? like just????

preschoolers struggle to work through stupid shit like learning to share or dealing with getting their ipad taken away- can you imagine the toll this constant back and forth swing of contradictory emotion (oscillating between his Second Son "Scion" I-Can-Do-No-Wrong exterior and the flawed, imperfect, undeserving son he internalises himself to be in private, alongside having to battle and shame himself for the very legitimate and innate need for comfort, love, and security that a child his age REQUIRES for a healthy upbringing?????) will take over time on a person??

even ADULTS would struggle to juggle all that crap- how do you expect a literal PRESCHOOLER to be able to do so??? in a healthy way that doesn't impact his behaviour and personality and mental health, no less???

trauma fucks people up beyond repair; it eats at you until you are unrecognizable- a hollow shell of your former self... the consistent absence (and by extent, emotional neglect) of both of his parents to this end, is a kindof ongoing trauma that only serves to make what was bad worse.

like i get where people are trying to come from with the "don't excuse his circumstances for his mentality when HE chooses how to act" perspective, and in almost any other case I actually do take this side because yes, while trauma does not make nice people, it is ultimately up to the afflicted to decide whether they want to let this trauma impact them and assume agency over their person for the rest of their lives. however.

VEEEEERY BIG HOWEVER!

in this specific case... this just isn't applicable!!! again, as I've said earlier,,,,, Damian is a preschooler,,,,, he is an intelligent little fucker, that I don't deny, but scientifically speaking, his brain is simply not developed enough to process the complexities of what exactly is going on to him, and how the behaviour of those around him influences his own subconsciously. this isn't just a matter of flipping a switch, of actively making the choice to not let your trauma influence you and act on your own will- he legitimately is not actively conscious of the fact that he "chooses" to act in the way he does; he has no healthy role model to follow, no support system, no one to fall back on should he stumble.

man even Ewen and Emile, who i hesitate to call his friends, act more like his lackeys than they do genuine companions (and although these relationships are probably the healthiest he has at the moment), it ultimately means that in the eventuality he needs someone to confide in, he... doesn't really have anyone. i mean, he has his butler, but does that really count, considering Damian is most likely aware the man is paid to spend time with him (and as much as that shouldn't affect what seems to be a pleasant mutual relationship, it kindof does lol???? like how would you feel realising your only friend is literally forced to hangout with you?????)

i need some of y'all to wake the fuck up- try to picture going through every single day of your life wondering which flaw, which ineptitude; which FAILING of yours shamed your parents into recluse and (practically) had them decide that ZERO contact was the way to go???? WITH THEIR FUCKING SIX YEAR OLD???

bffr. be so fucking fr rn.

#2 am thoughts #genuinely damian's parents absolutely sucks #he deserves so much better #the fact that loid praising him in that one scene was probably the most affection baby desmond has ever gotten is just #so fucking sad #loid please adopt your son in law he cant live like this anymore #this goes for the headpat too actually #damian realizing he actually likes physical touch after parental figure of the year Loid Forger ruffles his hair once is #very canon #and also very sad #ranting #ramblings #sorry for the long post idk what got to me #i hope damian actually gets to heal #and ideally spend more time w anya at least to experience some genuine parental love #loid and yor already love him more than his bio dad pretends to and its heartwrenching #genuinely i hope he can rely on the forgers for emotional support at least the boy needs a support circle #spy x family #sxf #spyxfamily #damian desmond #anya forger #yor forger #loid forger #twiyor #loid x yor #damianya #this turned out WAY longer than i had initially thought it out to be #damian desmond protection squad because boyo deserves the world #character study

[koriyokai]

Mmmm my favorite bugsnax shitpost

#bugsnax #floofty fizzlebean #bugsnax floofty #bugsnax fanart #Random #Shitpost #Snor #so fucking sad #So fucking fanny

[mayari-n]

no u dont understand. i love hayakawa family so much om willing to sacrifice everything just to see them together again

#chainsaw man #bring them back #screaming crying throwing up #this is a cry for help #hayakawa family #so fucking sad

[weirdcat1213]

im............im.......

#im done with ep 34 #holy crap #anthy my girl my baby #geesus fucking christ #also its so fun to me that the prince is called god in spanish #but unlike god he got tired and hurt #its so #so fucking sad #utena #revolutionary girl utena #NOW I GET IT #WHY SHE HAS TO REVOLUTIONIZE THE WORLD #OMG GET ME OUT OF HERE

[angieloveshua]

I've just read Director Yan's and Zhichun's love story, and I'm—

#so fucking sad #lie huo jiao chou #priest #烈火浇愁