"you are sensationalizing and catastrophizing" i repeat into a bathroom mirror, gripping the sink and sobbing. somehow i do not feel better.
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my family being the poster child for divorce is interesting because on the one hand there are several people who child me considered just regular family members who are now no longer in my life in any capacity which was really destabilizing but on the other hand now as an adult the concept of relationships changing and ending is so normal to me and i feel like that's actually a really useful outlook to have. also, the fact that several of my relatives' current significant others annoy the crap out of me is more bearable because it's like, wellllll, just give them a few years and they'll be outta here. lol.
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Guy who is annoying and weird. Chill outttttbruh
Seriously though I’m so tired of having to wait on everyone in my family there are days where I have to wait hours in the car doing nothing because I live too far from everything so I can’t go home or I never know when they’ll be done doing whatever so I can’t exactly do anything else. At school I have to wait for my sister for at least 2 hours and yes I can do homework but god. Still. And yes I do do other shit during that but there’s only so much I can do out. Then I have to go home, sometimes shop beforehand (which I usually do while waiting but still..), cook dinner, spend a sympathy hour or 2 with my dad or he’ll kill himself, THEN I have time to do my own stuff like clean up bunnies + room + do homework + fun stuff. That’s usually only 3 hours before I go to bed. It fluctuates obviously. I know I’m being really stupid bc I have it pretty good I have a real house where I don’t have to pay rent and shit but I’m still gonna complain a little. It was way worse last year when my other sister was in hs but my family literally can’t function without me doing this stuff. I have to keep track of all appointments and school stuff for them too. They keep me so busy that I can’t work. Like my dad will beg me not to work because if I do he will have to get off his ass. Cause I can’t possible do everything. When my summer job rolls around he calls me evil and selfish for working it but if I don’t I’m even more broke the rest of the year. But at least I’m not as busy since there’s no school. It’s just such stupid stuff right now I can’t wait until I save up to move out 😭 and I have to do all this shit while they’re all telling me that I make their life worse etc etc like wtaf ? Am I insane like am I just so spoiled that I’m making up problems for myself or are they real. Because I genuinely can’t tell. It used to be so much worse it’s insane that I’m still not happy LMAO. So I hate complaining about it on here but I also need to get it out SOMEWHERE. Ugh
I hate seeming like I’m fishing for validation or sympathy bc I’m not I just need to talk somewhere.. I feel so crazy guilty having people tell me that I’m ok for thinking this. So don’t 😭😭 even if it’s really sweet. I appreciate it a lot but idk. It’s like okay well how would you know..you know. Like what if I’m unknowingly twisting my story to seem worse or something and I’m actually just spoiled and looking for smth to complain abt. Idk
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omg hiiiii im home btw!!! wahhh ty all for the nice comments on my art hehe <3<3 hugging you all <3
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btw
i might end up getting a job soon :3
theres one place that hires people my age thats within walking distance of my house (which is really important since i cant drive and dont trust myself enough to learn how (and also we only have two working cars and not enough money to buy another or fix the van) so i either have to be able to walk there, rely on my mom to drive me to and from work, or ride my scooter)
i havent applied yet bcus I Dont Know How, but my mom really wants me to, plus theres decent pay and benefits
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helping my mom clean again but im not even mad because we're cleaning out the basement whether my stepdad likes it or not. unfortunately i havent seen my copy of house of leaves though 😖
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Daily Highlights #17 (4-2-23)
3 Things That Made Me Happy
Some friends of mine in the VO community helped me find low budget noise canceling material.
Seeing a mutual post their work online again after being on a hiatus.
Talking with people here and there about different subjects.
3 Productive Activities I Performed
Submitted my art program proposal to work
Began decluttering my apartment
Finished cleaning and redecorating my room
3 Self Care Activities I Accomplished
Gave myself a bath with some bougie ass treatment (candles, incense, flowers, etc.)
Allowed myself to sit with my negative feelings for an hour, then mentally told said feelings “time’s up, I’ll see you at our next appointment”.
Took periodic rests as soon as flares started and stopped
3 Emotions I felt Today
Concern
Frustration
Melancholy
Overall Day
4/10 Jeff Goldblum’s
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