#so i'm always late

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[saltpepperbeard]

Stede + Being a Wonderful Dad Captain for @stedebonnets

#OFMD #Our Flag Means Death #OFMD Season 2 #OFMD S2 Spoilers #Stede Bonnet #Rhys Darby #The Swede #Buttons #Lucius Spriggs #ofmdedit #ofmd gifs #ofmdgifs #ofmdsource #ofmdblog #ofmddaily #Edit #HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR ARRRAAAAA #wanted to give you stede being so supportive and kind because YOU'RE always supportive and kind hey gottem #apologies if i'm a bit late to the party for your time zone but WHABAM HERE WE ARE ANYWAY #stede taking a bit more leadership all the while maintaining his kindness is Stabbing Me. In the Earhole. With a SKEWAH #btw #if you even care #SHDJKLSDJDFD

[rad-roche]

doodle of corvo, who is the most tired any man has ever been

#corvo attano #dishonored #rochedotpng #verrrry quick and messy but had fun with it #so i figured i'd share it #i love corvo he's the best #been thinking about dh lately #i'm always thinking about it but you know what i mean

[dragondawdles]

did an art sprint challenge thing tonight have a sub-2 hour deku link

#legend of zelda #loz #tatl #link #link mm #majoras mask #young link #deku link #dragon doodles #id in alt #tried to capture that epic and goated n64 swag #but tatl's a bristly little thing as a treat #did this for the lu server sprint prompts they're doing this week for their anniversary but I'm really happy with it actually so I share :] #sorry for no art lately btw... had a markedly Bad start to the year and it kinda knocked me off the art game (I may elaborate later) #but I think this was a good piece for that! played it fast and loose and a little weird and it worked pretty well actually #more art's always 'a cookin. slowly but surely

[canisalbus]

gothic lolita machete came to me in a dream

.

#HHWAH #but he unironically kind of makes it work though?? #I never realized that the leap from what he normally wears to gothic lolita would be this small #basically the same thing just a lot more lace and frills and embroidery #loving! the pomegranates! #it always makes me ecstatic when people find a way to include them or his other... symbols? motifs? objects of significance? #it's nice you kept the red gloves and red heels #the little crosses on the capelet and the stockings too hah #and the massive bow where the fascia would go #I support genderfuckery Machete by the way #his design and mannerisms have always been somewhat androgynous or at least that's what I've been trying to aim for #despite his sharp angular form he's supposed to have an aura of elegance and delicateness #at least on his better days when he's not in full rat man mode #given the choice he'd rather be called beautiful than handsome I'm pretty sure #folks have been mistaking him for a goth lesbian a whole lot lately so I can't be too far off #thank you this made me grin like an idiot when I opened the inbox #gift art #aggiepython #own characters #Machete

[northstarscowboyhat]

The go to ship for destressing doodles

#undertale yellow #uty #north star #uty starlo #uty north star #ceroba #uty ceroba #staroba #starlo x ceroba #the cowboy hat draws #Had a very upsetting experience today so they are the remedy always #Sorry about all the uncleaned doodles as of late. Promise I'm trying to get better art done life is just hard LOL

[tapakah0]

#*giggle* #hello Universe #I think I accidentally burned out the side of me that consumes content #can't read something or watch properly but some things are still okay like your og comic so I think I might get back soon only to your main #and answering some people and socials are stressing me out a little bit lately pffht #but always happy to see you and know that you're okay *giggle* #excuse my quiet stare and company #I'm trying my best to recover properly since there are plenty of things I want to do #...you know you can stay here to recharge #Have the sweetest night and a lot of inspiration moon #.....I think I also accidentally burned out the emotional side of me I really mean it that I'm happy to see you......

[high-voltage-rat]

I think it's fascinating that the quotes:

"Have you forgotten sir, we were at war? A fight with an alien race for the very survival of our species. I feel I must remind you that it is an undeniable, and may I say fundamental quality of man, that when faced with extinction, every alternative is preferable."

"When you spend every day fighting a war, you to demonize your attackers. To you, they're evil, they're subhuman. Because if they weren't, what would that make you? What I'm trying to say... is I've been afraid to see you for what you really are. You're our brothers. Our sisters. And the things we've done to one another are unforgivable."

"These guys want to use us, take us away from our families, and send us all over the dad-gum galaxy just to test if their agents are ready for the big fight? Well... guess I'm interested in showin' em exactly what a big fight is all about! So I'm not ordering you to go. I ain't even asking. You do what you gotta do, Private."

came from the same series whose standard fare is lines like:

"What in the hell are you two doing?" / "We're being executed by our own men, sir." / "Cut it out."

"I only drink the blood of my enemies, and the occasional strawberry yoohoo."

"You always said I could sleep when I’m dead, Sarge, and guess what? I am dead. This purgatory is about to become purga-snore-y, yawn!"

...and both categories manage to be a poignant statement about the nature of war and what it does to the people in it.

#everyone always talks about the more dramatic bits of rvb with the speeches and the 8+ seasons of plot development as the anti-war part #but the comedicization of the violence and death that the characters go through. the tongue-in-cheek gung-ho attitudes. #the way that they're so desensitized to the idea of death or gruesome injury to the point that it's!!! a comedy show!!! #all of that is just as much a statement of the fucked up nature of war!!! #it's like Col. Flagg and Frank Burns in M*A*S*H. they're so simultaneously into and detached from the war and it's a STATEMENT #idk I'm just. thinking about my favourite anti-war media. drawing mash-rvb parallels. and suddenly had to scream about it #might reread the paper on rvb being anti-war media. for enrichment. #not video games #late nights with ali #ali watches rvb #rvb #red vs blue

[wardingshout]

Viridian trainers for day 5 of spesilverweek! they are my most beloved but Lance is a cursed character who is impossible to draw or portray in any way to me

#idk what's up with him but I have smth like 20 different scrapped things that contains these 3 #and yet I almost always finish my doodles of just Yellow and Silver.... sorry Lance #he's such a funny guy to me esp as part of this trio I'm sorry I always give up on you #anyway yeah no I'm so late bc I wasn't happy with this so I wanted to draw smth else but I was doing chwismas today and was too tired #so I stayed up late doing nothing... #I so badly wanted to shit on Green's dumb cape too (affectionate) #spesilverweek #pokespe #pokespe silver #my art #pokespe yellow #pokespe lance #I'm just gonna tag everyone like that I guess #anyway I feel like having a Viridian trainers prompt was a gift to my soul but I rly struggled I'm so sorry guys one day... #pokemon

[sysig]

Good skeles, like you lots (Patreon)

#Doodles #Handplates #UT #Sans #Papyrus #Gaster #Finally a set mostly featuring the brothers! Yay! #I love their dynamic so muuuuch and they're both so cuuuuuute ahhhhhhh <3 <3 #I made that first one based on some half-remembered doodles from my Very First time around drawing UT characters - going way back! #I never posted any of them - I do actually have some studies from back then from various artists including Zarla haha ♪ #And I think the original sketches for the pixel bouncies I made of them? :0 There's a lot of good stuff back there! Been a while tho lol #Really tho I've just kinda been on a big-eyes-and-swirly-cheeks kick lately haha ♪ They suit it so well! Especially Sans #Very fun to put down strong lines about ♫ #Hugging <3 Always hugging <3 <3 #I'm really pleased with their hands there actually haha - Papyrus pulling Sans in and Sans' hand on his ribs not pushing just a little space #They're so cute <3 Even some of my first doodles of them were them giving little donk-pecks on their cheek or forehead #Y'know - since they don't have lips lol #Also probably not a shock but I've pulled out my own colour cube(s) to play with out of inspiration lol #I am So out of practice lol #Sleeping on each other - it is The Classic! I love Papyrus' little paw thing with his plated hand while he sleeps haha #I personally really like the inverted Soul look on Monsters but in Handplates they're right side up! What do! #There must be a happy medium to strike somewhere hmmm #Just put them sideways and upset Everyone lol #A silly little set with Gaster of the two ''flying'' - does that activity actually have a name? :0 I don't know it #Gaster is not about to have them playing anything that could end up with 1-s falling though - not that he'll listen lol #''Because I told you to!'' Lol #And finally trying on clothes in their house! Papyrus is getting weird vibes off this shirt with how it ties in the back and hangs loosely #I'm pretty sure? I've been drawing him with his scar but it can hard to tell even looking at it myself lol #I'm not exactly careful with the delineation of his neck bones so the line can get lost #Needs a shirt that will compliment a scarf or a cape for sure

[marshmallowgoop]

no thoughts just Heiji Hattori (HD)

#detective conan #case closed #amv #my amvs #eye strain #heiji hattori #harley hartwell #conan edogawa #shinichi kudo #funimation english dub script #video #happy two-year anniversary to 'no thoughts just heiji hattori'! #while it's not my first amv (it's maybe my... fifth?) #it was the first one i made with davinci resolve and the amv that really got me into editing amvs for real #it's the amv that made me believe i could make amvs 🥺 #and in remastering it i deeply understood how ambitious it was! i thought i did a lot of audio mixing for 'messed up' #but that's not even close to all the audio mixing i did here--cannot believe that i did all this for my first big amv project #it took about 20 hours *just* to remaster! #which is something i've been meaning to do for a while now so i'm very happy to finally share the results! #to make this a 'remaster' and not a 'redo' the only changes i tried to make were to the source footage and audio #video now uses almost entirely hd remastered footage from my blu-rays or netflix rather than my dvds #but oh gosh was it *hard* not to touch anything else! i'd do so many things differently now #but this video will always be really special to me (and i can't believe i did it at all tbh!) #i hope seeing it in hd is fun too! i'm so blown away by all the love this vid's gotten #and that it helped increase interest in funi's old english dub is amazing and 100% what i was trying to do with it! #thank you everyone for all the support <333 i wouldn't be the video editor i am today without this vid or your encouragement for it <3333 #like the original the sources used are mostly from what funi dubbed (but mixed in hd by me!): eps 48-49 57-58 77-78 117 and 118 and movie 3 #but i also used episodes 141-142 174 189 239 263 277 291 293 345 479 491 517 and 522 #and ova 3 and tv special 6 (episode one) and movies 10 and 13 and ops 27 31 and 33 and the funi 5.2 dvd blooper for the one line lol #i'm sorry i've been so absent lately! i hope to be more active now... and there are 2 completely done amvs that i'm just waiting to post...

[crow-with-a-pencil]

Feels like home.

#my ârt #fnaf daycare attendant #moondrop #ok I'll admit I haven't actually been drawing much lately #motivation is a struggle as always #BUT I'm getting better at making pieces with backgrounds and I wanna work on that #however I am eepy. so you get one corner and ceiling. #anyways this is self indulgent bc I have starlight strings and I think moon would like them #yes I put up posters with masking tape what about it

[fiepige]

Miguel and Hobie making their entrances (I love that they both get a slow-motion reaction shot from another spider-person as they enter)

#someone with more media knowledge than me could probably go into the symbolism of Gwen and Miles- #both getting a slow mo reaction shot as Miguel and Hobie appear #and something about Hobie and Miguel being the only spider-people to get this reaction from someone as they enter #also if you thought I was done making Hobie GIFs you're dead wrong! I'll never stop!! #I've got a few more ideas for some GIFs I wanna make but as always I'm open to suggestions <3 #I've just been focusing more on my fic lately so I haven't made that many GIFs but I'm not done yet! #also I just love the reaction shot of Gwen! It's just gorgeous! Love the colours! The contrast between the reds and blues! <3 #miguel o'hara #spider man 2099 #gwen stacy #spider gwen #hobie brown #spider punk #miles morales #spider man #across the spider verse #across the spiderverse #spider man across the spider verse #atsv #my post #my gif #my gifs

[ikemengoessbrrrrr]

EYYYYY BACK FROM HIATUS!

I can finally draw these beloved turtles again❤️

#But I don't promise to make new arts so often tho #even though I always active 🗿 #but Hey #still love them #OH AND HAPPY TMNT 12 ANNIVERSARY! #I KNOW I'M LATE SGSGSGGS #rottmnt tmnt 2012 crossover #tmnt #rise of teenage mutant ninja turtles #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt 2012 #rottmnt

[herewegobebe]

TAEMIN 태민 'Guilty' Mood Clip [x]

#SHINee #taemin #lee taemin #guilty #guilty mood clip #i'm so late sorry ;; #you can always rely him to do something different #my.gifs

[wildmelon]

im having such an identity crisis about my editing lately

#ts4 edit #sims 4 edit #ts4 #sims 4 #i feel like i don't love anything i do? #unless im mixing it up lol #like changing my cas bg and reshade and using new cc etc #which is fine i guess change is scary tho #even just a change in my style #it's just been so long that i had a creating/editing routine and i was always happy w the result but lately i'm not :( #i like this though i think im gravitating towards a slightly darker style? #ts4 portrait #sims 4 portrait #ts4 cas #sims 4 cas #create a sim #my sims #sim: theodosia kay #wm: ts4