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myillusions · 8 months

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Noisy Sunday (Joel Miller x f!reader)

Summary: You've entered a mindset you're unsure how to come back from, your own emotions drowning you in a pool of despondency. Joel is there, trying to help you pull away from it.

Pairing: Joel Miller x f!reader

Word Count: 2k

Warnings: HEAVYYY angst, fluff, cursing, large descriptions of depression, anxiety, dark thoughts, undefined age gap (reader is of age), kind of dark themes its very somber

A/N: hi hi!! oh my, im so sorry i havent posted in so long. life has been so busy lately with exams and work, but here's this whilst i struggle with that and writers block! sorry (not rlly) that its so angsty, THANK YOU SO MUCH to anyone who reads, i hope u enjoy lovelies! also please please PLEASE i cannot stress this enough; if any of the warnings i've stated make you uncomfortable, please DO NOT read this!! and for anyone who may need to talk, my messages are always open <33

It’s peculiar, you think. How it eats away at you, gnawing down against supple flesh when you’ve already been forcefully spiralled onto the floor. Most say it’s like greeting an old friend; and you agree. It’s almost like reuniting with a family member whom you rarely see at a gathering. The one which then continue to pester you with inquiries you don’t have the vigour to answer.

It comes in a moment. Sometimes for no reason at all. It reminds you of the subject which stops your musical theatre production mid-way, shining a glaring light towards you whilst you stare wide-eyed back; a deer caught in the headlights. Your character starts to break down around you whilst you’re stood onstage, its pieces cascading along your incapacitated physique like thrashing water which you’ve just dived into from a twenty-foot jump, limbs flailing by your head until the inevitable crash through the translucent liquid stings at your skin.

It attaches itself like a shadow to you, not always so visible yet constantly looming from around your shoulder. It never really made sense to you, how the more the light shines against this tenebrosity, the darker the shadow it casts. Shading you. Smothering you. A copiously adamant fire which refuses to be extinguished, its embers dancing up past the hillocks perched in the distance and threatening to singe anyone who comes near.

It made you yearn for a reposeful night, where the stars shimmered like pools of water in reflection to the sea rather than your own tears surging down your cheeks. Where a modest zephyr tapped gently at your swaying hair, twirling locks around its invisible finger gingerly. Where the whole world paused on its axis, bringing forth those few moments of pure solace. Nothing to bother you, and nothing for you to bother.

“How long has it been since you’ve slept?” A husky voice drawls out from beside you after the door to the front patio squeals open on its hinges, revealing Joel; adorned in his sleepwear of blue plaid print trousers and a black long-sleeved sweater. Considering his normal attire of worn-down jeans and a permanent scowl, he looked almost ridiculous, but in an admiring sort of way. His inquiry forcefully dragged you from the dazed state you had found yourself caught in, your eyes hauling themselves to face him laboriously slow, like it was strenuous to do so. You blinked a multitude of times to attempt to clear your head of its cloudiness.

You gave a harsh swallow before you even attempted to reply, “Not long. I just needed some water and air.” You lied right through your teeth, wincing towards the factor that a glass of water was sitting idly beside you on a tall and round wooden coffee table, still full to the brim with the reflecting liquid. Joel didn’t look convinced. To be honest, you had maybe caught a total of eight hours of sleep in the past three or four days, if lucky. Your body drums with craving for rest at the deprivation, but you couldn’t bring yourself to relax for long enough to lull into even a light rest, thoughts striking their way through forcefully in the canvas of your head, ripping downwards to leave their mark fiercely, consistently reminding you that pain is not an easy thing to ignore.

If you could say the apocalypse surfacing has brought you anything, it’s that it’s made you tired. So tired. But there are two types of tired, you suppose; one is a dire need of sleep, the other is a woeful need for peace.

Joel exhales past his nose harshly, his head dipping downwards for a moment, maybe in disappointment- you’re not sure. Either way, your stomach lurches with guilt, and you turn your head to face forward once again and pay rigorous attention to each detail lining the Jackson street in front of your given accommodation. The street was entirely empty, the only sound to be heard within earshot being the light whisk of the breeze against your supple skin, reddening the tip of your nose and turning your fingertips numb. You should’ve guessed Joel wouldn’t believe your white lie. Knowing him, he likely noticed you retracting the sheets from your legs and his arms strewn around your waist at just the start of the night, before tiptoeing down the stairs as quietly as possible to weave through the kitchen then to the front patio, where you have been set for a couple of hours now.

You’re both silent for multiple pregnant pauses, and you have to fight the urge to nibble nervously against your bottom lip, apprehension swirling within your chest.

“Do you want to come back to bed?” Joel tries cautiously, to which you visibly tense. You tilt your chin downwards dubiously, before giving an almost indistinguishable shake of your head from side-to-side.

Joel doesn’t give a response to your discreet answer, but instead pushes himself forwards from where he’s leaned against the doorframe to move past you and settle against the uncomfortable wooden chair opposite your own. The chair creaks as he perches himself there, the only intruding sound to the tranquillity before it swallows you both whole once again, thudding against the thin air which is gradually turning palpable. It’s suffocating.

“…Would you-“ He starts, his gaze turning upwards from the patios surface to face you, “Want to talk about it?”

Your heart throbs agonisingly at his offer, your fingertips tracing the wrecked linen material of your pants. You try a small, consoling smile, one that barely reaches your eyes; your head lifting to face him.

“There’s nothing to talk about.” You murmur back, sombrely. You weren’t fibbing about this, though. There was no explanation as to why you were feeling this surge of perplexing emotions. It appeared as if it were just a protruding root sticking awkwardly out from the soiled terrain, its only task to trip and surprise anyone who were unfortunate to tread along. Even if you wanted to talk with Joel about it, you weren’t sure how to put it into words. It’s fine, until it’s not; a surprise.

“I can’t help you if you won’t let me.” Joel speaks, his voice softer than usual, as though he was afraid for what your reaction would be.

You bottom lip purses as you bite down against your tongue roughly, almost drawing blood to quarrel against the melancholy rising in your throat. You’re not sure how to reply- you don’t wish to reply. You would rather descend into the quietude than face this situation. It’s not that you liked the silence, no- you actually despised it. Silence gave any thoughts swirling around the midst of your head permission to inflate and rise to the surface, bobbing up and down there, whilst its limbs helplessly thrash around, wishing to get back to shore.

It's only after you notice that Joel is still peering over at you expectantly do you swallow gratingly, opening your mouth to answer.

“Well, I- It’s not anything, I’m fine-“

“Why can’t you just stop for once in your life?”

“What?” You ask, your voice cracking at its edges. Your brows shoot upwards at his words, taken aback.

“You lie to me, act like you’re okay- when you’re so clearly not and you won’t even let yourself realise that you need help.” He speaks sternly, eyes firmly trained on you- whilst you can’t even meet his gaze, eyesight shifting to anywhere but where he’s sat opposite you.

You weigh over your words, a trepidatious lump forming inside your throat. Your vision blurs at its corners, your brain fogging over with despondency.

“Please don’t make me say it.” You eventually speak again, your voice strained painfully, as your head drops down in a swaying motion, defeated.

Joel doesn’t reply, but instead reaches forward, gently placing his hand atop your own where its set against your thigh. He gives a gentle squeeze, urging you to blink back up towards him, where he’s peering at you with a softened gaze; and you can’t fight off the tears that instantaneously build up against your vision, attempting to rip past your shields and barriers which are gradually toppling down around you.

“I am barely holding on.” You admit, your shoulders slumping forward with the heaved effort of speaking without letting a cry rip through in interruption, causing a few teardrops to plunge down the canvas of your cheeks. A harrowing headache thrums against your forehead, your field of view only worsening, but not enough that you can’t see the way that Joel’s expression is overcome with visible empathy, which only results in making your stomach lurch more.

“And I-“ You exhale sharply, “And I can’t even tell you why. I just- there’s this thing, and it’s weighing over my shoulders. I can’t shake it.”

“You don’t have to find the perfect words. Just tell me what you’re feeling. I’m here.” He encourages softly.

“It’s like- like I’m here, but I’m not. I’m away from my body, watching over myself; whilst continuously being dragged backwards by this unknown force- pushing me somewhere I think I know. It’s like déjà vu, when you walk into a room, and you don’t where you know or remember it from, but you can feel that you recognise it. I-I’m angry, I’m sad and I’m confused. Maybe I just have a built-up resentment against the world.” You speak rather sullenly, but try to mask it with a small, tight-lipped smile towards Joel once your brief monologue comes to an end.

“I can’t say I know exactly what you’re feeling. But… I don’t want you to push me away. I want to try and help you, in any way that I can. But I can’t if you won’t allow me to. And… I don’t want it to seem like I’m tryin’ to coddle you, or anythin’. It’s because- y’know, I care about you.” Joel speaks steadily, his gaze shimmering with uncertainty.

Your heart lurches downwards in repentance with his words, as though you were liable for your own shifting thoughts and feelings. It bruises you; how much you’ve allowed your emotions to take hold, guiding the wheel in a swerve as rubber burns against asphalt distastefully. How far you’ve come, just to end up here. You know you need help. You’re just unsure how to accept any. But you know that you wish to breathe again. To hold out a hand to loved ones. To be afraid of death again. To have excitement at the idea of different winding roads. To feel free as a light breeze washes against your skin, clearing any distress from you in a wave. You wish to dream again. This longing is what powers your words onwards, as you peer over at Joel, vulnerable,

“I need help.”

Joel’s hand raises from the back of your palm, and instead encompasses your icy fingers with his warmer ones, intertwining them. He searches your eyes for a moment, and once he discovers a bold outline of authenticity, he promptly nods towards you.

“Together?”

“Together.” You reply.

It evokes a memory of a familiar oak tree. One you were very accustomed to when you were younger, before the outbreak. As a child, you used to wonder down the street to the park perched at the end after every school day. Outlining the grounds, just opposite a wooden bench, was an oak tree. Tall and mighty; confidence resonating from its stance, daring anyone to meddle with it. Thick arms branching from its moss-coated wood, whilst the lime-coloured leaves bundled against each other cascaded the surrounding distance in shade. You would lay beneath it, basking in the frigid yet reassuring atmosphere it created, hair messily sprawled out around your head. You would frequently come to the spot to just rest within the constant spiralling of the world, watching as the tree’s features changed with the reoccurring seasons; its leaves shifting from green to gold, from gold to ginger, then from ginger to cherry, and then falling, oscillating down to the soil with the wind, before repeating its cycle. It was almost soothing, watching its colours shift around with the change of the earth, whilst resolutely remaining staunch in its attitude, its branches a prime symbol of vigour. Changing, but still remaining what it is; strong. You deeply envied that, and hoped- wished, that someday you would build yourself up to resemble that oak tree.

"We drink the poison our minds pour for us and wonder why we feel so sick." - Atticus

Noisy Sunday - Patrick Watson

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#joel miller fanfiction #Joel Miller #joel miller x reader #joel miller x female reader #joel #hbo the last of us #the last of us #help idk what im doing #pedro pascal #tlou #tlou series #hbo #joel miller x f!reader

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kisscara · 2 months

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dewd i wasnt planning on coming back today i was just looking for a pfp HELP um saur hii... i think the fandom on tumblr is pretty dead idek myself bcs i havent been on here in ages. but i am okay !!! (hopefully el oh el)

it doesn't matter if ppl see this or not i js wanted to let u guys knowww. (more utc)

i miss writing like a lot. it js sucks because smut gets all the recognition 24/7 so yaa... i stick to google docs lately n lowkey forgot abt tumblr. but i'll see if i make a writing comeback xx

sorry to all of the mutuals i abandoned asw :c my mental n physical health has been on and off. plus im a high school freshman neow. its second semester atm. but sigh. this makes me nostalgic n sad im nglll

i love u guys always !!!

until then, idk if i'll come back on this platform to post my works. it's kind of like wattpad for me. i wrote on wattpad for a few years, gave up on it and migrated to tumblr. except this time i didn't write anywhere else besides google docs lolll

so yh. :( i love u all sosososo much. thank u for making my tumblr experience super welcoming and amazing overall. u guys helped me cope through more than u know. thank u for appreciating my writing.

rn, i don't think i'll return to writing. it rlly depends on how i feel about how active the fandom for scara is bcs its a little draining to be constantly writing for barely anybody anymore.

i know most authors write for themselves, but i like doing it for myself as well as others so that they also get to enjoy my interests; iykyk.

but i write a ton on my own time, and it's so nice to have it to myself asw. besides that, thanks to all of u 1.2k so much.

hearts, myst.

#this makes me sad

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finalboyfinn · 2 years

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Who do you think initiates the first move between bruce and vance and what do you think they did?

hiii anon! thank you for this ask. sorry i took so long with it... weirdly i havent thought much of this 💭💭 i have this own little idea in my empty hollow head. anyone else should say their own take on it frfr im... rlly tired rn ill edit this in the morning after i post it ,,, which is brave im afraid this whole thing is incompetent.

it's... technically bruce? he plays the long game. bruce is a gentleman, charming fella. a gentleman who thinks subtlety goes a longggg way. he's a hopeless romantic too. i hc that vance isn't that good at determining what's platonic and what's romantic so bro just thinks bruce is just showing more care this week than others (he doesnt want to give himself false hope). bruce picks flowers out of his mother's garden, compliments vance all the time, is by his side the majority of time basically helping vance do stuff that he is perfectly capable of.

("...i can fix my own damn choker." vance grumbles, standing still as bruce clasps the green choker back around his neck. "i know! i just like doing things for you." bruce grins, fidgeting with material before backing off. not before styling his hair back in place though!)

because that's what bruce has been taught to do if you like someone and BOYY, does he does he in— cautiously. like petting an unfamiliar dog for the time, you let it smell your hand first. and that goes on, and on, and on til vance finally gets the hint when bruce gets a little miffed by vance's lack of... reaction ☠️☠️

"do you like me or something?" vance says, staring at handpicked bouquet of daises in bruce's hand like they're from a different planet. the flowers torn up by their roots, dirt scattering on the pavement. bruce could SCREAM.

"well, yeah." he's smiling but it's strained.

"why didn't you say something?"

"i thought i was being really obvious."

"you weren't." he was. he really was.

"uh, i dunno what to say, man. i'm really sorry, we can forget—"

"we should go out." vance cuts through bruce's fumbled apology. he's deliberately not looking at bruce's face. he's staring at slowly drooping flowers like they've personally offended him.

"what?"

"friday. go see a movie. together. i'll pay."

bruce accepts of course but all he's really thinking is 'i could have done that the whole time?'

#i just saw this as i was scrolling down my little bar thing I'm sorry I forgot about it 😭😭#brance #vance hopper #bruce yamada #headcanons #raz rambles #brance agenda #gay People are so Annoying...#thank you for the ask!#asks #shout out 2 harper n her cool friend for helping me brainstorm bc brain blanks go crazy #and ty for asking my opinion I have a lot of thoughts about these two and want to hear everyone elses.#raz vs not telling their thoughts by storytelling

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ox7g3n-th13f-001 · 4 months

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the way most of my posts r just me saying sorry i was ia but like fr im so fucking busy now and school is just so ass rn i cant anymore ‼️ i got a break FINALlY but im ashemd to say ive been essentially pigging out mostly in moderation but still, and i havent rlly weighed myself in forever 😔

they should use this shit as treatment, send someone to a busy ass school where they have no time to rlly think abt cals and surround them w yummy food. or maybe i just dont have a strong will, wtever.

based on my figure tho, i think im around mid 80s rn?? v unlikely in in 90s or 70s.

this sounds bad and kinda insane, but i think the reason i havent rlly been not eating as much is bc the whole winter ana girl shit has NOT been hitting fuck global warming. im in nyc and there has been snow ONCE.

#ana rant #b0n3sp0 #tw ed descussion #ed meals #pro for myself #st4rv3 #tw m1a #b0nespo #mealspo #tw ana diary

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queenie-blackthorn · 6 months

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50% into kotlc, here are some thoughts ive had since the 25% mark :D

@aylin-hijabi @that-multi-fandom-hijabi sorry for tagging yall a lot lmao

first thing that comes to mind thats plot-related n not character-related is prentice. he was exiled 12 years ago, same age as sophie. its so obviously not a coincidence. tho i wonder whats up w him n tiergan (idk how to spell lmao i feel like thats wrong)

also, i wonder just how strong sophie is. like, the way she knocked fitz into the wall ??? thats her not knowing the full extent of her powers. i have a feeling shes always gonna be one of those main characters whos extremely powerful but constantly throughout the series she finds new abilities she has. kinda like percy jackson

im also realizing how stupid ill seem if im just overanalysing everything and my guesses are too far-fetched or too deeply thought out to really mean anything lololol

moving to character-related, i adore dex. he seems kinda spiteful tho ??? esp towards fitz. thats prolly bc the vacker family is apparently rlly famous n shit n meanwhile dexs parents were a bad match. still dont rlly get what that means. i feel like theres more to him. also his crush on sophie is adorable

KEEFE. nothing, just... keefe. havent seen much but from what i HAVE seen, hes hilarious. i remember aylin mentioning that hes like leo valdez in that theyre both hot, funny, and traumatized... still waiting on the 'traumatized' part. she also said hes less major in this book n more major in the second book, so maybe ill find out then

midterms are gonna go wrong just wait i just know it

biana seems acc genuine in wanting to be friends w sophie. but there was one point when she was talking to sophie n there was smth like a glare for a moment ?? idk kinda sus to me. maybe im overthinking it cause i cant think of a possible motive

marella seems cool. in the art, shes absolutely gorgeous, but so is everyone in this goddamn book. also notable that the first time i saw her name i misread it as 'redneck' 💀💀💀

stina is a bitch. nothing else to say, except that she looks terrifyingly like me? except different eye color n i wear glasses loll. i hope to see some character development cause i personally hate the trope of "token mean girl" in books (like drew tanaka or zoya nazyalensky) cause theyre so one dimensional n boring (although zoya does become majorly more likeable throughout the grishaverse books, im hoping to see the same in stina)

irrelevant but the amount of times sophie is ending up in the infirmary reminds me of a roleplay w my friends from like three years ago oml the nostalgia (cause there would at all times be at least one character in the infirmary injured or nearly dead bc we needed that drama to keep the rp going LMAO)

overall, theres not as much to say as there was at the 25% mark. (i feel like theres more i wanna say but i cant think of anything.) prolly cause since then, the book has mainly been abt learning abt the elves' world n culture. i think by the 75% point im gonna have a lot more to say, n then ill post the final update thingie when im 100% done w the book

ill be 75% done in 89 pages, but the last day of midterm is tomorrow, so god knows how long thatll take me :') i promise to try thooo

oh also galvins a bitch but i feel like she has trauma fsr idk shes just giving

#kotlc thoughts #kotlc #first time read

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youredreamingofroo · 2 months

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Ya'll... I think I might start a new story, I have a... basic concept of what I want it to be like, and I already have a name (under the impression that I don't suddenly do a 180), I just need to do like... all the writing and make the characters LMFAO It's gonna be a little on the dreary side and dark (which is the kind of writing/genre i aspire to write about, also means I'm gonna have to redo my personal reshade that ive been cooking for like... 3 or 4 months... 😭)-

in the meantime, I might start working on gussying up my navi post (and by gussy up, i mean completely redo) because as nice as it is, it's, idk, a little outdated (i guess), I have an idea for a new theme except i'm either going to a) put it in the drafts and wait til I start the new story to post it so the info is all there or b) make it and then post it and when i start the new story, edit it and put the tags and stuff in for the story.

ALSO might do a name change cuz... this name came from WAYYY before i joined simblr, and its got a charm to it, but i dont rlly like it anymore,, it just dont sit with me the same way that it used to lmao

*(writing this after i posted cuz i forgot to say this - its under the cut and in regards to NSB with the new story - it also kinda turned into a rant lmfao) TL:DR for ppl who don't wanna read my stupid fucking rant: NSB is prob gonna go on a hiatus regardless of if i start a new story, cuz as much as I love it, it's started to feel like a chore and less of smth i enjoy (even tho, like I said, I rlly enjoy/love it) Sorry to my NSB enjoyers out there.

regarding NSB, yes it will probably go on hiatus when making this story bec writing is already kinda exhausting for me as well as editing and NSB has progressively became more and more story-driven than gameplay-driven, and especially after these three days, im kinda burnt out from NSB, i know i just left it off on a cliffhanger with the new baby, but to be honest, I don't wanna deal with another child, i barely get by dealing with the four, and dealing with toddlers> are so fucking annoying cuz of the Sim AI, which in and of itself is just demotivating, i do REALLY love not so berry, i love the story ive created with it, but i guess im just tired of playing the same generation for so long, not to mention the fact that i made it a rags to riches challenge, i know i didnt have to but i prefer to, and bc of that, i havent been able to properly decorate, and i dont really wanna go back on myself, if i decide to continue NSB, i will probably take the RTR rules away since its so annoying to deal with having like, 1000 simoleans all the damn time. Also, i've been planning what to do for generation 3 since catty gave birth, but i had to put NSB on a hiatus bc of a stupid glitch and was only recently able to start it up again, and I still havent moved onto the next gen. I kinda lost the plot with that rant, but basically, NSB will probably go on hiatus, regardless of the new story, I've been wanting to dwell more on Roo and his whole story and the people in his universe and after a bit, NSB has started to, as much as I love it and the storytelling and whatever, feel like a chore, which kinda hurts to say, but its true. Sorry to any of my not so berry enjoyers out there

#anyways my brain is ROTTING thinking about this story #obsessed and it has barely formed an existence LMFAO #as for the navi post ive also had a bit of a brain worm for it i just havent been able to start cuz of vday posts lmao #only prob with writing and staging a story is that i have tend to have very expansive ideas that are gna require so much time and energy #and im the typa person who wants to get it done in one sitting so ig doing this would mean being a lot more patient and slowing down #which go figure i probably wont be able to finish writing the story in one sitting lmao but considering me ill *want* to finish it in one #sitting #yapping

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goobiestar · 1 year

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Hi guys super important: pls read

Im generally not happy, im not happy drawing cats, im not excited to look at tumblr anymore, im not even happy to see my limited amount of mutuals because ive driven a LOT of rlly nice moots away and i just feel guilty because i feel like such a bad person for doing so.

Im done running from my problems with myself and people I’ve hurt and i really want to take a step back and take a breather, ive been personally going through a lot and I’ve been way more unintentionally aggressive since last year, i don’t mean to be aggressive i’m just not a good person and i can’t be as patient or as positive as people on here, in some way i don’t fit here because ist just been so bad.

Ive mainly pushed nicer ppl away like sootslash (a reason i havent interacted with their art in a looong time) or zee and sam and other people because of my bad behavior and bad attitude, i dont want them to deal with it, so i block them or ghost them to avoid any confrontation.

I an aware there is much more necessary ways to deal with my problems and people but i am not good at doing any of that, I’m not blaming them and im not victimizing myself im being straight out: i am not a good person, nor am i patient, there is something wrong

So, I’m backing off tumblr, im backing off posting art besides posting for comms maybe, i dont have anyone to back me up or help me get on my feet stably again, so I am starting from the bottom in hopes of being more mentally stable and a nicer, patient, better person.

Please do not take it personal if i had blocked, ghosted or have said something generally fucked, again, ive been very unstable since last year and very slowly im trying to heal. I am also aware this isn’t a good excuse but its true; i just don’t know how to handle confrontation in general. Im sorry ill be gone for a little bit and that this is everywhere, i will come back another day as a better person and a more open minded person in general. Bye guys ❤️

#//important #im just.. really fucking depressed right now #i give up fighting myself #i know i cant just magically wipe my issues away #theres generally something wrong with me #and its okay if you dont like that #you can go #but for now im leaving #this wont be a long break #goobie bites

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itsokjunii · 1 day

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ive been rlly focused on school as of lately and i havent had the energy to rlly post anything here so im sorry if i dont post as much like i used to and/or i die then suddenly respawn a couple days later then die again

i swear i still love this blog and miis :-)

that said im going back to hibernation until something wakes me up like an ancient beast

#the mind of a juni #mental health #the quickest way to contact me is through discord if you want to #judas_escargot #<-- my user :-)

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casualhedonists · 3 months

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i'm the one that asked u about ur favourite movies and i am so delighted to know you're a movie buff! you can tell with how lovingly you describe them and you have EPIC taste truly!!! are you on that movie app/site letterboxd? if so, drop the user RN bestie (if not, GET ON IT RN BESTIE)

ima slip in a couple recommendations rq (hopefully you've seen, but if you haven't, i reckon you might like) such as

'tick, tick... BOOM!' directed by Lin-Manuel Miranda (musical-biopic, Jonathan Larson, lots of catchy songs in it)

'Babylon' directed by Damien Chazelle (controversial, love letter to cinema, massive shit on Hollywood, beautifully made and incredible score)

'bones and all' directed by Luca Guadagnino (cannibal romance, outcasts, stoic and freaky movie)

the 'Before' trilogy directed by Richard Linklater (young ethan hawke, romance, beautiful beautiful score, essentially observing two people fall in love and talk for an hour and a half or something, incredible trilogy - my personal favourite is 'before sunset')

'When Harry Met Sally...' directed by Rob Reiner (classic rom-com, friends to lovers, unbelievably charming. i mean i would be surprised if you havent seen this one especially but just incase lmao)

'Sanctuary' directed by Zachary Wigon (dominatrix, freaky and sexy, cute score, interesting and really well made. not anything INCREDIBLE but definitely worth the look)

ANYWAYS sorry for taking up a lot of space in your inbox, would love to read some of ur thoughts on these, or just generally would love to see you post more about cinema if you're down!

i hope you're well and taking care of yourself! sending so so much love from (likely) across the world <3333

you’re the cutest nonnie hope you know that <3333

(i’m not on letterboxd a travesty i KNOW) i rlly do need to get around to that at some point bc wow

also!! you have incredible taste, these recs are 11/10

oh my god i fucking LOVE tick tick boom. like. i waited for months for it to come out and watched it w my family the day it came out and they all watched me ugly cry the whole time. it was such a moment in time. honestly i was so nervous i wouldn’t like it bc of how much i adore rent but lin manuel miranda was the only person id trust to do jonathan larson’s story justice and BOY did he exceed expectations. if we’re talking musical biopics, god i LOVED rocketman and bohemian rhapsody when they came out. that was such a good year for movies.

i also adore when harry met sally. god i just. romcoms. yknow?? strangely though despite my film buff status i didn’t watch it until like a year ago, it had been on my list for ages and def did not disappoint. i love the classic romcoms too, pretty woman, notting hill, love actually (did i mention the holiday in my original post?? pls tell me i did i could write essays abt that movie) like i shit you not i have a full spotify playlist with movie scores and i constantly say im like miles (jack black’s character) from the holiday bc he’s a composer and score buff (im only the latter lmao but still)

i’ve been wanting to watch babylon for the LONGEST time now you e def given me an excuse to get around to it!! and my friend has told me about bones and all saying it’s incredible (she and i have like this cannibalism inside joke it’s hard to explain without sounding weird lmaoo) and it’s also on the list!! and the before trilogy sounds right up my alley and i’m v curious to check out sanctuary also!!

i’m trying to think of other movies to suggest hmmm it depends on your tastes like my top five are def inspiring/heart wrenching but also comfort romance/ romcoms but i love all diff types of movies. like space movies as a category, the martian and interstellar as my top two for example. (also basically anything w jessica chastain in it i will watch bc im in love w her) and okay i also love the classics like the truman show, dead poets society, also horror movies too like the original scream is def my favorite horror film bc its hilarious, and i also (not in a toxic film bro way) rlly do like tarantino. like. inglorious basterds my beloved and also reservoir dogs, so good.

okay i think i’ve talked way too much abt movies for one post im wrapping it up now!! hope you’re well nonnie and sending tons of love back <333

#hope you don’t mind me giving you an emoji without you asking but!! if you’re okay to be cinema nonnie #cinema nonnie you shall be #asks 💌#🎬#｡･:*˚:✧｡ mimi speaks!

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nurcan-24 · 1 year

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Ok so after the ending of coi, everyone was talking about how cordelia and matthew were going to be together, or at least have a romantic scene. And i knew that this wasnt going to be true and had an entire theory with proof ready but never posted it. So here it is,

When we first heard about the last hours series, Cassie had told us that the love triangle in this series wasnt going to be the normal 2 guys one girl trope, but rather one guy and two girls. Which is James with Grace and Cordelia. Which told us that this is going to be the main love story the book focuses on.

Now, at the end of coi, and the spoilers we got for cot, i knew that many ppl thought that there was gonna be a love triangle with james cordelia and matthew, which falls into the cliche love triangle trope of 2 guys one girl. BUT Cassie told us that it wasnt going to be like that. So knowing this EVERYONE shouldve known that cordelia and matthew are NOT going to be canon.

Cassandra told us herself that it wasnt going to be the one girl two guy love triangle. After the end of coi, we knew that the love triangle was over and that cot was going to focus on building james and cordelia's relationship.

For those who thought matthew and cordelia were going to be together, shame on you. We are talking about the ENTIRE FUTURE of the Harondale bloodline if cordelia chooses matthew over james.

Now that i have gotten that out of the way, im going to rant about some things that happen in cot, so for those who dont have their copy yet and havent read it, thanks for reading my post, love y'all.

Now for my rant,

In EVERY SINGLE SITUATION where james and cordelia are together, james tries SO HARD to make her believe he loves her. And what does she do when they have a moment ? LEAVES HIM. LIKE GIRL HE IS HEAD OVER HEELS IN LOVE WITH YOU. AND YOURE LEAVING HIM AFTER IT ? NOT EVEN A SMOOCH ? Ok ik he broke her heart but hear me out, HE REVEALS WHATS INSIDE THE NECKLACE (which im not saying what it is, those who know, know) AND YOU JUST LEAVE TO FIND MATTHEW ? GIRL, can you please just think over this ? Ik matthew is in a hard place rn but if u continue to do things that make him thing you love him then he AINT GONNA LEAVE YOU WITH YOUR MAN JAMES, WHO PROBABLY CARES MORE FOR YOU THAN MATTHEW.

Also this is NOT hate towards matthew, he is one of my favorite characters, i just hate that this is what is happening in the story and he just falls as a victim of fault. I love u matthew, hope you are happy, wherever your little heart takes you.

I WOULD ALSO LIKE TO SAY WHY MATTHEW HURTS HIMSELF SO MUCH. LIKE BRO, YOU KEEP GOING FOR THE IMPOSSIBLE LOVERS, YOU KNOW CORDELIA HAS HAD IT FOR JAMES SINCE YOU HAVE BEEN KIDS. OK IK THAT JAMES MIGHT LOOK LIKE HE LIKES GRACE BUT NO. HARONDALES LOVE BUT ONCE AND THATS WHAT HAPPENED TO JAMES. HE JUST HAS A STUPIT BRACELET THAT TELLS HIM OTHERWISE.

Also, on the topic of the gracelet, HOW THE HELL DID ANNAS NECKLACE NOT FIND THE DEMON ENERGY COMING FROM THE GRACELET LIKE WHAT ? Ok maybe its just rlly good demon enchantments but like bro, not even a tiny blink at the gracelet? ALSO NO ONE SAID ANYTHING TO JAMES WHEN HE SUDDENLY WAS WEARING THAT BRACELET WHICH OMINOUSLY SAYS " Loyalty binds me" ON IT. LIKE THAT IS SO CREEPY, AND NO ONE THOUGHT TWICE ABOUT A 12 YEAR OLD KID WEARING IT ???????

Sorry for all my ranting, and thank you for reading it. I welcome any comments and disagreements to my theories and opinions about the various subjects i have covered.

Thank you and happy reading.

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heeracha · 1 year

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alphabet game (copy paste to first account u see)

tag ur mutuals alphabetically and leave a short message for them :)

omg wait i suck but i'll try HSBFJHSBD

@atrirose — hi babes imy :( i hope ur doing well !! and if u arent yk where to find me so u can rant mwa ily

@bambisgirl — hi maria imy and ur works aaaaa <3 i hope ur doing good <3

@chiyuv — hi caelin i miss ur remarks hELP SJFDBHSD i hope ur doing good mwa ily

@deeznutsriki — hi kid imy ily lol hope ur doing good

@ethereal-engene — ASHIE DFJBFDSHK I LOVE YOU,,, thanks for the contents u send lmAOOO and i hope u dont get tired of the cat contents i send lmaooo ily

,,,,, i suck i dont have a f moot T_T

@goldenhypen — hi simp okay thats all,, jkjk no i rlly dont have anything to say we talk everyday T_T ig,, thanks for waiting for me whenever i ghost lmAO SIDBSHD

@honeyhuii — i love your works kai omg BSFHJSD i love your mind, i love you in general. thank u for not judging me and my weird ass

@iwonzzi — hi lily i miss u sm AAAAA i hope ur doing good <3

@jjunis — hi dani phantom hi beloved AAAAA been awhile since we talked but i hope im still the hee simp u remember lmAOO anyway i hope ur doing good ilysm

@kooksbliss — hi honey,, i hope ur doing well <3 aaaa imy :(

@lunaflvms — hi luna,,, higkey love ur wokrs esp the one where the reader is turned into a rock T_T luv ur crackhead <3 anyway hope ur doing good

@minluvly — hi bhie,,, shet AHAHA sigawan mo nalang si lino na mahal ko siya so much pag nasa con ka na HAHAHAHAHA LUV YOU

n — ,,,, i suck

@orpheyeux — hi cmas, imy <3 i hope ur doing great AAAAA i havent had any update bcs i havent been in the server im so soRRY OH MY GOD but anyway, ily <3

@precioussoulofmine — ,,,you. /j we talk to each other everyday too so,,,, i hope sunghoon posts and you dont miss it. thats all i can say lmAO ily

q — ,,,, i rlly suck at this

@rising-ashes — hello my love,,, im glad we havent scolded each other about the sleeping schedules in awhile now <3 i hope ur doing great and thank u for helping me in the dumb anaphy subj <3

@sungbeam — beam !! hi honey,, i hope ur doing great !1 and i will spam u soon with more cat stuff lmaOOO ily <3

@twilightau — maks, my love. oh my god, we havent talked in awhile, im sorry for ghosting the server AAJBSDHKDBS highkey shy now,, but i will return someday,,, hopefully vv soon bcs i miss talking to all of you but ofc especially you !! i love you mwa

u — ,,,, T_T

v — T_T

@wooyukh — ily and i hope ur doing great. i hope u stop bullying me soon. bye ilysm. im sorry for being a shit replier yk i love you mwa

x — T_T

@yeongwonie — I MISSED YOU OMG,, anyway i saw u were busy lately AAAAA i hope ur doing okay ilysm !! <3

z — T_T

okay thats all bye ilysm all of u. even though i havent mentioned a lot im sorry i love you all mwa

#T_T i a-suck im sorry #r.moots

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