#so i cant express my thoughts

[sneez]

my lord of autism

#discworld #havelock vetinari #artwork #i have read. A Lot of discworld this year #i just finished the watch series so im moving on to moist next. very excited for moist #anyway i love 100% of the characters but vetinari is probably my favourite hes a massive bitch i love him #other characters who are my favourites include sybil angua carrot and constable visit. and vimes but he goes without saying #also vetinari is about as close to canonically acearo and autistic as a character has been since sherlock holmes which means da world 2 me #i was talking about this yesterday but i think him and holmes would get along. steepling their fingers at each other #i have a lot of thoughts about vetinari but i cant really express any of them i just rotate him in my head often #i hope you are all doing well my friends and that you are enjoying the end of the year :D i luv you

[herotune]

so much shadow around us. to think we almost missed the light...

(a belated entry for wyll week day 6! favorite ship...i adore them ok)

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #wyllstarion #wyll ravengard #astarion #astarion ancunin #wyll week #wyllvember #wyllweek #baldurs gate 3 #my art #herotune #i have so many. So many thoughts about them #theyre both. honestly exactly what the other needs...wyll finding someone who loves him and cares for him deeply despite or perhaps #even because of his very human flaws and wont weigh any expectations that he be this perfect fairytale hero over his head #and astarion finding someone gentle and kind who can help him feel safe to express the compassion he very much still has #but has not been safe to express for so long. #theyd balance each other really really well i think... #wyll really does need someone who wont levy expectations he cant live up to over him...who wouldnt care whether he can live up to the image #hes made for himself. of this perfect hero that he definitely feels like hes got to live up to and in a lot of ways Does. #but he still cant help the fact hes ultimately human. and thats okay... #i have a lot of thoughts about both of them in general actually 😭..........individually and together... #i think they also find solace in the fact they both feel like monsters despite that not. actually being true. some of their interactions #esp in an origin run for both of them feel that way already...wyll is also weirdly into the vampire stuff fsr its so funny shdfgjfkdk #anyway. gay people. i love them...

[scootkiddo]

I absolutely love pedro’s line delivery of “you have no idea what loss is.”

it’s a line that’s always stuck with me just because of how joel made a blanket attempt to invalidate ellie as that was how he would shield himself from relatability and shedding sympathy. but it’s also the cadence, the tone of his voice that has me bouncing off the walls. I remember when this was the only footage of joel from the show we had and people were quick to say “ugh he doesn’t say it with the same emotion.” but that’s the point! he’s consciously restraining himself from showing obvious emotion. just mere seconds ago he was visibly vulnerable with ellie. and then there was the sarah name drop. and his whole face shifted. the wall was back up. he rebuilt the barriers like The Contractor™️ he is and reacquired this deadpan demeanor because he couldn’t allow his vulnerability to seep through. the topic of his daughter was too sensitive. it adds such a specific weight to the line, by making it almost “robotic.” because in his mind he had to be. regression was a survival instinct. knowing just how delicate joel in the show is reinforces the notion that countering vulnerability through fabricated numbness is his go to. what a brilliant take from pedro

#and both line delievries are equally valid #with game joel it was ‘this kid is poking the bear I have to expression my anger by the very THOUGHT she understands what I’ve gone through #with show joel it was ‘i cant show that this is getting to me I have to make this sound like an emotionales objective statement’ #mmmm so good #the last of us #the last of us hbo #tlou spoilers #joel miller #pedro pascal #ellie williams #bella ramsey

[httpiastri]

Yes Paul’s hands are wow but can we talk about Pepe’s hands 🙏🧎‍♀️

we DEFINITELY can!!!!!!!

though after looking at these pics yet again, im speechless… i have no words……

#at least no words that are appropriate for this place #i want to scream #hes so #!!!!!!!!! #the champagne pic makes me- #��‍💫😮‍💨🗣️😭😩😤 #im not an apple genius but that looks like the same model as my phone and goD does he make it look small #big hands are so……….. #and as you know pics of ppl covering their whole faces in their hands makes me feral #also men who are very expressive with their hands !!!!!!!!!! #okay no i cant say anymore #im #asks! #anon! #pepe marti #pepe thoughts

[mizukiko-kun]

"How did you know you'd be bulletproof?" "I didn't. I just knew that you weren't." SCREAMING CRYING AND EATING MY PILLOW

#THAT WAS SO SWEET WHAT THE HELL #WHO WROTE THIS????? I WANT YOU TO HAVE MY MONEY!!!!! #i CANT stop thinking about how naturally his response comes out. it's like he doesn't have to think or look for the words or anything #he's like. the things he does can make someone go 'awww he's so thoughtful' but actually he doesn't even have to think to do it #it's in his nature. he doesn't have to make himself do it he just does it #i love this boy so much. his parents raised him so well #(also his expression when lois is asking him... and then after he answers... i want him to receive a hug) #my adventures with superman #maws

[leaffiii]

here's time's actual design oops (plus a height chart)

#he's insufferable actually. he is so SO dinky #my thought process was: make him short. make him so full of spite for that and being replaced #his design is kinda simple but there's a reason for that #anyways he sounds like either commander pe/epers or the gamer video i posted. i cant decide lol #he shoots clock-hand projectiles which are either basic energy attacks or ones that slow down or speed up machines/robots they shoot throug #there'd be like a game tournament episode and aki is desperate to prove that the known criminal is cheating #but no he's just an insufferable little mf who has too much time (lol) for his hobbies and is insane at smash bros or something #fc!time man #my art #mmfc #mega man #mega man fully charged #megaman #mmfc au #the little clockhands on his face act as his eyebrows + top eyelid. his default expression is angry

[todayisafridaynight]

everyday i constantly think of masato's wheelchair and if that's his only one/main one no wonder he's so pissed at everyone

#snap chats #someone pointed this out to me like last year so im stealing it sorry cause I Think Of It Constantly #the handling of masato's disability will forever annoy me esp with how vague it is but esp his chair #one day ill draw masato with an appropriate wheelchair. maybe then he'll be happy for once #in a way i guess it could tie into how restricted or trapped he felt since the type of chair he's shown is more like. a hospital one #and not one youd really use as a regular user- like in that vein it is a bit of storytelling in that he can ONLY go out with help #since hospital chairs are SO much different from home chairs ESPECIALLY in regards to mobility and independence the user has #AND NOT TO MENTION HOW UNCOMFORTABLE THOSE CHAIRS ARE get his ass a proper cushion P L E A S E #like it portrays the idea that its unfathomable for him to go anywhere on his own and so in that vein . Interesting Storytelling #theres a lot of implications going on here if im so honest and again it makes for Really Interesting Story Telling #however i refuse to give rgg credit like that when it comes to disabilities. ... they havent earned that from me yet #see this is why the vagueness of his condition annoys me because he's shown to be independent enough to roll himself to his elevator #and presumably get himself dressed but he cant have a proper chair ? #because ik there are people who have expressed they have conditions where even writing is tiring #so if his condition was in-line with that and it was hard for him to push himself in his chair then i could buy it #obviously the issue lies with his lungs but i just want to know the full extent yk... #to wrap this up tho ive been thinking of character design in rgg and how we dont give credit to it enough #sooooo if i make a second post ten minutes from now thats why cause i keep forgetting to spam my thoughts on here LMAO #ok bye

[sezija]

Ok i think i’m actually going insane not talking abt this so fuck it

Dragonwalker Hiccup AU

My fic of it, set during HTTYD1; basically just a prologue

Ramblings underneath (like, a lot. i’m warning you.)

So basically, Dragonwalkers are humans who, when they fall asleep, turn into dragons. Just go watch Wolfwalkers actually it’s a very good movie and the concept is very hard to put into words, i’ve found.

Anyway; thoughts. Many MANY of them. :)

Valka’s had her dragon form (a night fury) her whole life, and lived on an island w her family AND a family of Night Furies. (Night Furies live in family packs, w the parents leading/raising/teaching their children (they only have 1 egg at a time, and only lay up to 3 in their whole life) until they’re old enough to get their own mate and start their own pack. (When a Night Fury pair’s children all have left and started their own families, they will sometimes join their children’s packs since they can’t hunt and fight on their own that well as they get older.))

And bc thw sucks and Grimmel, a man who is still alive, somehow killing off an entire species of dragons is stupid, i’m using my sibling’s idea, which is that Grimmel’s family has been hunting Night Furies for generations. It’s a family tradition basically, tracking and killing them until none are left. (And every person in his family has been killed by Night Furies, further motivating them.)

So Valka’s family (dragon&dragonwalker) were all killed, and only she escaped, ending up on Berk. Fell in love w Stoick, tried to make the vikings stop killing the dragons, was taken by Cloudjumper, the usual. She reunites with Hiccup early, during RTTE, just bc i want them to kick dragon hunter ass together. The war w Drago happens later.

Also i’m completely discarding the whole “king of all dragons” thing, it doesn’t fit w how i want this world to feel. Also toothless sucked as Alpha, i dont want that. And what i’ve always liked abt the HTTYD dragons is that they’re animals. The whole “king of all dragons” kinda,,, ruins that. So that’s also gone now.

I’ve been having a lot of thoughts abt how dragon flocks/packs/pods work, and these are my current ideas;

A “Flock” is a group of dragons of different species, under the control/protection of an Alpha (the Red Death’s flock, (Valka’s) Bewilderbeast’s flock, that one flock of dragons in RTTE s2e8-9 “Edge of Disaster”)

A “Pack” is a group of dragons of the same species, under the control/protection of a leader/queen/etc. etc. (speed stingers, fire worms, terrible terrors, (night furies in this AU))

A “Pod” is the same as a Pack, except for Tidal-class dragons specifically (a pod of seashockers, scauldrons, etc.)

The whole franchise is very inconsistent abt this so i’m working w what i have ok

The “Great Beyond” was separated from Berk/Berserkers/etc. by a heavy wall of fog all around them. There were some spots you could cross, used by traders and such, but the rest of the world has stayed pretty separated from this one corner of the world that experiences Dragon Raids.

However, after the Red Death’s demise, the fog has been slowly dissipating, allowing more to cross over; this way, the riders taking hours and hours of exhausting flight to reach “the great beyond” AND Gobber somehow making his way to Dragon’s Edge on a small, rickety boat both make sense; the more time passes, the easier it is to cross.

A lot of the conflict in the series comes from the human characters not understanding why the dragons are doing something, so giving Hiccup the ability to communicate with them takes away a lot of it, which i’m not happy abt bc it means i need to come up w my own stuff >:( (communicating w the dragons is actually kinda difficult in human form, since his hearing isn’t good enough to hear a fair amount of their vocalizations, and his throat isn’t made for producing those sounds.)

Anyway, my thoughts have been specifically focused on one episode of RTTE, my favourite one since i first saw it, up there w Dire Straits and Enemy of my Enemy; s3e8 “Stryke Out”.

In this AU, hiccup is taken by dragon hunters in his dragon form, taken to a dragon fighting ring. He’s worth a lot to them, being a Night Fury (this is what the art at the top of the post is depicting). He’s caged up for a few weeks until the news of a Night Fury in the ring spread enough, and he has to start fighting. The Riders figure out where he is due to these rumours, and interrupt his fight with the Triple Stryke 3 days into him being forced to fight the other dragons, the same day Ryker came to collect his cut of the money again.

Anyway, that’s all i rly wanted to get out rn. Just. Obsessed. Hiccup becoming crueler and much less forgiving towards dragon hunters after this experience. He’s seen their cruelty many times before, but being caged and muzzled and forced to hurt other dragons if he wants to live, dependant on them for food, even for the capability to eat it, bc of the hook they put in his mouth, really just... changes him. God i love torturing my faves <3

He would take the Dragon Fliers&their Singetails so personally here.

anyway, art;

(i forgot to add his chin scar in many of these oof)

#httyd #how to train your dragon #dragonwalker au #hiccup horrendous haddock lll #httyd au #httyd hiccup #i cant remember if this is inspired by that one wolfwalkers/httyd AU on tumblr or not sorry #it might be but it might also be i came up w it without inspiration and found it when i went searching for more content like my concept. #50/50 chances #i just needed to get my thought out of my mind bc i feel like im actually dying #ive seen ppl point out that if night furies weren't social animals he wouldn't have such a wide array of expressions #oh hiccup is PISSED in 'a matter of perspective' #httyd fanart #hiccup fanart #night fury hiccup #dragon hiccup #rtte #race to the edge #SO MANY THOUGHTS MY HEAD IS TOO FULL OF THEM I FEEL LIKE IM ABT TO BLOW UP #sezijart

[wormonastringtime]

reminder.

#hi i couldnt think of an awesome caption for all of this so um ill talk in the tags about my thought process #silhouette is forgetting herself. and she knows this. they reflect on this often. this time literally in a mirror. and their face... #its blurry. its obscured. they can see their own tired expression... but can they really see their face? #and the flames. once again burning away at their memories. sil can watch herself forget in real time if she wanted. she's so tired. #she could burn away everything if she wanted. they could keep burning until there's nothing left at all. and that self destructive tendency #is tempting. god it is so tempting to say fuck it and give up. but no they cant. they have a job to do. they usually remind themself to kee #going in the mirror. even when the reflection doesnt always look familiar. but now theres also something else. a new glimmer of hope in #silhouette's otherwise bleak life. a girl. she doesnt know if they can have that happy ending. but she will do anything to keep her safe. #and for now that is enough. sil doesnt know if she will remember her own face or her own name but my fucking god she will not forget lucy's #anyway hi im normal about my ocs 😁 teehee #my art #doodle #digital art #colored sketch #oc tag #silhouette #lucille

[sneez]

some gwynplaines and deas because they are all i have been thinking about

#the man who laughs #l'homme qui rit #gwynplaine #dea #artwork #i cant even express how much i love them i think about them constantly they make me so so happy #term has just started up again but i havent thought about my thesis in weeks because all ive had in my mind has been Them #i have a lot of thoughts about them which i may share at some point. dea is a trans woman and gwynplaine is genderqueer i know that much #also these are their 1928 designs obviously (i havent read the book yet because i still have 800000 pages of david copperfield yet) #i am on a crusade to get everyone in the entire world to watch the man who laughs (1928) it is all i care about #well i do care a lot about other things too. but right now i have got Priorities

[eric-the-bmo]

"Need a light?"

(very huge thanks to @sm0kebreaks for this commission of my vampire and his sire! I'm going to go insane in the tags now, i adore this with every fibre of my being [also: vers with no piercings under the readmore, bc I love that one too])

#Lovers Reversed #vtm oc #blood and silicon #jeremiah #leo west #vtm ocs #i cant stop thinking about those tragic little gay men #they consume my every waking thought #This artwork flung me into thinking So Much about their dynamic for the past few days. Im insane. Thank you so much #If i think too long about Leo's expression as he looks at Jeremiah I'm going to explode!!! #leo!!! you hopeless romantic fool!!! #And THE COLORS....its all so soft..... #perfect for a memory.... #and the BACKGROUND?? AAA ITS SO PRETTY #and of course how could i Not put a link to a mitski song /lh #And let me yell about the symbolism of the closed-eye tattoo hand being the one holding the lighter Leo's leaning towards!! #i have. so many thoughts about these two. oh my god #The Symbolism... the eye being closed and the knowledge that J erased Leo's memories bc he was his ghoul... #The fact Leo is Actively leaning towards the lighter... something something Ghouldom and experiencing love.... #Putting them in a snowglobe and shaking them around!!!!!!!!

[mikoran]

something that always throws me off is when mike uses shit like “dude” or “man” when addressing will. he only does it like twice but it feels so weird between them. like it does not at all suit their relationship and usual dynamic does that make sense

#the only time i can think of right now is during the “what if you wanna join another party” scene #but im certain there was another i just cant think of it #its so like… broish?? like way too buddy buddy when their relationship feels like. yknow romantic a lot of the time #it just feels so WRONG #i am struggling so much to express my thoughts here but the fact that him addressing will with like common platonic friendship guy pal word #feels wrong??? #pretty telling to me idk #byler

[badnew2005]

dennis takes a mental health day his relationship towards the gang from his very own perspective it’s not skewed to be presented infront or people it’s just real and raw we can talk ab the macden/charden of it all ALL DAY but. let’s look at his sister. who has spent her whole life looking after him (or at least trying her very best to). dee being the one who suggested (? i cant remember off the top of my head if this was just my own hc or not lol) bringing mental health days into the bar. always always being so supportive of dennis taking a day off for himself, explaining to the rest of the gang what it was and how he’s entitled to it, no big deal. offering to drive him to the beach. wanting to hang out w him (which is SO ‘siblings’ of her so TWINS of her - trying to look after him not realising she may have been stepping on his toes). the other big characterisation of dennis reynolds episode we’ve had, tends bar, splitting the gang into his friends and his family, dee’s i can’t get a read on him these days!!!! everyone glosses over it because of the rpg of it all but tends bar is a Dennis episode. dee can’t reach him anymore she can’t look after him and monitor him anymore. those walls have been heightened with security (obviously with a mac shaped hole round the back). the gang broke dee the rest of the gang Couldn’t let dennis in on the joke because he would be too emotional about it he was Too emotionally involved. he loves his sister !!!! recognising that all her life she’s looked after him and his many traumas. can’t he look after her for once. goes to hell deciding to drown mirroring the i love you sis scenes. he gets to be emotional and vulnerable with the one person who has always Known him and will love him no matter how horrible he gets, it’s such a pure innocent natural love he’s finally allowing himself to express. and dee gets to push him away! it’s so good and emotionally fulfilling for both of them. dees spent her whole life waiting for people for her family to just Like her, she gets to push dennis’ love away she doesn’t Need it like she thought she did. she’s strong on her own. i keep rambling but. i love the twins !! it’s such a subtle stupid relationship but making them twins impacted the gangs dynamic as a Whole and i love seeing it actually explicitly explored in the show. cleaning up his wounds in the back of the shot. destroying his stuffed elephant. spreading her diary. remembering every horrible highschool nickname. hating eachother but not being able to live without eachother. it’s such a different relationship than the rest of the gang because they’re siblings like the rest of the gang ‘could’ leave they could have left at any point there could be a universe where they never meet where they never become friends but. dennis and dee are stuck as twins forever !! SUNNY IS A LOVE STORY !!!! love in all it’s stupid forms !

#i cant express my thoughts well but. emotionallll !!! #can u tell i don’t have a solid relationship w my brothers and have spent so so so long trying to make That relationship work or finding #randoms to fit that spot #it’s special to me !!! #i hate that u hav to put this disclaimer on any twins post but. stay the fuck away if u view them in any gross horrific way i do not want #to type out right now. anything other than siblings and friends and enemies !

[chewysgummies]

Reminder that killbot 86 has the cutest fucking eye I've have ever seen🩷🩷

#chewys notes #killbot 86 #woy #wander over yonder #just random ramblings #Puppy like eye💕 #God i fucking love him #I want to talk about him more #even if i cant properly speak or make a clear statement about him in real life #my mind get a bit haywire #and i can express my thoughts clearly online #but holy fuck #he's so fucking precious to me you have no idea #off topic #but i wish i can properly make a clay model out of him with tools and such

[the-knife-consumer]

Forgot just how upsetting gloomed korok forest is

#idk. just this one sanctuary that was different from the rest in that all of these spirits only link and a few others #can see are offering you help and safety. care uniquely for you. a bed for YOU. YOUR sword. kept safe for 100 years for YOU. #thrown together shops just for YOU because nobody else goes here or even knows it exists. #and then you return and the people who cared so much about you dont even speak to you anymore #they cant speak. they just stand there #idk korok forest made me feel the most like i fucked up somehow #rito village was bad but still livable. if things got any worse then they would have to abandon home until it settled #but no one was in immediate life threatening danger #gerudo was really REALLY bad and people were in danger. just all crammed inside a bunker. no going into town because your #home doesnt belong to you anymore #and then the zora were ... idk felt the least pressing even though it definitely should be bc like. they breathe water. #if the water is gross theyll die. but idk something about how it was executed felt less terrible #maybe they outwardly expressed more hope? idk. same with the gorons didnt feel like there was a pressing threat #but korok forest is fucking AWFUL. god #idk. nobody in hyrule talks about it because they dont know there are people there. nobody else can see them so nobody knows #somethings wrong. with no lead into it finding korok forest the way it is just feels soooo much worse. #idk. on my first playthru i kind thought i fucked up and shouldve gotten there sooner. #it just feels like no matter what youre too late and its your fault

[hwanswerland]

yunho for @jeong-yunhoes ♡

your secret santa gift has arrived! your man in red and black outfits, and some royal blue backgrounds. I hope you had a great not-actually-christmas family time and enjoy the last days of 2022 <3

#yunho #atzsource #ateezedit #ateez gifs #fio.gifs #atz:other #baekwin #i had SOOOO many ideas but it didnt work out with these gifs :(( #i hope you still like this asjhags #also please know that user hwanswerland was certainly not looking away when you talked about your wrecker #and that you dont have to speak of it any more for i know exactly what it is you cant speak about #thank you for being so cool and being my friend. i love talking to you lol its always very interesting to see what happens #hope you have a great day and we'll continue talking next year too #< expressing thoughts and feelings is not my strong suit but what i'm trying to say here is that i appreciate you